So much of what I have been seeking in finding a home in a retreat-like setting has been such a deep craving for simplicity and simultaneously allowing the definition of who I am to expand beyond an edge or boundary.
No such house exists for it is only the house inside myself.
Instead of getting lost in the complexity, I found I can find the simplicity in the perspective of grand - without cutting of parts and pieces of myself.
Instead of say being present in some limited now, I can be with all of me in the simultaneous multiplicity without needing to identify the core, for it no longer exists.
The I AM, the I Exist has spread throughout the entirety of the Infinite I. There is no human or divine. Embodied it is all both - and.
This is more where my writing will go in the next months. I feel many of you also seeking simple and sovereign and beauty in the basics and plan to spend a year or so in this space - a move away from urgent and overwhelming.
More simplicity can be found on banyantreecollective.com.
EMBODYING PARTS NEVER BEFORE ON EARTH.
Seeing clearly I brought in a piece of myself never before in physical human form. The angelic being and all her experience on councils and creations which had impact on Earth, yet never roots.
The Banyan Tree will defy the points of separation in the coming linear years - a place that defies the angelic council and human organization counterpart and move as one entity (sovereign in itself beyond 'members')
With angelic Sar'h faceted and embodied here and now - no past, no future - I found I was able to enjoy the organizational gathering in Bled.
I could see the power games without needing to correct them or a desire to point them out. Those with eyes saw them for themselves. With Sar'h fully here in faceted form, I could see so clearly people feeling out their own discernments for themselves. For me, the freedom is in the observation - the awareness - without even needing to discern - though I did move my butt out of the auditorium a time or two.
Even more so, I could deeply appreciate the beauty in the offerings, specifically the channel from SAM (Tobias) and a DreamWalk to bring the Atlantean being into the present point of awareness (very confirming for what I have written and you all have shared here since January).
THE BANYAN TREE: DISSIPATING THE URGENCY
Speaking with many of you on this trip, I know many feel the urgency of the Banyan Tree creation. Gabor, for example, told me how he remembers standing in the Himalayas (as I have written before) in another time and space when we all agreed to create it in the future now.
Some do not have that strong of feelings about the tree but simply want to play. I love this so much!
This is the most beautiful balance of the 'sovereign collective' of beings here on this space because it dissipates the urgency sensation - which should no longer be mistaken - as I have done - for a linear urgency. Instead, we might choose to see it as a soul passion without linear time boundaries.
What this time calls for now - as I sense it - is a simple and gentle relaxation into embodying SELF fully.
For no patterns, or pieces of separation, and especially wounds or any kind of lack will make it into that creation - without it boomeranging right back into your head (oh, I almost did this to my physical human self before I took a giant inhale into myself).
And that's the beauty - there is no hurry. It will all unfold in an urgency that exists beyond the construct of time. Perhaps, called passion, or will.
PARTNERSHIPS: INDEPENDENT BEINGS COMING TOGETHER IN HONOR OF EACH OTHER'S UNIQUENESS
I don't write about my relationship much nor will I ever. It's too sacred and personal - even for me. Yet, Damian and I realized on this trip that some people we ran into assumed we held the same perspectives and experiences. That could not be further from reality.
Damian is a beyond unique, sovereign, beautiful being with his own experiences and expressions that do not mirror mine - he simply doesn't feel a passion for writing them as I do. Many of you were lucky enough to see his latest sculpture in Italy (pictured below), and I love that he was able to share that with you all.
SONGS FROM THE SOUL
As much as I enjoyed talking with everyone on our trip, more so - as Amy J pointed out - I loved looking you all in the eyes in total honor and deep respect for unique you.
I loved singing the song of my soul without music or lyrics and hearing yours sing in a sovereign unison. So much more of this, please!
Finally, we will gather again. But obviously not in Oregon - but once in North America and again in Europe (Greece is the overwhelming choice here).
In honor of you and the simple elegance of embodied being-ness -
Lauren with Sar'h completely faceted (more on moving into this later) from Poland. Happily exhausted:)