It's been a while since I have written something of substance here. This morning Xavi asked me some questions on Ryver. I love that so much because without the question, the answer would not form. So here are my answers and an invitation to join me on something I sense will be amazing, especially if you add your wisdom to it as well.
First, I want to start off with a little except from the Thirty Days of Self-Love, Chapter 3...
March 15, 2017
Bend, Oregon to Waldport, Oregon
Yesterday Ollie and I made our way from Bend to Waldport, Oregon, where the Alsea River meets the Pacific Ocean. We took the road less traveled, which took us through piney, mountainous woods and dropped us softly into the lush, temperate Willamette National Forest.
As we weaved through the winding roads, I sensed into what I was creating for myself on this journey. I sensed with each curve I took on the road, with each turn of the steering wheel, that I was weaving the cobwebs of creation for the experiences that lay ahead of me.
Weaving the cobwebs of creation is a concept I have been experiencing and sensually examining for some months now. For me, it is about experiencing creative senses in addition to perceiving senses. Of course, the two go hand and hand.
We use our perceiving senses to get a sensual lay of the land, and at the same time, we can access our creative senses, which we can consciously use to build and experience our reality, minute by minute, second by second.
As masters of Self, we are spiders spinning our own creative webs, weaving the energy designs which will attract and manifest anything we dream or desire in our creative cobwebs. The energetic design of the web determines what we will ‘catch’ and ‘dine on’ in our lives, if you will.
For spiders, weaving a web is instinctual. As masters of our lives, creative senses also come from a place within our body of consciousness, within the universe of Self, that is beyond the human mind and emotions - beyond even intuition and imagination, as creative senses are far more sophisticated. Creative senses come from the soul, or master Self – from the core of who we truly are beyond singular human existence.
Spiders do not use rush or force when spinning their webs. Their movements are gentle, delicate, and precise. Consciousness gives rise to precision. If we choose, we can be completely aware of the energetic designs of the cobwebs we are weaving. We can be as energetically precise – beyond human details – as we would like in our creative abilities.
I share this because while my human was not aware then, the web I was spinning on this day more than a year ago was the creation of the Center of Being.
Center is not a word for an organization or a physical space. It is the center of being that is the individualized source spirit that lives in us all. It was a place for sovereign beings to share their sovereign center with another - in a place that exits beyond physicality, duality, linearity and gravity.
This is not only my creation but yours as well.
For me, this whole experience has unfolded and continues to unfold in some sort of divine (beyond human agenda) format or blue print because we are 'making it up'/ creating it together- each from the point of sovereignty within each of our being - as we go along. Each person who connects to the creation adds their wisdom to it, and it changes shape and form continuously. Transfiguration. Alchemy of Spirit. BEING - a perpetual state of becoming - never static, always dynamic.
Today Xavi asked me some questions and shared some of his views, and I wanted to share the response with you - why I have not shared El Morya's channels, why I am taking a break from big shares until June, and finally, an invitation to ask you to grace this space - this creation- with your wisdom. Of course, you are always doing so by BEING here, but maybe we can share a bit more about this with human awareness, if it something you would like to do.
Xavi first referenced an article by Geoffrey Hoppe in the Crimson Circle magazine in reference to recent events when Adamus St. Germain asked people to leave who were still in lack among other things. I bring this up because it is related to how each of us interact with groups (CC or other) from a different space of ONE-ness, Being-ness, soul sovereignty, and/or divine will. Total disconnection - to reconnect from a space of sovereignty (covered more below).
"Regarding Geoff, I'm surprised that so few people have reacted to it (Adams's imperatives for leaving and staying in the CC). According to Geoff or nobody saw the last shoud or 99.9% of Shaumbra is ok. Well I have another theory, many have not taken for granted and have decided to deny their reality. --- Important question --- This makes me ask myself, in short, what are we doing here at the Center of Being?
Are we going back to the CC because Adamus is finally cleaning? Because it does not seem that the reasons why we gather here are giving.
Let me explain: for me the Center of Being @The_Center_of_Being , or the Banyan Tree, is a non-place where everyone can experience their own EEE process at their own pace, without groups marking the tempo; and share it with others if you decide.
That's great, and that's what I want to do now. On the other hand I realize that we are not going to work or travel in the EEE as a group here, and that is why I imagine that the two channels of El Morya per month have never been given or will not be given. I'm afraid we're going to have to keep going to the CC from time to time to catch up."
It's a great question - and please note I love this kind of exchange - it is not upsetting to me at all. The opposite - so helpful.
Here is my response (also on Ryver where this sort of exchange occurs and shapes these posts and shares immensely):
"Xavi, I'm always glad you bring things up. I am kind of going with the flow. I do not really consider this a group but a gathering of sovereign beings who come together from time to time to share. We don't have rules, regulations. El Morya did ask me to do some channels -- and then he and I both felt a shift. I don't have a real clear direction - I'm honest about that.
Nothing is so black and white for me and schedules and control/ organization makes me cringe because it takes away from the free flow. Also, unlike other channelers, I really feel I must understand something and live it before I share it with other people. I'm not there yet. At all. But I will BE.
Currently, I am experiencing all parts and pieces of myself coming together as one. I sense disconnection and yet I am still able to connect from a different space. For example, I used to go to CC and other conscious/ spiritual groups to get wisdom - to fill myself up - to get my fix.
Now, I feel like I can add my wisdom and observe without needing to fill myself up - I am full - soul full. So for me, CC is still there, Adamus is still sharing wisdom I like to hear. As far as the human game over there. I'm so done. Control is just another form of energy feeding.
I guess what I'm trying to say is two things. It's not an either/ or situation (the mind tends to want that but the mind is dead) - it's an AND. The more you disconnect to become THE ONE SELF the more relationships expand into the AND.
Finally, most importantly for this space, both El Morya and my soul/ higher voice called Sar'h or whatever - I hate the definition and names right now (cringe) - we will probably create a new name for this collective voice (El Morya just told me that) - is planning or creating, rather, something for June.
"Please be patient," - Lauren
"Be ready to be wowed" - El Morya & Sar'h
(One example of my fragments coming together right now....)
However, what we share will NOT be wisdom to absorb and learn from. People will not come to the Banyan Tree to ask for answers or it will back fire and shoot them straight out.
It will be an exploration of I AM and creation from being in which your own soul's wisdom will guide you!
So, moving forward, if you come here looking for guidance from outside of the soul's passionate wisdom - not only will you be disappointed you will probably get sick.
Right now I am attuning my physical body to be able to handle what El Morya and Sar'h as a 'collective consciousness of BEING' will share.
Until that feels complete to human Lauren, I will not share or be beholden to any timeline. I am not going to blast myself into a sick bed or out of the body. We still have too much legacy to leave behind -- as do you all!
I sense this will be a complete radical shift in what is shared here. I ask for human patience AND MORE SO for you all to contribute your wisdom to this collective being consciousness and the CREATION FROM BEING experience - if you choose.
Xavi - thank you for playing your divine/ soul will role to perfection. I am so serious when I say it is appreciated!!!"
So today, as my soul asks me to hang on a couple more months for what will be shared this summer, I invite you to contribute your wisdom under, in, and throughout the branches of the majestic, golden Banyan Tree, if it is your will. If you choose, maybe share below as well. So helpful for human me right now...
In total honor of you and your unique experience and what wisdom you bring here!!!
By the way, how can anyone charge for something that is a mutual expression of creation - in which everyone is bringing their wisdom to the table/ banyan tree??? It is beyond comprehension these days. An old game.
THANK YOU from the Center of my Being to the Center of Yours!!!
Got Wisdom? :)