Hello friends, I'm sitting here at my makeshift desk - a fold out table from Target and a patio chair from Home Depot. I don't know when my furniture will be delivered and yet, I have no opinion about that. I noticed since arriving here and stepping into my own self-realized mastery that I don't have opinions about a lot of things, if anything. Nor do I have a desire to share my opinions only my experiences here with a sovereign, discerning audience. What a waste of energy and time that was. Reinforcing an identity that was already set to expire. Instead of mental opinions, based on mental concepts of right/ wrong, should/should not, conscious/ unconscious, I am in a space of realization - I'm taking it a step further than discernment - when seemingly external stimulation is brought forth in the Universe(s) of Self. First, I am realizing in such detail how important environment is for me - being in mastery or GodSelf realization does not mean you do not seek a conducive environment for expansion. I get why Kuthumi walked off into a forest. It's simply too hard to interact int his world when you are expanded beyond it. Just making coffee, feeding myself, and walking the beach is about all I can do in one day right now. It's so difficult to bring myself down into the density to - for example - go the grocery store....I've also been sleeping a lot and staring at the energy movements in the "air" which have matured from hazy to high definition. To an outsider, it would appear I am staring at a wall for four hours... For example, I went back and read my Costa Rica post and realized the ease in it, and then realized the edge in the subsequent posts. I sense my I AM most intensely outside a group dynamic, the soul discernment puts me in the supportive space every time. I am also realizing a great deal of what is not mine - what was never mine. For example, since leaving Colorado, I have not felt the need to belong (it was palpable while I was there), to measure my "level" (mental term on purpose) of consciousness against another's, or a need to analyze other's behavior, which is the primary topic of conversation where I came from. It seems all of that came from the group dynamic, and when I removed myself from it, I saw clearly none of that was mine. I was playing a role, and then returning to self once again. Next time, I hope to experience it with more human awareness, though, and I WILL/ AM. Stick with me for a bit on this one....I really had to take some deep breaths to put this all in words.... I was talking to my neighbor yesterday - a high powered CEO - and my soul said (not in words but in sensation), "count...count how many times he gives his opinion." We were simply observing. He shared opinions about everything - about lobbyists (my former profession), about dogs riding on airplanes, about what place had better coffee than the next on the 101 Coastal Highway we live on. In ten minutes, no less than 50 opinions were given. Ain't no thing. That's just how the human mind works: I like this and the emotion that goes with it is felt. I don't like that and the emotion that goes with that is felt. My opinions on matters define WHO I AM and I need opinions to define my existence because I do not see my soul outside of the illusion - that's really what he is saying. And that's a uniquely human behavior that seems to disappear in self-realization. Here's what I did not do. I did not call and friend and say, "Oh my goodness, this guy is not conscious of his mind aspect." That would have been the behavior where I came from. Instead, I did not care because I have no expectations at all. His version of reality is simply totally different than mine, and that's not offensive, it's actually more than okay. Compassionately detached. He's having his very cool CEO lifetime, and that's amazing:) In Shaumbraland (as a general group consciousness which took on a personality of its own not any particular individual), it was no different. Because they (previously we) mainly saw life through the lens of a group consciousness perception, very clear boundaries were drawn between conscious and not conscious behavior. Between what was energy feeding and not feeding. You know the kids game, "I gave you cooties" or "You have cooties" where kids point at and taunt each other. I can finally say this....I always thought that labeling something the sexual energy virus (seeking external energy to fill oneself up) was a bit like this kids game. When indeed seeking external energy is simply basic human behavior - everyone is always going to seek external energy any way they can find it until they find themselves in the Third Circle of realization. Everyone. And that's okay. We don't need to point and yell "virus!" Just because you become aware of it, doesn't make it go away. The human on its own - without knowing and deeply experiencing the I AM GOD, ALSO - is always going to feed - that's how this entire world works. It is WHAT IS. The course is only meant to bring awareness to it. It wasn't meant to be a measuring stick of consciousness or a bat to beat someone with for being human. We must remember the act of being human is wildly courageous in and of itself. That space is where the compassionate detachment is born. - Sar'h Humans feed. You get to use discernment when and with who you interact with. That how the game works until you do not desire anything external and move beyond the game. If not, then the sexual energy virus term simply becomes another dualistic mental construct, you are either feeding or you are not. Then one forms an opinion about it and then the mind forms an emotion to go with it. Then the mind blames someone and then uses that person's reaction to reinforce the beLIEf system of having the virus or not have the virus. It's a sick cycle and it's part of a human experience - you have to get something on a mental level before it spirals down into the core of being. But, dude, I already got my cootie shot. :P Please note, I am fully aware that I played this game too. I am no better and no less than anyone. Just observing my old patterns that were part of a group pattern. Systemic behavior used to reinforce a false identity. Since coming to California, where everyone I know is still very much a human, I am able to simply observe it without opinion. For example, one of my friends here owes another money. A list of opinions have been formed about this person, and of course, still having a human facet I can see all sides. Yet, I do not feel I have an opinion about any of it. It just is. Just a part of life. I am compassionately detached. In Colorado, we/ I had the expectation that people would be conscious after spending ten to twenty grand on workshops, and then we used that mental opinion to judge and talk about that person behind their back. I am so "guilty" - I definitely played in this strange game, this culture of mentally analyzing who is conscious and who is not and if you are not we will throw energetic darts at you until you pop. Here in California, I feel no need. I'm not going to talk about people when they aren't present. I am not going to use a mental construct of right/ wrong or further conscious/ unconscious to form an opinion with my mind. Not because I am holier than thou, but because I simply do not care or have the energy for that kind of thing. I no longer need to reinforce a conscious human identity. I am so detached, so whole in my own space that I do not need reinforcing opinions to define who I am. I AM WHO I AM. The mind uses the constructs and opinions to reinforce identity - a false identity, which is anything other than the GodSELF - the identities are where the suffering occurs. The mind says we are further down the line than those around us AND then it flips, we are behind others so we much catch up. That energy of competition is a human mind construct and it pervades any and all types of communities and group situations no matter the lens of perception, no matter how conscious. It is the nature of the group to reinforce a human identity. There's nothing wrong with that, but it sure feels like crap once you release the need for any identity. After that, it all becomes play. And I really sense, I am about to play hard in the absence of identity:) That letting go of the human need for consistency that I wrote about... But why does the human mind do this? The linear constructs, judgements, opinions and emotions KEEP IT ALIVE. As long as we allow the mind to create the separations of right and wrong and conscious and unconscious, we keep the mind in the ever-feeding dynamic that is an aspect rather than a facet. Basically, we are simply allowing the mind to reinforce itself and its fight to survive in current form.... which is reinforcing perceived human free will.... ...and then naturally and ever so beautifully traumatic, that human free will ceases to exist..... ....it disintegrates into the ALL that is - the Soul.... ...and the peace of the Soul's will, the Soul's passion, the Divine Will sets in.... ....and the WE - the I AM - doesn't need or desire to reinforce anything.... ....there is no identity to reinforce if you tried.... That is the MAGIC OF BEING (ENLIGHTENMENT)..... ....and even enlightenment becomes too limiting a term.... ...that is the Magic of BEING.... ....pure passionate joy exuding from the I AM GOD, TOO.... ...the realization that you are finally living:)
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Xavi
2/19/2018 10:07:55
How much wisdom Lauren, love all, thank you. The internal opinions that we form about others are more dangerous. Those cost more to "realize" than when you have a group, reflecting through acts like you described, all the time. They have done you a great service.
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Lauren
2/19/2018 13:07:43
Xavi - one and the same. who is more spiritually disciplined and who is living up to Adamus/ Tobias categorical standards is all part of the dogma chase of the human. I love your examples and how it applies across groups/ systems. Thank you.
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Kim
2/19/2018 10:20:14
Wow, this resonates so much with me, and touches upon something that I just experienced yesterday. Someone who is very close to me described to me how certain of my actions were imbalanced and how I was actually using the sexual energy virus. I had to breathe with the anger for a moment before I found myself in a state of mastery, and what came to me was this: I don't give a fuck what somebody, even a dear and close friend, thinks of my level of consciousness. If some of my actions affect this person directly, of course I will respect their boundaries, or remove myself from the relationship, but I will no longer spend one more minute listening to somebody else's opinion about how conscious or balanced I am. Unless I specifically ask another person for their opinion. Why? Because my soul is in charge of the unfolding of my realization, and I will integrate everything at the perfect pace anyway, and someone else's unasked-for evaluation of me is not going to help me do it faster. Reading your post in such perfect timing was definitely a confirmation of this insight that came to me. I will share my 30-day self-love experiences at some point, just need some more time to integrate it all. Thanks Lauren, for encouraging me to share :)
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Xavi
2/19/2018 10:31:37
In my opinion (ha!), Those who give their opinion (as you describe it) are rookies who need to do so to measure their progress. They are only newbies. Compassion for the newbies.
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Kim
2/19/2018 10:41:53
Thank you Xavi for the reminder to not start comparing ourselves with others who share their opinions more than we'd like. I also wanted to add, that this choice to let go of opinion altogether, (both my opinions of others, and others' opinions of me) is revealing to me a whole new spaciousness within my universe of self. A new space to be filled by the magic of being! What a joy, it truly feels like a breath of fresh air, as they say :)
Xavi
2/19/2018 10:51:18
Thanks Kim. What I also wanted to add is that what he says to you, about you, is not yours. He does not really do it to make your best. He does it to compare with you and measure his progress. It is not about you. It's about him. That's why I said "Compassion for the newbies".
Joanna
2/19/2018 11:16:04
I so love this Kim.. such an emanation of acknowledgement of who you really are. Sometimes anger is a lovely heads up for what we will no longer tolerate.
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Karen
2/19/2018 12:00:40
Kim, I had a similar experience about a month ago although the person was not a close friend. And after a some anger and contemplation I came to the exact same space you have written about. I could have written your post! As you say, there is such a freedom and release in this. Both in the perspectives of not wanting to receive opinions (aka advice) from others, and also in looking at my own opinions/advice. Such freedom in letting both go...which Lauren has so eloquently written is the release of human mind identity, free will.
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Lauren
2/19/2018 13:03:28
Kim - I've been on the receiving end of this a lot and the giving end on occasion as a result of the conscious culture. What I can say is that anytime I or someone else has done this, I/ they were trying to reinforce a belief to confirm an identity. In this case, the "I am so conscious" identity. Suddenly, the need to be right was replaced with the passion to be (like you just stated). And I no longer want to play in the mud -although I learned a lot - thank you and bye. Someone on here and another person sent me a ton of advice in the last two weeks and finally I just said, ok thanks, because I don't 'have time' to really respond. I love what you wrote - it's all happening naturally! I wish I had known that in my human parts and pieces so much sooner AND everything is perfect. I look forward to hearing about your self-love journey and I will note when I undertook the self-love experience - people came out of the woodwork - almost like they could sense me feeling complete and then it was like a "test" of not needing approval etc. What freedom we are all expressing and experiencing. Thank you. I was wondering why the hell I was writing about SES s my example. Now I know.
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Kim
2/19/2018 14:33:21
Loving all the comments!
Joanna
2/19/2018 11:11:50
What a beautiful place to be Lauren....It's so amazing to witness and you glow <3. Love that you are about to play hard! I'm glad that there are many now that are seeing what happens when we turn pure information/essence into dogma. This is the place of 'It doesn't matter' that Tobias tried to get through so many years ago...what you or the other is doing. This space where enlightenment doesn't even have a meaning...there are no connotations or definitions. Moving from experiencing to simply I AM. As many are sharing, I'm actually seeing what I have completely forgotten I used to play and things I have experienced...a pretty amazing view....things most definitely disintegrate! To see roles for what they truly are...priceless...and yet then becomes the 'norm' to BE all that you are. Much love.
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Lauren
2/19/2018 13:06:32
Joanna, first I want to say how fucking happy I am you are here and sharing. An honor and a pleasure. Limited human question...indulge me, if you will....since you figured this out for yourself some years ago (love that) what's your interaction with others been like since? I know it's all being but my human self is deeply curious what your relationships are like beyond the identity-reinforcing opinion. My experience is pretty much limited to two days. HA! I think we could all "benefit" from hearing about it, bringing our human facets with us into the Triple E.
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Joanna
2/19/2018 17:52:48
Aw thank you.
Kim
2/19/2018 14:37:09
Yes, Joanna, please share, what are relationships like beyond the veil of opinion-based interactions?
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Karen
2/19/2018 12:08:00
Deliciously sitting in the wisdom of this pearl, and pondering it in my journal. Thanks Lauren. It is assisting me in the dissolution of some identity tendrils around a specific circumstance that is occurring for me this week. I can feel and sense the freedom of "cutting these strings" as it were, and "finally living"!
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Lauren
2/19/2018 13:38:21
Human not ham...Ha!
Karen
2/19/2018 14:08:39
Haha. I was wondering if you thought ham and cheese was divine too. :)
Momo
2/19/2018 20:37:03
Thank you Lauren.
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