Oh! to put words to what has been created in my life by my Infinite I (the master, human, and I Exist as one) these past weeks, seems such a daunting task.
First I want to say how important and fulfilling my friendships are in this realized lifetime - not even realized or enlightened captures this state of Being - far too limiting let's try this - life of FREEDOM. Being. Freedom. A resonance without words.
It wasn't until I stepped out of my Vancouver hotel to the bench across the street that I realized or saw with fresh eyes how truly beautiful it is to have friends like you all.
There sat Karen, Joanna, Momo, Maureen, and Ruth. I saw the beings before me in all their soul expanded glory. Momo and Ruth - friends that never came through the CC materials - just as sparkling and aware, and equally unique sovereign souls. Karen, Maureen, and Joanna, who once resonated with CC materials and then made their own unique paths. It's as if super nova occurred in each of the souls, and I was privileged enough to witness it beyond linear time.
A supernova is a transient astronomical event that occurs during the last stellar evolutionary stages of a star's life (the proverbial last human life), whose destruction is marked by one final, titanic explosion. It's not so much a destruction but a massive explosion back into the true nature of self, and into the Third Circle of Creation.
I could see the timeless evolution. The first circle in the oneness, the second circle as we places a piece of ourselves into this Earth reality, only to have the experience of knowing we are God also through that perception of duality - human and divine - that we were never separate. The two parts of self merge into human and divine AS ONE, and we return to wholeness while in physical form - not oneness with others but with the self in a beautiful show of brilliant fireworks that celebrates the remembering we have always been one with self.
All I could 'think' of was the word honored. I was in complete awe and honor of these beings who showed up physically to hang out with me and each other. Perhaps honor is the soul side of the human recognition. No matter how realized you are, no matter your level of awareness, as long as you are still in a human body that desire to be seen and to see others does not go away. You are still complete without it, but my creation is this space where we honor one another instead of making comparisons and having to help or heal or teach one another.
These words played through me. This is my creation for myself; these people who showed up chose it for themselves, too, and it brought us together.
The meeting is everything I wanted the other organizations (CC and Masters Hub) but weren't. And I realized until someone is honoring themselves, there is no way they can honor another. As long as someone is judging or comparing themselves, they will do the same to others. If they have not allowed the emergence of human and divine as one within them, they will continue to place others on a pedestal and then seem to enjoy tearing them down. How do I know? I've done it!
There's something about this. Leading up to realization, we bring situations into our lives to reflect our inner states, so things can come up for integration. For example, if we are still battling internally, for example concepts of right and wrong and the emotional states that go with us, we will bring mirroring situations into our lives that allow us to move beyond dualistic concepts. And then, one day, the mirror stops. More on this below.
What I want to say in one sentence is: what each of you bring to this space, what I bring to this space, is that honor that can only come when the duality of human and divine has merged or emerged into one, that can only occur in a consciousness that is beyond separation of self and the dualistic, linear perceptions that come with it.
In my personal life, I have been in the effortless creation state, and allowing my human perceptions to catch up. It coming in quick too. I'll borrow some words from Keahak...I've been spent to a level of experience that has no basis on the past. Before experiences were predicated on the past, or shaped by past experience. That's all karma ever is and was: The law of cause and effect. This happened in the past, and now I have this experience based on that.
Creation is beyond linear time and has no basis on past experience. For example, I have been persecuted and shut down in groups in the past, so I sit back and share rarely even when I have something to express. In the integration of the human and divine (Infinite I), you go beyond linear time. All those past experiences that told you what was safe and what was not, no longer apply.
Creation from nothing, seems to cover this. Creation from no prior experiences. It's the swimming metaphor I have used before. When you swim you push off the side of the pool or the bottom of the ocean to get momentum to start swimming. This no energy creation, or true creation, you don't need to push off the wall or the ocean floor. In other words, you don't need to use a battle situation to move enough energy to catapult you into the next experience, for example. The no energy creation is creation without momentum, without effort. Motion requires no movement.
It started about three weeks ago. My energy aware neighbor moved, and an energy unaware couple moved in. A heat wave hit. The electricity went out. The internet went out. Suddenly, I have ants and a moldy smell taking over the bedroom. My dog is ill.
So annoying and how did I create this, or better yet why? Well, a week ago I realized I am feeling so trapped and anchored by this condo. The day to day grind of living somewhere is not me. Some people are house people and some are nomads... I'm the latter. That is where I thrive. Freedom to move about the cabin, no safety belts.
All of these little annoyances piled up, in a moment of frustration (I feel frustration on the edges of my being, not inside of self anymore, that is a calm ocean no matter the external) I called the owner of the house and said I'd like to move and break the lease without penalty. He agreed immediately. I called my mom and was direct with what I needed and wanted from her. She agreed to fly out, hang out, and we'll drive my cars and Ollie back to her house while I travel for a bit. I called the airline to change my ticket for the Europe trip. They waved all the fees because it took them an hour to change the flight. I ended up being cheaper and I got a refund. This all happened in three hours.
There is no mirror. There is creation.
Based on my past experiences, I remembered that I would have needed to examine why I was creating shitty neighbors and a shitty living situation. A year ago I would have wondered what I needed to integrate within me. This time is was totally clear that this creation was mine and it was actually a really beautiful and smooth creation to move from this space into one that better suited me. It was a steady laid out 'plan' to allow me to float out of my lease and into the next phase of my life. Creation unfolding in a simultaneous moment.
I am surfing into the beyond. I have been surfing here the whole time. And while I used to write about moving into realization and share from others support for that experience, what I will be writing and sharing now is simply how I live in this space of freedom and effortless creation, and I hope you will as well. In deep honor and appreciation of Self, that can be felt by others also in honor of themselves.
Something new is brewing and I'm going to paddle directly into that wave. Oh wait, I've been riding this wave all along. It's instant, this knowing.
That's the theme of realization these days. You have an undeniable moment of clarity in realization (so limiting a word but for reference), and that moment returns and returns again and you go back into your life and all its defining moments and you become aware that you were only pretending to be un-enlightened the whole time.
It's like a gentle Earthquake that creates a a rolling effect across the planet of self. The roll causes the streets to lift from the core and land in new places and new patterns.
The pathways to the core of your being that branch or expand from your center in all directions. They open up and become clear. These conscious pathways rewrite themselves. Sometimes there is no center, no core, and no edges because you go into the no separation even more. Expanding in and out at will of the passion.
The past is re-written and then it doesn't exist as all because there was never a timeline. In the infinity of simultaneous living, you create from no thing because you are already everything. You don't need to grab at an experience to make a mental decision, you don't even think about the next six months because its already contained within you.
My things will go into a storage unit, and then I will walk, surf, and fly into my creation, knowing I am already in it. And I will write about it.
I took a pause to come back and read this to see if I captured the moment. A yellow breasted bird flew up. No it was not a master friend visiting me. It was me visiting me. I do not need the ascended master to reflect anything back to me. The bird perched on the chair beside me. Me staring back at me. Empty eyes, ready for the mirror-free creation.
The bird had empty eyes just like mine, free from expectations or past experience. Free from seeing myself through the eyes of others, but as exactly as I am. That I am.
Hello, friends! I hope you will all consider joining us for a hang out, agenda free (more about that below) under the Banyan Tree on this magical April New Moon. Please join me in reading Nataly's story. I love her raw honesty (always appreciated here) and humor, not to mention a very cool drawing. And, we can all relate to only wanting got be in our I AM -ness rather than joining yet another wacky group. Last New Moon I also did not feel like joining, so I get that too. In that case, I just stopped by to wave and say hello, allowing whatever the creation is to unfold. Indeed, I think that is what the Banyan Tree represents to me. No energy, no agenda creation - just allowing passion for the I EXIST to bloom in whatever form it takes. ENJOY!
Finally I am in front of my desk to write you.
There are lots of layers in this story but I am going to keep kind of short and focus in the Banyan tree.
I haven't been in the banyan tree since last January when a couple days before the gathering I felt so much pain inside of myself. I remembered I sat in the rug at my room with my intention to connect with the experience but I was washed down with lots and lots of emotions, sadness....a terrible deep sadness that kept me crying and crying. So, intentionally I chose not to connect with the Banyan tree because it felt not right and appropriate to do it in such state, mainly in respect of myself and the rest of the members.
Over the past months a lot has been happening inside of myself and in my life and for these reasons I haven't being attracted to the Banyan experience.
But more than a week ago I felt one of those quantum leaps happening slowly but surely. So, in the past Monday, April the ninth, my house was quiet, my sons were in school and my husband was out of town. The house felt so good and I felt incredible happy, joyful and with an unexplained tranquility- peace with myself. So, I sat at the rug in my family room to connect with myself like I do every other day.
I only wanted to be with myself and my cat. I closed my eyes and I took deep breathes and suddenly I felt the call to go to the Banyan tree. I felt not resistance from my humanness, and I was very curious about the whole thing.
So, I invited my cat to come with me. I simply wanted to be floating with my cat under the tree.
So, I stood in front of the magnificent and always luminescent (with a golden light) Banyan tree. My cat was standing next to me. I took a deep breath, dropped aside anything that was not mine. I took my flip-flops off and I arranged myself into the lotus position right into the thin air. Then my cat jumped up into my lap.
I felt an incredible sense of contentment and freedom.
So, at the beginning I was just contemplating the magnificent beauty of the golden Banyan tree. I was observing in precise detail the branches, the leaves and the trunk-all emanating this calming and loving light. I felt in a state of wonder- like a child in a state of AWE.
Then, I started to feel the Masters. They were hovering at my left side and suddenly I felt one of them as St. Germain. This took me by surprise. I asked myself, "Is this for real St. Germain??"...not answers came out from him. He remained hovering with his eyes closed but I knew it was him.
Then, I saw Yogananda and he was doing the same.
And then I saw El Morya, surprisingly he was looking at me. He put his right hand up as a sign of greetings and he said to me, "YO!".....he cracked me up!.....and I said, "did you really say YO!"....and I was laughing and laughing while he remained with a Mona Lisa's smile in his face.
It was so unexpected and so charming to be greeted by him in such a funny way...and I Loved it.
As you can imagine I was floating under the Banyan with a big smile on my face. I left the Masters by themselves. Then I noticed that at my right side were many others floating, some were high and some were low. I felt like exploring around the tree but I didn't want to interrupt anyone. So quietly, my cat and I took a tour around the tree. Then we came back at the starting point and I stayed there in my Beingness for some time. It was a sweet feeling. Then after a while it was time to comeback and that was it.
Lauren, at first I hesitated in sharing this story with you because of the "odds details" but then I heard TRUST, so here is the story.
The feeling of this encounter was so fun for me that I wanted to make a quick sketch of him which I have included here...just for the fun!
Hugs to you,
We are so glad you shared, Nataly. It truly is all just for fun!! The fun of being in this magical space.
Someone send me this Tobias quote on the definition of agenda. I quite enjoyed it although I sense there is so much more to playing under the Banyan Tree without agenda.
“Do you know that agenda, by definition, is having a desired outcome of a situation? It is placing your energy on a desired outcome. Dear friends, when there is agenda, you are playing the game of duality. Period! You have a desired outcome. Take away agenda, and you take away duality. Take away agenda, and you allow yourself to move into a new energy. It takes you outside the realms of duality. It takes you into a new consciousness, a consciousness of ascension that is not so focused on the energy of two, duality, polarity. Know no agenda, dear friends. Oh, you will be highly challenged with this. You will feel naked without agenda in your life. You will feel that you are – how to say – without backbone. You will feel like a jellyfish without strength, because up until now agenda has given you strength, great strength. When your agenda was strong, you were strong. You became strong in the Light or strong in the Dark. You were strong in the battle of duality. For a period of time you might feel wobbly. You might feel like Jell-O without agenda. You might feel like running back to duality, where there is a security blanket of agenda." -Tobias, “Know No Agenda”, Shoud Seven: The Ascension Series, Feb 2002
IN THE ABSENCE OF AGENDA, THERE IS ONLY PASSION - PASSION FROM THE SOUL, PASSION FROM THE I AM. Today, an invitation to come play in passion for the I AM WHO I AM, if you choose to. And like Nataly has shared here. Thank you so much for sharing, Nataly!
In the last week or so I have been lending a lot of conscious breath (Thanks, Guillem!) to what we are creating here at the Banyan Tree. I sense your wisdom, and I read it everyday in the comments here and on Ryver. Este and Karen have written poems. Momo has danced away identity. Raphaelle recently wrote a song about it she is recording, which I will share here. So good!!
Right now all that wisdom has been put into the creation of our beloved Banyan Tree, yet I want to capture it beyond the fragments in comments, shares, etc. So I posted this on the Ryver forum:
Recently, I read a book, Balthasar: The Magus, and the story of the three wisemen (and more) written by Marisa Calvi (a friend) and told by Ascended Master Kuthumi. At the end of the book something really struck me. Kuthumi's soul in Balthasar's body realized at the end of the book that the three wisemen (3 sovereign souls) had come together to create an experience that would usher in the new conscious brought forth by Yeshua's birth and his role on Earth.
He said each of these three souls came together in creation and that creation had it's own soul. They were three unique flames in a fire of creation and that fire had a soul and each of the flames as spirit individualized. I bring it up because I have been sensing so keenly that the Banyan Tree has started to have it's own soul, it's own consciousness.
The soul is filled with the wisdom of each of our souls, AND we do not lose ourselves in the experience but enjoy from a place of individualized spirit or sovereign souls. It is our creation to enjoy! And it creates a pathway for lack of a better word for those choosing consciousness over automation for eons to come as well as those who are moving beyond firm group identities into their sovereign states. Simply GRAND!
And like El Morya always reminds me, it's time to allow creations the same sovereignty we allow ourselves. It is only then that the tree will thrive. It is only in allowing the sovereignty of the creation, such as the Banyan Tree, that we move beyond agenda, control and more so, we are not building something anymore with plans and constructed blue prints, we are allowing a creation to bloom from our unique states of being. I'd love to hear from you all on this one before forming a full post. A call for wisdom contributions, if you would like.
Joanna, answered and she captured what I have been sensing in words, and we have decided to gather the wisdom up and put it into a book - PDF I will send out and publish on this website - in the summer.
Here was her response/ wisdom contribution/ so much more:
I had a dream a month or so back, and St. G said to me “You each have a clean drop of this consciousness now; it’s up to you what you do with it.”
Back in 2010 he also told me (through Geoff) that I should write the books I was planning (that I never did), BUT that I would be involved in something that would bring me much more fulfillment. Imagine that. (Lauren here: Indeed, Joanna - my books now feel like a tiny little side gig and not my full creation.)
When I read Lauren’s post about the Himalayas, with the similarity of the St. G message for her, her experience of not quite knowing until now what was being created, and now with the Banyan Soul, it has brought together all I’ve been seeing and hearing over the last few years also. I also began to write with a group of sovereign beings, but at the time I didn’t know there were other humans involved! I’m loving this unfoldment.
Coming together in sovereignty and the birthing of the new. My ultimate passion, both in creating outwardly and within myself. Yep, myself. (Lauren again: such a better definition and words than old divine will - thank you! - I AM CREATION.)
What I see, so far, is this: What we are creating here is entirely new. I don’t fully know what that ‘new’ is yet, just know that it is. While there is nothing new in enlightenment, so to speak, there IS something new afterwards. (YES!)
There IS something brand new that is created when sovereign beings gather. The difference between how this was done before to birth something on Earth, is that this comes from a space within that is entirely free from the past and identity….even before Earth. Now that we are in a new energy from the ones before, gathering like this actually creates another “clean” consciousness…..for any being to access eventually. (OUR LEGACY - El Morya adds)
It is a clean slate - no past, no identity, no story, no old idea of ‘family’. It’s like we go back to ‘original’ but with consciousness and awareness. Because even within enlightenment, and awareness and pulling one’s self together, we tend to have definitions of ourselves that are limiting, until we don’t anymore.
It is no mistake that there is so much coming up for many regarding identity and regarding how we relate to each other in sovereignty, and that sovereignty isn’t what we thought it was.
We are creating this entire space of existence where none of what we have created before exists anymore, except the wisdom. Quite literally, timelines are being disintegrated. This may take some time to trickle down to awareness in full. And of course, it is as we are, always always morphing, changing and becoming.
The beauty is, we don’t know what it will look like. We are making it up as we go along. So there is more here, that I just don’t see yet and that hasn’t been created yet. And I am totally excited to see what it becomes and hear what it has to say.
Yes there is the living in mastery and joy and realizing all these things about being here in freedom… and many many are here just to enjoy that and experience the unfolding of who they are in human form…but many of us are going to the next space of existence…and we can also experience that from HERE.
And we will begin to understand the new we are creating within ourselves as BEINGS also.
For a few years now, I’ve been going to this place of what I (as an integrated being) am going to create myself to be. I am combining my core essence with any other I choose…to create something new within myself and to be whatever/whoever I want to be…and from that come the new creations. And there’s always a good chance I’ll be surprised.
So like we are all combining our wisdom to create this new soul, I do the same within myself.
THANK YOU, JOANNA! When I read this yesterday, I wanted to allow it to sink in a few days before sharing, and then I ws too excited this morning not to put it out.
I am crying knowing that someone else sees the creation, touches and tastes it in a similar way - and is a hell of a lot better at explaining it. Sometimes when we get so close to something, when we are so in the creation, it's hard to see the grand design of it all. Joanna can and did.
And I know you all SEE it too, so we are asking for your contributions for a book that we will put together. You can add art. poems, links to music, and anything that can go into a PDF or weblink. Please send those in by May 21. In the meantime, we have two New Moon Gatherings that you can inJOY and share about - April 16 and May 15.
If you are new, check out the Banyan Tree, New Moon and click on the Banyan Tree Category for all article related - or wait until it comes out in e-book form.
With our human journalism backgrounds (too funny!), Joanna and I are going to compile the creation publication. I will include the full story of the history of the Banyan Tree - El Morya came to me in September 2017 to bring forth the idea.
I will go through your shares and comments dating back to September, yet if you could email me your comments and experiences (dreams, senses, etc) at email@example.com, I would be so appreciative (takes some of the digging work out...). This will also be sent out to new members as they come in as there has been a bit of confusion as to what the Banyan Tree is and how we are creating it with each conscious breath.
More to come!
If you have not read Balthasar The Magus, you can do so here if it calls to you: www.amazon.com/Balthasar-Magus-Lets-Walk-Three/dp/0980350654
I just noticed the publishing date on the book - September 30, 2013. It's quite funny because El Morya showed up on my doorstep for the first time in my adult human life on October 3, 2013. What we are birthing is so much grander than our human self can know.
Love and gratitude from us all.
Hey friends, I wanted to write down a few notes. I'm still in this holding pattern my soul showed me - that it will be June before I am sharing more about this space and self realizations. Yet, I do want to check in a share a slice of life.
Besides my soul whispering to me that we (my multiple self) were releasing identity over the next few months and showing me some sort of creative bloom in June, my soul has been whispering to me about my body.
A couple months ago I really wanted to create a series on the body of the beyond - what the body goes through and how it transfigures in the embodied enlightenment experience - both Sar'h and El Morya and other contributors have a lot to say about it, yet I can't really write about something or share a channel unless I go through it.
Some channelers can share things without having to go through them;
A storyteller must have the experience first. I am the latter.
So, as I said, my writing is in a bit of a hold pattern as a result.
I will say for two weeks or so my soul has whispered to me - "It doesn't matter what you eat."
For about six months, I was unable to eat meat or drink anything. That has let up significantly, yet I know I will not return to the animalistic method in which I did before. I know there is nothing wrong with letting your human be human. I went all out, and in the end, my human nature said to me, I'm done, it is out of my system. I'm ready for NEW.
Sar'h said yesterday to the human self who is a bit confused yet relaxed at the moment:
"Your body is no longer biology, no longer an expression of the Earth; your body is an expression of me, your soul, and needs no Earth, no biology to exist. That's what it means to be on Earth, not of it."
My soul also whispers each day:
"It does not matter what you eat or do now - this body as a physical expression of soul."
This is understood by me Lauren, the human, but am I living it??? Not really.
In one reality I am, and in another it hasn't spiraled down into wisdom as of yet. Here's why....
When I used to have realizations, there seemed to be a natural progression - a move through linear time. It's different now.
The realization occurs or exists, rather, outside linear time. So there is one Lauren incarnation who totally gets what my soul is saying and there is another who is puzzled. They exist in different realities. I can see one linear day soon that the two will overlap. Let me try to explain this again, please.
What's different is that I am not going through a Darwinian evolution this time. I see time folding on itself for this to "happen."
If you stretch out a string and make a knot on one end - that knot would represent the biology body. The knot on the other end would represent the soul expression body/ the body of beyond. If you take the two knots and place them together (beyond linearity). That is how my soul is showing me that this happens.
Should be interesting....
In all of this letting go of identity and the move to conscious acts or roles in the context of divine will, anxiety has come up. Fear around losing my dog, mainly. I have been dreaming with Shakespearean levels of tragedy and comedy -- and realizing there is not much difference between the two.
Admittedly, I am much more in a state of allowing the change than being right now - yet I can see clearly the peice of me sitting under the Banyan Tree. This fracture of self is uncomfortable to the human, yet the human is in so much trust at the same time. I am watching the fear like a play.
Funny enough, yesterday I stepped on a sting ray after catching a beautiful wave with D. The pain from the venom is incredible. I was living the tragedy and the comedy - simultaneously screaming at the indescribable pain AND laughing at myself as I hobbled home with a trail of blood pouring out behind me.
We cannot take anything too seriously in this life of maya illusions!
Further, I have been wanting to write about friction. So many of us, myself included, want to avoid at all cost and drama or uncomfortable exchanges with other people and that is understandable. I can really see a difference in drama and natural friction.
You can avoid human drama unless you choose to play the act (I do sometimes).
Yet, friction as perceived by the human is simply the sensation of motion to the soul.
You cannot avoid friction (human) and motion (soul sense) in life. Even if you lived in a cave in the Himalayas, you are still going to get sick of snow (probably yell at it because you are alone and have nothing else to get pissed at). You will feel friction or motion from the changing tides of your consciousness or awareness.
Just because you stop interacting with people, does not mean you will never have friction. Further, I sense friction as expansive and healthy for the human.
What I am generally trying to say is friction is a natural part of life and each time it happens you don't have to get out of all interactions with people. You don't have to create new boundaries. You don't have to blame yourself or others for the friction. It just is.
Surfing is a great example. You have to paddle over breaking waves that hit you in the face before you get beyond the break. You have to miss a few waves before you catch the best ride of your life.
Sometimes you accidentally step on a poor stingray and it kicks your ass. But if I just stood on the "safe" shore, I would miss all the soul experiences - the experiences that create the wisdom.
Further, there is no safety on the shore. It's an illusion. I could be standing on the shore "safe" and my dog or my mom could get hurt. The only safety is in the I Exist. In the wisdom that this world is an illusion. That death and pain are illusions. That is the only safety - WISDOM of the SOUL.
For me, I am realizing the friction does not matter. The energy I spent on trying to avoid friction actually had the opposite effect, creating more of it. The old saying what you resist persists.
As we move into more about conscious creation (this summer, my soul says), one of the imperatives besides the self-observation beyond identity is the ability to allow human friction/ sense of motion to flow without knocking us back into a place of hiding. I am not talking about hiding from the people around us, but hiding from SELF. The inner world reflected in the outer world and vice versa.
As I write I realize, anything and everything until June will just be preparation for the the human manifestation knot on the string (resenting malleable linear time) to fold over and meet with the soul creation knot on the string.
Your questions and experiences are alway welcome here. Welcome new member, Elisheva. Honored to have you here. I'm glad Momo told you about this space.
The wisdom pearl of the trip...
Sar'h - my soul voice - said to me a few months back, "Lauren, you have done so, so much work to get to this space. It is time to savor the enlightenment experience not elbow your way through it. What do you want it to be? This is your grandest creation embodied of all the human experiences. Lean in and enjoy!"
Well if Costa Rica was a taste of it, I'm all in - leaning:)
Costa Rica was the magic of being. Everything lined up for perfection and ease.
There was shuttle driver waiting for me when I parked at the airport. My taxi was waiting for me when I landed with a beautiful wise woman picking me up. Free upgrades on the planes the whole way there and back.
I lost my phone - didn't even look for it (who cares!) and it was returned to me no problems. I didn't even lock my hotel door. I left my surf board out on the beach. Not caring with a single cell of being seems to be synonymous with conscious creation.
I met David, who is on here, and Elia - they were a breath of fresh air - and we laughed and had a great time. I surfed four hours a day. Enjoyed human conversations in the restaurant by my house. Ate fresh food everyday. Never got in a car or watched TV, or anything like that. Read some great books - Travelers and The Invisible Library. Got a suntan. And expanded.
While I was gone my house was repaired, and I got an offer on my house for top dollar - just signed the contract and waiting for the inspection and other things to unfold. Ollie was so well taken care of. He's so happy.
A couple of nights there, I went through a massive integration, which was huge but not terribly uncomfortable minus a huge sore on my lip - that was the only physical symptom.
Mainly, I integrated the Shuambra identity/ aspect/ ancestral freedom AND I was awed to find it was not just the lifetime of Yeshua, but more so the Atlantean group dynamic that really had to go. The Atlantean connection was where the heavy dose of ancestral freedom played out. The release of the need to be in a group of people in the exact same situation.
This is how my realization reverberated in the Universe of Self...
My embodied enlightenment experience has nothing to do with anyone else's. Period. The end.
"We" aren't doing anything together. I AM - AND - YOU ARE. And we can share from that space of alignment, from the center of our being-ness.
The shift of leaving a group for support or a sense of family was replaced by the most amazing experience of self-love enveloping all of me and everything I could ever want was/ is right there. The simplicity of it. The freedom of not needing to belong yet simply become.
Being = Perpetual Becoming.
At some point, for me, there seemed to be a clear choice -- I can either belong OR I can become - the belonging was getting in the way of becoming.
In the end, it was never a decision. Becoming is all that feels good. All that flows.
I am going to write much more and record some notes but I just wanted to say hello. I AM HERE.
El Morya has some notes he wants to share on aspects/ facets.
"Stop calling them aspects like they are a pest," he said to me. "They are beautiful parts of who you are and your story and brought forth the wisdom you enjoy today."
He goes on about how he conceptualizes them and approaches the experience of multiplicity further - but that's just a sneak peak.
Welcome to Boggy and Alice who have just joined us. We (me and the contributors) are honored from the center of our being to yours.
While I was away Ryver has become a robust, free-for-all conscious community, which I really love. People are opening up and blooming in that space. For the first time, I don't ever feel like I need to edit myself or hold back - THANK YOU!
The quote above is a little from my next book experience.
I'm packing this week so fewer posts...as the wisdom distills and the boxes get filled.
In the mean time...how are you all savoring your Triple E (embodied enlightenment experience) ??
The Pause. It is something I used to teach when I began teaching people to talk, or commune, rather, with their soul, or master voice within - in 2014. I was so deeply passionate about showing people where to find their soul/ master voice, this would be my work and my writing for three solid years.
In my sessions, I would ask the person to do something habitual - to play it out in their third eye space, rather than the physical. Then I would say 'hit pause' and see what happens. Sometimes the person would realize the habit was just that - an unconscious action driven by a human aspect, and they would stop doing it. For example, stress eating or self-sabotaging pattern repeating. Or, the person would take a deep breath and continue with the 'habit' yet with a little more consciousness or awareness of self.
I too hit pause since I posted the video letter (channel) from El Morya. It's only been five days, but it feels like a lifetime to me, as I am used to posting every other day or every day for many months.
I have used the pause to breathe, to dream, to discern, and more than anything observe what is going on within me. The voice of my soul, my human and other facets is now part of an integrated BEINGness that is made up of the all that is of me. It's something you cannot teach but only experience.
The wisdom - along with a little bitching/ resistance (I can laugh at myself) - has been flowing so fluidly without a thought, a doubt about sharing it since October 2016 when I wrote my first published Book, and again in March when we began this journey - at first on Patreon. That series can be found on this website under the Thirty Days tab.
After the Thirty Days of Self-Love experience we flowed with El Morya this time into No Energy Creation. He said without examining discernment vs. judgment and using that discernment to observe creation within a system, there would be no way we could even fathom creation from source and without interference.
From there we went into divine will vs. perceived human free will. There is no enlightenment without the divine will realization - the experience of knowing I AM GOD, also. I have had someone tell me you are a divine will person - like it was a category of enlightenment - a type of enlightenment - for me, it is enlightenment.
In human free will or the perception of it, you cannot create in a vacuum. There are so many influences involved in what we once thought was creation, yet what really just building - like I talked about here.
To create as a master like El Morya and the others who join us, the surrendering the control of the aspects so only the soul/spirit/master radiates is essential to where we are going , where we have already been, and what we are reversing into.
Once firmly in the I AM GOD, also, then and only then can we truly create - with pure passion and without agenda.
I look back at our manifesto statement, which I co-wrote with El Morya - this was created last summer in linear time - I ask you to read it if you have not. You can find it HERE.
Speaking of which, welcome, Ana! Great to have you here.
We were flowing in what seemed to be separate of what was going on at the Crimson Circle, and then the two merged - with ProGnost, with the recent Keahak. When I view it, it like two spiraling lines that meet for a time. There seems to be a tipping point needed to move forward. That means when addressing a group, an Ascended Master, for lack of a better term, must ensure there is enough people not only understand something on a mental level but to realize it within the Universe of Self - to live it - to be it.
Here at the Magic of Being website, on the Third Circle, that happens much quicker. There are sixty of us not ten thousand. El Morya and Sar'h, the voice of soul wisdom within me, say we are now ready to plunge further into our experiences. It is beautiful because now we can recognize a two things openly:
1) We chose to incarnate now for the embodied enlightenment experience a 'reason'. For SELF, first and foremost, but also to create passage ways of potentials and probabilites or those who will choose consciousness over automation for eons to come without trying to convince, save, or manipulate - all symptoms of human free will. The "free" in human free will should really be in quotes. It's not freedom when your aspects are in charge.
2) We can talk about divine will freely and openly here. Post about divine will elsewhere, and see what happens. I have as an experiment. I posted on many facebook groups and the Keahak forum. The mind goes straight to following an external God, and people get angry. God does not exist, they yell.
Here, we know external and internal are dualistic constructs, and God is not going to fit into an either/or category. God is neither external nor internal. Yet, that's not even a concept that can be twisted here - because everyone gave up some grey haired man ruling their lives long ago. We know God is that which cannot be explained and can only be experienced.
The divine will experience is one in which their is no separation. Your human self is not separate from your infinite spirit or soul. You don't have to invite your "master" in anymore. It's always there. There is no master and human voice anymore in such distinct categories created by the mind.
You are an integrated being - SPIRIT embodied. Sure, you might hear your soul and you might hear your human but they are not in a dialogue of compromise or getting to know each other. They simply come forth when appropriate for your various needs. In this state of integration, everything is there to serve you - even all the voices that once pulled you in a million different directions - they are now all flowing in a the river of wisdom that is YOU, all in service to YOU - You are God, also.
Why be here in this space?
And El Morya says this is where we veer from the Crimson Circle. He says, yes, Adamus St. G is also teaching this - fully and in line with everything he shares and I share as the Lauren/ Sar'h integrated being.
Yet, a bulk of the people in CC are just now beginning to identify the voices within themselves. As they do so, it will take some linear time for them to do the inner work needed to find the integrated being state. It's no small task and there is no hurry. Yet, we are going to move forward here before everyone gets so bored they leave the body out of sheer boredom.
"We are not going to sit by and wait for them to catch up, though we can honor them and the experience we know is a difficult one for the human grasping onto control for dear life" El Morya said.
"Instead, we will go back and visit when they do realize how simple this all is. If you would like, keep taking the Crimson Circle classes and simply use this space as a supplement. Use it as a place to discuss the beautiful realizations blooming within you in a place where people get you. There's nothing wrong with that and the two are in line. Others of you are done with that space, and I understand that fully too. It's all appropriate."
He continues...and reminds me he talks with St. G everyday....
"Yet, We are moving forward. And, I'm sick and tired of pretending there is no larger picture. Yes, this is a journey of Self, by yourSelf....AND, your embodied enlightenment experience is the greatest gift you can give to this world, this Earth you love so much. If that is something that upsets you, it is time to go to one of the other spaces."
I couldn't agree more. If we can't talk about the imperative and implications and impacts of the embodied enlightenment experience on the Earth (without going all crusader aspect on it), I cannot stay here and write because it would be ignoring the core of why I came here and what I am doing by BEING.
Every breath I breathe is in service to me and in service to the consciousness of planet - the two are one in the same - and for me, that is the Magic of Being. You don't have to do anything, simply hanging out as an integrated being under the Banyan creates universes and moves mountains. Pure Magic!
When you have a grand realization, you open the door for others to do the same - just by BEING you. And, this is the space to share those realizations with your friends who won't be jealous or competitive and who won't shoot you down because they don't get it. Friends, who will celebrate with you instead. Sovereign joy!
It's a huge relief to be able to say it to readers who will get it - who will understand that I will not be out there with my sword fighting evil if I am in service. Service and surrender are not bad words to me. That word police thing gets kind of old, doesn't it? The makyo police becomes the true makyo. Nothing is static. It serves its purpose, and then becomes obsolete. Just like the word and makyo police. We've matured...
One final thing and a few reading suggestions...
I asked El Morya yesterday why create this space when this is a solo journey? I understood it, but needed help with the words.
He replied, it is much easier to stay in the body when you have other like conscious souls to play and interact with. And playing we are. The Ryver community is a bustling place to do so. Thank you everyone who graces that space with your presence. We hope others will come play too.
For those of you who want to read more about the integrated being...
Check out: www.beingenlightenment.com/private-third-circle/how-aspects-become-facets-the-energetic-dynamics
Also, for tips on locating that soul voice within and communing with it - the Thirty Day of Self Love has 30 different experiences to be had.
And don't forget to read, E Morya's letters here. He's been talking about all of this for some time, and if you are new, you might want to check it out.
I will share YOUR Banyan Tree experiences in a post and with some insights from Sar'h and El Morya. If you would like to add to it and are not on Ryver, please send your experiences to firstname.lastname@example.org or you can wait and comment on the post.
See you tomorrow, friends. Sounds cheesy, but I love you all.
On this POST, Raphealle wrote the following comment. It's so much what I sense going on and reflects so perfectly the conversations I've been having with others and mySelf I wanted to share her wisdom and add a few notes...Perhaps you will add your wisdom in the comments section too....
She wrote, "Dear Lauren, as always thank you for this space! I deeply can feel and love the discernment between building and true creation. Between allowing creation to happen from soul passion, without agenda, vs. planing, working and forcing things into reality. I see that those principles Adamus named as Ahmyo life are identical with the basics of creativity and art (those artists commited to express divne will, mostly without naming it so).
And there comes the point where I stumble again and again : connecting with my soul passion I hear loud and clear that it is time to step out of hiding, to start to share! It is so I started creating a blog, without knowing what I will share and with who, to find my many ways of sharing.
So what happens? The agenada comes back though the backdoor, as building the ground for soul passion became the agenda. And of course this goes beyond comfort and the human fears and limitations, so sometimes it feels like effort, as work, as you surely experienced also with your physical creations in the last years. Or not?
And if I don't go into physical, if I stop when it comes to the point when physical action beyond human fear and laziness is required, labeling it building and effort/ what sense does it make to even stay in physical?"
I see this a lot especially with my friends whom I hold in high regard, like you. They have so very much to share but when it comes time to put things on paper or a website, that voice inside says something is off. When it comes to charging money, again the voice comes.
In fact, sometimes I feel those like you have so much to say, more than me, it is hard to focus on one thing. For example, your wisdom, your beautiful singing voice, your understanding of healing, and your amazing connection to worlds beyond this physical one. That's a hell of a lot of stuff to bring into the physical.
How do you choose what to focus on? How do you bring all that magnificence into a website? It's near impossible. (However, you do capture it so well in a song. You make my heart expand infinitely when you sing...) Yet, there is the distillation of soul wisdom which can create the matter, consciously, if you choose (or better yet, don't)....
Old Lauren would tell you to have a deep, sensual conversation with your soul about passionate physical expression and see what comes up. That's old Lauren.
However, I have found there was no conversation with my soul about what my passionate creation was or is. It simply unfolds each day. I do not think about anything. I move from bed to laptop and everything unfolds.
I say and I mean it, I do not want to do anything or participate in any conscious community anymore. Yet, more and more and more money shows up AND I know psychically and intuitively EXACTLY what is going on in the conscious community on physical Earth and non-physical Earth, without actually wanting to know it.
In this space, for me, choice is completely irrelevant and soul and human are ONE voice, although the human has become a facet, which can still have an opinion but nobody in my body of consciousness listens to it anymore. So basically, it talks like three times a week.
I call my friend Tess the master of non-physical creation (I will not share the details because it is not mine to share but I hope she shares her story at some point). She doesn't have a website. She doesn't work at a job either. She has everything she needs and more. If and when she does decide to create in the physical, well...I cannot wait to see it.
Yet, I do NOT see her struggling to create in the physical. The divine unfoldment is in a beautiful ease in her body of consciousness. It is a pleasure to watch and to spend time in her radiating presence. One of my favorite things. She doesn't need a website. It might even diminish her grandness.
I offer this story to share that one does not have to be going big on a giant project or crowd funding campaign to be a Master of Self and in bliss. In fact, it seems to go the opposite way....
Indeed, as you know, not everything has to be created in the physical. Creations are no less real if you cannot touch them with your human hands or see them with human eyes.
Raphaelle, I would say you have many creations already. It's like a buffet. What item from the buffet would you like to bring into the physical, if any? Could you view it as an experiment? Watch agenda pop up and circumnavigate it? When the agenda pops up, I have found it is a great opportunity for distillation of wisdom. Where did the agenda come from? Is it mine? If so, let's integrate the bitch...
Actually, none of my creations in the past years since closing my Public Relations firm have felt like work. It felt entirely appropriate for a while to charge people for sessions (to have the experience so I could write about it not because I loved it but I did and do love the people so much), and I had to charge for the workshop in the Netherlands to pay Sandra and Jonathan. To bring my creation forth at that time, I had to play by their rules and/ or the rules of the conscious community - that collective consciousness thats says unless you pay money, it is not worth anything. Blah...
I desired the experience so I was willing to pay the fees laid out in the contract, something I knew was important to Sandra, so I respected it as I was in her domain. I did not make so much money, I was paid in the experience of the community sharing. That's okay, and I am grateful for the experience with many of you all, and the other piece was only a slight irritation. Worth it, but not something I am going to repeat.
Also, I have found, for me, if I express a passion and I stay in that passion (not by choice or effort but because I have no other choice but to bloom in expression, like an orgasm you cannot hold back) - money shows up to support it. Yet, the money doesn't have to come from quid pro quo sources.
A soul expression may be funded with an investment that has been stagnant and then all of sudden blooms in correlation with my passion, for example. This money has no strings attached. I don't owe anyone a good, service, or my time. I am not beholden to anyone or anything.
I have written about it HERE.
"I watch this line moving also with Sandra and Jonathan, I see both of them truely commited to their soul passion and then it gets kind of twisted by human will force."
My comment: I love them both and see their soul's passion expressed and then squashed with hardness and effort like shooting darts, and that is why I took the time to write them. I do not take the time to write other people. I can relate so much and hold so much compassion. I think the masters hub and the movie hold many potentials. I wouldn't even bother if I did not think the pure passion was there - even if it is a tiny spark, that's all you need to start a fire.
I am not against charging for things or even asking for monetary support. It is not something I want to do, but others can certainly make it a conscious endeavor if they choose. Yet, when you take money for such things, you are beholden to it and often affected by the consciousness of the person who gave the money. There's a reason patrons are patrons, often because it gives or buys them a voice. I know this from my non-profit work days. We were always beholden to our donors. Always.
My alternative: Begin to make the movie, paint the picture, create the album with pure passion and watch all the support you need show up. Take the mechanical structure out of creation as to not limit its grandness. Easier said than done, I know. And allowing. More allowing. Don't punch me:P
"The years before I stopped everything from my professional life, that was always connected to healing, therapy and art, because I felt it gets poisoned when the need for money comes in. That was a good thing to distill, to get to the roots, to make my way through all those layers of fear, basicly to die and to die to find the simple soul passion within. Surprise, it goes perfectly together with what I learned in this lifetime. And all the physical basics are gone, except a old car I use a lot and a flat payed from social welfare. If it comes out that I am constantly travelling I go to jail, sound and feels like a joke. Haha. Really.
Maybe even this wish or dream to have a professional life that is completely independent from Income, or income that is independent from work/expression also is just human will- wanting to escape the density of this reality? Really, I would love to hear some outside insights on that."
My comment: Gosh, doesn't escaping the density of this reality sound good? Sometimes when I venture out of the house, I want to stop having to be around people. Yet, people will be human. They will smile and laugh and hiss and hit. This world will be dense and unfair. The government will be corrupt and the money system stifling.
And then I take a deep breath. I cannot change people or the physical earth. I can change my perspective. I can change how I interact with both people and the world. And I love to play in the space beyond the veils of Maya.
That's why we use the word BEYOND. It is not one or the other. We don't exist either in gravity or not in gravity. We do not exist in linear time or not in it. We exist in both gravity and no gravity. We exist in linear and non-linear time. We create and we build and we evolve. What experience do we choose consciously? Do we have any choice left at all? For better and worse, I do not have choice left in me.
Going BEYOND is all inclusive. It simply means our awareness has gone beyond the limits of maya, and we still play in all fields. We can hate it and curse it, or we can see it as a playground to experiment on. We can sense how amazingly grand it is to be incarnated as self-aware beings right here, right now. Or we can curse it and dream every day of escaping it.
It will always be both for me, yet I choose to focus on the fun. My soul's passion is to play in no energy creation for conscious creations and new energy creations and new energy businesses are a chapter I already closed. There is no more passion for it.
And the honor for those who do love to build runs deep in me. Enjoy it before it exhausts you beyond all fun and pleasure and begins to feel like work with a conscious twist. Or even worse, the "have to complete" the project because I took donor money weight becomes too heavy to carry around. A master never wants to "have to do" anything. The I AM is not beholden to anyone or anything, and their soul expressions reflect that.
In honor of you all and Raphaelle who has the voice of an angel. (Deep gratitude)
What if your ultimate physical creation is the embodied enlightenment experience and everything else - the movies, the websites, the books, and everything besides that experience - are mere distractions in the GRAND radiance of your Being (essence) embodied? Is that not the Magic of Being? Is it not that simple?"
"But Lauren how can you write about no energy creation and share all this discernment without actually living it?"
Indeed, I respond, but how can you create a Magic space of Being without social media, advertising, or fundraising?
We already are - with out passion for the Magic of Being!
If you were with us back on Patreon you know I hated the pay-to-play and rewards mechanism of that set up. I'd much rather people here "pay" with their consciousness, show up in alignment, share their wisdom pearls, and call me out on my bullshit. God knows it is vastly needed sometimes.
It has felt so good first to announce my "retirement" from the spiritual and conscious community circus in October. It was moths in the making to say I am no longer holding sessions, charging people just as consciousness if not more to hang out with me (stupid and icky).
At that time I was living off a no frills budget and pulling in some funds from client sessions, Patreon, etc. When I announced that I no longer wanted to work in that old human control model but from pure soul passion instead, I had no idea where money was going to come from - only that it would come.
Twelve hours after announcing that to you all AND clearly stating my passion from my I AM to operate solely in the divine I Am space and in no energy creation expression about half a million dollars showed up for my passion. It matched what was already set aside for my passion - a place for ascended and embodied masters to gather together.
I loved what Adamus St. G said in the Shoud and what El Morya has been gently whispering in my ear all these lifetimes.
You simply have passion, express it, and the creation will bloom, or it will not, and you won't care. You will not give a shit about the outcome.
I got it mentally, but I am just now actually living it. My human has been so skeptical. Really??? I don't need a New Energy business to pay for this space I want to create? No. I won't care about the outcome, seriously? No.
So I took the $2,500 collected on Patreon to pay for this space which runs about $800 a year. Este stepped up to create the Ryver community space, which costs nothing but Este's precious gift of time + consciousness. After that runs out, maybe I'll put up a tip jar. Or maybe I'll foot the bill myself. Or maybe the space disappears having served out it's full expression. It doesn't matter - at all.
This online, etheric space is so robust with our chats, wisdom pearls shared and received, and our Banyan Tree gatherings. It is plenty. Indeed, a blooming rose, which needs no watering to sustain itself. Lovely.
And I cannot tell you how relieved Master Morya is to not do sessions in return for a monetary commitment. It was not his thing, though he always said he would support this if I chose. Now you all can and do dial him direct.
I do still hold a deep passion for creating a gathering space AND I want to live in it. I want a surf-friendly ocean in the lush garden of the Center's backyard. If it shows up, I have a budget that continues to multiply to purchase it. If it does not, well, it's a huge travel budget. Who cares...Not me....
For those who don't know me, I'm not interested in fancy things. I have a nice small efficient house. I drive a beat up old Toyota Tacoma pick up truck with more than 100,000 miles on it. I wear my pajamas all day and only brush my hair if I'm going out. I eat simple foods. My pants have holes in them. I don't own stuff because stuff owns you. If my car gets a dent in it, I shrug, and move on. That's my FREEDOM. That's my Ahymo life.
I am never going to sell you a coffee mug or a T-shirt or crowd fund you. Tip jar. Maybe. We'll see. Your pearls of wisdom are worth more than gold or a Bitcoin or a Visa card.
In the book The Red Lion, St. Germain is described as always the patron and never the recipient of the patronage.
Truly, in this designated lifetime of embodied enlightenment, what role do we want to play? Of course, you answer for yourself always. But for me, I never want to create a system where I need to sell my bill of goods, or peddle conscious bumper stickers on mugs to make my creation happen. That's just me.
Instead, I allow it (now) to bloom if its divine will or if not, I'm happy floating under the Banyan Tree with you fine beings. I'm happy surfing the waves and sleeping in a beach hut.
Indeed, the Center has already been created, and we are just reversing back into the moment in time and space where it already exists. Do we want to have the experience in the physical or do we want it to simply exist in the ethers, on Theos, if you will.
On January 27th I'm headed down to Costa Rica for some sun, sand, and surf. If a space unfolds that feels good, I might just buy it, pay cash, and invite you over for a juice, tea or cocktail. And I promise not to try to sell you a coffee mug on your stay.
Stay tuned for more divine unfolding....Living it and not just talking about it....
In honor of the Banyan Tree and El Morya who truly held the space for this to come to own its own without effort or interference. Forever grateful.
Bringing the human FACET along in the Triple E...by Miss Le Grande:)
The Blooming Flower: