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Story Series: When things fall apart to come together (Karen's Share)

5/21/2018

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From Karen:

I wanted to share with all of you the full preview of a short book I self published through Blurb in April of 2010 called “Becoming: The Discovery of You”. One of the issues of the printed version that I discovered is that the printing of photos in a book is so much more costly than a regular printed word book. So I put the book on full preview for folks to read in digital format.

Here is the link to the preview. Click on the word preview.
http://www.blurb.ca/b/1289380-becoming 
​Karen, I love this book. Thank you!

And I just realized that I wrote and published this a few months before my big breakdown! (Note: On our call about writing, both Bogdan and Kim shared when they wrote things often fell apart. For example, Kim said she wanted to write about relationships and they all started to fall apart. I too have experienced that, and I see the wisdom in it so clearly.) 

Bogdan,
 your comments about writing something and then having life fall apart happened to me! I often wondered how I could have written this book and then crash and fall apart to such an extent! So thanks for sharing that, I see I am not alone. 

Karen, do you feel you wrote the book for you in your darkest before the dawn days? And for others who might find themselves in the same situation? I sense it as a pure soul expression as well. In gratitude, Lauren
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ENVELOPED IN LOVE BY KAREN

The following are notes from Karen's blog which can be found on Ryver under Topics. It's just one of the many example of the magic that is happening on Ryver right now - the expression of our Banyan Tree creation.

Thank you, Karen, for sharing the grandness in your vulnerability and willingness to share about your "breakdown". I'm sure each and every one of us has experienced a break down. For what is a break down but a giant release/ integration of what no longer serves us in our "last" lifetime AND a fuller experience of becoming. Being = the perpetual state of becoming. For there is no end and no beginning in realization. 


Excerpt from Karen's Blog....

Well...it seems as though I am doing some sort of final "clearing" of this experience. And, somewhere in there is a desire to understand some of that "reason".

Last night I was reviewing a few of the readings I got during and shortly after that time, and one I had forgotten about was from Raphael through my friend Jeane (also on the website). And in that one Raphael said:

"These aspects that brought about the experience of your spiritual breakdown are, in a linear sense of speaking, the oldest that you have and will ever have. They are from your experiences in the Wall of Fire and in the Void. They are from that first fracturing of your sense of self and identity that was broken into an infinite number of pieces and felt to be lost for all time. The Wall of Fire experience is the single most horrific experience that your soul has ever had!"

And that helped me understand the intensity of the experience. Another reading from my friend Susan said that these aspects had been trying to find Self Love in many different places and were now all coming home in a crowd, and I collapsed under that.

In any case, I am starting to understand that perhaps at a Soul level I was attempting to move through some of the most difficult of aspect integration and the human just collapsed.

But Soul said, "We are not done with this lifetime yet", and onward we moved.

Now seven years and much healing and evolution later, I am clearing any residual stuff out of the body and emotional fields. And maybe it is part of what Adamus talked about in this last Shoud, that the human is off getting a tune up in preparation for integration.   


I think that part of the reason I chose to have this crazy experience is that I had this desire to move forward as quickly as I could, and I remember I kept saying, "Let's go for it, whatever it takes".

After this experience it was more like, "Let's do this with ease and grace". The reading from Jeane also said that my experiences were recorded in the library of the New Earth, so hopefully some wisdom is there and others may choose to have a gentler experience!

Indeed, I have been harping a bit on writing a story down, yet I remain in the sense of understanding that my soul once said to me. 

"Everytime you have a realization of any scope and breadth, you open up a potential for another to do the same. No need to convince, no need to teach, no need to sell, you have opened the door for those choosing consciousness (over automation for eons to come). And that wisdom is stored within the writing on the wall of the invisible library, whether you physical write it down or not.

When you share your story in the physical form (video, word, art, music, etc...)it does many things. First, it clears a pathway for you to BECOME more YOU. The expression is by you and for you, alone. And, the written word or other physical expression may help a human facet come into a greater awareness of the soul experience, know they are not alone, and they are not going crazy.

The written word or other 
physical expression will open a door, which was never really a door but a potential to choose from a sovereign state of being. 

Not in print or physical form your experience lives on - and El Morya can speak to this too as he has consciously limited what parts of his story to share - the realization you realized, the becoming more of who you are, connected to wisdom and your own unique I AM-ness - also gets recorded into the 'invisible library.'

When you expand for you and you alone, the potentials and possibilities become higher 
probabilities for those choosing the consciousness, that is ending the reincarnation cycle among many of other experiences...."
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Xanthe
5/21/2018 11:49:37

I so enjoyed reading your story like this Karen, it allows for so much, weaving it with the book as it happened. Such a beautiful gift to the invisible and visible library. ♥️♥️♥️

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Karen
5/21/2018 13:28:44

Yes, Lauren, great “weaving” together edit of this blog excerpt. It is an honor to be included here in these visible pages!

And good question as to why I wrote the book. From what I recall back in 2010, I definitely wrote the book for myself as a Soul expression. At the time I was creating photographic books as a creative outlet, and wanted to do one that combined photos and words. The book became one of those “inspired creations” that came spilling out of me. My human was clueless as to my impending breakdown, and now in hindsight I have the understanding that there were old, stuck energies that needed to go. In pondering your question it does seem that the book, being a Soul expression, was/is a reflection of Who I Am, and therefore a touchstone for when I could not see/feel my true self. A very interesting juxtaposition to read it while in that dark state and wonder who the author of that book was…and where did she go! And again in hindsight, your quote applies to me: “First, it clears a pathway for you to BECOME more YOU”, and indeed it did.

Since the sharing of this and a few other things on my “blog”, I have had another major shift in this spiral of realization. I have not yet written about it. I’ve wanted to see if it is “solid”, or one of those fleeting experiences. Seems to be pretty solid and so I will write about it soon. But you are so right, in the writing of our experiences it does seem to move some energies forward, and bring clarity to oneself.

And I love this too: "Every time you have a realization of any scope and breadth, you open up a potential for another to do the same. No need to convince, no need to teach, no need to sell, you have opened the door for those choosing consciousness (over automation for eons to come). And that wisdom is stored within the writing on the wall of the invisible library, whether you physically write it down or not.”

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Xavi
5/22/2018 04:48:03

Wow so much Wisdom in here. Thank you Karen and Lauren for this.

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