Hey friends, I love all of your shares and will respond...eventually...yet I wanted to share what is going on with me right now and why it is so hard to read, respond, etc. on here. Well, hard is not the right word. It's not 'appropriate' to respond in this current context.
Sometime last week, I began having conversations in my dreams (nothing new here but the conversation was). I was going through an awareness of the difference between my soul voice and the voice (not the right word but for the sake of story) of my master self. Like El Morya I find the word master far too limiting and a bit puke-worthy, so perhaps I will just call it the I AM.
So I was discerning between my soul wisdom voice and the deep knowingness of the I AM. Waves of the I AM have been rolling in...I don't have anything to compare it to. It's not integration. It's so far from processing. There is no trash to burn off. There is no fear.
There is discomfort. That feeling like I wrote in my 'Notes' post - like you left the stove on but know you did not. My body feels stretched...I won't say new, because it is too familiar at the same time.
Yesterday was particularly uncomfortable. I was in the bathroom getting something from under the counter and Damaian was out of the house on his own. As I leaned down in the tiny bathroom here at my California home, I felt a very large presence behind me. Damian is a big dude - tall, muscular build. I said out loud, "D, is that you?"
Then I realized the bathroom door was closed. I was alone. Duh. And...
Then I realized this tall figure (HUGE, almost dark - a black hole...) was me. No, I'm not integrating an aspect. Having thousands of experiences in that experience, I'm 100% clear on what that feels like. This was me - this figure was my I Am (my master self).
So I decided to take a long walk alone - even without the dog - a long walk with the huge I AM.
I asked a question without words. An inquiry without a solid question. The "answer" I received about what I was experiencing ...
You are in the Sovniverse - like omniverse. OMNIVERSE is defined as the collection of every single universe, dimension, realm, reality and all the wisdom that goes with it.
In this context, the word was changed to add sovereign. So, my I AM was telling me "we" are in the sovereign omniverse of SELF.
Well, okay...makes sense if you do not think at all.
The GRAND figure continued to walk behind me. I invite it in. More so it is less coming in, that I am letting go.
Letting go of Earth nature, letting go of my biology, letting go of human constructs like systems, concepts of right and wrong. Sure, I did this before as you have but another layer in the spiral of the return to self is seamlessly occurring. Yet, I am still stretched, melting into myself.
I do not care if I die, I tell it. There is nothing I have left to do that cannot be done without a body, I say. I am complete in life. Just come in already and quit following me around. It's so 'time.' Time for the end of separation and a new era of sovereign one-ness (for lack of a better term). The clear drop of consciousness, I think Joanna called it....
No fear. No resistance. I have already died a thousand deaths in this body and lived. I am no longer attached to this body. It's ready to go. But I know deeply I will continue walking on Earth for sometime, just not in a biological vehicle.
By the end of the walk the I AM (master self for you Keahak people) is touching me on my back. I feel it coming into merge with the spinal cord. The base of the neck so irritated from this whole thing.
I realize I cannot create - we cannot create what we wish to do with the Banyan Tree - until each of us are in our SOVNIVERSE. I will not be ready to share until the I AM is done doing whatever it does. Yet, I do have a timeline. That will be June. Then, and only then, will I really be able to ..... create....with you....and not lose myself....without even a molecule of agenda or force....
So until then, I am inviting you to step into your sovniverse - create at will. Create forums on Ryver at will from your sovniverse. You don't need my permission.
I invite you to gather at the Banyan Tree on April 16 from the space of your sovniverse. I have been driving this vehicle for so long, I couldn't pick up the reigns if I tried. It's not that I don't care - well that too - but instead of caring, I'm going to let the seed blossom on it's own. It doesn't need me to water it anymore. The wisdom you add here is plenty.
Like Joanna said and like I stated so clearly in the manifesto, if you are here, this is your creation too. And this creation needs no leadership. It doesn't need anything, of course, but what will make it blossom is more people in their I AM-ness.
Next post, I will share a beautiful poem by Kim, which is the song she is singing to herself and the wisdom she is lending to the Banyan Tree.
One final note, I invite you to sense into archetypal realms that are left from "previous" ancient civilazations, such as Atlantis, Avalon, The Vedic Period, Ancient Egypt....and ponder if that is what the Banyan Tree could be.
Long after we have finished our last lives on this planet, could we possible create something as GRAND... could the achetypal energy/ wisdom of the Banyan Tree exist on for eons of time for those choosing consciousness over automation.
Perhaps we are laying the groundwork, creating a portal/ an energetic pathway - without force or persuasion - into true freedom for those who will live in the age of the machine.
For me nothing is more exciting. And I am not going to taint it will any human garbage, so I will wait until June.
See you under the Banyan Tree on April 16. Perhaps if you have been "using" the tree to heal, fill yourself up, gain something, perhaps you will grace it with your sovniversal wisdom instead.