I'm sitting here at my makeshift desk - a fold out table from Target and a patio chair from Home Depot. I don't know when my furniture will be delivered and yet, I have no opinion about that.
I noticed since arriving here and stepping into my own self-realized mastery that I don't have opinions about a lot of things, if anything. Nor do I have a desire to share my opinions only my experiences here with a sovereign, discerning audience.
What a waste of energy and time that was. Reinforcing an identity that was already set to expire.
Instead of mental opinions, based on mental concepts of right/ wrong, should/should not, conscious/ unconscious, I am in a space of realization - I'm taking it a step further than discernment - when seemingly external stimulation is brought forth in the Universe(s) of Self.
First, I am realizing in such detail how important environment is for me - being in mastery or GodSelf realization does not mean you do not seek a conducive environment for expansion. I get why Kuthumi walked off into a forest. It's simply too hard to interact int his world when you are expanded beyond it.
Just making coffee, feeding myself, and walking the beach is about all I can do in one day right now. It's so difficult to bring myself down into the density to - for example - go the grocery store....I've also been sleeping a lot and staring at the energy movements in the "air" which have matured from hazy to high definition. To an outsider, it would appear I am staring at a wall for four hours...
For example, I went back and read my Costa Rica post and realized the ease in it, and then realized the edge in the subsequent posts. I sense my I AM most intensely outside a group dynamic, the soul discernment puts me in the supportive space every time.
I am also realizing a great deal of what is not mine - what was never mine.
For example, since leaving Colorado, I have not felt the need to belong (it was palpable while I was there), to measure my "level" (mental term on purpose) of consciousness against another's, or a need to analyze other's behavior, which is the primary topic of conversation where I came from.
It seems all of that came from the group dynamic, and when I removed myself from it, I saw clearly none of that was mine. I was playing a role, and then returning to self once again. Next time, I hope to experience it with more human awareness, though, and I WILL/ AM.
Stick with me for a bit on this one....I really had to take some deep breaths to put this all in words....
I was talking to my neighbor yesterday - a high powered CEO - and my soul said (not in words but in sensation), "count...count how many times he gives his opinion."
We were simply observing. He shared opinions about everything - about lobbyists (my former profession), about dogs riding on airplanes, about what place had better coffee than the next on the 101 Coastal Highway we live on. In ten minutes, no less than 50 opinions were given.
Ain't no thing. That's just how the human mind works:
I like this and the emotion that goes with it is felt. I don't like that and the emotion that goes with that is felt.
My opinions on matters define WHO I AM and I need opinions to define my existence because I do not see my soul outside of the illusion - that's really what he is saying. And that's a uniquely human behavior that seems to disappear in self-realization.
Here's what I did not do. I did not call and friend and say, "Oh my goodness, this guy is not conscious of his mind aspect." That would have been the behavior where I came from.
Instead, I did not care because I have no expectations at all. His version of reality is simply totally different than mine, and that's not offensive, it's actually more than okay. Compassionately detached. He's having his very cool CEO lifetime, and that's amazing:)
In Shaumbraland (as a general group consciousness which took on a personality of its own not any particular individual), it was no different. Because they (previously we) mainly saw life through the lens of a group consciousness perception, very clear boundaries were drawn between conscious and not conscious behavior. Between what was energy feeding and not feeding.
You know the kids game, "I gave you cooties" or "You have cooties" where kids point at and taunt each other. I can finally say this....I always thought that labeling something the sexual energy virus (seeking external energy to fill oneself up) was a bit like this kids game.
When indeed seeking external energy is simply basic human behavior - everyone is always going to seek external energy any way they can find it until they find themselves in the Third Circle of realization. Everyone. And that's okay. We don't need to point and yell "virus!"
Just because you become aware of it, doesn't make it go away. The human on its own - without knowing and deeply experiencing the I AM GOD, ALSO - is always going to feed - that's how this entire world works. It is WHAT IS.
The course is only meant to bring awareness to it. It wasn't meant to be a measuring stick of consciousness or a bat to beat someone with for being human.
We must remember the act of being human is wildly courageous in and of itself. That space is where the compassionate detachment is born. - Sar'h
Humans feed. You get to use discernment when and with who you interact with. That how the game works until you do not desire anything external and move beyond the game.
If not, then the sexual energy virus term simply becomes another dualistic mental construct, you are either feeding or you are not. Then one forms an opinion about it and then the mind forms an emotion to go with it.
Then the mind blames someone and then uses that person's reaction to reinforce the beLIEf system of having the virus or not have the virus. It's a sick cycle and it's part of a human experience - you have to get something on a mental level before it spirals down into the core of being.
But, dude, I already got my cootie shot. :P
Please note, I am fully aware that I played this game too. I am no better and no less than anyone. Just observing my old patterns that were part of a group pattern. Systemic behavior used to reinforce a false identity.
Since coming to California, where everyone I know is still very much a human, I am able to simply observe it without opinion. For example, one of my friends here owes another money. A list of opinions have been formed about this person, and of course, still having a human facet I can see all sides. Yet, I do not feel I have an opinion about any of it. It just is. Just a part of life. I am compassionately detached.
In Colorado, we/ I had the expectation that people would be conscious after spending ten to twenty grand on workshops, and then we used that mental opinion to judge and talk about that person behind their back.
I am so "guilty" - I definitely played in this strange game, this culture of mentally analyzing who is conscious and who is not and if you are not we will throw energetic darts at you until you pop.
Here in California, I feel no need. I'm not going to talk about people when they aren't present. I am not going to use a mental construct of right/ wrong or further conscious/ unconscious to form an opinion with my mind. Not because I am holier than thou, but because I simply do not care or have the energy for that kind of thing.
I no longer need to reinforce a conscious human identity.
I am so detached, so whole in my own space that I do not need reinforcing opinions to define who I am. I AM WHO I AM.
The mind uses the constructs and opinions to reinforce identity - a false identity, which is anything other than the GodSELF - the identities are where the suffering occurs.
The mind says we are further down the line than those around us AND then it flips, we are behind others so we much catch up. That energy of competition is a human mind construct and it pervades any and all types of communities and group situations no matter the lens of perception, no matter how conscious.
It is the nature of the group to reinforce a human identity. There's nothing wrong with that, but it sure feels like crap once you release the need for any identity.
After that, it all becomes play. And I really sense, I am about to play hard in the absence of identity:) That letting go of the human need for consistency that I wrote about...
But why does the human mind do this?
The linear constructs, judgements, opinions and emotions KEEP IT ALIVE. As long as we allow the mind to create the separations of right and wrong and conscious and unconscious, we keep the mind in the ever-feeding dynamic that is an aspect rather than a facet. Basically, we are simply allowing the mind to reinforce itself and its fight to survive in current form....
which is reinforcing perceived human free will....
...and then naturally and ever so beautifully traumatic, that human free will ceases to exist.....
....it disintegrates into the ALL that is - the Soul....
...and the peace of the Soul's will, the Soul's passion, the Divine Will sets in....
....and the WE - the I AM - doesn't need or desire to reinforce anything....
....there is no identity to reinforce if you tried....
That is the MAGIC OF BEING (ENLIGHTENMENT).....
....and even enlightenment becomes too limiting a term....
...that is the Magic of BEING....
....pure passionate joy exuding from the I AM GOD, TOO....
...the realization that you are finally living:)