![]() For those of you who don't know, I have a tiny 'spade' tattooed on my wrist. Some of thought it was a a symbol of my membership to a Shaumbra group. Truth is I never had one single Shaumbra friend when I got it. Instead, it was a reminder for when I was still tumbling around in human life, that I was here for one thing - embodied enlightenment. Jack - my then flame would send me into despair - and just when I was about to throw in the towel on life, I'd look down as the tiny spade on my wrist, smaller than an inch but mightier than any comforting words. "The 'spade' is a symbol of ascension...ascension is the acceptance and integration of our human nature with out divine origins. When this occurs, karma is released from our life path and we complete our series of lifetimes on Earth, we go to what he (Adamus St. G) calls the Third Circle where we become full, conscious creators. The creator does not need energy to exist; they do not need to be connected with anyone or anything in order to define themselves (identity). It is the realization of the compassionate "I AM" state of BEING. The spade, according to Adamus, represents outward expansion of consciousness, beyond limitations of the human dimensions. The inverted spade, pointing downward, represents descending of our angelic nature to the denser vibrational energies of Earth. The inverted 'spade' also represents the heart or love that we, as angels, have shared by agreeing (yep, you did) to embody in physical reality for the good of All That Is." - Masters of the New Energy (book), by Adamus St. G, 2007. Today the 'spade', as it is called in the human world, is also a symbol for my third circle along with the beautiful Banyan Tree, gifted to us by El Morya. It seems what used to be a comfort in reminding me of why I was here is now a symbol of FREEDOM, and is that which needs no human reminder, but at the time, it served. On my right wrist, I have a tiny star. It is the north star. The one that guided the wise men, the magi, to the birth of Yeshua. It too was a symbol of why I am here and reminder that there were others to meet along the path, who were following the same star - one that was outside, way up in the sky and one that is now within us, the Christ seed consciousness. ![]() It's true that while this is a solo experience most of the time, I likely would not have made it to the Magic of Being space I inhabit today, without my yoga mat. In my human world, the only place I found peace most of the time was in the ninety minutes I spent on my yoga mat, a habit that rooted and took shape, in my very first class in 2006. It wasn't any yoga teacher, in fact most did not talk about anything but how to do the poses. It was the fact that an ancient practice opened up the channels inside of my physical body to allow the wisdom of the soul to seep into the cracks. It re-wired my biology to allow my soul to inhabit this meat suit - this physical body. Without it, all those classes with Adamus and Tobias would likely be floating on the outer edges of my body of consciousness. Instead, in three short years, everything I learned is housed within this physical vessel. And, it has done so without short-circuiting the system. It is also how I finally allowed El Morya to come into my human life and not just my dreams.... ![]() In the year that I was first married to my previous husband (2010), wine was my medicine, and working was my perceived passion, yoga class was the only time I caught a break and was with me and me alone. No teacher was trying to convince me of any dogma in the studio I went to then. They just made sure I did the poses in a way that I would not pull a muscle. "Peace is an inside job," the teacher said, and we were left to our devices, though there were books in the lobby if we wanted to look at them. I didn't. I had my book, "The 21 Lessons of Merlyn." The story of King Arthur before he became king. His self-realization story. I had the book since 1992 when it was published. In the times when my husband was away I would pull it out for comfort. One of those times, I heard a voice. A deep masculine voice, "Are you ready yet?" I was so startled I slammed the book shut, dropped it, and went and poured more wine. I was terrified. I had no idea what was going on. It was not until 2012, when I gifted myself the month in India for the yoga teacher training that I was able to start to allow his presence. It was not until 2013 in a medium reading, that I could mentally confirm his presence. (In my book for free on the site here) Again without my yoga mat and without having listened to that deep undeniable whisper of the I AM that said leave your marriage and live alone (let me assure this was extremely radical in my community - something women did not do), I would not be in the Magic of Being space. Sure, I would have gotten there, probably after my potential kids with my previous husband went off the college, or worse, I would have had to leave my children with him because I simply could not do it. Indeed, I see that the most important factor in all of this was listening to the inner voice, I have called Sar'h, and who is now my I AM. Yet, the little helpers along the way to reflect that north star (Sar'h) back to me from above - well, I am so grateful. THE PAUSE BUTTON As I move forward in life I feel my three years with the Crimson Circle were like hitting the pause button, a break I gifted myself. In these three years, I was given a community to know I was not alone. I was gifted language to describe what was naturally occurring. Even though the materials, especially Divine Will and the Threshold guarded by the Dragon of forgiveness, were taught to me by El Morya, long before the courses, books and channels, it was a sanity check. No, I did not make this up. Yes, there were others like me. I created a space for the last three years without a human world. No work. No human friends anymore. A space to really go within. THE PLAY BUTTON Lately, in this non-linear path, I feel I am back at the point with El Morya before we ever embarked on the Crimson Circle pit stop on the journey that is mine but is also ours. My guide went away, sure, but my best friend (besides me) has always been here. When I was in the Crimson Circle teachings experience it seemed like it was the end. And now I know it was simply the beginning. It was the pause button and now we are hitting play. El Morya just showed me a desk with a red button on it. He's smiling, laughing, and teasing that he's about to hit the button. "3-2-1....Blast off!" he yells in play. "I'm packing my bags," I respond. Then these radiant beings appeared because I am ready to remember the creation.
I have written some of the story of how I know them on the HONORS page. Lately, my "visions" are increasing and expanding. What the Center of Being already is and how I went/ am going backward and down the spiral into that creation of my future Self. Gosh, this non-linear time stuff is hard to write about. D has a soul experience last night with non-linear time, and we are still trying to put words to it. Everyday, I am back at the map with Babaji. It is a dark map of the world. Geographical pockets and people close to their self-realization are depicted with a light - bright stars that appear across the map and move like waves in the ocean. Dynamic not static. When I look down at my feet, we are on a snowy mountain top. The Himalayas. The thing is when I check in with this. I am brown skinned. I see the ends of my dark curly hair flowing in the breeze. It is NOW that exists beyond linear time. It is not the past or the future. The map is 'outside' of linear time. It is at the "begging", the now, and the future - all together in an expanded point in space. I begin more and more to remember our creation. To remember our conversations with words and sensations. I see that Yogananda is there, but it is not Yogananda. His soul is in another body. And, we are all standing in the snow bare foot. Yet, we are not cold. I wish I could show with words this does not occur within linear time. I am watching it all unfold. The role I will play. I also hold a deep sensation and knowing most "important" - not the right word - is the role of the souls who will retain the embodied form in self-realization or enlightenment. Holding onto it a little bit more - in legacy, sure, but more so in the creation of an experience so GRAND, it do not yet have the words for it. Let me try again... Simply BEING embodied enlightenment is the creation juice for world and universes not yet realized. Beyond any and all human imagination. "This is what you signed up for in choosing the Triple E," El Morya adds. He has a shit eating grin because he cannot wait for you to see what's behind the curtain, what we are creating by simply BEING enlightenment. He wants to shout it from the rooftops, but he cannot. I wil come back and try again to capture this in words, but it will have to suffice for now. My role in this conversation and creation is to sovereignly support this embodied enlightenment experience with my Being, with my writing if needed, and with my story. Those words are so limiting (UGH!) but in the conversation - in sensations not words - with these souls, I remember in divine unfoldment. It is nothing the human thought it would be. More later.... I also will officially kick off the Beyond the Veils of Maya series after the New Moon gathering on January 16th. In honor of YOU!
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Juls
1/9/2018 09:50:55
Lauren you said it took your breath away to send your latest post and for me I could feel my heart warm and expand as I read the words and felt the essence of your share!
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Lauren
1/10/2018 09:38:00
Thank you, Juls. :)
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1/9/2018 10:00:05
Lauren so greatful for seeking and sharing words to understand what is happening. I simply do not have the words by have deep knowingness and confidence.
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Lauren
1/10/2018 09:41:10
Margaret - I'm so glad you shared and are able to. Indeed, I had both my yoga mat and my bump and fills over the years.
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Joanna
1/9/2018 10:22:05
I have much more to say but for now I can manage only YES (covers a lot of things :D ), while I adjust to this recognition.
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Maureen
1/9/2018 12:16:00
I can feel myself expand as I read this Lauren and feel into 'so much more to come'. I feel anticipation, excitement and some residual fear. I get that it is difficult to put so much into words. I am that which cannot be defined. To put non linear experiences/images into words when words seem to have been created by linear - well, huh. I wonder if, as our minds expand this will become easier. I also find yoga a wonderful supportive practice right now. Also, while I was experiencing the headaches some terror came up and I noticed I was feeling it more as a sensation rather than as something awful that I wanted to leave. Progress,, I think. I feel curious as to my 'role' as well. Thank you for this post - truly a wayshower!
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Karen
1/9/2018 12:43:54
Felt great joy and expansion in reading this even while my human is experiencing some echoes of anxiety over 3D stuff. Truly an & experience.
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Xavi
1/10/2018 09:08:03
I remember you said that you could definitely paint the picture of the illuminated world map. I would love to see it!!
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Lauren
1/10/2018 09:42:55
Hopefully, with my limited painting skills I can do it some justice:)
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Nataly
1/10/2018 10:32:35
In my personal experience I can say the same about yoga- or any physical activity. I cannot be more than grateful to my soul to lead me to physically activities in my pre and during my awakening which did help me to ground myself and prepare my body for the light body, otherwise it would have been more difficult for me. Actually, about four years ago I experienced the most challenging and awful sinus allergy ever but breathing (even that I couldn't do it all the way) and specially stretching my body gave me a different awareness of my body. There were episodes in those "stretching and breathing moments" when the time stopped that I could see the dark and murky spots in some areas of my body. And just having the awareness that the dark spots were there and keep breathing and stretching change my whole biology. I am not 100% off of the allergies but since then the allergies have not returned to me like a furious monster trying to swallow me. I feel the more the light body or our true essence is being accepted by the human body the more resilient the vessels becomes.
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Lauren
1/10/2018 10:57:58
Nataly - thanks so much for sharing. I also love Ayurveda though I have not written about it for the same reason. I' going to a yoga event in April and it includes more Ayurveda training for me and the Gong for energy rebalancing. I do think we can apply this amazing wisdom to our modern mastery and I hope to write more about it. About three months ago I tested the water to share such things. On Masters Hub I asked if anyone else noticed a lot of what Adamus shared was rooted in ancient east teachings. I got a lot of heckles and decide that was not the place for it. I do think people are open here and always respectful of other schools of thought.
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Kim
1/10/2018 12:07:02
Thank you Nataly and Lauren for these insights. I would love to hear more about these topics. I'm vegetarian, because it feels so much better than eating meat. In fact, my body is asking me to go more in the direction of vegan, which I haven't given into yet, because I love cheese, yoghurt and chocolate too much. But probably it's just a matter of time. Adamus is a master, a genius master, but not my master. Only the master within me is my master. Isn't the essence of mastery to claim our own trust in our divine knowingness? Of course, this knowingness isn't very original, because (as was pointed out before), nothing is new and it's all been said before by some master in the East.
Nataly
1/10/2018 13:32:56
How fantastic you are going to an Ayurveda retreat! And It feels so freeing to share all this experiences here without the weight and the frown of many.
Nataly
1/10/2018 13:36:38
Kim, you are very welcome. And I love what you have said, Adamus can be a freaking Master but he is not my Master either,
Xavi
1/10/2018 13:57:29
In my opinion Adamus reflects the beliefs of Shambra. The hard core of Shaumbra are older people, mostly Americans who have never accepted the old teachings in their lives and who are not going to change. I used to think that Shaumbra was the most spiritually advanced group of humans on Earth (as Adamus implies). Sometimes I think that Shaumbra are very old souls who have tried everything and nothing has worked for them, hence their rejection of these things and that are stuck also. I may have had two thousand incarnations and not be more advanced. I envy those who only needed a handful of lives or even a single one.
Xavi
1/10/2018 14:02:52
Also, I was always complaining to Adamus that he was too soft on Shaumbra, and that we were very slow. I said to him: "As you keep this up, they will all die of old and sick and only have 4 Embodied Masters." Well it seems there are 35 in the last info he gives us.
Karen
1/10/2018 17:32:04
Xavi, I honor those you call old, fat and sick, as you would probably judge me as one of those and I deeply honor myself! Those of us who fall into the baby boomer category came in earlier amid much denser energies and most I know, carrying a lot of denser energies that have and are requiring transfiguration. It has taken a toll on our body's in various ways, and just in general getting old has had an impact on the functioning of the body. And then there are the traits of the ancestral body that some of us carry that require transfiguration. Those of you in younger bodies going through ascension and embodiment will probably take less time to rejuvenate...if you need to rejuvenate at all. You many just need to go through the uncomfortable integration symptoms, and your body will start the "youthing" process. It will all unfold for each of us, and we will be able to share how we each go through this process.
Lauren
1/10/2018 20:10:41
Xavi - I understand completely what you are saying but there is a better way to say it. I totally honor the pioneers. No small task to be born in the 1940s and 50s and attempt this embodied enlightenment experience.
Karen
1/10/2018 21:22:15
Thanks Lauren...for the acknowledgment of us Pioneers, as well as for taking the torch while we do our EEE. It was back in Patreon days that I saw the image of handing over the baton to the "younger set" so we can all finish this relay.
Xavi
1/11/2018 01:47:21
"Xavi, I honor those you call old, fat and sick, as you would probably judge me as one of those and I deeply honor myself!"
Nataly
1/11/2018 12:53:36
Xavi, I feel is very extreme to say that all the American shaumbra are this or that. For my observations I can say that the European crew are not sprinkled in fairy powder all over them. I have seen it and felt it they carried so much stuff from the" post war" period and it has reached the young generations as well. I can say the same from the South-american shaumbra that some also carry lots of BS. Lets not label anyone by geographic areas. I believe we all agree that we all carry more or less of garbage over our shoulders. I considered myself healthy and fit but this enlightenment thing hasn't been a cake walk for me. And I do not imagine, actually i do not want to, what it has been for the older shaumbras to go ahead with so much junk over their bodies and minds. So they do have my honor and respect.
Lauren
1/11/2018 15:25:30
Nataly- that's the crux of it. Those moving forward and those stuck in the limitations.
Lauren
1/11/2018 15:34:44
But you said it best, Nataly...
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Karen
1/11/2018 15:57:39
Yes Nataly and Lauren, great summary. I forget when Adamus said it, but he did say he was keeping a close watch on the pace of things so that we would not get fried. That we were not going either too slow or too fast. I paid close attention to that because I almost did fry myself! Now those of us who really do want to move forward and beyond can do this in this safe space and trust that it will be the most appropriate pace for each one of us.
Karen
1/10/2018 17:16:18
I've been pondering lately that there are some things we have access to that previous Masters, including Adamus, did not have access to. Namely the energy from the crystal caves, which as I understand it can assist the body with integration etc. Kryon also has written about various shifts within our DNA (which is quantum) which then brings about rejuvenation of the body. So I've been thinking that we are here during this time gaining new wisdom about the body integration and transfiguration, perhaps for generations to come. I'm not saying that the ancient techniques may not hold value, just that there may be some new things to add. I'd like to dive deeper into the whole crystalline energies experience and see what there may be in there for us. Lauren and others, do you have any comments?
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Karen
1/10/2018 17:18:34
PS: Kryon has talked about major DNA shifts since passing the marker of 2012, and I think it was around that time or shortly after that Adamus started talking about the opening of the Crystal Caves
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Lauren
1/10/2018 20:14:42
Totally, Karen. We are embodying in a different time and space and re-writing the rules. I just point out that was Adamus shares is not new - it's rooted in teachings that existed "before" Earth. At the next New Moon gathering, I want to do two things.
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Karen
1/10/2018 21:28:05
I look forward to this!
Nataly
1/11/2018 13:09:19
Karen, I do feel that the crystalline caves is not a new thing. Maybe a selected group in the mysteries schools knew about the caves. At what degree was exposed to the student?...I am not sure.
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