Hi friends, thanks for all your notes and offering to help me move energetically - Gosh I appreciate that! I think in all this realization we forget that those around us are human too and appreciate kindness. I will never be too conscious to be kind. Most of all, I appreciate all of you for BEING you in all your multiplicity.
THE CENTER OF BEING
First off, what cut off the video....The Center of Being WILL NOT have a physical space. The Center of Being exists within he GodSelf of us all. And when we gather, our GodSelves meet in recognition of the God also experience under the Banyan Tree or where ever you choose to show up in alignment.
Should I disappear from this physical world...I think I will be here some years - my divine will is serving - how I do, or BE, rather, that may shift and change with the changing tides of consciousness...but if I should disappear, this space will always continue on under the Banyan Tree and we will always meet - if you would like - on the New Moon each month for as ever long as you would like.
I talked yesterday about embracing the multiplicity and blurred lines between the ascended and embodied master. The more automation and technology advance, the more the lines will blur between the two. I feel right now I inhabit both worlds and my body is simply a facet that is really serving me well moving boxes :)
I get a strong sense, when the body integrates fully, it will not matter your health or what you did or did not do to it. Any relief is temporary and in support of the human self - something that I choose not to ignore. Like getting a new tooth - 3D printed no less - is supportive of my human experience.
In all of this I finally understand, what the saying "the human does not become enlightened means." It is a sensation rather than a thought so I cannot describe it at all except a deep peace in my heart. And if the human is annoyed or upset or crying or whatever, it is still all in alignment with the GodSelf. Those tears actually feel so freaking good.
Another thing I want to challenge my own human on is the concept of old and new earth. Two choices? Fuck that. There are millions and none of us are going to have the same reality perception - everyone is going to view it through a different lens - the own lens of divine perception. Let's move from beyond yet another dualistic concept between new and old earth? Just writing it makes me feel constricted.
When Adamus first talked about new and old earth and Theos- I really felt like he was watering down for a limited understanding audience. So I am going exploring on my own without looking at life through a group consciousness perspective. My own lens of perception is so much more expanded! I'll bet yours is too.
LETTING GO OF CONSISTENCY
As a multiple master of Self, I am never going to be just one thing or think just one thing. I don't make decisions that are set in stone. That would be too limiting. Consistency is a human value and is much in conflict with the soul's deep desire to go beyond linearity and radiate in all the tens of thousands of realities available to it.
So as we move beyond the veils of maya, I invite you to embrace multiplicity within yourself and in your peers. So what if I or they say one thing and then shift gears and go another way. Let's not box ourselves in. Blah!
SAR'H's LIFE WITH YESHUA
In my alt-reality I have been having sensational conversations with M. Babaji and Yeshua about my lifetime with them 2,000 years ago. For me, previous life information has only come forth when it would be of service to me in the human NOW moment. I am just now - at the human facet - able to really absorb what they want to share OR rather what my soul wants to make the human facet aware of.
All of them have been reminding me (much to the chagrin of my human) that I was not Egyptian in that life, but rather Indian (from the Himalayas), yet Yeshua explained my dark skin saying I was from Alexandria to those we could not trust.
When I asked if I was a blood relative/ child of Yeshua - I no longer feel that I was ever a blood child of Mary Magdalene - he simply answers - it does not matter - I held the Christ seed consciousness.
"It doesn't matter if it was my seed (sperm) or not," Yeshua said laughing his ass off. HA! Limited human question - sorry:P
Regardless, I seem to have been some child picked up when Yeshua spent seven years with Babaji before he began his role/ play of the crucifixion. And, then I was brought back to the middle East and then France.
WHY NOW, DO I SEE THIS...?
Well, it relates to integrating and moving beyond the Shaumbra identity, and I had asked my soul, "why the hell am I so upset by it all? Seriously, why???"
Sar'h showed me this is not the first time I have been disillusioned by Shaumbra - which was a group of beings who incarnated together around the time of Yeshua.
This group of people, many of whom are incarnated again at this time, they wore red scarves to indicate it was time for a secret meeting, which is why everyone was wearing red scarves last week, if you saw the Should or Facebook.
Seeing everyone in the red scarves on the internet made me physically sick, and I knew it must be something deeper than just being so done at the human facet level. More than me just being disappointed in behaviors and limits.
Sar'h explained to me that as an outsider - the weird Indian child who embodied the wisdom of the East those 2,000 years ago - I would watch these Shaumbra in red scarves basically argue amongst themselves what was the true word of God, the true words of Yeshua.
They would use Yeshua quotes and teachings to measure the level of consciousness of each other and were fiercely competitive - sound familiar?
Babaji showed me in that life, I was holding the energy of BEING God, also, and feeling just as alienated as I do now at the human level - that is expected - the human is not enlightened ever.
Bababji showed me to go deeper, to visit the soul space, to watch the plays and roles repeat themselves and do what I do best, what I have been doing for eons - to BREATHE JOY AND BE GOD TOO - and to go about my human way.
In that life, my refuge was nature and my male partner - a Druid. Indeed, as I leave Colorado as certain magical mountain space is what I will miss the most. D- is meeting me in California, so that's the best for my human too.
Babaji added that's why I have so many Far East friends. They have played the role I am now. They have felt the disillusion, the competition, the argument of scripture, the externalization of the divine in so many lives.
Master M added - talking directly to my human self - that I have been seeking empathy from those in human form -- I still allow my human to desire empathy and kindness, I will not ever discredit my humanity -- when there is a whole crew of masters not in physical form who understand deeply what I am doing, what I have done.
Yogananda reminds me that I am not alone, and I can find the human support there with him. He has been entertaining me while I move, which has been awesome.
The deep honor and understanding these beings bring is beyond words and emotions. I am so grateful.
Truly, the SOUL or GODSELF is always going to be the best company. But going directly to the masters of self - without a channel or medium or muddled go between - is really a great joy for the human Lauren. Sar'h has been there under the Banyan Tree this whole time. It's about time my human joined in more often in more awareness.
I will see you all under the Banyan Tree on the New Moon - Feb. 15 in linear time. The theme is embracing multiplicity and moving beyond the perceived human desire for consistency that is a strong side effect of linearity.
I plan to show up aligned in my multiplicity and invite you to do the same.
For those of you who are new, the Banyan is not a place to bring or solve human problems (we can all feel that crap when you do so don't...), it is a place to celebrate your mastery, your I AM God, also.
Love to you all,
Lauren, Sar'h and all the beings under the Banyan Tree