Good morning, America. Good afternoon, Europe. Or good evening if you are on the other side of the world, Kiara, Sue, Donna and Cathy (Sorry if I missed you others).
It's pretty fucking amazing to connect into all your being-ness across the globe. We are re-wiring the history of this Earth, whether anyone sees or knows this is their own business. No YouTube video or Facebook post needed. It can only be sensed and known by those you also see and know.I want to welcome, Sylvia, our newest "member" of a group without membership.
Please take a look back. We started with the 30-Days of Self-Love, dove into systems, judgement vs. discernment and somehow ended up in moving from free will to divine will. Your patronage also means you will get a copy of my next book - whatever book comes out, whenever it comes out.
Also, we have a facebook group, and Karen LeGrande (add her as a friend) can add you if you wish. I am off Facebook indefinitely. Thanks, Karen. I appreciate you and all that you add with your presence and words. It is helpful for everyone, including me.
OK - here is me pouring out everything I know - right now- subject to the changing tides of consciousness - without editing it. I don't have the time for that. I'm too busy BEING, staring at the sky from my New Mexico porch.
Never did I think I would be saying this. The divine will experience has become so sacred and so personal to me, I hesitate writing about it, and I have never hesitated to share anything personal about myself EVER.
Per soul and source request, I have to write in symbols and myths to even convey it, which I am doing so here, in an expanded way: http://www.beingenlightenment.com/writing/the-sacred-art-of-surrender-divine-will.
In this link you will find an extended and expanded story. I add to it each day. Feel free to explore the website, which is updated daily, as I build its foundation.
Yet, here's my attempt at some hard facts and stories about what is occurring. My mother is off the site, so I can also speak more freely. Ha!
BODY: My whole life I have felt the effects of a nervous system upgrade. Even as a small child the bottoms of my feet constantly throbbed as my nervous system was completely being re-wired. At almost 37, I feel that is now complete.
Now, I feel my bones re-structuring themselves. The only thing I have to compare it to is braces on the teeth. You cannot reset bones without surgery, so I feel deep in my bones a complete shift happening at the speed of braces correcting a smile, for lack of any other comparison.
I felt something digging into my collar bone, which I describe on the new website, the other day, and the soaking in the healing mineral springs of Ojo Cliente, New Mexico sure helped.
On a radio show, Adamus once described shitting and pissing himself in a forest when he was stepping into his third circle, as Tobias called it. I will neither conform or deny that I have done this recently...I shrug knowing what is going on, clean up, and move on without emotion. I am so glad St. Germain shared this nasty-to-the-human fact. He said he thought he was dying, and we are.
I want to take one for the team and reinforce the normality of this occurrence in the shift you are going through. It will happen, and you are completely okay. No you did not east something bad. No you are not gluten intolerant. Stop it, mind.
At least we live in the time of toilet paper and running water - other masters did not have that. You will shit yourself, and you will like it because you will know what is happening. You are transfiguring into a master.
All the human will is literal being purged from my body.
Yesterday when I woke up, my eyes had changed (attached photo). The whites of my eyes are super white like they have never been. My eyes have turned from a sandy brown blue to a brighter blue. It is quite strange to see. I am told this is what happens when you see through the eyes of the divine and the human (talked about on the link above), and it is why many ascended masters appear to have bright blue or other pooping eye colors.
I am now feeling the fat cells which contain old free will matter dis-integrating. I have lost weight despite continuing to eat plenty albeit, very vegan-ly as I'll admit meat has become just as unfitting as alcohol (and y'all know I used to love steak and wine).
Neither is disgusting. I simply look at it and the energy of the meat and the alcohol does not comply with the energy of my body. I have not tried but suspect it would be like the effects of food poisoning. My stomach has had enough to deal with in DIS-INTEGRATION, thank you very much. No wonder Adamus is always talking about oats and honey. I am eating oats and honey too because that is what works.
Tea is also creating an elixir which works better than wine. A little high from the potent tea leaves gives my human that buzz it used to seek from the booze. Furthermore, drinking wine and beer was a great way to regulate my energy. It worked super well. Now the tea is doing that instead as I am too sensitive for the potency of alcohol. I like super green and Oolong teas. A little chai mixture in my morning coffee, too.
Also, a tiny, tiny dose of medical marijuana has also been helpful for carrying me through the shift. I'm talking 1/10th the normal does. 1/10th of a 5 mg chew. So 0.5 milligrams is the perfect amount for me when things get real intense - about once or twice a week now. This is only for me and not a recommendation to anyone else.
* I am not a doctor. I do not give medical advise. Please note I do not promote illegal activity. It is legal where I live.*
During this time I have been told by source and soul to open your eyes to DIS-INTEGRATION.
For the past years, especially those in CC schools, we have talked incessantly about integration. This is the time for dis-integration, I am told.
WHAT HAS BEEN INTEGRATED, NOW TRANSFIGURES IN THE DIS-INTEGRATION PROCESS. In other words, internal integrated SHIT now turns to GOLD. Be patient with yourself. Relaxing speeds up the "process."
What that means to you - is always up to you. It applies to other things besides body as well. Here we go...
HUMAN THOUGHTS/ EMOTIONS/ CREATIONS:
Having a very open crown chakra as of late (yeah I said it chakra. Chakra. Chakra. Chakra. Who cares if it's a banned word from the CC word police. ), I keep seeing various potential and possibilities in my third eye (did it again:P).
These potential and possibilities appear in super seductive visions of the future self- and they felt so freaking real - until I REALized - big wow realization- what was taking place...
I spoke of the seduction of human plans and creations in a previous post; in case you missed it here's a recap.
This is important --- The visions of future human potentials and possibilities become super seductive and sophisticated when you begin the shift into Divine Will.
You can recognize its occurrence because they pull you out of the infinite NOW and show you the linear future. You can use your fine-tuned discernment here, if you wish.
In other words, Human Free Will will do anything to survive, to grasp onto its control of your creations. And because your human will has existed for eons, it will be super sophisticated in its seduction.
Free Will will tell you that you are here to be a famous spiritual teacher. It will tell you that you will become rich, look like a model, and married to the rockstar of your dreams - or whatever your greatest human desires have been - IF you just stay in the space of free will.
The visions will be so wonderful, you will want to say YES. And it is totally okay if you do. Once you veer down the path, you will know what has taken place as it will not be in the flow of your soul's wisdom. In that, there is absolutely nothing to be afraid of AND there are no mistakes.
Please note: I have sensed all of these seductive visions as happening "out there" - in my body of consciousness but not within the I AM presence. It happens in the "spiritual head space" so you think it's not human AND it totally is.
***There is the sophistication. It will talk to you like it's your soul voice, and it is really the human free will talking.
Discernment. Discernment. Discernment. Discernment. Discernment. Discernment.
And, the flowing river of your soul's wisdom will speak in the softest whisper so low you can barely hear it. You will feel it in your bones. You will feel it in the space between the cells. You will feel it in the bottoms of your feet, and more than anywhere in your heart space, where your YouMan (human) and Soul meet. It will not seduce you with grand visions. It will not promise you gold, a barbie body, and a rich husband, thousand of YouTube followders, whatever.
It will only say: I AM THAT I AM.
Indeed, for me, what took place was that everything I created - everything I created with human will wishes and intents - was unraveling.
As you step into divine will, all human creations MUST go no matter how conscious they may seem.
Creations you made in the physical AND creations you made with a mere wish. All of them will unravel.
Just like aspect integration, which you all know well, there is no need to analyze each story line dis-integrating.
You only need to allow the dis-integration and consider if you want to grasp onto a "story creation" or let the big, fat story go. The bigger, the fatter the story, the harder it is to simply open your hand and release the string tied to that particular helium balloon of a story (one filled with hot air) and allow it to fly away into the void of the divine will darkness.
It's not the kind of thing where you can pick and choose. You cannot say I am in Divine Will and I am going to bring this human relationship with me. You cannot say I am in Divine Will and I am going to bring my coaching business with me.
All identities are shed. Everything must go. Everything that was created with energy. Everything created from free will is going to be replaced with no energy creation and from the space of divine will. Every. Last. Thing.
As Tobias said, you will want BOTH, but you cannot have both. I do believe it will vary what that looks like from person to person.
But I know for sure:
ALL HUMAN FREE WILL CREATIONS WILL HAVE TO GO as you step into the third circle.
The absolutely glorious thing is once you sense what is on the other side, you *will not want* to participate in those human creations anymore.
For example, I used to be involved with a man I call Jack. In my mind, I built a life with Jack and his daughter (my own daughter from another life). I felt the seduction of this creation pulling me back in several days ago and of course, Jack called me in real life to see me, along with his daughter.
If this happened eight months ago, I would have hopped in the car with all my belongings and moved into Jack's house happy as a clam. It was my greatest human desire to be with the two of them again in this life.
But, much to my surprise, I found I no longer desired my human's greatest wish. What was really happening is I was watching a movie reel, a picture show of all the human free will creations unravel as I stepped into divine will.
It was the same with being a teacher of consciousness. Of having my youtube channel and a massive client list. The more and more that business grew, the more my soul found discord in its resonance.
It was my second greatest human desire to "help" people reach enlightenment. And that too DIS-INTEGRATED, as I moved into the Divine Will experience.
I will say it again - Everything you create through human free will - no matter how much consciousness goes into your creation - will have to disintegrate before you are fully in your third circle space (If someone has a better term, please comment below). Third circle sounds a bit outdated for me, but so you know what I am talking about...
PTSD: Jean-Pierre is onto something. The PTSD is in the bone marrow. This is likely not your first time in ascension - yet maybe it is your first time embodying enlightenment.
You experienced that "Biblical life" in which you went through the sacred art of surrender into the divine will. You watched Yeshua hung on the cross. You watched Romans kill your family. You lost children and you knew it was the will of God. You screamed to the heavens "why?!" Perhaps like Tobias, you were in prison rotting when your ascension occurred. It's no wonder PTSD is residing in the depths of your bone marrow.
I can assure you Divine Will has changed in this last lifetime. Joy and love and grace and ease are yours to re-claim in this last human life.
D, my partner, showed up just at the right time as I stood on the threshold of divine will enlightenment. A second earlier, and he would have been cast aside for human free will life creations. I hope to talk about that more and more in coming posts. There are relationships on the side of divine will. Something which has only been recently revealed to me by soul and Source.
Indeed, I can tell you with certainty, this divine will will be similar but different in how it appears in your human life. The Atlantean dream will be realized and it includes all the love and all the riches you ever desired - if only you dis-integrate and transfigure with ignited soul passion your free will as the limited human.
And, it will happen so naturally, you will look back at laugh at new energy creation for it is the no energy creation you sought all along.
In honor of you,
Lauren and El Morya who sits here by my side, silently sipping his Oolong tea. He extends and invitation to visit you as well. Perhaps you might meet him under the golden rays of the majestic banyan tree.