Master Friendships & Loneliness
Every morning I wake up. I have a cup of coffee, sit on my back patio (or the patio of the rental I am in) to get some fresh air and look at the moon, sun, or stars, depending on the time, and then come to my computer to write.
With D here I never feel alone, even though he is usually down in the basement studio by now working on his latest sculpture. When he is not here, I never feel alone because I am writing to you and for you, capturing moments of realization with the words available to us, and perhaps introducing new ones.
Indeed, Este has created a new story board on Ryver to collect the flashes of realization as they occur in a moment. You might check that out and share an Aha! or two. I love to go check in on that page for some conscious conversation.
The words I share are not new rather but a blending of the concepts of realization from the language of the Masters of the Far East and the blending of Western concepts of realization, currently dominated by the Crimson Circle organization - at this point in time and space.
Further, my - or our - ascended master friends, including but not limited to M. Babaji, P. Yogananda, El Morya, Blavatasky, Mark Prophet and Liora AND whether I say it or not Kuthumi is always here too.
When I go through conversations with the beings who grace my space and this space with their presence, Kuthumi always sticks his head out and says, "Me too. I am here." My friend Tess also has a deep friendship with him like I have with Master Morya, and he seeps in that way too and always brings a laugh between the two of us.
In one of the comments, I am not sure if you missed it, D so eloquently captured the essence of something. We were discussing realization-related organizations and he said Crimson Circle was a way to keep us alive and entertained while realization happened naturally. For me, that could not be more true and there is always an AND or many ANDs.
First of all, the Crimson Circle program called Aspectology gave me the words to describe what was happening as all the past lives returned to me. It allowed me to begin to discern what was the voice of my master self, of the soul, or the I AM, the part of me that has always been and will always be - from the aspects of self.
Who was in charge here? Who was creating my reality? AND, it made me feel as if I was not going crazy. I was talking to all these different parts of Self, negotiating with them before I knew better, and basically going on my daily hikes talking with the many voices that make up Self.
Modern psychology would call this multiple personality disorder or schizophrenia. My Austin, Texas New Age community would say they were evil spirits and would have sold me a session with a medium to clear out the spirit. I could go on...Yet, the Crimson Circle class told me I was not alone and I was not crazy. What a nice gift.
Geoffrey, who founded the Crimson Circle, wrote about this in the last magazine article, that was emailed out yesterday. My curiosity gets the better of me and I like to step into how others view things from the inside. I also like to see what similarities lie between what I share and others share, in hindsight.
Another thing he talked about other than Crimson Circle classes and workshops being an anecdote for loneliness what something I have said time and again. There's a whole host of beings - who want to be your friend and support you in embodied realization. You are never alone. In fact, the company is quality - no feeding, infinite wisdom, no social media forum needed.
This is founding tenant of this space - A place for embodied and ascended masters to join together for a time, something we will do again on January 16th's New Moon, yet you need never wait for a formal gathering - something I lay out on the Magic page.
But first back to the classes as an anecdote for loneliness on this experience of embodiment. When I first joined Keahak in 2014, it was a saving grace for me - just like the Aspectology school. I had no friends to talk to and met a few on the Keahak forum, and enjoyed them until the conversations became draining.
But once we go beyond the classes - there is nothing left for me to take - and the forums on the Keahak page and Facebook no longer resonate with us - is it then we are alone?
No! First of all I have created this space for such people. What happens after the classes and workshops, when we do not want to pay thousands of dollars to hang out with our master friends and sit in rows of chairs for hours on end, when we no longer need it or seek the experience of it?
For those, there is the Center of Being. And hopefully, other pages and spaces will pop up as more and more people finish their studies and begin to LIVE the TRIPLE E (embodied enlightenment experience) rather than study it in separation from application.
I do not want to own this space of graduates. Instead, I hope to see more and more of it expanding for people from all walks of life. I hope to keep this small and know each of you beyond a number in an excel spreadsheet. That's not my way.
If you have not looked through it, there are over 55 comments on our Introductions page HERE. We have sixty people registered for the website and about half of those joining us on Ryver. If you have not read through them or responded to new people - Ruth and Sue - just introduced themselves, I would encourage you to do so. For those who find words escape them right now, or it is simply too laborious to type, I understand. I sense you and I offer an alternative.
Send me a message or your friends here a message or reply without using the computer, or a pen. I can hear you all loud and clear, though my human does appreciate the feedback and works to incorporate it back into the offerings as much as possible. I will respond in kind in the method of the message delivery.
Going back to Geoff's article, it also mentioned in the last Keahak, and something I have repeated time and time again. There are so many beings who are honoring you and supporting you in your journey. Beyond what I write and share, beyond the workshops, books, lessons, and channels, there are Ascended Masters who would love to share directly with you without the influence of maya, or duality. Masters who are not beholden to any energy outside of themselves.
Most importantly, in the last Keahak session, Adamus St. Germain said something that really disturbed me AND I am so glad he brought it up. He said he had an etheric gathering with the master selves of each of the participants and came up with a list of things that the Master wanted to share with the human (I will post this list on Ryver).
For example, dear human, don't expect the Master to solve your problems, don't beg the master to solve your problems. Another part of the homework was the human consciously talking with the master. He suggested having time each day to talk with the master. Wait, people are not doing this already? It was hugely informative for me and without judgement.
If this is still going on, I am so glad Adamus brough it up. You cannot move forward without this relationship. I will also note, these basic principles were covered so well in Adamus' book "Act of Consciousness" as was New Energy Creation, which Adamus said is something he will cover in Keahak. It was all in that book - everything - he is repeating it - yet again. I am in awe of how much he has to repeat himself and his commitment to do so until people begin to live it. It is an unwavering commitment.
For me, and many of you on here, the master and the human are no longer separate. They are One. In the divine will experience, you no longer grasp onto the human perceived free will (the perception of control) for divine will of the I AM, the soul, the eternal...and the human simply becomes integrated as well. I feel no separation anymore. However....
The process Adamus lays out is very helpful. It was helpful for me - like I wrote about in my book - to separate the human from the soul voice and have those deep conversations.
That was what my New Energy Creator business I had for three years was about. I taught hundreds of people to have these sacred conversations with Self. To discern soul from human, from aspects. And, it is something I would recommend until the two merge in divine union within you.
Back to the loneliness - as I said I do not feel it anymore yet it was once debilitating - however, when I hear a Keahak session like the last one and visit the forums several things happen....
1) Compassion for people still struggling to locate and speak with their "master" selves.
(Xanthe - I don't like the word either but not have not something to replace it. When you don't have separation between "human" and "master" indeed the words sound funny...)
2) Behind the short wall, I am cheering my ass off for those courageous enough to embark on brining the master into their physical body and bringing awareness to the conversations between human and master, which already occur. No longer taking clients to help them find their voice, I feel I truly am behind the short wall for the first time in a while. And as I said, I am cheering with radiating my own light rather than clapping and yelling from behind the short wall.
3) At a personal level, I realized months or perhaps a year back I no longer fit into the group I once found refuge in.
My friend Iiro once told me don't get off the roller coaster too soon, you'll be standing in the amusement park parking lot alone.
Am I in the parking lot? Yes. Alone? NO.
For there is a Banyan Tree just beyond the edges of the roller coaster theme park. Only those who can see the path unfold before their eyes will be able to find it. When they are ready. Something they can only decide for themselves.
There, they will find me and Master Morya floating under the majestic, golden hues of the Banyan Tree of BEING.
Never alone, human and master as One Self.
BEING is defined here as perpetual becoming. It is never static and always dynamic. Instead of human control, there is a divine unfolding. We may appear to not be moving to any destination, yet motion does not require movement.
Motion does not require movement.
If you are still dividing human and master, and bringing awareness to the conversations between them, BRAVO.
That is truly amazing, and I will tell you they do merge as one soon enough, so enjoy the ride.
AND let me tell you a story about creating the ONE of Self below.
D told me yesterday the words for human free will and divine will are different for him. He said he like perceived human control and divine unfolding, instead. Indeed, I love the unfolding piece.
When I was pondering no energy creation laying in bed one night, I saw creation as a blooming flower. The seed begins to sprout and the petals unfold one at a time until the flower can no longer hold itself constricted and simply bursts open in bloom.
What I see with having to mechanize conversations with the human and soul is that it can go two ways or both ways.
It can coax the flower into blooming. It can be the water to the soil and the sun in the sky that supports this divine unfolding. If you allow it to be so.
Yet, if it becomes too mental, too forced - as I have seen in my previous client work. It would be like trying to glue the petals onto the flower mechanically, without allowing it to simply bloom. The application of the materials is always up to the listener, the student. Yet, something to ponder in creations as well.
I see "masters" trying to build things instead of create things (through soul expression) in the same way. They raise funds to buy petals and glue. They say their soul's desire is to have these funds to buy the petals and glue that is needed to create the flower when really that is the human's way.
It's a conscious creation they say. Indeed, they are aware they are creating a flower, but it's fake. It's not really a flower, it's an illusion of a flower. The master who exists within the veils of Maya, the great cosmic illusion, rather than expanded beyond the veils of Maya, our new series...
In no energy creation, you take a seed, one that you found while strolling peacefully on a walk. You plant it into the ground and say if it blooms that will be nice, if it doesn't, that will be nice, too.
If it's the will of the I AM, to express itself in this flower, the seed will begin to sprout. Each day it will grow a little taller.
As it grows, the master does not feel attached to the outcome at all. It does not listen to or allow the begging and pleading of the human: "If I just had this flower, I will be whole. Please master make this flower bloom."
No. That's not how it works, and eventually the human surrenders its perceived control to the "All that is" within themSelves.
One petal in the bud will open under the glowing sun. The master may go on a long hike, gone for weeks, and then walking back down the path the master is surprised to find a fully bloomed rose bush to enjoy. He or she will say: "I had forgotten all about the seed I planted."
The master laughs at the beautiful creative expression of Self - one he or she completely forgot about in the state of Being Enlightenment - and then sits down to enjoy his or her creation until it returns, disintegrates back into the soil from which it came.
The Body in the Triple E
The body issues we go through are much like the flower blooming. The seed when it cracks open to sprout will feel some discomfort. The seed does not go to a doctor or homeopath to bandage and treat the open wound. It knows it is part of the divine unfolding.
A personal example: In November when sitting in my New Mexico rental I felt a deep tension in my back and neck. It was no where near the surface, so it was not ready to come out yet.
"We (human and master as one) are going to release that soon, " I heard voice from within say. "Okay, no worries, no hurry."
Then in December I woke up one morning to a sharp pain in my back. I took note and went about my day. By the evening the knot had moved up to my neck.
"No worries. No hurry."
Two days later my lymph nodes in my neck swelled to ping pong balls. The next two days it was a sore throat, yet the lymph nodes went down and the back had long since stopped hurting as the dis-ease in the body moved around like a lose marble in my physical body.
The flower was blooming, and with each perceived discomfort moving through my body, that which no longer served would bloom into a beautiful rose, and then disintegrate back into the earth's soil from which it came, my body.
I will write more about the body but please note:
I am not a doctor. You are responsible for all your life's creations. This is not advice but for entertainment purposes only. Please use discernment in the body for which you are solely responsible for.