Hello, friends! I wanted to check in with everyone to see if they were settling in to the new space gracefully. Speaking of PTSI (Post-Traumatic Soul Injury), I was having a cup of coffee this morning on the porch. The wind was blowing and howling, and I was reflecting on something that quite surprised me. I found myself breathing a deep sigh of relief for being in this magical new space, AND... I had not realized there would be some residual trauma - the trauma of noise - leaving facebook and the social media world. It had become such a normal level of stimulus in my life, I found it did not seem noisy. Then I was traveling and that stimulus was replaced by other noise - traffic, airports, endless negotiation with Indians. Then I was with my mom, which was a lovely visit much to my surprise... Yet, it wasn't until I got home, found my peace and quiet once again, that I realized the imprints of the noise of the social media, internet world had made on my soul. It was a bit of an initial shock when that came up in the New Moon gatherings and then it made total sense this too would be a trauma - the trauma of over stimulation - that would appear in this transfiguration - I do not want to use the words release or integrate, but rather distillation of wisdom and transfiguration of divine will, which seem more appropriate for the moment. Going back to Divine Will Communication, I sense we always held this gift, the experience, yet it had been drown out by the noise, which in my case, caused a trauma imprint on my soul space. In filling those imprints with my own divinity, it opened me up to something much grander. As I have said before it may seem that my human self is becoming boring (I did go to sleep sober, with no food, at 7:30 p.m.), yet I am becoming infinitely more interesting as a soul, as a master. This space is too sacred to taint with old human tricks to manipulate how I feel. Regardless, wine used to work to manage my energy, and now it does no such thing - I don't feel right, so even if I wanted to it is simply not an option. Instead, how I feel without all of that is too good to taint. Mahavatar Babaji and El Morya, who live in the space beyond the noise, were simply there to remind us of it's glory. The animals too are noise sensitive and use no words, yet they communicate volumes and only raise their voices when it is necessary for survival or to alert their human companions of something. I am beyond grateful for the experience and the gift of experiencing every last bit of this with you all.
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Jean-Pierre
11/21/2017 11:59:34
After the moment of sweetness of feeling my consciousness expanding having a taste of ease, this bring up to the surface with intensity what I still hold in resistance in the old human will, the royal flush is unrelenting after those brief moment of grace. My soul is very determined in the cleanup.
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Jean-Pierre
11/21/2017 12:11:48
"The noise becomes louder and louder until you say no more and walk away from the energy feeding frenzy. And, until you see it with the eyes of the divine and the eyes of the human combined, you will continue to play in the over-stimulated worlds (that you do not even know are over-stimulated at the time) around us until it is no longer palpable. No longer tolerable." Lauren
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Karen
11/21/2017 13:48:19
Jean-Pierre, my experiences exactly! I feel I am in good company going through my Royal Flush. :)
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Kim
11/21/2017 18:04:37
Settling in well into this new space. I felt the new moon gathering as intense, and for me also some trauma aspects came to the surface to be distilled. I have been feeling into what authenticity means for me in this new space of divine will, and related to that the issue of boundaries. I also realize that I have not been aware at all about my actual boundaries! The master self has a very different perspective on what to invite into my space and what not. So your post about that Lauren resonated very much with me. Also, for me the group feels different here in this space, somehow lighter.
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Karen Falk
11/21/2017 19:37:14
Lauren, you wrote yesterday: Even in knowing that deeply, the trauma was still present. I had released the mental and emotional wounds some time ago. Yet, this time I felt the trauma leave the cells, leave the DNA, and even deeper realms within my body of consciousness. We will go deeper into this....
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This space feels lighter and brighter to me. I am interested in hearing how everyone finds interacting in groups and with friends these days. I feel very detached right now and this is evidenced by my very quiet days. I am seeing and feeling a wounded human that doesn't 'get it' but, truly, my nourishment is coming from inside. It will be interesting to see how it plays out the more integrated I become.
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