Long before I found the Crimson Circle, I was traveling the planet alone, picking up parts and pieces of myself that I had left in other 'lifetime' experiences. In Peru, I found I needed to go to Mount Sinai, from there to the high desert of the American Southwest, and the list goes on.
In 2014, I found myself trudging up the rugged terrain of Mount Sinai - the place was empty under a terrorist threat and a suicide bomber had blown himself up that morning. After getting off my camel and moving forward on foot, tired and feeling very much confused and so far away from my home, I asked, "Morya, what am I doing here?!"
I looked down and on the ground was a puzzle piece. I picked it up and felt the sensation inside myself say, "you are picking up parts and pieces of yourself from every lifetime on Earth. This is just one piece of the puzzle."
Once those pieces were collected, I began to bring the parts from the cosmos, from the parts and pieces never on Earth before - the embodied enlightenment experience.
Hey, remember when enlightenment became a heavily loaded word that had to be discarded. Doesn't realization feel that way now in its heavily rotated use?...
During the SAM channel in Bled, instead of using aspects and facets from the Aspectology materials, he used these words - parts and pieces of Self. I smiled with delight, remembering back in the days before CC, where I only had my own natural experiences that were not filtered through any language or definition, only my own independent senses.
In some ways, I felt so lost at the time. I could not see sometimes the beauty of my own natural evolution of Self, unfiltered. All is appropriate and all serves but what a cool thing that I did not realize at the time. How grateful I am to have NOT found CC until I had the time to experience it all raw.
I've written a lot about aspects and facets and will. But until recently, I had not really experiences what happens after the aspect integrates, or after the parts and pieces are picked up. In other words, how does a facet work and how do I play with it?
Sar'h is indeed a facet of myself in this last lifetime. Much like Joachim describes Althar the Dragon. He has a bit more experience than me, tapping into it and the returning to Self.
On my car ride from Oregon to Texas, my "Infinite I" - for new folks that is what I call my soul, human, I AM and all parts and pieces combined as ONE - began to show me how to navigate or allow the shift of the facet to come forth in expression and then return to the source of me - the God also.
The waves rises up in the ocean, expresses it self and then returns to the source of the Infinite I. The wave as the facet. I have no words really. It was an energetic sensation, a stream of consciousness that flows through the edge-less center-less being that I AM.
Some how and without words, I feel how this is so related or intertwined with the "God, also" state of consciousness. I wished I had more words but for now the sensation -------------------- here.
You are not in the ocean. You are the entire ocean in a drop. - Rumi
I have also been pondering the uniqueness of each of us. For example, some people having clear and defined days where realization "occurred." I simply do not have it though I have a general time period where I felt a significant shift.
I wrote this in my notes...
Before I was moving in a linear timeline toward a goal of enlightenment. When the knowing of the I AM God, also occurred sensationally (last October), I expanded in all directions and then reversed into a new state of being-ness.
From this single point of existence, energy began to serve me, delivering all parts and pieces of myself, to fully embody in physical and non-physical form all that I am.
Sometimes I move in reserve, I back into an experience and/or expression of Self, and yet I find I am never moving forward, only sinking into more of myself with each moment, breath or stream of awareness.
(Gosh, does that make any sense???)
Enough for today. Thank you, and welcome new friends, Marco and Hubert.
What are you all experiencing and expressing?