Hey friends, I love all of your shares and will respond...eventually...yet I wanted to share what is going on with me right now and why it is so hard to read, respond, etc. on here. Well, hard is not the right word. It's not 'appropriate' to respond in this current context.
Sometime last week, I began having conversations in my dreams (nothing new here but the conversation was). I was going through an awareness of the difference between my soul voice and the voice (not the right word but for the sake of story) of my master self. Like El Morya I find the word master far too limiting and a bit puke-worthy, so perhaps I will just call it the I AM.
So I was discerning between my soul wisdom voice and the deep knowingness of the I AM. Waves of the I AM have been rolling in...I don't have anything to compare it to. It's not integration. It's so far from processing. There is no trash to burn off. There is no fear.
There is discomfort. That feeling like I wrote in my 'Notes' post - like you left the stove on but know you did not. My body feels stretched...I won't say new, because it is too familiar at the same time.
Yesterday was particularly uncomfortable. I was in the bathroom getting something from under the counter and Damaian was out of the house on his own. As I leaned down in the tiny bathroom here at my California home, I felt a very large presence behind me. Damian is a big dude - tall, muscular build. I said out loud, "D, is that you?"
Then I realized the bathroom door was closed. I was alone. Duh. And...
Then I realized this tall figure (HUGE, almost dark - a black hole...) was me. No, I'm not integrating an aspect. Having thousands of experiences in that experience, I'm 100% clear on what that feels like. This was me - this figure was my I Am (my master self).
So I decided to take a long walk alone - even without the dog - a long walk with the huge I AM.
I asked a question without words. An inquiry without a solid question. The "answer" I received about what I was experiencing ...
You are in the Sovniverse - like omniverse. OMNIVERSE is defined as the collection of every single universe, dimension, realm, reality and all the wisdom that goes with it.
In this context, the word was changed to add sovereign. So, my I AM was telling me "we" are in the sovereign omniverse of SELF.
Well, okay...makes sense if you do not think at all.
The GRAND figure continued to walk behind me. I invite it in. More so it is less coming in, that I am letting go.
Letting go of Earth nature, letting go of my biology, letting go of human constructs like systems, concepts of right and wrong. Sure, I did this before as you have but another layer in the spiral of the return to self is seamlessly occurring. Yet, I am still stretched, melting into myself.
I do not care if I die, I tell it. There is nothing I have left to do that cannot be done without a body, I say. I am complete in life. Just come in already and quit following me around. It's so 'time.' Time for the end of separation and a new era of sovereign one-ness (for lack of a better term). The clear drop of consciousness, I think Joanna called it....
No fear. No resistance. I have already died a thousand deaths in this body and lived. I am no longer attached to this body. It's ready to go. But I know deeply I will continue walking on Earth for sometime, just not in a biological vehicle.
By the end of the walk the I AM (master self for you Keahak people) is touching me on my back. I feel it coming into merge with the spinal cord. The base of the neck so irritated from this whole thing.
I realize I cannot create - we cannot create what we wish to do with the Banyan Tree - until each of us are in our SOVNIVERSE. I will not be ready to share until the I AM is done doing whatever it does. Yet, I do have a timeline. That will be June. Then, and only then, will I really be able to ..... create....with you....and not lose myself....without even a molecule of agenda or force....
So until then, I am inviting you to step into your sovniverse - create at will. Create forums on Ryver at will from your sovniverse. You don't need my permission.
I invite you to gather at the Banyan Tree on April 16 from the space of your sovniverse. I have been driving this vehicle for so long, I couldn't pick up the reigns if I tried. It's not that I don't care - well that too - but instead of caring, I'm going to let the seed blossom on it's own. It doesn't need me to water it anymore. The wisdom you add here is plenty.
Like Joanna said and like I stated so clearly in the manifesto, if you are here, this is your creation too. And this creation needs no leadership. It doesn't need anything, of course, but what will make it blossom is more people in their I AM-ness.
Next post, I will share a beautiful poem by Kim, which is the song she is singing to herself and the wisdom she is lending to the Banyan Tree.
One final note, I invite you to sense into archetypal realms that are left from "previous" ancient civilazations, such as Atlantis, Avalon, The Vedic Period, Ancient Egypt....and ponder if that is what the Banyan Tree could be.
Long after we have finished our last lives on this planet, could we possible create something as GRAND... could the achetypal energy/ wisdom of the Banyan Tree exist on for eons of time for those choosing consciousness over automation.
Perhaps we are laying the groundwork, creating a portal/ an energetic pathway - without force or persuasion - into true freedom for those who will live in the age of the machine.
For me nothing is more exciting. And I am not going to taint it will any human garbage, so I will wait until June.
See you under the Banyan Tree on April 16. Perhaps if you have been "using" the tree to heal, fill yourself up, gain something, perhaps you will grace it with your sovniversal wisdom instead.
AND - the most important thing.
The more people in the third circle space/ under the Banyan Tree = the easier it is for people to get out of the molasses loop. In physics - the tipping point. Using gravity in our creative favor as more consciousness sits outside the molasses loop - something I wrote about in my new book.
If you have not received a copy, you can download a free copy on www.becomingsarh.com. Click on reader portal, register and download.
Hit me up with questions and comments and your personal views, please. This will continue but wanted to keep it short.
Contagion: The communication of disease by direct or indirect contact.
Thoughts: The formation of (dualistic) opinions, especially as a philosophy or system of ideas, or the opinions so formed.
A short story…
It was 2006. I was a graduate student at the Lyndon B. Johnson School of Public Affairs at the University of Texas. I held a part time job as a lobbyist’s assistant, in which I was learning the ropes for my new career choice.
Even in the soup of mass consciousness, an experience I was enjoying immensely, I could still physically see energy movement and sometimes hear people’s internal thoughts word for word, something that has served me greatly in this life.
I was sitting in South Congress Café, a trendy restaurant that lines South Congress Avenue in Austin, Texas, with three friends – all about to graduate from law school. We were having mimosas and enjoying each other’s company, as there was not much time between study sessions to relax with one another.
At the age of twenty-six we were all coupling. Two of us lived with our boyfriends. Another friends – S – talked about her somewhat new relationship. The last friend was getting married in a few months. It was all an extremely human experience, one I was enjoying.
Sitting across the table from me was my friend getting married and S. As the engaged talked about the wedding details, why she was doing it –the logic behind it, and what she hoped to gain from it, I literally watched a thought pattern come from her head and into S’s head.
Thought patterns, to me, look like clear molecular structures, almost like viewing cultured cells in a petri dish through a microscope like in eighth grade biology class.
Subsequently, in a split second, I saw a light bulb go off in S’s head. I heard her thoughts loud as day, “I’m going to marry my boyfriend. I want that life she is describing.”
S did not say it out loud. She sat silently nodding and sipping her mimosa.
She did go on to marry that boyfriend, and while the marriage has had its problems, I am sure she loves him as much as humanly possible. It was simply the choice for a human experience, and I hold no judgment.
I was simply observing how thoughts move from one vessel to another. It was an education, which serves me with my (former) clients when they find themselves in situations that do not reconcile with their soul’s voice and desires.
Later in my experiences in which I participated in yogic, spiritual, and conscious groups, I have witnessed a million times over the thought contagion spread with my own two physical eyes and my third eye, which remains, sometimes much to my chagrin, wide open. I have witnessed it in myself, too.
The thought or concept launches into space, and looks for an open space to land. Discernment is, at its core, the ability to decipher whether we are choosing to allow the molecular structure of a concept to land and root, or whether we are acting from within. Acting from within rather than in a cause and effect continuum is freedom from karma, the law of cause and effect. There is no logic in the soul space.
“In shallow men the fish of little thoughts cause great commotion. In oceanic minds the whales of inspiration make hardly a ruffle,” Sri Yuketeswar once told Yogananda as a student, quoting from the hindu scriptures (Autobiography of a Yogi, page 133).
The thought pattern landing in the shallow mind, can impact an entire lifetime and cause ripples than span many incarnations. Sovereignty requires the expanse of the oceanic mind to which nothing can attach. Instead effortless, logic-less action undoubtedly comes from the omnipresent God within us, the soul.
Through witnessing the thought patterns jump in contagion of human actions and reactions, I have seen, first hand, this does not only exist within human groups, yet it has become even more pronounced within the spiritual groups I have participated in, with even more implications.
People who have declared themselves karma free, myself included, become even more susceptible to such a disease of thought because they are no longer looking for it. As we end the cycle of our seemingly required lifetimes on Earth, maintaining the oceanic mind and the open communication channel of the independent soul's vibrations becomes a practice of the highest significance, as our self-realization depends on it.
As I move deeper into my sovereignty, it is with greater awareness of how this law of cause and effect – one many have declared is no longer theirs – impacts and shapes the embodied enlightenment experience. It is nothing short of fascinating. This truly is the grandest adventure to be had on Earth - the return to SELF.