Friends, what an amazing gathering that was with ourselves, first and foremost, and our friends El Morya, Babaji, and your animal friends if you brought them. Really, truly no word are needed these days, but perhaps I can capture the magic of pure consciousness experience with a few words.
I sensed some releasing of the trauma associated with divine will within myself, too. I have not thought of my father's death for quite some time. Yet, it came up in the new moon gathering, and I experienced the trauma once again. You see when my father died in a drawn out saga that lasted many months, I knew then it was God's will that he should leave the physical world, in order to support what I came here to Earth to do - to BE. It was the event that would wake me up at age 31 and remind me why I had come back to Earth in this life. It also allowed me the funds to buy my own house and BE without having to work.
Even in knowing that deeply, the trauma was still present. I had released the mental and emotional wounds some time ago. Yet, this time I felt the trauma leave the cells, leave the DNA, and even deeper realms within my body of consciousness. We will go deeper into this....
More releasing occurred, and then I stood before Babaji. He held my hand and transmuted with no words, the language of silence.
In holding his hand, I released the year of noise of the past year. The Munich Should being the most noisy. The string of houseguests that never seemed to end, Facebook, YouTube, Patreon - the constant and ever-gabbing noise found on the social media sites and at in-person gatherings, countless hours watching things on screens - phone screens, computer screens, television screens. It all left my body of consciousness.
What I was left with - the sweetest space of existence - the space beyond the noise. The space of pure consciousness.
No energy needed in the recipe of my creative existence.
It's not that any of those things are wrong or bad. They served a purpose to get me into the space where I AM THAT I AM and nothing more.
I had a lovely talk yesterday with one of you about boundaries. Seems even when I thought I had them I really had none. And now when I am stating them clearly, people still seem to be stretching them. Yet, they don't even know they are stretching them because they do not yet see the noise in their lives and how it affects their consciousness and everyone around them.
Once you see it, you cannot unsee it. The noise becomes louder and louder until you say no more and walk away from the energy feeding frenzy. And, until you see it with the eyes of the divine and the eyes of the human combined, you will continue to play in the over-stimulated worlds (that you do not even know are over-stimulated at the time) around us until it is no longer palpable. No longer tolerable.
Soon enough, for most of us, the space beyond the noise will not be a place that we visit, but the entirety of our existence. If we leave that sweet spot just for a bit - to have the experience of the noise - it will be consciously. Perhaps we will have "field trips" away from the branches of the Banyan Tree, rather than to it. :P
As the year comes to a close, as my birthday approaches, I am looking to the new era of no energy, of stepping away from the mass consumption of energy (food, screens, mindless and meaningless chatter, oh my goodness the chatter - and what a good chatter I once was).
In this no energy era, I am declaring my home a safe space. A no go for traveling visitors looking to integrate in its walls and rooms. There's a hotel down the street. A no go for people who need a helping hand. In fact, in the same vein of no longer holding sessions, I am no longer lending my hand to anyone in need. Gosh, I have done this for lifetimes.
When someone asks me for something from a space of needing something external, my answer will be:
All the answers are within. The bars on the cage you think are holding you back are an illusion.
And then I will excuse myself.
My table is only open for those who want to gather, perhaps have a cup of tea, and reflect our mastery back to one another, as we have done under the Banyan Tree.
Stepping into the Third Circle, into the space of Divine Will, is a beautifully sacred experience. To honor it with the respect it deserves will mean that we will no longer be living within the noise. I, for one, will fiercely guard my space (not with force, but with intolerant consciousness) to allow myself to have unfiltered the most glorious experience available in this human life - the embodied enlightenment experience.
In one of the last Keahak's Adamus said in his last life he got so tired of being invited over for dinner because he didn't wan to watch people eat. I laughed because I am there.
For my birthday week, I will spend my days in silence, happily, witnessing the shift of lifetimes. I will see anyone who wants to join at my birthday tea and cake gathering under the Banyan.
As always, I have so much more to say about PTSI and Divine Will, it is forming but I will not rush it in respect for the beauty and magnificence of the experience.
I will add that I rarely talk with Yeshua and Mary of Magdala despite my lifetime with them. Yet, they were present as I held Babaji's hand Saturday night. They too did not say anything but honored this experience for what it was - nothing short of GRAND. And I did sense a sovereign connection to you all. Thank you.
I would love to hear your experiences from the New Moon, in the Third Circle or anything else. Please post below.