Good morning, dearest friends! I am writing to your from the Third Circle of my sovereign-est of domains - the radiant diamond of my being-ness - and putting forth the facet of the diamond that is wisdom to reflect your own mastery of knowingness back to you.
As we re-define what it means to be in our sovereign domain and how we interact - not aspect to aspect - but facet to facet, I wanted to share something that has been occurring within the depths of the I AM.
In the old New Age days, everyone was sharing symbols of the spiral - of the fibonacci sequence. That spiral has come back into my awareness recently as my human catches up with the flowing river of the souls wisdom.
When we are first introduced to a concept such as energy dynamics, or Divine Will, or the absence of linear time, we begin to understand them on different points of experience in the spiral of self-awareness, which originates and ends, in the I AM THAT I AM.
For example, we remember - or are reminded - time is not linear - it does not have a beginning and an end, yet flows like the infinity symbol, all lifetimes occurring simultaneously, and radiating out from the Center of our Being.
We can grasp that on a mental and emotional level. We can correct our language - it is not a past life, but a concurrent or simultaneous one. We can sense within our body of consciousness the other lifetimes occurring.
Perhaps we have dreams to show us. Perhaps a person from one of those lives re-appears, and we feel instantly the seduction of having that person in our lives.
Our soul begins to create experiences in this human life, in physical form to provide concrete examples of a concept, so that we may distill the wisdom of it, once again, for the human to come with us on this grand enlightenment experience.
Sometimes we get stuck in the experience for a bit - like in the karmic relationship - or once I spent a great deal of time looking into past lives and trying to align them neatly on a history-book-like timeline.
We become stuck in the crystal of our own creations, until we are freed from the illusion of the prison, through the distillation of soul wisdom - knowing deeply everything serves us as it is occurring. Then we can further expand into the spiral of awareness.
First, we understand a conscious concept in the mental and emotional bodies, then we go into experiencing concept in our physical world - to provide the human with an example - and sometimes get stuck there for a bit.
Now I am discovering a new layer - not even a layer but a different point on the spiral of awareness. Not only understanding with my head and heart a concept of mastery, but knowing it in the core of my BEING - without having to dive deep into a human, physical experience to represent the concept.
If I do have something come up in my Universe of Self - an experience that needs to be had to distill more wisdom for the human to catch up with my mastery - it can occur in seconds or minutes, rather than linear years - like perhaps a karmic relationship running its course might take.
Here's what I mean, stay with me, please...
In the last month, I've had a few opportunities arise - that were quite seductive - a temptation of sorts to get caught up in human experiences.
I like to think of them as invitations for karmic play, in which I decide if I want to participate or not. It's all part of the embodied enlightenment experience, and choosing to play in duality is a choice in experience - and without right or wrong labels. In Divine Will, it seems the choice disappears, but that is another post.
In knowing the embodied enlightenment experience occurs within and not in human life events, I have found I can let those seductive situations play out in the absence of linear time and space. In other words, I do not have to create these massive distractions by allowing them to play out in physical form.
For example, an old karmic lover inviting me to meet in the physical world. I don't have to drag myself into that physical experience but can unravel it without the use of energy or effort.
Stay with me...
Instead, I have found these type of scenarios can play out in the body of consciousness much quicker if they do not occur in linear time, if they do not occur in the physical world.
In other words, the creations of soul wisdom distilled - for me now - are much easier to create and experience - without having to manifest them in the physical.
I can create the wisdom distilling experience in the space beyond gravity, beyond linear time, and outside the focus of this human life, which allows me to have the experience I need to have in a few minutes - on a walk in nature or while taking a nap - without having the massive distraction in my physical world, which often left me energetically drained or very sick on some occasions.
When we create the experience - which supports our expansion - outside, or beyond the physical realm, it is a lot easier on the physical body and the mental and emotional bodies, for no effort or energy is required.
Additionally, in the same vein of no energy experiences, I am also finding I can observe others in their effort-laden experiences (with honor and compassion) and distill the wisdom without actually having to go through it.
For example, another master once told me their greatest fear was being homeless. Knowing whatever we fear- whatever is keeping us from the Triple E, whatever perceived limitations we have that keep us from the Magic of Being - our soul will create an experience in which we move beyond the fear.
As I said, as we expand into the spiral of awareness, I am finding that we do not have to create that wisdom-filled experience in the physical, which requires ridiculous amounts of energy. It is "energetically expensive", in other terms.
For this person who feared homelessness, I said why not let that play out in the body of consciousness - in the Universe of SELF, rather than in real life. Allow yourself to have the full experience of homelessness to move through the fear of it, without actually having to do it in physical life. It is no less real, no matter in what realm of consciousness you create the experience.
Then you can move beyond the perceived limitation, which is like a rope that ties you to the limited human and to the limited linear and mental perspectives.
In diving deeply into the fear or whatever perceived limitation, you can then cut the rope that holds you down into the density of gravity and duality and fly into your mastery - or float beneath the grand and majestic Banyan Tree, if you wish.
As I expand into the spiral of awareness, I notice I can witness certain things in others. Even in everyday life situations that would appear seemingly mundane.
For example, a friend was trying to give me a king size quilt because she said she had a queen mattress. It didn't match in her head. Only a king quilt goes on a king bed.
Then she was trying to hang pictures on either side of a window, but the nails on which they hung were not exactly even on either side of the window, so she just gave up. Placed the framed picture on the ground because it was not in her perception that pictures could hang staggered. The trap of local linear thoughts permeating every experience in her physical life in an energetically expensive way.
It made no sense that one picture would be staggered to the other - that they did not need to line up - that is was not in linear order on purpose. It made no sense that the king quilt would certainly work on a queen bed, and in fact, might look even better.
It's an extremely concrete example to demonstrate that enlightenment is not going to fit in a nice, neat box. The boxes are creations of the limited human. They are a result of the confines of linear time.
My homework for myself - and yours if you choose it - is to fathom with ocean of your consciousness, of your awareness, where the illusion of local, linear time is holding you back in your embodied enlightenment experience - sensually, that is.
If a fear or karmically seductive situation comes up, can you receive the distilled wisdom through allowing the scenario to play out within your body of consciousness rather than to create a perceived prison in your physical world that will end up being a huge distraction and massively energetically expensive.
Most importantly, the distinct difference in creating the physical experience to gain soul wisdom - to move through the human muck - and creating the wisdom-filled experience in the absence of gravity, duality and linearity is one thing - energy and effort.
In NO ENERGY CREATION, we do not need anymore to use effort/ energy to create the situations, which allow us to spiral deeply into our expanded mastery of SELF. We no longer need to create in the physical to have the master experience. Though, like this website, we can if we choose.
Instead, we can prop our feet up and allow the creation to move through the Universe of Self, while completely relaxed and without any energy expenditure at all - beyond grand. We can take a stroll beneath the glowing sun of awareness, breathing easy, knowing our creations without effort can serve us in ways our human never imagined.
My birthday wish:
With that, I will remind you that tomorrow I am celebrating me and, more so us, under the Banyan Tree. The greatest birthday gift you could give me would be to come play with me in the no energy sandbox.
Lets create with consciousness, which needs no energy and physical representation. Let's explore tomorrow life beyond linearity - beyond gravity - beyond duality - and into the infinite abyss of our awareness. Let's open up to the senses, which only lie beyond linearity, beyond gravity, and beyond duality.
Part of the reason I shared my story yesterday was to begin to move this space beyond linear time and space, which is the natural state of being in Divine Will.
As we move through post traumatic soul injuries, or PTSI, I found instead of writing about it in a mental way, I might instead create a space for us to do so - for yourself and by yourself - outside the confines of human, physical life.
The soul trauma was not created on the physical Earth but beyond it. Thus, perhaps the space to unravel the trauma is in the space in which it was created. The space beyond the noise.
Happy no energy creation, friends!
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Some of the below story is a recap, and the new part is the in second portion.
Going back in time…In late September I was on an Balinese Island called Nusa Lembongan with my partner, who I call D. We did not do much while we were there - the beach, sunsets, playing cards, and I was writing a little.
One night in my lucid dream state, my soul said to me, “What if you had to give up one form of sovereignty for another?”
“Wait, what?” I couldn’t understand what the words meant. Then it hit me, I was trading the concept - some call an illusion - of human free will and trading it for another - divine will.
The series of events that happened afterwards were quite intense. For example, I had a deep soul notion that divine will meant for me closing down my business. Soul Session, El Morya channels for others, Patreon - basically all forms of income tied to my embodied enlightenment experience. It also included removing myself from all systems, when possible, such as Facebook, any groups other than this one, etc.
For new readers, we dove deeply into systems this summer before heading into divine will.
When I finally released it - the New Energy Creator experience - somewhere in Laos - and made the announcement that i was “retiring” and no longer playing in the channeling, soul session circus, I knew money to support me in my embodied enlightenment experience - if you are new we call this the triple E - was going to show up some how. And, 11 hours after the public announcement, a very large check was sent to me - one that would cover some years. Funding to be in the space beyond the noise - thank you, soul!
Yet, it wouldn’t have mattered. I’d be living in a forest if it had not because I simply cannot work even if it was conscious work. You can put lipstick on a pig, and it is still a pig.
Those of you who have been on this ride for some months already know this, yet we have a few new people, and I like the recap sometimes. Here's the new:
So between these events, D and I were in Hoi An, Vietnam. Here, riding bicycles is the way to get around. D was taking woodworking lessons with a master woodworker in the village nearby. The man have invited him over for a beer and dinner, so we were going to part ways near the bridge to the village from the town of Hoi An. I was going to find a place to people watch while D had his male bonding time.
Once he rode off, I started to feel very strange. I stopped my bike at a restaurant, and ordered a small appetizer. Then as I was waiting for it to arrive to my table, I had a horrific vision. I saw D floating facedown in a river. I knew somehow he had been struck on the head and then thrown into the river. My heartbeat in my chest was pounding so hard. It felt so real.
I attempted to calm myself down, to examine what I had saw. Then I could not longer resist it, and I went after him on my bike. After the dark ride, I ran into him, the woodworker, and his wife on the road outside the woodworking studio, and everything seemed to be okay. It was divine timing as they were headed to the couple’s house, which was deep in rice patties, of which I would not be able to find him. That surely would have caused a huge panic in me.
I did not tell D the story until we were riding home from the dinner.
“That’s so strange. I had a strange feeling, too. What if this was the last time we saw each other?” D said.
Back to the hotel safe and sound, I let it pass, yet I also knew it was some sort of post-traumatic stress incident. I know the feeling of that from what occurred after my father’s death. Anytime to the phone rang, I would sweat and hysterically cry, because that is how I was coldly notified by one of his neighbors of his death.
We continued to travel, and it did not come up again until we parted ways in India. I got on my separate plane home from Kolkata. On the plane ride, I saw it again - D facedown in river, beaten. Now logic actually came in handy - there is no river in the airport, and I knew D was not going to leave the airport to go into the chaos outside of it.
Yet, every cell in my body was lit up in trauma, in distress. I was crying involuntary. I was shaking. It was madness as I am usually not drawn into such dramas anymore.
Then, a more complete picture had come to mind. It was another (simultaneous) lifetime in which D was my partner and was killed by Roman soldiers and dumped into the river. I had found him there, and the trauma still exists. I'm sure you can image the trauma because you too have had the experience in so many lives.
In this lifetime, I was told it was the Will of God, and I didn’t understand the Will of God to be so cruel. It was the puzzle of lifetimes, and I understand it now, though I do not have words right now.
So as we bring up Divine Will - Soul Will - the Third Circle - whatever, I know first hand these traumas will shake themselves from our bones. And I use the word bones intentionally - as we discussed before - a lot of the rewiring of the nervous system has taken place to support the Triple E - for me, at least - and several of us talked about how the “upgrade” is now in our bones.
Right now I feel it in the space where the spine attaches to the back of the head. It’s a dull, annoying pain, in which remembering why it is there helps ease it. Hot water (the mineral hot springs were amazing) and a heating pad have worked wonders as my bones transfigure deep within, ridding the residual traumas, whatever they may be, without too many stories attached.
That's what I have for today. I am still recovering from all the travel and putting my house back together. And, I am so deep within myself it's been a bit harder to will the words. I'm sure it will loosen up soon as many of you have seen. I know I have said it too many times but I love our gatherings like the New Moon so much. It feels so supportive and beyond what we could do sitting in a room here on Old Earth. Thank you, again.
Being as there is no need to reinvent the wheel, I am going to post what Tobias said so many years ago about the trauma associated with the Wall of Fire. It's pretty much perfect. After that I will share my own experience on well beyond the wall of fire. I do not feel so attached to that concept, but I've had many other things come up in regard to trauma and the Will of God.
For those who find comfort in matching a Crimson Circle teaching to their experience (all perspectives welcome), the full text can be found for free on the Crimson Circle website. I had not read this, yet I sensed a trauma when I was traveling related to Divine Will. We were still on Patreon. Karen, being a wealth of information, found this for us. Thank you.
After this, I will be sharing my own personal stories. More than anything, I have spent time pondering sovereignty in the absence of human free will. I highly suggest it if you have not done so in full awareness.
"When Jack crossed through the Wall of Fire, as we have talked about so often, this was a very traumatic experience for him. When Jack crossed through this wall from the First Creation into the void, it changed everything, it changed everything. When Jack was in the kingdom all things were one; all things were one. There was singular purpose, there was singular direction and there was singular Will. All things emanated outwards from the center of the kingdom. This was wonderful, this was peaceful and loving and it was the way things were in the first circle, in the first Creation. They were as one, as one will. When Jack crossed over through the Wall of Fire into the void he suddenly had a new attribute and it was called Free Will.
This is somewhat difficult to describe in the human words, but we will continue work it. When Jack crossed through he now had the attributes of Free Will. It was no longer singular expansion of All That Is. He entered into a new dimensionality. Jack had always been the prince, the son of the king and queen, the one who would one day accept the throne. But now he was experiencing something totally different -- Free Will. He did not quite so much know how to handle this. For he always thought he understood his Mission, his purpose and his contract in the singular will of the Kingdom. But now, all things were available and all things possible. There was no prescribed path or pattern.
Jack’s journey is your journey. Each of you felt what it was like to go from One Will to Free Will. This has caused many interesting experiences for you. This has caused you to be a free creator in many ways and all of this has been appropriate. All of this is blessed by Spirit. For given Free Will – you and Jack and all the other angels and all of the humans – given Free Will you have been able to expand creation in ways and means that have never been done before. Do you understand the impact of this? You had singular Will – loving indeed, blessed indeed – but it was singular in the original Creation. When you came through the wall you were given Free Will.
When Jack came to Earth and took on biology, he still had Free Will, but now he also had something called the veil. The veil prevented Jack from consciously knowing what transpired from lifetime to lifetime. The veil prevented Jack from understanding his journey that had taken him from the Kingdom into the void, to help create the energy and the templates of your Universe. Combine these two powerful elements – the Veil and Free Will – and there is a very potent energy here. It is one that each of you has been living with.
You have the Free Will to do what you choose. But you have also had the veil so you could not remember so much your decisions and your experiences. Now, here you are, Shaumbra, coming to the completion of your own circle of lifetimes on Earth. You are coming to completion of your journey, coming to the final clearings that will allow you to go to new understandings. As we have said to you before, you do not return home from here. You continue going forward. You continue expanding but there will come the point when the veil is released, when you do have an understanding of your journey, you do have more of a complete understanding of who you are and why you are here.
In the meantime, here you are going through many changes in your life right now, going through many challenges. You expected this ascension process to be one way and it is another. It is not what you thought it would be! As you come full circle, dear friends, there is something interesting that happens. There is a step that you will take. There is a step that we bring to you today. From the inside, it is one that you know is coming, but it must be conveyed from the outside for confirmation. That step is quite simple. Going into the new energy to be the creator you truly are, you need to step past Free Will into your Divine Will."
Good morning, America. Good afternoon, Europe. Or good evening if you are on the other side of the world, Kiara, Sue, Donna and Cathy (Sorry if I missed you others).
It's pretty fucking amazing to connect into all your being-ness across the globe. We are re-wiring the history of this Earth, whether anyone sees or knows this is their own business. No YouTube video or Facebook post needed. It can only be sensed and known by those you also see and know.I want to welcome, Sylvia, our newest "member" of a group without membership.
Please take a look back. We started with the 30-Days of Self-Love, dove into systems, judgement vs. discernment and somehow ended up in moving from free will to divine will. Your patronage also means you will get a copy of my next book - whatever book comes out, whenever it comes out.
Also, we have a facebook group, and Karen LeGrande (add her as a friend) can add you if you wish. I am off Facebook indefinitely. Thanks, Karen. I appreciate you and all that you add with your presence and words. It is helpful for everyone, including me.
OK - here is me pouring out everything I know - right now- subject to the changing tides of consciousness - without editing it. I don't have the time for that. I'm too busy BEING, staring at the sky from my New Mexico porch.
Never did I think I would be saying this. The divine will experience has become so sacred and so personal to me, I hesitate writing about it, and I have never hesitated to share anything personal about myself EVER.
Per soul and source request, I have to write in symbols and myths to even convey it, which I am doing so here, in an expanded way: http://www.beingenlightenment.com/writing/the-sacred-art-of-surrender-divine-will.
In this link you will find an extended and expanded story. I add to it each day. Feel free to explore the website, which is updated daily, as I build its foundation.
Yet, here's my attempt at some hard facts and stories about what is occurring. My mother is off the site, so I can also speak more freely. Ha!
BODY: My whole life I have felt the effects of a nervous system upgrade. Even as a small child the bottoms of my feet constantly throbbed as my nervous system was completely being re-wired. At almost 37, I feel that is now complete.
Now, I feel my bones re-structuring themselves. The only thing I have to compare it to is braces on the teeth. You cannot reset bones without surgery, so I feel deep in my bones a complete shift happening at the speed of braces correcting a smile, for lack of any other comparison.
I felt something digging into my collar bone, which I describe on the new website, the other day, and the soaking in the healing mineral springs of Ojo Cliente, New Mexico sure helped.
On a radio show, Adamus once described shitting and pissing himself in a forest when he was stepping into his third circle, as Tobias called it. I will neither conform or deny that I have done this recently...I shrug knowing what is going on, clean up, and move on without emotion. I am so glad St. Germain shared this nasty-to-the-human fact. He said he thought he was dying, and we are.
I want to take one for the team and reinforce the normality of this occurrence in the shift you are going through. It will happen, and you are completely okay. No you did not east something bad. No you are not gluten intolerant. Stop it, mind.
At least we live in the time of toilet paper and running water - other masters did not have that. You will shit yourself, and you will like it because you will know what is happening. You are transfiguring into a master.
All the human will is literal being purged from my body.
Yesterday when I woke up, my eyes had changed (attached photo). The whites of my eyes are super white like they have never been. My eyes have turned from a sandy brown blue to a brighter blue. It is quite strange to see. I am told this is what happens when you see through the eyes of the divine and the human (talked about on the link above), and it is why many ascended masters appear to have bright blue or other pooping eye colors.
I am now feeling the fat cells which contain old free will matter dis-integrating. I have lost weight despite continuing to eat plenty albeit, very vegan-ly as I'll admit meat has become just as unfitting as alcohol (and y'all know I used to love steak and wine).
Neither is disgusting. I simply look at it and the energy of the meat and the alcohol does not comply with the energy of my body. I have not tried but suspect it would be like the effects of food poisoning. My stomach has had enough to deal with in DIS-INTEGRATION, thank you very much. No wonder Adamus is always talking about oats and honey. I am eating oats and honey too because that is what works.
Tea is also creating an elixir which works better than wine. A little high from the potent tea leaves gives my human that buzz it used to seek from the booze. Furthermore, drinking wine and beer was a great way to regulate my energy. It worked super well. Now the tea is doing that instead as I am too sensitive for the potency of alcohol. I like super green and Oolong teas. A little chai mixture in my morning coffee, too.
Also, a tiny, tiny dose of medical marijuana has also been helpful for carrying me through the shift. I'm talking 1/10th the normal does. 1/10th of a 5 mg chew. So 0.5 milligrams is the perfect amount for me when things get real intense - about once or twice a week now. This is only for me and not a recommendation to anyone else.
* I am not a doctor. I do not give medical advise. Please note I do not promote illegal activity. It is legal where I live.*
During this time I have been told by source and soul to open your eyes to DIS-INTEGRATION.
For the past years, especially those in CC schools, we have talked incessantly about integration. This is the time for dis-integration, I am told.
WHAT HAS BEEN INTEGRATED, NOW TRANSFIGURES IN THE DIS-INTEGRATION PROCESS. In other words, internal integrated SHIT now turns to GOLD. Be patient with yourself. Relaxing speeds up the "process."
What that means to you - is always up to you. It applies to other things besides body as well. Here we go...
HUMAN THOUGHTS/ EMOTIONS/ CREATIONS:
Having a very open crown chakra as of late (yeah I said it chakra. Chakra. Chakra. Chakra. Who cares if it's a banned word from the CC word police. ), I keep seeing various potential and possibilities in my third eye (did it again:P).
These potential and possibilities appear in super seductive visions of the future self- and they felt so freaking real - until I REALized - big wow realization- what was taking place...
I spoke of the seduction of human plans and creations in a previous post; in case you missed it here's a recap.
This is important --- The visions of future human potentials and possibilities become super seductive and sophisticated when you begin the shift into Divine Will.
You can recognize its occurrence because they pull you out of the infinite NOW and show you the linear future. You can use your fine-tuned discernment here, if you wish.
In other words, Human Free Will will do anything to survive, to grasp onto its control of your creations. And because your human will has existed for eons, it will be super sophisticated in its seduction.
Free Will will tell you that you are here to be a famous spiritual teacher. It will tell you that you will become rich, look like a model, and married to the rockstar of your dreams - or whatever your greatest human desires have been - IF you just stay in the space of free will.
The visions will be so wonderful, you will want to say YES. And it is totally okay if you do. Once you veer down the path, you will know what has taken place as it will not be in the flow of your soul's wisdom. In that, there is absolutely nothing to be afraid of AND there are no mistakes.
Please note: I have sensed all of these seductive visions as happening "out there" - in my body of consciousness but not within the I AM presence. It happens in the "spiritual head space" so you think it's not human AND it totally is.
***There is the sophistication. It will talk to you like it's your soul voice, and it is really the human free will talking.
Discernment. Discernment. Discernment. Discernment. Discernment. Discernment.
And, the flowing river of your soul's wisdom will speak in the softest whisper so low you can barely hear it. You will feel it in your bones. You will feel it in the space between the cells. You will feel it in the bottoms of your feet, and more than anywhere in your heart space, where your YouMan (human) and Soul meet. It will not seduce you with grand visions. It will not promise you gold, a barbie body, and a rich husband, thousand of YouTube followders, whatever.
It will only say: I AM THAT I AM.
Indeed, for me, what took place was that everything I created - everything I created with human will wishes and intents - was unraveling.
As you step into divine will, all human creations MUST go no matter how conscious they may seem.
Creations you made in the physical AND creations you made with a mere wish. All of them will unravel.
Just like aspect integration, which you all know well, there is no need to analyze each story line dis-integrating.
You only need to allow the dis-integration and consider if you want to grasp onto a "story creation" or let the big, fat story go. The bigger, the fatter the story, the harder it is to simply open your hand and release the string tied to that particular helium balloon of a story (one filled with hot air) and allow it to fly away into the void of the divine will darkness.
It's not the kind of thing where you can pick and choose. You cannot say I am in Divine Will and I am going to bring this human relationship with me. You cannot say I am in Divine Will and I am going to bring my coaching business with me.
All identities are shed. Everything must go. Everything that was created with energy. Everything created from free will is going to be replaced with no energy creation and from the space of divine will. Every. Last. Thing.
As Tobias said, you will want BOTH, but you cannot have both. I do believe it will vary what that looks like from person to person.
But I know for sure:
ALL HUMAN FREE WILL CREATIONS WILL HAVE TO GO as you step into the third circle.
The absolutely glorious thing is once you sense what is on the other side, you *will not want* to participate in those human creations anymore.
For example, I used to be involved with a man I call Jack. In my mind, I built a life with Jack and his daughter (my own daughter from another life). I felt the seduction of this creation pulling me back in several days ago and of course, Jack called me in real life to see me, along with his daughter.
If this happened eight months ago, I would have hopped in the car with all my belongings and moved into Jack's house happy as a clam. It was my greatest human desire to be with the two of them again in this life.
But, much to my surprise, I found I no longer desired my human's greatest wish. What was really happening is I was watching a movie reel, a picture show of all the human free will creations unravel as I stepped into divine will.
It was the same with being a teacher of consciousness. Of having my youtube channel and a massive client list. The more and more that business grew, the more my soul found discord in its resonance.
It was my second greatest human desire to "help" people reach enlightenment. And that too DIS-INTEGRATED, as I moved into the Divine Will experience.
I will say it again - Everything you create through human free will - no matter how much consciousness goes into your creation - will have to disintegrate before you are fully in your third circle space (If someone has a better term, please comment below). Third circle sounds a bit outdated for me, but so you know what I am talking about...
PTSD: Jean-Pierre is onto something. The PTSD is in the bone marrow. This is likely not your first time in ascension - yet maybe it is your first time embodying enlightenment.
You experienced that "Biblical life" in which you went through the sacred art of surrender into the divine will. You watched Yeshua hung on the cross. You watched Romans kill your family. You lost children and you knew it was the will of God. You screamed to the heavens "why?!" Perhaps like Tobias, you were in prison rotting when your ascension occurred. It's no wonder PTSD is residing in the depths of your bone marrow.
I can assure you Divine Will has changed in this last lifetime. Joy and love and grace and ease are yours to re-claim in this last human life.
D, my partner, showed up just at the right time as I stood on the threshold of divine will enlightenment. A second earlier, and he would have been cast aside for human free will life creations. I hope to talk about that more and more in coming posts. There are relationships on the side of divine will. Something which has only been recently revealed to me by soul and Source.
Indeed, I can tell you with certainty, this divine will will be similar but different in how it appears in your human life. The Atlantean dream will be realized and it includes all the love and all the riches you ever desired - if only you dis-integrate and transfigure with ignited soul passion your free will as the limited human.
And, it will happen so naturally, you will look back at laugh at new energy creation for it is the no energy creation you sought all along.
In honor of you,
Lauren and El Morya who sits here by my side, silently sipping his Oolong tea. He extends and invitation to visit you as well. Perhaps you might meet him under the golden rays of the majestic banyan tree.