To put words to what I have created in my life, the letters must become musical notes. The 'Infinite I Am' must be stated and sensed deeply.
In the experience of the 'Infinite I' - being - in this language - the master, soul, human, and I Exist and all facets of Self become one without delineation.
Sure, I can dive into a layer, a dimension of self, a singular plane of reality or existence, yet it is only a brief pause before the interconnectedness of the other realities of Self begin to show themselves, twisting and turning back into the interconnectedness of my being.
The wave rises up in the ocean, I ride it and with the wave dive back into the ocean of consciousness. The state almost feels soul-less yet more sovereign than any experience around. I am that I am, no form and no name.
No separation of Self, no delineation between human and divine, for that is what New Energytruly is - integration of all duality, including the human and divine parts of Self becoming one, a singular I AM. An Infinite I.
To experience life beyond duality is not simply inside, but begins to pervade the experience of all realities that move through you.
I no longer traverse other realities, they traverse through me, and without any intent, they leave forever changed, for that is the realized state of being.
Nothing can brush past your toes or your fingers without leaving changed or re-written - at the molecular structure level.
Many people I come across, you all included, I see like a super nova, as I see your existance beyond linear time. A supernova is a transient astronomical event that occurs during the last stellar evolutionary stages of a star's life (the proverbial last human life), whose destruction is marked by one final, titanic explosion.
It's not so much a destruction but a massive and yet completely gentle explosion back into the true nature of self, and into the Third Circle of Creation.
I can see the timeless, or time-free, evolution. The first circle in the oneness, the second circle as we places a piece of ourselves into this Earth reality, only to have the experience of knowing we are God also through that perception of duality - human and divine - knowing, realizing that we were never separate.
The two parts of self merge into human and divine AS ONE, and we return to wholeness while in physical form - not oneness with others but with the self in a beautiful show of brilliant fireworks that celebrates the remembering we have always been one with self.
The perceived separation between human and divine was yet another way to experience the 'God also' nature of being - another way to experience Self, that served so well until there's nothing that can stop from returning to wholeness.
I folded over myself before I could stop it. The fog lifts that kept me in the dark of my own divinity, beyond duality, and into the nameless, formless state that is BEING. One without edges, with no internal or external.
There's something about this perceived separation between human and divine. The perceived separation brings forth the question: Who am I?
In awakening, in the dark night of the soul, leading up to realization, I brought situations into my lives in attempt to reflect inner states. What I was really trying to do is find out who I was by looking in the mirrors and checking to see if they reflect back who I was.
I looked into the eyes of a lover, but I did not see myself. I looked into the eyes of groups and systems. How I was perceived through their eyes? I did not see myself. As a child, I looked into the eyes of my family, yet I still could not see myself. I looked into the eyes of a student, nope, I was not there.
The mirrors did "work" for a short period - for they brought forth those last parts playing separate roles, and in the perception of separation they came back to self.
For example, when I was still battling internally, sifting through concepts of right and wrong and the emotional states that go with them, I brought forth mirroring situations into my lives, allowing me to move beyond dualistic concepts. And then, one day, the mirror stops.
Where did it go? I felt through the darkness to find something to grab onto. There was nothing solid to grasp. Only a slight hum, a silent song of my soul, that I followed in the dark until I came back into myself. Embodied.
The no mirror existence is something I wrote about and pondered and discussed with others experiencing this before the last Keahak channels, so to hear it is like listening to a grand symphony to which I lent my voice, a symphony of many voices, many songs of the soul combined. Amazing someone can bring that forth in such a cohesive way. Thanks, CC.
Here I will borrow some words from Keahak, I found myself in a new reality of experience that has no basis on the past. Before experiences were predicated on the past, or shaped by past experience. That's all karma ever is and was -- the law of cause and effect. This happened in the past, and now I have this experience based on that.
A literal no-brainer: Creation is beyond linear time and thus, has no basis on past experience.
Embodied Creation from the space of: New Energy Integration of duality, of the human and divine, a singular I AM.
In the integration of the human and divine, I am beyond linear time. All those past experiences that told me what was safe and what was not, no longer apply. I am beyond duality. Gosh, I just don't have the words for that yet. Here is the sensation _________.
Or the local linear....I tried to create something X way and it didn't work, so now I am going to try Y. The linear lists and mental analyzation and processing can play no role. In fact, it is not even an option anymore. I'll try this...It's not a temptation to turn down, luring me into yet another experience to wisdomize.
I feel myself trying to touch down on that mental plane sometimes, to visit that layer of reality, but my feet can't hit the ground there. The plane is still there, I can explore it, but my ship has nothing to land on in that mental plane - a metaphor for the ineffible.
Creation from nothing, seems to cover this. Creation from no prior experiences.
It's the swimming metaphor I have used before. When you swim you push off the side of the pool or the bottom of the ocean to get momentum to start swimming. This no energy creation, or true creation, you don't need to push off the wall or the ocean floor.
In other words, I don't need to use a battle situation to create my reality. This battle duality is not limited to human conflicts, instead it is more of an inner resistence used as a place to spring forth from, to move enough energy to catapult you into the next experience, for example. A bottomless pool.
The no energy creation is creation without momentum, without effort. It's a state of no resistence as realities and layers move through you seamlessly. No resistance in the multi-layer reality experience. In other words, your feet don't have to be on the ground to jump anymore. Motion requires no movement - another Keahak term.
There is creation. There is creation without mirrors. Creation unfolding in a simultaneous moment. The infinite I removes time, gravity, and resistant duality (not referring to right and wrong but beyond that, no separation in, say, your sensory experience).
I want to write that I am surfing into the beyond. Yet, that's not accurate in experience. Instead, I have been surfing here the whole time, I simply lost the awareness of it in the fog of humanity.
I'll try it again. Something new is brewing and I'm going to paddle directly into that wave. Oh wait, I've been riding this wave all along. It's instant, this knowing. I use it as an example...
This space that seems to reverse into the future in a split second and back to linear now and then two time lines or more, two realities are more, they overlap in a single point of awareness, until you are in about a dozen or more realities simultaneously with infinite awareness of all of them, and how they intersect and interact.
Observing, breathing self. Knowing you will not lose yourself in the beyond. It is only something to experience and explore in steady joy of being - no highs and lows that defined the human experience.
The going beyond time, beyond reality, I find I am observing it, watching it - without trying to change it, no desire for that - twist and turn and re-write the so-called future and the past.
That's the over-arching experience of my state of being these days. You have an undeniable moment of clarity in realization (so limiting a word but for reference), and that moment returns and returns again in a PERPETUAL STATE OF BEING and you go back into your life and all its defining moments and you become aware that you were only pretending to be separate the whole time. An act of consciousness.
Sounds a bit trite that way - all words do, so I could say realization rolls through my human memories and they are re-wired and re-written. It's like a gentle Earthquake that creates a a rolling effect across the planet of self. The roll causes the paved streets to lift into the air from the soil, suspend in mid-air, and then land in new places and new patterns.
The pathways to the core of my being that branch or expand from your center in all directions. They open up and become clear. These conscious pathways re-adjust themselves as I observe and never manipulate. No clogs in the pathways. A state of no resistence. States of allowing and being ebbs and flows.
Some days, like today, there is NO CENTER, no core, and no edges because I expand like the breath into the no separation, integrated being. Expanding in and out at will of the hunger-less, time-less passion. I become an infinite landscape - it does not end, it does not begin. There is no way to find the middle of something that stretches into infinity.
Further, the past is re-written and then it doesn't exist at all (literally the past dissolves completely) because there was never a timeline. I can reach back for a memory or two, but they are no longer stored within me.
In the infinity of simultaneous living, I create from no thing because I am already everything. I don't need to grab at an past experience to make a mental decision; I don't even think about the next six months because its already contained within me.
I took a pause to come back and read this to see if I captured the moment. A yellow breasted bird flew up. No, it was not a master friend visiting me. It was me visiting me. I do not need the ascended master to reflect anything back to me. The bird perched on the chair beside me. Me staring back at me. Empty eyes, no past, in mirror-free creation.
The bird had empty eyes just like mine, free from expectations or past experience. Free from seeing myself through the eyes of others, but as exactly as I am that I am.
Lauren Hutton (Sar'h) writes adventure novels and short stories about the embodied enlightenment experience. She fancies herself a humanizing divinity journalist and DJ, and shares that work joyously on this page.