And with that, my graphic is obsolete - I will make a new one. Cross out transfiguration:P
Today’s Banyan Tree conference call and experience included the theme: I AM CREATION.
On the video chat, we talked about what we are creating – I like to sense into the words embodied creation in and beyond the realization experience.
To be realized without the embodied creation would be such a waste after I have come this far, my “Infinite I” says on days when an edge of me feels like it’s time to peace out.
As Karen so artfully pointed out on the call, she is not focusing on a goal or intention of creating in the future (no agenda and beyond linear time), but rather observing the creation that is already happening right now – infinite now.
In other words, it is the knowing that I am already creating with every breath I take. Why not take a look at that which is already here and ongoing in the state of being – the perpetual state of becoming – enlightenment.
I shared that what I was creating was a “light” body – I referred to it some months ago as the body of the beyond and I tend to lean toward that terminology for now.
And Ruth stepped into share that in the Gene Keys, Richard Rudd talks about the glory body– a term that reverberated through the call.
I’ve been wanting to write about the body I am creating and what my Infinite I (master, human, I am/ I exist in one grand shining light with one communication) has been sharing with me.
Last week I was having the suffering again – tired, swollen, and the worst - extremely slow digestion. It’s not as bad as it used to be because I don’t have the emotional body and the mental body that amplifies such things. Man, those thoughts and emotions can take a tiny ailment and turn it into a massive one if we allow them…and I have…
So, like Karen, I decided to observe with wisdom what was going on. I want my digestion to work. I want this transfiguration to be done.
Then the Infinite I said – THIS IS NOT A TRANSFIGURATION AT ALL. NEVER WILL BE!
Transfiguration is defined as a complete change of form or appearance into a more beautiful or spiritual state. It is Jesus on the mountain top. It is an alchemical transformation from one state to another – from density into lightness.
It seemed I had been holding onto this beLIEf for so long and now I was being told to let it go. Right now!
Instead, the Infinite I showed me that I had one body that was biologically run and energy-consumption driven. AND, I was consciously creating a separate body – the body of beyond – the light body – the glory body. AND, as soon as the body of beyond was ready I was going to jump ship from the biological one (that is essentially dying) and embody the new one.
Of course, the two bodies are not so separate. I feel them in a nanosecond of separation. One lying in one reality and the same one lying in another reality, simultaneous and overlapping realities.
Yet, just like we talked about seven chakras when they were one and just like we talked about a master and human separation when they were all one, I’m going to talk about them separately to bring the mind along. The mind as a computer for information processing rather than analyzation or aspect conversations. D calls it the second mind, and I like that.
With that, here is my big fat AHA! For the week. It is only for me and like always you get to decide what is for you.
Instead of transfiguring, referenced in all the old texts leading up to now – forget the ancients, we are doing something new – and we already transfigured in another lifetime to the best of my wisdom ---
I find I am transmigrating. Transmigration is the passage of a soul after death into another body.
Metempsychosis rather than metamorphosis. Let the butterfly image go…
Only I am not going into a baby body; I am going into a body designed for me and by ME!
Now that IS creationJ
So, all this time I was wishing for better digestion and metabolism (something I have enjoyed off and on), this new body won’t even digest in a biological way.
That’s why for the past few months the Infinite I has been saying – it doesn’t matter what you eat, how long you sleep, blah blah blah. JUST BE. Just be. Just be.
For example, I really had hit the glass ceiling on my own enlightenment thinking not on the surface, yet somewhere deep down inside of me that the saying you can eat whatever you want meant I would obtain an amazing metabolism. Metabolism isn’t even going to exist. Let’s shatter that glass ceiling.
In my massage today, to sooth all the aches and pain, I realized the validity of Ruth’s comments on the call – for me.
Ruth used to be a hospice nurse and like many of us who have worked with those leaving the physical body, she noticed how much the biology wants to live, to hang onto life as it perceives it, even when the soul or spirit is to ready to cross into its next life.
In the massage, I understood the tense muscles were not just knots, the knots were actually the muscles physically holding onto my bones for dear life.
Like someone drowning would grasp onto a life raft thrown their way, my muscles were grasping onto my bones because the cells that make them up know death is coming.
All that neck pain, the tooth pain, it’s all the biological resistance to this death impending.
It was only when I severed the emotion and mental body response to physical body’s continual discomfort that I was truly able to see the actual and pure physical biological reaction to this transmigration.
I feel like I am dangling on a rope from a moving helicopter way up above a very large mountain range. The helicopter pilot (also me) has been told to signal to me (dangling one) at the exact moment to let go of the rope. And as soon as I let go, the wings that I have never used before will pop out and I will soar. I suspect it’s like a heart transplant only a whole body one. Human example, but for the sake of story and writing things down.
If this terrifies you, and you would like to talk to someone who has actually experienced it. Serapis Bey is hanging out beneath the majestic golden rays of the Banyan Tree. He cannot do it for you, but he can answer questions. And, as always, your Infinite I is there to show you exactly what you need to see in any given moment.
I cannot stress enough that is my own creation. Perhaps some of you are transfiguring rather than transmigrating or something else entirely. I’d love to hear from you.
On the call, I blurted out that perhaps one might “do” a dream walk for the dying body, but when I went a bit deeper into the infinite I, I sensed the creation of the body of beyond is my wide-angle super soft focus and this old biological body doesn’t need any more attention than it has been given the past few thousand years.
Still developing and feedback welcome and appreciated. Without the call, I could not have written this. Thank you!
Hey friends, I wanted to write down a few notes. I'm still in this holding pattern my soul showed me - that it will be June before I am sharing more about this space and self realizations. Yet, I do want to check in a share a slice of life.
Besides my soul whispering to me that we (my multiple self) were releasing identity over the next few months and showing me some sort of creative bloom in June, my soul has been whispering to me about my body.
A couple months ago I really wanted to create a series on the body of the beyond - what the body goes through and how it transfigures in the embodied enlightenment experience - both Sar'h and El Morya and other contributors have a lot to say about it, yet I can't really write about something or share a channel unless I go through it.
Some channelers can share things without having to go through them;
A storyteller must have the experience first. I am the latter.
So, as I said, my writing is in a bit of a hold pattern as a result.
I will say for two weeks or so my soul has whispered to me - "It doesn't matter what you eat."
For about six months, I was unable to eat meat or drink anything. That has let up significantly, yet I know I will not return to the animalistic method in which I did before. I know there is nothing wrong with letting your human be human. I went all out, and in the end, my human nature said to me, I'm done, it is out of my system. I'm ready for NEW.
Sar'h said yesterday to the human self who is a bit confused yet relaxed at the moment:
"Your body is no longer biology, no longer an expression of the Earth; your body is an expression of me, your soul, and needs no Earth, no biology to exist. That's what it means to be on Earth, not of it."
My soul also whispers each day:
"It does not matter what you eat or do now - this body as a physical expression of soul."
This is understood by me Lauren, the human, but am I living it??? Not really.
In one reality I am, and in another it hasn't spiraled down into wisdom as of yet. Here's why....
When I used to have realizations, there seemed to be a natural progression - a move through linear time. It's different now.
The realization occurs or exists, rather, outside linear time. So there is one Lauren incarnation who totally gets what my soul is saying and there is another who is puzzled. They exist in different realities. I can see one linear day soon that the two will overlap. Let me try to explain this again, please.
What's different is that I am not going through a Darwinian evolution this time. I see time folding on itself for this to "happen."
If you stretch out a string and make a knot on one end - that knot would represent the biology body. The knot on the other end would represent the soul expression body/ the body of beyond. If you take the two knots and place them together (beyond linearity). That is how my soul is showing me that this happens.
Should be interesting....
In all of this letting go of identity and the move to conscious acts or roles in the context of divine will, anxiety has come up. Fear around losing my dog, mainly. I have been dreaming with Shakespearean levels of tragedy and comedy -- and realizing there is not much difference between the two.
Admittedly, I am much more in a state of allowing the change than being right now - yet I can see clearly the peice of me sitting under the Banyan Tree. This fracture of self is uncomfortable to the human, yet the human is in so much trust at the same time. I am watching the fear like a play.
Funny enough, yesterday I stepped on a sting ray after catching a beautiful wave with D. The pain from the venom is incredible. I was living the tragedy and the comedy - simultaneously screaming at the indescribable pain AND laughing at myself as I hobbled home with a trail of blood pouring out behind me.
We cannot take anything too seriously in this life of maya illusions!
Further, I have been wanting to write about friction. So many of us, myself included, want to avoid at all cost and drama or uncomfortable exchanges with other people and that is understandable. I can really see a difference in drama and natural friction.
You can avoid human drama unless you choose to play the act (I do sometimes).
Yet, friction as perceived by the human is simply the sensation of motion to the soul.
You cannot avoid friction (human) and motion (soul sense) in life. Even if you lived in a cave in the Himalayas, you are still going to get sick of snow (probably yell at it because you are alone and have nothing else to get pissed at). You will feel friction or motion from the changing tides of your consciousness or awareness.
Just because you stop interacting with people, does not mean you will never have friction. Further, I sense friction as expansive and healthy for the human.
What I am generally trying to say is friction is a natural part of life and each time it happens you don't have to get out of all interactions with people. You don't have to create new boundaries. You don't have to blame yourself or others for the friction. It just is.
Surfing is a great example. You have to paddle over breaking waves that hit you in the face before you get beyond the break. You have to miss a few waves before you catch the best ride of your life.
Sometimes you accidentally step on a poor stingray and it kicks your ass. But if I just stood on the "safe" shore, I would miss all the soul experiences - the experiences that create the wisdom.
Further, there is no safety on the shore. It's an illusion. I could be standing on the shore "safe" and my dog or my mom could get hurt. The only safety is in the I Exist. In the wisdom that this world is an illusion. That death and pain are illusions. That is the only safety - WISDOM of the SOUL.
For me, I am realizing the friction does not matter. The energy I spent on trying to avoid friction actually had the opposite effect, creating more of it. The old saying what you resist persists.
As we move into more about conscious creation (this summer, my soul says), one of the imperatives besides the self-observation beyond identity is the ability to allow human friction/ sense of motion to flow without knocking us back into a place of hiding. I am not talking about hiding from the people around us, but hiding from SELF. The inner world reflected in the outer world and vice versa.
As I write I realize, anything and everything until June will just be preparation for the the human manifestation knot on the string (resenting malleable linear time) to fold over and meet with the soul creation knot on the string.
Your questions and experiences are alway welcome here. Welcome new member, Elisheva. Honored to have you here. I'm glad Momo told you about this space.