Hey friends, I wanted to write down a few notes. I'm still in this holding pattern my soul showed me - that it will be June before I am sharing more about this space and self realizations. Yet, I do want to check in a share a slice of life.
Besides my soul whispering to me that we (my multiple self) were releasing identity over the next few months and showing me some sort of creative bloom in June, my soul has been whispering to me about my body.
A couple months ago I really wanted to create a series on the body of the beyond - what the body goes through and how it transfigures in the embodied enlightenment experience - both Sar'h and El Morya and other contributors have a lot to say about it, yet I can't really write about something or share a channel unless I go through it.
Some channelers can share things without having to go through them;
A storyteller must have the experience first. I am the latter.
So, as I said, my writing is in a bit of a hold pattern as a result.
I will say for two weeks or so my soul has whispered to me - "It doesn't matter what you eat."
For about six months, I was unable to eat meat or drink anything. That has let up significantly, yet I know I will not return to the animalistic method in which I did before. I know there is nothing wrong with letting your human be human. I went all out, and in the end, my human nature said to me, I'm done, it is out of my system. I'm ready for NEW.
Sar'h said yesterday to the human self who is a bit confused yet relaxed at the moment:
"Your body is no longer biology, no longer an expression of the Earth; your body is an expression of me, your soul, and needs no Earth, no biology to exist. That's what it means to be on Earth, not of it."
My soul also whispers each day:
"It does not matter what you eat or do now - this body as a physical expression of soul."
This is understood by me Lauren, the human, but am I living it??? Not really.
In one reality I am, and in another it hasn't spiraled down into wisdom as of yet. Here's why....
When I used to have realizations, there seemed to be a natural progression - a move through linear time. It's different now.
The realization occurs or exists, rather, outside linear time. So there is one Lauren incarnation who totally gets what my soul is saying and there is another who is puzzled. They exist in different realities. I can see one linear day soon that the two will overlap. Let me try to explain this again, please.
What's different is that I am not going through a Darwinian evolution this time. I see time folding on itself for this to "happen."
If you stretch out a string and make a knot on one end - that knot would represent the biology body. The knot on the other end would represent the soul expression body/ the body of beyond. If you take the two knots and place them together (beyond linearity). That is how my soul is showing me that this happens.
Should be interesting....
In all of this letting go of identity and the move to conscious acts or roles in the context of divine will, anxiety has come up. Fear around losing my dog, mainly. I have been dreaming with Shakespearean levels of tragedy and comedy -- and realizing there is not much difference between the two.
Admittedly, I am much more in a state of allowing the change than being right now - yet I can see clearly the peice of me sitting under the Banyan Tree. This fracture of self is uncomfortable to the human, yet the human is in so much trust at the same time. I am watching the fear like a play.
Funny enough, yesterday I stepped on a sting ray after catching a beautiful wave with D. The pain from the venom is incredible. I was living the tragedy and the comedy - simultaneously screaming at the indescribable pain AND laughing at myself as I hobbled home with a trail of blood pouring out behind me.
We cannot take anything too seriously in this life of maya illusions!
Further, I have been wanting to write about friction. So many of us, myself included, want to avoid at all cost and drama or uncomfortable exchanges with other people and that is understandable. I can really see a difference in drama and natural friction.
You can avoid human drama unless you choose to play the act (I do sometimes).
Yet, friction as perceived by the human is simply the sensation of motion to the soul.
You cannot avoid friction (human) and motion (soul sense) in life. Even if you lived in a cave in the Himalayas, you are still going to get sick of snow (probably yell at it because you are alone and have nothing else to get pissed at). You will feel friction or motion from the changing tides of your consciousness or awareness.
Just because you stop interacting with people, does not mean you will never have friction. Further, I sense friction as expansive and healthy for the human.
What I am generally trying to say is friction is a natural part of life and each time it happens you don't have to get out of all interactions with people. You don't have to create new boundaries. You don't have to blame yourself or others for the friction. It just is.
Surfing is a great example. You have to paddle over breaking waves that hit you in the face before you get beyond the break. You have to miss a few waves before you catch the best ride of your life.
Sometimes you accidentally step on a poor stingray and it kicks your ass. But if I just stood on the "safe" shore, I would miss all the soul experiences - the experiences that create the wisdom.
Further, there is no safety on the shore. It's an illusion. I could be standing on the shore "safe" and my dog or my mom could get hurt. The only safety is in the I Exist. In the wisdom that this world is an illusion. That death and pain are illusions. That is the only safety - WISDOM of the SOUL.
For me, I am realizing the friction does not matter. The energy I spent on trying to avoid friction actually had the opposite effect, creating more of it. The old saying what you resist persists.
As we move into more about conscious creation (this summer, my soul says), one of the imperatives besides the self-observation beyond identity is the ability to allow human friction/ sense of motion to flow without knocking us back into a place of hiding. I am not talking about hiding from the people around us, but hiding from SELF. The inner world reflected in the outer world and vice versa.
As I write I realize, anything and everything until June will just be preparation for the the human manifestation knot on the string (resenting malleable linear time) to fold over and meet with the soul creation knot on the string.
Your questions and experiences are alway welcome here. Welcome new member, Elisheva. Honored to have you here. I'm glad Momo told you about this space.