Saturday, Adamus announced the beginning of the Emergence series of channels at the monthly webcast. I totally forgot about it, yet had the sense that I was needing to tune into something. That I was missing something. Then a friend texted that he was watching the monthly webcast, so I tuned in. I was so deeply and profoundly touched by Adamus’ words in the opening statements at the core of my being and deep within my chest, a space behind my heart, I decided to transcribe them here. ADAM-US is after all a collective consciousness and to hear the words reflected back to you of something you experienced is near indescribable. Last month or so I had a chat with Adamus about this topic. I know I am not the only one. There are some I know in physical and some I do not know yet. And, I have found when I take something up with this consciousness, if it comes from the deepest space inside me, it will make it into the materials. Not the screaming, unbalanced human being I was in the past, but the living breathing being who is saying hey, this might be helpful and I know because I am living it. Things might have changed since your last Earthly visit. Looking back – so much easier in hindsight – the realization experience, which really feels almost like a reversal into what already existed - through the eyes of the human and divine combined, started sometime around the fall of last year. In October of last year, I had the ineffable experience in vivid color and without words the direct experience of knowing, being, experiencing the I AM GOD, also. I don’t even think I can write any more than the one article I wrote. That’s likely all I will ever write about it. It was too personal and too – well, too sacred for lack of a better word – to share. Another wave of realization rolled through my being in January, a release of guilt, shame, fear, remorse, clinging of the Atlantean dream, disaster, programming, etc. I know we are all unique but FOR ME it was the needle in the haystack – buried so deep and so hidden – the last thread that kept me from the realized state. It was the one thread of crap I held onto all this time that kept me from my realization. It was right there in front of my face the whole time. Shortly thereafter, my home sold in Colorado and the series of unfortunate or very fortunate events – depending on perception – began to unfold as a left Colorado, which more felt like being kicked out – by an angry mob of Shaumbra with pitchforks and fire torches. That was the energy. What was that? I have asked so many times only to shelve it for later. I simply could not put my finger one what that experience really was. Why I was so sad, why I still am sometimes. Since leaving, I’ve had a few doubts that only reminded me to trust myself. Was I delusional? Did I make this realization experience up? Are these people who have cast me out right about me? Yes, in realization you are still a human being with human attributes. The answers undeniable and completely personal. (I’ll tell you why I am choosing to right this below). I knew who I was and what I was and was not, and it didn’t matter what anyone or anybody else thought, said or did. It was my realization. ADAMUS (paraphrased as I am not a good typist): “Is everyone going to go through (realization in the CC)?....Yes, sooner or later…. Some of you are going to take your time. You’ll go through in the slipstream. Some are going to go fast because you’re just so damn ready. Others will go in their slip stream. It’s not a race and there is no award for those who get there first. (On those realized) You’re not going to be beating your chest about it….It’s such a personal beautiful quiet thing. It’s so personal…. You are not going to be bragging. You are not going to need acknowledgment. You are not going to get acknowledgment - from me or from others. Nor do you want it. You know – and that’s all. That’s all. For those of you who have come along through this early, you already know this. There is no preaching at the others and not saying this how you have to do it. You’ll realize that. You don’t say this is how I did it and you have to do it. (talks about preaching on social media). There’s no rushing anybody and there’s no pandering to anybody (poor dear etc.). You just allow them, and they’ll come through and maybe in your slip stream. For those taking their time – and there’s something to be said about that – let the others go through and have the rockier path. (The profound part for me…) For those taking their time, don’t throw rocks at the ones you think that might have made it. Why would you throw rocks? To test them. Have they really made it or are they making it up? You know rocks hurt, even to a master because they are still in a human body. (My body seized up here, I too felt so sick, Joanna, I felt the trauma of my move from Colorado – I’m at the six-month mark and just now able to function completely.) Don’t throw rocks. Don’t assault them. Don’t criticize them. You are really just trying to test them. Don’t to do that because when you first come through in the emergence there is an incredible sensitivity and sensuality. If you are hanging back and waiting, don’t throw rocks. If any of this happens on social media, delete those posts. This is too sensitive. It hurts too much. It goes too deep - even for a human master.” I just need to hear someone say it. I needed to hear that and in hearing it, I healed a deep wound within myself. If you know me, you know I am not bringing this up to pat myself on the back. I bring this up to say that for me, this was and STILL is an extremely sensitive and sensual time. Go easy on yourself, go easy on those around you (reminder for ME!). Everything I thought a master is has been thrown out the door. Everything is not perfect,yetlike Xanthe said it IS at an arm’s length yet you still feel deeply. The other thing is the more my realization sinks in, the more normal I feel. I feel more like a normal human being each day – after a lifetime of feeling so weird. I believe this comes with extreme self-acceptance and balance. To think you won’t cry. That you won’t feel when energetic daggers are thrown at you. That you are some sort of stone being who is not moved by their surroundings is a total fallacy. In the end, this message personally gave me some deep sensual acknowledgment not from outside myself but from within myself. I also want to note that I am greatly enjoying the materials from CC in this relationship – having removed the human quality of it – for now. It still does not feel safe for me to go into that human system space but the direct relationship with the materials and placing my wisdom int the vault feels really good. Instead, of using the materials as tool to get further along some strangely perceived realization timeline or platform. I am simply loving the words that help me remember how I did ‘such and such’ in hindsight. How did I stop allowing my mind to consistently feed off me? How did my body make the jump? How did I have this profoundly personal experience and at the same time have so many people throwing rocks at me? Realization was simply a perception shift of worthiness, a freedom from being beholden to anyone (especially my own aspects and guilt – for blowing up Atlantis in this case – this continues to roll in deeply). It had nothing to do with what my human life looked like. It doesn’t mean I don’t feel. I don’t cry. If anything, I feel more deeply than I ever have in my whole life. The opposite of guilt is innocence. The dichotomies that arise in being beyond duality is something the mind would never be able to fathom. For example, to be completely in a child-like innocence (guilt free) AND finding the spiritual maturity I so lacked when I first started writing with you all. The spiritual maturity comes with the balance, of learning to walk like baby through this realization embodied and holding wisdom beyond years. It is so tender, and self-care and self-nurturing is still needed in the fragility of this state, which is equally unbendable and unbreakable and unmoved by the rocks thrown. I could go on, but at least wanted to capture this tender moment, knowing I am not the only one in the sovereign collective who will or has gone through this. Thank you. Karen, I keep thinking of you texting me as a drove out of Colorado. It is imprinted in my soul. The text popped on my phone when I was in the depths of the rock’s impact. THANK YOU. I'm so glad I tuned into the five minutes; what that message did for me, what it moved within me, cannot be captured in words. Deep exhale. Holy crap it feels good to shuffle that around. Massive gratitude for you all and this space - NO ROCKS. NO RACES.
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Lindsay
8/5/2018 10:51:53
So relate to this. Thank you for sharing.
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Lauren
8/5/2018 11:08:28
I figure most people are not tuning into the shoud so I wanted to share how proudly it affected me
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Deb Ford -- Andiss
8/6/2018 03:42:06
So grateful for the beautiful discussions about this topic. All is integrated in the end but the road is still painful.
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Lauren
8/6/2018 15:27:50
DEB!!! It's so good to hear from you and sense you in this space. I appreciate you sharing your experience. I know many relate.
LES AND KAREN MONTGOMERY
8/5/2018 11:36:34
Oh, Lauren, I just experienced a rock throwing event with an old friend. I pulled away from everyone, totally disconnected from my "spiritual" friends around the first of the year. I had had that awesome personal event Dec 22, 2017 and knew that I had to be with ME. I somehow knew that what I was to experience as we moved into the new year was to be so personal and sacred that I couldn't share it with anyone (except Les). I had moved to a new state of being and I had to walk it out alone. One of my friends, bless her heart, she realized that I was on some other path than she was on and she said, "Oh, we can share our path journeys with one another." I immediately blurted out, "I DON"T WANT TO." Honestly, I wasn't trying to be mean - that literally popped out of my mouth. I decided not to be sorry about it because I have come to realize that when I do things like that it isn't the human speaking. I accepted myself completely and went on. Well the other day I had written what I thought was a great synopsis of my journey since January of this year and decided to share it with her. She came back at me with her perception of why I shared with her and how impersonal it was. I simply replied, "I'm sorry you feel that way." For the first time in my life I had no desire to try to get another to understand. I knew why I shared and that was enough. I shared with another close friend and she really enjoyed what I shared. She says that hearing me express helps her so much. In the past I would have bent over backwards to try to express in way that others would understand and accept. But this time to be honest with you, I didn't give a damn. Her perception is her perception and I have no desire to get into changing her. So, the comments Adamus made were timely. So much happened to me during that shoud and I can't even define it but I sure felt it. I am finding myself in a place of deep sadness today. Not sure what it is or why it is there at the moment, but allowing it to be until and if I get clarity about it. I am still in this aloneness mode. I don't really want to share much with anyone (except Les). I have no need and I change from day to day - evolve, expand, realize.....I feel as if I'm finding my way. Finding my new cadence..if that makes any sense. Like I'm in some kind of a no mans land. I am at peace within myself and my mind doesn't run me around like it did forever. AND NEVER think that I, at least, think you are bragging or elevating yourself about the rest. You walk your walk and share, share, share. I expressed one time to you that I feel what you write and I think you might be a slipstream to me from time to time. Thank you Lauren for being....well for being Sar'h
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Lauren
8/5/2018 11:39:48
Karen, That is beautiful. Thank you for sharing. We are all in each other's slipstream from time to time and I so appreciate you saying that. My life was defined by trying to make people understand. When I understood myself, it seemed to go away just like you describe.
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Xanthe
8/5/2018 17:32:10
Karen I so loved reading your share. ♥️
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Karen
8/5/2018 11:46:44
❤️💛💚💙💜 Lauren, you are loved and honored. I like the image I got when thinking of the slipstream...me on jet skis with a big smile on my face waving at the drivers in the boat ahead and doing a few slaloms through the wake. :)
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Lauren
8/5/2018 14:20:26
Karen 🌊🏄🏻♀️💕❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️🙌🏽
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Sue
8/5/2018 19:29:35
Love this Karen. The image of being on a jet ski in the slipstream tickles me... xxx
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Letizia
8/5/2018 12:36:05
Great sharing
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Lauren
8/5/2018 14:36:32
Thanks, Letizia - I sent this message to another but I will post it here too....
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Joanna
8/5/2018 16:45:14
Love this share also :) ..
Xanthe
8/5/2018 17:33:23
So enjoyed this share too Lauren. ♥️😀
Sue
8/5/2018 19:39:18
Gosh what a lot has gone on & what a journey Lauren. Phew.....
Lauren
8/6/2018 15:42:29
Thanks, Sue, you bring a huge smile to my face:) J and X <3
Sue
8/5/2018 12:40:33
Thank you Lauren xxxx
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Lauren
8/5/2018 14:23:32
Sue ❤️
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Deneen
8/5/2018 13:19:04
I too watched the Shoud. It was a gooder ~ wisdom packed. I’m always moved by Adamus/St. Germaine’s deep compassion and his loving reminders of why we are truly here. I feel I’ve been dodging “rocks” my entire life. This human master bruises easily. Let’s put down the rocks. They have no place here (earth). I’ve allowed the rocks to prevent me from sharing and I can feel that shifting as I write these words. Thank you Lauren for sharing your experience once again. I’m always so grateful.
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Lauren
8/5/2018 14:24:48
I relate and I’m glad you are here and sharing.
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Joanna
8/5/2018 14:34:58
Deneen <3 I second Lauren's sentiment and so happy you are here.
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Xanthe
8/5/2018 17:34:11
Me too so glad you’re here Deneen! ♥️ Such a delight you are!
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Xanthe
8/5/2018 14:25:45
I’m so glad you share and are yourself so beautifully and real Lauren! ♥️🙏
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Lauren
8/5/2018 14:40:02
Thankful you are here and that you share freely. It's the only part I watched of the shoud. I felt very clear that was something I really needed to hear to move on.
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Xanthe
8/5/2018 17:35:05
I’m so glad you did cause telling us, me about it, it was good for me to hear also!
Joanna
8/5/2018 14:27:14
Ah so beautiful. You know how I feel about all this so I don't need to say much. In about Jan of 2015 I told Adamus to tell people to stop beating people up on FB and he did...it didn't work. I wrote the hen story and sent it to CC knowing of course it wouldn't be received basically saying the same thing Adamus is saying now. Maybe one of these days it will sink in. And if it doesn't so be it...like you say it gives the opportunity for us to purge out some stuff. And like you, I just needed to hear someone say it also.
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Lauren
8/5/2018 14:39:02
It's crazy what you went through and I'm not suprised. I'm glad you and Xanthe took a chance on me and this space. It has made a huge shift. I've told you all this before but thank you so much for sharing. People will always play the games external as long as they play the games internal. We can choose something different here. and we have.
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Joanna
8/5/2018 14:52:31
I didn't view it as a chance at all... could feel it right away Darlin. :) Can't wait to see where we go!
Xanthe
8/5/2018 17:37:38
I so agree with Joanna, it felt so right this space, you Lauren and I too am excited about seeing where we go..😍😍
Les Montgomery
8/5/2018 17:37:33
WOW is all that I can say, the wonders of walking between worlds. Miss Sar"h (Lauren)thank you for your original post and think all of you for making the various comments,. I felt into every word coming from this page, such love vibration waves after waves and my thought is can we receive information by osmosis and the answer to that is yes. love is spirit and the spirit here at Ryver is sweet.
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Lauren
8/6/2018 15:26:40
Thanks, Les!
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michael
8/6/2018 07:28:10
Thank you for shining so brightly, Lauren, I honor your magnificence and creations! This was the first shoud that I felt called to listen to in months and I was so happy that I did.
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Lauren
8/6/2018 15:47:53
It's so funny how many of us tuned in for the first time in a while. Maybe they want us back? But of course:P Thanks for being here, Michael. I cannot wait to meet you in Italy.
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Nataly
8/6/2018 09:17:21
Lauren, I can feel into your words the magnitude of what you went through and I am so honor to have you as a friend and a realized Being who shares her experiences. But also I am so touched by the comments and experiences of the others sovereign beings.
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Lauren
8/6/2018 15:44:01
Nataly, I have felt the shift too in the Should and since May a much better relationship with ASG too, very relatable and glad you are here and sharing!
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Les Montgomery
8/6/2018 21:35:44
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Les
8/7/2018 10:08:49
Love your sense of humor. Going to steal my boyfriend's words - when you can't you can't pretend not to be anymore"
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Lauren
8/7/2018 10:13:39
Sorry that was me - Lauren - who wrote the above comment to Les. Haven't had my coffee fully yet Leave a Reply. |
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