The Faceted Self in Realization

10/18/2018

Long before I found the Crimson Circle, I was traveling the planet alone, picking up parts and pieces of myself that I had left in other 'lifetime' experiences. In Peru, I found I needed to go to Mount Sinai, from there to the high desert of the American Southwest, and the list goes on.

In 2014, I found myself trudging up the rugged terrain of Mount Sinai - the place was empty under a terrorist threat and a suicide bomber had blown himself up that morning. After getting off my camel and moving forward on foot, tired and feeling very much confused and so far away from my home, I asked, "Morya, what am I doing here?!"

I looked down and on the ground was a puzzle piece. I picked it up and felt the sensation inside myself say, "you are picking up parts and pieces of yourself from every lifetime on Earth. This is just one piece of the puzzle."

Once those pieces were collected, I began to bring the parts from the cosmos, from the parts and pieces never on Earth before - the embodied enlightenment experience.

Hey, remember when enlightenment became a heavily loaded word that had to be discarded. Doesn't realization feel that way now in its heavily rotated use?...

During the SAM channel in Bled, instead of using aspects and facets from the Aspectology materials, he used these words - parts and pieces of Self. I smiled with delight, remembering back in the days before CC, where I only had my own natural experiences that were not filtered through any language or definition, only my own independent senses.

In some ways, I felt so lost at the time. I could not see sometimes the beauty of my own natural evolution of Self, unfiltered. All is appropriate and all serves but what a cool thing that I did not realize at the time. How grateful I am to have NOT found CC until I had the time to experience it all raw.

I've written a lot about aspects and facets and will. But until recently, I had not really experiences what happens after the aspect integrates, or after the parts and pieces are picked up. In other words, how does a facet work and how do I play with it?

Sar'h is indeed a facet of myself in this last lifetime. Much like Joachim describes Althar the Dragon. He has a bit more experience than me, tapping into it and the returning to Self.

On my car ride from Oregon to Texas, my "Infinite I" - for new folks that is what I call my soul, human, I AM and all parts and pieces combined as ONE - began to show me how to navigate or allow the shift of the facet to come forth in expression and then return to the source of me - the God also.

The waves rises up in the ocean, expresses it self and then returns to the source of the Infinite I. The wave as the facet. I have no words really. It was an energetic sensation, a stream of consciousness that flows through the edge-less center-less being that I AM.

Some how and without words, I feel how this is so related or intertwined with the "God, also" state of consciousness. I wished I had more words but for now the sensation -------------------- here.

You are not in the ocean. You are the entire ocean in a drop. - Rumi

I have also been pondering the uniqueness of each of us. For example, some people having clear and defined days where realization "occurred." I simply do not have it though I have a general time period where I felt a significant shift.

I wrote this in my notes...

Before I was moving in a linear timeline toward a goal of enlightenment. When the knowing of the I AM God, also occurred sensationally (last October), I expanded in all directions and then reversed into a new state of being-ness.

From this single point of existence, energy began to serve me, delivering all parts and pieces of myself, to fully embody in physical and non-physical form all that I am.

Sometimes I move in reserve, I back into an experience and/or expression of Self, and yet I find I am never moving forward, only sinking into more of myself with each moment, breath or stream of awareness.

(Gosh, does that make any sense???)

Enough for today. Thank you, and welcome new friends, Marco and Hubert.

What are you all experiencing and expressing?

17 Comments

Xavi

10/18/2018 03:55:44

It all makes totally sense. I an way I am still waiting the experience that validates or denies the Realization, and I feel it approaching. It is just something the human part need to experience to don't have a doubt.

For example in last Althar book there is a history of a man approaching Realization that have a experience of projecting and materializing a woman (his soul) from thin air. Yogui Bhajan had he same experience, he created his own Guru in front of him from thin air.

This types of experiences are for the Romantic part of every human self hahahaah as Althar saids also.

Going back to the point, it makes total sense, since time and space and linear progression are expressions of Separation. Realization happens when the beLIEve of separation is released, and so it does all the illusions of linear time.

Oh and it is so wonderful being incarnated on this Earth and don't experience lineal time. Amazing!

Lauren

10/19/2018 04:28:35

I love this and feel it approaching as you write, not that you need my confirmation at all. I often see El Morya as a projection of my wisest and discerning self and he appears exactly when I create it. Too much for the mind to handle, but definitely not so separate from how I perceived it at first. Still unfolding.

Kai

10/18/2018 06:43:45

I was also on a solitary path (for over 20 years) before discovering that there were others having similar experiences and interpreting them in similar ways. In recent years I haven’t talked about the first phase, which was exactly like yours. I travelled the world back then (I don’t travel anymore on the “outside” :-) ), and gradually understood that my strongest impulses took me to places with resonant lifetimes — places that were SO familiar, I could feel the “other me” there: Cuzco, Siena, Chambord, Cambridge (UK), St. Gallen, Montségur, northern New York state…. After that came a phase of inner “journeying”, with spontaneous OBEs and re-connection through esoteric study to many other lifetimes. Which opened up the next level: I expanded to include more than earth — more space and more time (past and future) — discovering my resonance with “communities” and existences in this galaxy and beyond. But it took yet another phase before I understood what had been going on from the start: a naturally unfolding process that was creating, as me, a new state of being here now. For years, I thought I was reconnecting to all these "parts and pieces” that were different emanations of my “Oversoul”; then it felt more like I was expanding to include them in what I could “access”, know and experience beyond my human life here. Recently I learned that others feel they are inviting “parts and pieces” back in, “allowing their aspects to become facets”, (re-)ntegrating or “embodying” them.

It’s much more than all of this. The overused (and now distorted) words you mention were not badly chosen to start with. “Enlightenment” = switching on the light in what used to be a dark room, so you see what’s been there all along. “Realization” = recognising, clearly comprehending, what has always been true. All the parts and pieces, all the resonant lifetimes, existences, energies, beings… are all me (always have been, always will be) AND are all evolving as I am. They are multiplicity of my own singular sovereign creator self, me, expressing and experiencing my own creation. A new phase has begun. Now I feel us all evolving together in a VERY difficult to describe "loop around future change" where we all shift to different parallel realities.

10/19/2018 04:32:28

Kai, I love this distinction. You wrote: "For years, I thought I was reconnecting to all these "parts and pieces” that were different emanations of my “Oversoul”; then it felt more like I was expanding to include them in what I could “access”, know and experience beyond my human life here."

I too felt I was collecting pieces of my oversoul, yet this "pulling myself" off the angelic councils was the later. I literally felt I expanded out from this physically embodied point of being - yo soy el punto - like a water molecule and pulled that part of myself back in without contracting, if that makes any sense. Thanks for your help with the words. Appreciated.

10/18/2018 12:16:31

P.S. You ask: "how does a facet work and how do I play with it?" For me, it's never one at a time. It's like jazz musicians improvising across space and time without hearing each other. It's an interactive creation co-arising in ways I do not have direct access to. I do have indirect access by channelling the level of us all that is closest to the true self. Mine did not have a name until I read the Althar books and loved the dragon metaphor. I asked for a dragon name, and it came: mine is Alcion. :dragon: The dragon level hears how the "music" co-arises, harmonises, co-evolves among the interconnected "facets". So all i can say is: ask your dragon :-) .

10/19/2018 04:34:48

I definitely have the song of my soul in symphony with my parts and pieces yet after pulling my "expressive" facet of Sar'h - the co-author of all my outward expressions I feel a re-adjustment.

That symphony is key so thanks for bringing it up here.

There's something like a cool breeze, coming in from the left and supporting me and the expression will shift. Just flowing with it so to speak.

Karen

10/18/2018 12:46:18

Thanks Lauren for sharing your current experience and insights!

Here is what I am currently experiencing and expressing...

I relate to your comments on experiencing various shifts in realization and not one clearly market day/experience. Realization/Enlightenment for me has been/is a series of experiences that have and are turning the lightbulbs of awareness on at that deeper expanded level.

I read much in the early days of Tobias & Kuthumi and later Adamus about this journey and had an intellectual understanding of it all and who I truly was, and had some inklings at the feeling/intuitive level of the deeper truth of things. And yet until the experiential side of it kicked in, the dark night experiences, the integrations, the releases, it was not yet embodied or truly known within me. And then more and more of my aspects became facets, the experience turned into wisdom, and I have felt/am feeling a gentle infusion of me into me.

I have run into my own mind/human snags along the way as I attempted to define “realization” by others’ experiences or writings. Am I realized now? Is there more to come? Is there a special line that one crosses? And then I realize those are linear questions and it really doesn’t matter. I am in the experience and it is unfolding. I am in the midst of the ever expanding, ever new Being and Becoming. And that’s what I know.

I can point to the various experiences and expansions I have had over the years, and I can also say that I have not had some of the more cosmic/universal experiences that others have written about. Kuthumi said way back when “Yes, you are enlightened”, now when are you going to accept that?” Tobias said “You are already ascended, now how do you want to experience it”. St. Germaine in ML7 walks participants through the Future Now of one’s realization. In timelessness it has all occurred. So my inner knowingness is that I am realized and I am having experiences that are showing me how I got there. So I say to myself “relax into it”.

In the lines of the song “I can see clearly now…” And when I don’t see so clearly, I breathe and allow the clarity to come forth, and it eventually does. I felt caught up in a sense of urgency a few weeks ago and became dissatisfied at the human level with the slow progress of some things, specifically my body. This catapulted me into a spiral which eventually led me back to breathing in divine balance in all things, and then residual stuff came up that was not yet quite in balance. I got to see it clearly and allow for its balancing. More wisdom.

And now in my more expanded state of Being and Becoming I am having fun with allowing the energies to serve me and really experience this at an aware and conscious level. It is still relatively new to me so like a child learning about new things I delight in the experiences no matter how “small” they seem, knowing these will expand into grander and grander experiences and reflections of myself. In essence, seeing and knowing more of myself and deepen into Self. And some of the energies are here assisting me to balance at all levels, especially physically and mentally. Outside of the odd blip right now, I would say I am experiencing a contentment which is akin to a subtle form of joy and peacefulness.

10/19/2018 04:36:19

Karen, I loved reading this and it's an honor to be your friend and witness in honor your evolution. The way you sum this up in total wisdom distilled is incredible. I hope it goes into your vault of wisdom - and in a saved computer file!

Les Montgomery

10/18/2018 18:30:27

I say ditto about what Lauren has said along with what everyone else has said here in the replies. I know that we have all created this safe place for all the pieces and parts to come flowing back in and through the I am God also. When I was a kid and we played hide and go seek, do you remember that one? When we got tired of hunting the other players we would call out Ali Ali in free, meaning that if you were still out a hiding somewhere you could come in without fear of being tagged, you're it. So I'm saying that to any and all pieces and parts from all the eons of lifetimes that I've been on planet Earth and all of the others in the many multi-verses and universes. Come on home and come through. Karen and I were talking several weeks ago and a song popped into our awareness, I don't know if it was me or her that said it but the song says getting to know you, getting to know all about you. And when I said this the word you was changed to me. So I'm spending time getting to know me, getting to know all about ME. ME is so expansive that it is hard for me to get the human mind wrapped around it.. I do best when I can just relax into it no matter how scary how boring how doubtful how anything fill in the blank. I truly LOVE,love you miss Lauren and all of you dear folks on this Ryver ride.

10/19/2018 04:38:21

There he is! Hey Les, so good to hear from you and I always love reading your stuff - it has a way about it and always a light hearted youthful feel. Thank you.

Karen F

10/19/2018 14:42:11

Les, I feel you and relate! Love the song revision "Getting to know me, getting to know all about me." That's exactly where I am at too.

michael

10/18/2018 20:05:59

Love this writing Lauren and all the comments, too. I like the use of "parts and pieces." That is really what I felt coming in the other morning when I opened up after reading Guillems post.

10/19/2018 04:37:16

I can sense it, Michael and I too felt that from Kai and Guillems exchange - that is the glory of this space - conversations that create! Thank you

Sarah link

10/19/2018 06:58:05

Wow!!! This is exactly what I've been experiencing! I've been traveling / living outside of the US for the past (almost) 3 years--reintegrating these "parts and pieces" including those not of this world or dimension.

"I am never moving forward, only sinking into more of myself with each moment, breath or stream of awareness." << and yes! This too! It completely resonates.

It is no coincidence I came across your site and joined the group. It is only confirming so many things for me!

Maureen

10/19/2018 11:45:30

I have been collecting bits and pieces since the ‘90’s – mostly from earthly expressions although I wasn’t really interested in other expressions at the time. Slow and steady has been my progression I have been able to remain reasonably stable (well, functional anyway!) throughout. Sometime this year – last summer? (not sure exactly) I remember opening a door inside me, into my vastness, my universe (looks like a lot of planets) and since then I have felt many non physical expressions coming home. It has been extremely uncomfortable physically. Like a bulge in my heart centre or stomach area that is difficult to digest – the moment of integration is only momentary but feels very uncomfortable and is usually followed by heat. Over the last week or so my body has felt overwhelmed and has responded with shooting pain – I also felt it emotionally and wanted to make it about something in my life but knew that it really wasn’t about that. It has passed now and I can see it was more from the sheer bombardment. At the time of the door opening I also felt a solidness inside which contains pure trust and joy. It is accessible always although during times of overwhelm I only feel it when I take time out to breathe and be still. I haven’t labelled anything – nor do I point to a specific time of ‘realization’ – it has been a gradual progression and omg the sheer numbers of integrations boggles my mind, for sure. I also have felt lately more disconnections from anything external - from referencing anything external as any type of grounding point – this time it shows up as people/friends. I feel like I am getting used to a new way of being where I stay in my own reality/universe rather than in and out. Actually, I feel like that has been going on for awhile.
I also, am grateful for new language and for everyone's post - love reading them all.

Guillem

10/20/2018 03:26:22

It does make sense, Lauren. Thank you. And such complement with all the comments (Xavi, Kai, Karen, Les, Michael, Sarah, Maureen...). I'm a bit overwhelmed now with so much info and sharing on Ryver and here. Love the jazz metaphor, Kai. I've always thought there's something magical in jazz jams and now I may see why. And I understand the dragon you're speking of as a synonym for the body of beyond or lightbody, etc. Amazing to see and experience how each of us is getting to the awareness of our All and playing back from that - thank you for putting the concept in words, Lauren -, and oh I just feel to write here to top with my own cherry this beautiful cake of contributions <3

10/20/2018 05:11:16

That is the cherry on top!

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