In the last week or so I have been lending a lot of conscious breath (Thanks, Guillem!) to what we are creating here at the Banyan Tree. I sense your wisdom, and I read it everyday in the comments here and on Ryver. Este and Karen have written poems. Momo has danced away identity. Raphaelle recently wrote a song about it she is recording, which I will share here. So good!!
Right now all that wisdom has been put into the creation of our beloved Banyan Tree, yet I want to capture it beyond the fragments in comments, shares, etc. So I posted this on the Ryver forum:
Recently, I read a book, Balthasar: The Magus, and the story of the three wisemen (and more) written by Marisa Calvi (a friend) and told by Ascended Master Kuthumi. At the end of the book something really struck me. Kuthumi's soul in Balthasar's body realized at the end of the book that the three wisemen (3 sovereign souls) had come together to create an experience that would usher in the new conscious brought forth by Yeshua's birth and his role on Earth.
He said each of these three souls came together in creation and that creation had it's own soul. They were three unique flames in a fire of creation and that fire had a soul and each of the flames as spirit individualized. I bring it up because I have been sensing so keenly that the Banyan Tree has started to have it's own soul, it's own consciousness.
The soul is filled with the wisdom of each of our souls, AND we do not lose ourselves in the experience but enjoy from a place of individualized spirit or sovereign souls. It is our creation to enjoy! And it creates a pathway for lack of a better word for those choosing consciousness over automation for eons to come as well as those who are moving beyond firm group identities into their sovereign states. Simply GRAND!
And like El Morya always reminds me, it's time to allow creations the same sovereignty we allow ourselves. It is only then that the tree will thrive. It is only in allowing the sovereignty of the creation, such as the Banyan Tree, that we move beyond agenda, control and more so, we are not building something anymore with plans and constructed blue prints, we are allowing a creation to bloom from our unique states of being. I'd love to hear from you all on this one before forming a full post. A call for wisdom contributions, if you would like.
Joanna, answered and she captured what I have been sensing in words, and we have decided to gather the wisdom up and put it into a book - PDF I will send out and publish on this website - in the summer.
Here was her response/ wisdom contribution/ so much more:
I had a dream a month or so back, and St. G said to me “You each have a clean drop of this consciousness now; it’s up to you what you do with it.”
Back in 2010 he also told me (through Geoff) that I should write the books I was planning (that I never did), BUT that I would be involved in something that would bring me much more fulfillment. Imagine that. (Lauren here: Indeed, Joanna - my books now feel like a tiny little side gig and not my full creation.)
When I read Lauren’s post about the Himalayas, with the similarity of the St. G message for her, her experience of not quite knowing until now what was being created, and now with the Banyan Soul, it has brought together all I’ve been seeing and hearing over the last few years also. I also began to write with a group of sovereign beings, but at the time I didn’t know there were other humans involved! I’m loving this unfoldment.
Coming together in sovereignty and the birthing of the new. My ultimate passion, both in creating outwardly and within myself. Yep, myself. (Lauren again: such a better definition and words than old divine will - thank you! - I AM CREATION.)
What I see, so far, is this: What we are creating here is entirely new. I don’t fully know what that ‘new’ is yet, just know that it is. While there is nothing new in enlightenment, so to speak, there IS something new afterwards. (YES!)
There IS something brand new that is created when sovereign beings gather. The difference between how this was done before to birth something on Earth, is that this comes from a space within that is entirely free from the past and identity….even before Earth. Now that we are in a new energy from the ones before, gathering like this actually creates another “clean” consciousness…..for any being to access eventually. (OUR LEGACY - El Morya adds)
It is a clean slate - no past, no identity, no story, no old idea of ‘family’. It’s like we go back to ‘original’ but with consciousness and awareness. Because even within enlightenment, and awareness and pulling one’s self together, we tend to have definitions of ourselves that are limiting, until we don’t anymore.
It is no mistake that there is so much coming up for many regarding identity and regarding how we relate to each other in sovereignty, and that sovereignty isn’t what we thought it was.
We are creating this entire space of existence where none of what we have created before exists anymore, except the wisdom. Quite literally, timelines are being disintegrated. This may take some time to trickle down to awareness in full. And of course, it is as we are, always always morphing, changing and becoming.
The beauty is, we don’t know what it will look like. We are making it up as we go along. So there is more here, that I just don’t see yet and that hasn’t been created yet. And I am totally excited to see what it becomes and hear what it has to say.
Yes there is the living in mastery and joy and realizing all these things about being here in freedom… and many many are here just to enjoy that and experience the unfolding of who they are in human form…but many of us are going to the next space of existence…and we can also experience that from HERE.
And we will begin to understand the new we are creating within ourselves as BEINGS also.
For a few years now, I’ve been going to this place of what I (as an integrated being) am going to create myself to be. I am combining my core essence with any other I choose…to create something new within myself and to be whatever/whoever I want to be…and from that come the new creations. And there’s always a good chance I’ll be surprised.
So like we are all combining our wisdom to create this new soul, I do the same within myself.
THANK YOU, JOANNA! When I read this yesterday, I wanted to allow it to sink in a few days before sharing, and then I ws too excited this morning not to put it out.
I am crying knowing that someone else sees the creation, touches and tastes it in a similar way - and is a hell of a lot better at explaining it. Sometimes when we get so close to something, when we are so in the creation, it's hard to see the grand design of it all. Joanna can and did.
And I know you all SEE it too, so we are asking for your contributions for a book that we will put together. You can add art. poems, links to music, and anything that can go into a PDF or weblink. Please send those in by May 21. In the meantime, we have two New Moon Gatherings that you can inJOY and share about - April 16 and May 15.
If you are new, check out the Banyan Tree, New Moon and click on the Banyan Tree Category for all article related - or wait until it comes out in e-book form.
With our human journalism backgrounds (too funny!), Joanna and I are going to compile the creation publication. I will include the full story of the history of the Banyan Tree - El Morya came to me in September 2017 to bring forth the idea.
I will go through your shares and comments dating back to September, yet if you could email me your comments and experiences (dreams, senses, etc) at email@example.com, I would be so appreciative (takes some of the digging work out...). This will also be sent out to new members as they come in as there has been a bit of confusion as to what the Banyan Tree is and how we are creating it with each conscious breath.
More to come!
If you have not read Balthasar The Magus, you can do so here if it calls to you: www.amazon.com/Balthasar-Magus-Lets-Walk-Three/dp/0980350654
I just noticed the publishing date on the book - September 30, 2013. It's quite funny because El Morya showed up on my doorstep for the first time in my adult human life on October 3, 2013. What we are birthing is so much grander than our human self can know.
Love and gratitude from us all.
Completely personal post. As always not teaching anything, simply sharing my inner world, and I hope you will share too your experiences.
Wow or holy freaking crap!!! The grand flashes of realization - a coin termed by Este on Ryver - will knock you off your feet if you are not steady in your Universe of Self, won't they?
Over here, they've been rolling in like mad, and I wanted to share one with you that 'started' in my human awareness last night and 'finished' this morning (because I made space for bliss!) if you view it in linear time.
If I see it through the eyes of the divine, all of this already happened and I'm watching it unfold in real time.
I can see BOTH so clearly - through the human and divine vision we have talked so much about here.
With each breath I take what was fuzzy in my vision becomes focused (a sense not mentality).
I have deemed it THE BREATH OF CLARITY.
Last night I heard the words from my soul - or now - integrated being-ness, "Your duty here is done. You have served well, and it's time to move to the next community - leap to the next destination on Babaji's enlightenment map."
For new people, Babaji's enlightenment map is a dark representation of the world he shows me from time to time where self-realization activity is shown by twinkling lights across the globe.
In the past months, I have been hearing less and less of the distinct human and soul voices and it has felt much more like a warm stream of consciousness flowing through the center of my being. Yet, for a big move, I appreciated this declaration.
My human facet already knew it, yet it felt so darn good to state it out loud and with clarity. And let's face it, sometimes it is a huge comfort to hear those words so clearly from the Source within.
My tenure in Shaumbraland is over. Sigh. I felt human relief and, most of all, I felt love - the kind that is in complete honor of an experience and those in it. What amazing souls I have seen and known and recognized from lifetimes. Truly grand. And, I am simultaneously passionate about my new life.
As I write, my friend Chris (from the Thirty Days of Self-Love) in Encinitas is out looking at a new place to give me the thumbs up if the energy is supportive. He is also Shuambra but out living it and not watching it on a computer screen.
I have been released not by my human self - who kicked and screamed and then surrendered in these last two years. In the gift of hindsight like Yogananda talked about recently, it was never ever the decision of the human.
Others might say if you did not like it, you can move anytime. In divine will of the God Self space, that's not so true, for me. My human cannot do what it wishes.
Even when it wanted control, my soul would allow the human to play, and then wait patiently as it came back home. The human integrating seamlessly with grace into the soul space and not the soul integrating into the human space. Together they inhabit this vessel that is some biology and more so light with every breath.
Now, the human doesn't want to leave the soul space or try to control anything. It feels safe and warm in this vessel of consciousness. The human is happy to serve the soul's will/ passion in such a beautiful way.
All those voices that pulled in different directions now all flow in the steady stream of the God-Self's unfolding creations. The voices may become one for a time, or they may become distinct, yet they are all integrated and in service to the God-Self, or master as some of you call it. It is such a wonderful sensation within I cannot begin to do it justice with words.
All of this doe not happen in linear steps, but for the sake of recording an experience and bringing the human along, I am breaking it down a bit more mentally....
I can see, sense, and know there is a blueprint in my soul that creates, rather than guides, my experiences here on Earth, and no amount of human bitching has been able to change that in any way - that was the sacred art of surrender I wrote about in October.
As an integrated being, the human no longer bitches about the blue print - that has passed. Instead, the highest authority in my life - my soul - released me, Lauren human facet, from this experience because we have the wisdom distilled AND because the blueprint within is taking me to our next stop on Earth. He/she/it said or declared with a gavel pound, rather, and in the spirit of its divine will, we are done here. Celebrate in softness and in joy.
Last night, I felt this overwhelming sensation of completeness in my bones that the reason I had to stay here longer than when I first wanted to leave was that I needed to be here through Prognost, to support that beautiful energy by being (not even having to say anything), which is why I am on this planet (it's not to drive a fancy car and fly first class, Adamus), and now I can move on being in another space.
If you think my concept of service implies I have not held sovereignty, I ask you to expand into the sovereignty that comes from the sacred art of surrender into the divine will of the soul or God Self. The one that shows you, ever so gently and ever so wise, the role you play or the expression of the I AM that is in the blue print of the soul. It is not who you are (none of this is) but how you express the I AM, rather, in physical form.
I know, I know... many here would correct me (man, they love to correct) that being in Crimson Circle was not about doing anything for anyone else, and that's quite true for most of them. It is not my truth, though, and I am the ultimate sovereign authority on my own experience. There's an AND I'd like to add.
For me I didn't need to do anything here. I only needed to BE - the human just couldn't remember that for some time with that maya amnesia (forgetfulness caused by the density of duality, gravity and linearity).
Everything Adamus St. G has shared, El Morya and my soul voice, Sar'h, already showed me, the human, well before I arrived in Colorado or Shaumbra-land.
I know many of you relate to already knowing most of this and it just being a reminder for the human. I am not alone, unique or special in this regard at all. So many of you here have already checked the ascension box and have come back here for another round, in limited human terms.
I simply had to go through it again, so I could write about it and leave my written legacy behind, El Morya reminds me of our many conversations on the topic. It is something I chose to do. To give me the vocabulary that would appeal to a new generation of self-realized beings. One that would make sense to the modern world.
Now this Colorado/ Shaumbra experience is done for me. What a wonderful experience watching my human self and the others around me embrace the master, soul, GodSelf into their lives and finally becoming it.
And further, I was not here in Colorado for only me (I could be out in the ethers having a party - I already did this), yet I held a passion so deep and still do to sovereignly support others in the God-Self realization experience that for the past two years this was the place to BE it and to express and connect.
It was nothing the human would expect. There's no thank you's or recognition in holding a standard, in being an example. In fact, if your presence opens people up, they will not thank you. Most will hiss at you. And that's okay.
In this integrated state, the recognition would feel really in discord with my state of being. I only bring it up to note that letting go of the human need for recognition was one of the most intense experiences I've had in this lifetime.
Today, right now, I am a joyful bowl of laughter and honor for each and every person I came across here. When you see through the eyes of the divine, beyond the human junk, there is nothing left but the radiating soul gems of each person I came across here.
Service is something I have never shied away from. When I sat with Babaji, Yogananda, and El Morya (and Mark - he just reminded me) last night AND I was in the radiating space, we hummed, we om-ed, and we breathed those deep, delicious breaths of clarity. All the way into our next stop on the enlightenment map:)
"Encinitas!" Yogananda exclaimed - his hermitage is just down the street from the potential place I found yesterday.
I smiled big. "Surf's up, dude!"
For clarification, I am not directed by the masters who sit with me - like you here who talk to them too - they simply reflect back to you your GodSelf. Yogananda is not telling me to go to Encinitas, California for a mission. He is saying, "Lauren, your God-Self says with every fiber of its being that this is your next place to BE."
I hope that makes sense that these wonderful beings never give directions to the human, yet reflect back the God Self within.
I had another breath of clarity and divine sight...
Those who are firmly rooted here in Shaumbra-land - not the un-rooted vagabond souls just passing through - they are about a decade away from expansion if you looked at it from this space and time - AND that could change. It's not set in stone.
In this vision I saw self-realization represented as a tall, thick totem pole made of all sorts of animals. And in my third eyes vision, I see shaumbra (no faces, no names) running around the totem pole.
They point at it. The talk non-stop about it. But they never actually touch it. They don't embrace it. It sits outside themselves because of illusory limitations that simply don't exist beyond the veils.
Yet, we all know you cannot tell someone this, and it's certainly not my place, nor would it change anything. Being the standard now, means moving on. I do not need to sit in this jungle anymore. There's another one waiting for me.
Part of my vision also showed me the "trickle effect" as Sar'h called it.
When leaders of an organization play in the mud of gossip and control, it trickles down into the whole system. There's no way around it. It permeates and it stinks like hell, making everything else stink that touches it.
The human thought we might be here to change that. No, in this service experience, all we were here to do was observe it.
Simply breathe, be, and observe. It really was that simple, and my human made it so freaking hard. It's laughable now. I'm having a good chuckle at my own expense. :P
Removing the veils of maya while laying in my bed last night I saw a golden road before me. Yogananda stood on the side of the road smiling and glowing...
"All road blocks cleared. California here we come," he said with pure joy.
Tears. What friendship really looks like.
It's right here in my home. Heart explosion.
The gold- bricked road ended in Encinitas, California. That's where the next chapter of my life of service (yep, I said it without a disclaimer - kiss it) will begin. I will carry this space with me, of course, and the Banyan has no geographic location.
But I am done with all outside channels, especially the Crimson Circle (there's no judgment from me and it's totally appropriate here if you are not - this is a personal post).
I talked with someone on Sunday who has some years on me in this space, who shares in a similar way, and she shared how she stopped listening to channels about three years ago. She said she no longer needed her "fix."
Truly, as addictions disappear from my body of consciousness, listening to channels is the next to go - to make room for so much more. LIVING IT.
The Pause. It is something I used to teach when I began teaching people to talk, or commune, rather, with their soul, or master voice within - in 2014. I was so deeply passionate about showing people where to find their soul/ master voice, this would be my work and my writing for three solid years.
In my sessions, I would ask the person to do something habitual - to play it out in their third eye space, rather than the physical. Then I would say 'hit pause' and see what happens. Sometimes the person would realize the habit was just that - an unconscious action driven by a human aspect, and they would stop doing it. For example, stress eating or self-sabotaging pattern repeating. Or, the person would take a deep breath and continue with the 'habit' yet with a little more consciousness or awareness of self.
I too hit pause since I posted the video letter (channel) from El Morya. It's only been five days, but it feels like a lifetime to me, as I am used to posting every other day or every day for many months.
I have used the pause to breathe, to dream, to discern, and more than anything observe what is going on within me. The voice of my soul, my human and other facets is now part of an integrated BEINGness that is made up of the all that is of me. It's something you cannot teach but only experience.
The wisdom - along with a little bitching/ resistance (I can laugh at myself) - has been flowing so fluidly without a thought, a doubt about sharing it since October 2016 when I wrote my first published Book, and again in March when we began this journey - at first on Patreon. That series can be found on this website under the Thirty Days tab.
After the Thirty Days of Self-Love experience we flowed with El Morya this time into No Energy Creation. He said without examining discernment vs. judgment and using that discernment to observe creation within a system, there would be no way we could even fathom creation from source and without interference.
From there we went into divine will vs. perceived human free will. There is no enlightenment without the divine will realization - the experience of knowing I AM GOD, also. I have had someone tell me you are a divine will person - like it was a category of enlightenment - a type of enlightenment - for me, it is enlightenment.
In human free will or the perception of it, you cannot create in a vacuum. There are so many influences involved in what we once thought was creation, yet what really just building - like I talked about here.
To create as a master like El Morya and the others who join us, the surrendering the control of the aspects so only the soul/spirit/master radiates is essential to where we are going , where we have already been, and what we are reversing into.
Once firmly in the I AM GOD, also, then and only then can we truly create - with pure passion and without agenda.
I look back at our manifesto statement, which I co-wrote with El Morya - this was created last summer in linear time - I ask you to read it if you have not. You can find it HERE.
Speaking of which, welcome, Ana! Great to have you here.
We were flowing in what seemed to be separate of what was going on at the Crimson Circle, and then the two merged - with ProGnost, with the recent Keahak. When I view it, it like two spiraling lines that meet for a time. There seems to be a tipping point needed to move forward. That means when addressing a group, an Ascended Master, for lack of a better term, must ensure there is enough people not only understand something on a mental level but to realize it within the Universe of Self - to live it - to be it.
Here at the Magic of Being website, on the Third Circle, that happens much quicker. There are sixty of us not ten thousand. El Morya and Sar'h, the voice of soul wisdom within me, say we are now ready to plunge further into our experiences. It is beautiful because now we can recognize a two things openly:
1) We chose to incarnate now for the embodied enlightenment experience a 'reason'. For SELF, first and foremost, but also to create passage ways of potentials and probabilites or those who will choose consciousness over automation for eons to come without trying to convince, save, or manipulate - all symptoms of human free will. The "free" in human free will should really be in quotes. It's not freedom when your aspects are in charge.
2) We can talk about divine will freely and openly here. Post about divine will elsewhere, and see what happens. I have as an experiment. I posted on many facebook groups and the Keahak forum. The mind goes straight to following an external God, and people get angry. God does not exist, they yell.
Here, we know external and internal are dualistic constructs, and God is not going to fit into an either/or category. God is neither external nor internal. Yet, that's not even a concept that can be twisted here - because everyone gave up some grey haired man ruling their lives long ago. We know God is that which cannot be explained and can only be experienced.
The divine will experience is one in which their is no separation. Your human self is not separate from your infinite spirit or soul. You don't have to invite your "master" in anymore. It's always there. There is no master and human voice anymore in such distinct categories created by the mind.
You are an integrated being - SPIRIT embodied. Sure, you might hear your soul and you might hear your human but they are not in a dialogue of compromise or getting to know each other. They simply come forth when appropriate for your various needs. In this state of integration, everything is there to serve you - even all the voices that once pulled you in a million different directions - they are now all flowing in a the river of wisdom that is YOU, all in service to YOU - You are God, also.
Why be here in this space?
And El Morya says this is where we veer from the Crimson Circle. He says, yes, Adamus St. G is also teaching this - fully and in line with everything he shares and I share as the Lauren/ Sar'h integrated being.
Yet, a bulk of the people in CC are just now beginning to identify the voices within themselves. As they do so, it will take some linear time for them to do the inner work needed to find the integrated being state. It's no small task and there is no hurry. Yet, we are going to move forward here before everyone gets so bored they leave the body out of sheer boredom.
"We are not going to sit by and wait for them to catch up, though we can honor them and the experience we know is a difficult one for the human grasping onto control for dear life" El Morya said.
"Instead, we will go back and visit when they do realize how simple this all is. If you would like, keep taking the Crimson Circle classes and simply use this space as a supplement. Use it as a place to discuss the beautiful realizations blooming within you in a place where people get you. There's nothing wrong with that and the two are in line. Others of you are done with that space, and I understand that fully too. It's all appropriate."
He continues...and reminds me he talks with St. G everyday....
"Yet, We are moving forward. And, I'm sick and tired of pretending there is no larger picture. Yes, this is a journey of Self, by yourSelf....AND, your embodied enlightenment experience is the greatest gift you can give to this world, this Earth you love so much. If that is something that upsets you, it is time to go to one of the other spaces."
I couldn't agree more. If we can't talk about the imperative and implications and impacts of the embodied enlightenment experience on the Earth (without going all crusader aspect on it), I cannot stay here and write because it would be ignoring the core of why I came here and what I am doing by BEING.
Every breath I breathe is in service to me and in service to the consciousness of planet - the two are one in the same - and for me, that is the Magic of Being. You don't have to do anything, simply hanging out as an integrated being under the Banyan creates universes and moves mountains. Pure Magic!
When you have a grand realization, you open the door for others to do the same - just by BEING you. And, this is the space to share those realizations with your friends who won't be jealous or competitive and who won't shoot you down because they don't get it. Friends, who will celebrate with you instead. Sovereign joy!
It's a huge relief to be able to say it to readers who will get it - who will understand that I will not be out there with my sword fighting evil if I am in service. Service and surrender are not bad words to me. That word police thing gets kind of old, doesn't it? The makyo police becomes the true makyo. Nothing is static. It serves its purpose, and then becomes obsolete. Just like the word and makyo police. We've matured...
One final thing and a few reading suggestions...
I asked El Morya yesterday why create this space when this is a solo journey? I understood it, but needed help with the words.
He replied, it is much easier to stay in the body when you have other like conscious souls to play and interact with. And playing we are. The Ryver community is a bustling place to do so. Thank you everyone who graces that space with your presence. We hope others will come play too.
For those of you who want to read more about the integrated being...
Check out: www.beingenlightenment.com/private-third-circle/how-aspects-become-facets-the-energetic-dynamics
Also, for tips on locating that soul voice within and communing with it - the Thirty Day of Self Love has 30 different experiences to be had.
And don't forget to read, E Morya's letters here. He's been talking about all of this for some time, and if you are new, you might want to check it out.
I will share YOUR Banyan Tree experiences in a post and with some insights from Sar'h and El Morya. If you would like to add to it and are not on Ryver, please send your experiences to firstname.lastname@example.org or you can wait and comment on the post.
See you tomorrow, friends. Sounds cheesy, but I love you all.
In Divine Will, you are not surrendering yourSelf (your soul) to any external force. Rather, you surrender the free will of your aspects to the will of YOUR true God nature. In that surrender of free will of the aspects, they become facets of SELF, in service to Self...
MY PERSONAL UPDATE, FIRST
Hello, friends! I hope everyone had a lovely celebration of the Christ Consciousness seed planted on the Earth some two thousand linear years ago. For me, it seems as if it were yesterday, and I suspect on some planes of existence, I am not far off.
I spend my days pondering Divine Will in a modern context. External god, internal God...my mind tries to wrap its pretty little head around it to answer your questions - ones I sense deeply whether you type them or not - ones I intend to find the appropriate words for. God is that which can not be described, that of which has no words, and in Eastern thought it was never even considered, according to Master Morya, that God might be an external force.
God is within - in the Orient. God is without - in the Occident. And that has been the lives work of Morya to merge the two together - bringing the best qualities of the East and West together. Again, Yogananda's legacy. Mahavatar Babaji has overseen the whole shebang. It was the work of Yeshua, too, but another story for another time.
For those of us who grew up, in this life, in the Western world we were told often and repeatedly God was external. It is no wonder when we try to make the shift, we can easily feel it in our consciousness, yet the mind simply cannot fathom the unfathomable. The mind's programming still lingers - the residual - and is ready for the integration, disintegration, and distillation of which I talk about below. Aspect becomes facet. Mind analysis becomes knowledge.
I have been researching a lot for my upcoming books. The Red Lion. Siddartha. El Morya's channels to now ascended master Mark in the early 1970s. Ancient texts that line the walls of my basement shelves. I am told I need to be able to back up everything I share with the place from which it came. To follow the path of its molding and shaping as it moved through the Earth's gravity and linear time - a creation in sovereignty in and of itself.
There is nothing new, as my partner reminds me each day - the more I research the more I know that, the more I can back up my statements to another's mind who still believes it has free will. No small task. In fact there is nothing more compassionately irritating right now for me than to try to converse with someone who has given free reign to their mind analysis aspect. In time, I am told this irritation will dissolve completely into equanimity (covered in the last post).
Every single little thing that has come out of the mouths of Tobias, Adamus St. Germain - everything I have read on the embodied enlightenment experience. None of the concepts are new - they are all deeply rooted in the wisdom of the Far East. Everything Yeshua has ever said - rooted deeply in ancient principles of the Far East. The sutras. The Upanishads. That text dates back to 6th or 7th centuries BCE. The Zoroaster (a possible El Morya incarnation). That was approximately 1,000 BCE. Abraham. Approximately 2,123 BCE.
You catch my drift. There is absolutely nothing new, yet I have the task from my master teacher - The God, also, within - and El Morya to remind me of everything I brought with me into this physical form - to take all of this wisdom and put it into the modern language.
To think all the work Master Morya has created becomes obsolete in the minds of modern masters because they cannot get past the language of the time. It's a shame, and has created such work for me. Yet, I am happy to "make it new" if that's what it takes, to leave the written legacy once more, one people can relate too. Yet, in thirty years, it will sound as old as the New Age itself.
Instead of dismissing something because the language is not flashy and "new" enough, there is another option - one some might quite enjoy. Read with your consciousness, and only allow the mind to act as the servant to the will of the soul.
However, I will say translating this into "new" language feels entirely natural like I have been studying and practicing for the role, this act of consciousness, for millenia. In my sleep, my studies in the mystery schools come back to me. My private tutorials with the Masters of the Far East pour in. I am in at least six places at once.
I am under the Banyan Tree. I am daily with M. Babaji and he shows me the enlightenment map - the Earth spread out and where the corners of the million souls waking up exist each day with little starry dots across the black Earth.
I don't just read the books on my desk, I go inside of them and interact with the author and his or her intent and the choosing of each word and the energy placed in the space between each word and each punctuation.
I talk with you all on what questions you have remaining in your final steps into the Third Circle or the questions you have in the Third Circle - whether you are conscious of it or not. I sit with El Morya and he goes over the conversations we have held for eons. Remember. Remember. Remember.
It is the unfolding of the next phase in this Divine Will experience for me. The first being trusting enough to create a no energy needed space for the Center of Being - no advertisements - no fees - no social media systems. The next was abundance dropped off at my front door stoop in a giant freaking bag.
Yet why now? Why am I just now ready?
It is all coming to the surface, yet it is only coming to the surface now because of the Divine Will experience I describe below. Without it, I was just playing old games with my remaining aspects and calling it enlightenment. Irreversible. No going back. Imposible, in Spanish. Nicht möglich, in German. No going back.
THE ENERGETIC DYNAMICS OF ASPECTS TRANSFIGURING INTO FACETS OF SELF
Through the Divine Will experience:
Back to my original point. Hopefully, if needed, I talked you out of your mind by now and into the vast expanse of the oceanic waters of your consciousness.
The sacred art of surrender is not a surrendering of the Soul over to God external, which is not a being but a consciousness. We all understand that here.
Rather, it is a surrendering of the free will of the aspects - roles, past lives, humanly passions that disastrously distract - to the Will of the Soul.
Yet, that Soul also contains the Will of God - the part of that greater God creator consciousness that lives within us. No matter how much we have attempted to destroy it throughout our cycle of lifetimes on Earth - it is always there and always will be. You cannot fight that, though some of us have tried and tried and tried.
Then, in our 'last' lifetime, we integrate those experiences of the roles, lifetimes, and in between lives. Man have we ever integrated.
If you have been with the Crimson Circle for a while, you have integrated again and again and again. If you have been part of the spiritual, new age communities, you have released and released and released.
I beg to offer a new energy dynamics - though it is not new at all but simply said in what I hope are modern enough terms for you, the modern masters.
Upon integration/ release/ whatever the heck you want to call it, the "matter", the knowledge gained from those experiences (now finished) of the soul like any matter disintegrates - the death that occurs in all nature. Upon death, or disintegration, is the resurrection, the new life. The cycle as a whole is distillation of the wisdom gained through the entirety of the cyclical experience.
Like the grape vines growing in my back yard, each winter the leaves fall off in death and then disintegrate. The vines themselves become brown and dormant. The same dry leaves that fall to the ground in their deaths provide the moist fertilizer for the soil housing the roots of the vines as they decompose.
The sun shines, the rain pours and by September, the grapes appear back on the vine - sweet, sweet grapes - and the cycle continues.
Yet, the grape vine is not the same. Through each cycle of the seasons the vines spreads, the grapes become sweeter, more mature. That is why wine makers in France produce quality wines. The matured vines they boast are centuries old. The vines have become the masters of the production of their fruits.
Speaking of France, I go back to the Gospel of Mary Magdalene and an old Sar'h Story.
All that is born, all that is created, all the elements of nature are interwoven and united with each other. All that is composed shall be decomposed; everything returns to its roots; matter returns to the origins of matter.
That is why so often Mary of Magdala is depicted with a skull at her feet, like in the statue many of you have seen at Rennes-le-Château. Without death there is no life, no resurrection. Aspects do not turn into facets without death. Without death, there is no enlightenment.
In the releasing of the free will of our aspects, in surrendering the free will of our aspects, in integration of the free will of our aspects, they too die like the unpicked grapes and the leaves of the grape vines. They disintegrate and then upon hitting the soil below integrate in their decomposed state of existence back into the soil - the all that is, the body of consciousness, the Universe of You.
In their rebirth, in the Divine Will experience, the aspects take on a new form - that of facet. The facet is then a chela (Sanskrit "to serve", a servant) to the I AM, the soul, the master self - whatever verbiage you may resonate with. The facet is in service to the Divine Will - the will of the Soul or God Self.
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I want to keep this space free from all the things we agreed on - no advertisements, no ostracizing no matter how radical the view, and more so free from heavy mental judgements which seem to plague other spaces. Also, for me, I do not want to have to explain very basic understandings of enlightenment. This is place for those deeply and madly in love with Self- realization and the embodied enlightenment experience - for those who have ended the karmic cycle of lifetimes and ponder what's next, those who want to create what's next.
To read the old, with your consciousness and your mind facet which has become knowledge driven rather than logic driven.
To read the words of El Morya from linear year 1973.
To know it was Tobias who brought it back some decade ago.
To know it is nothing new, yet your understanding of the God Self could be transfigured - once again.
An experiment for the truth, if you will.
HOW I CONNECT WITH YOU
I can actually feel how each and every one of you reacts to what I write. As soon as someone reads something I wrote, I know their reaction deep within the cells of my body and in between the cells. I know what I must do then to circumnavigate doubting aspects or find new language which suits the current situation. I know what is your I AM speaking to me (generally, and as a group whole) and I know what is not, with both discernment and compassion, and without you writing a single word. It allows me to mold and shift my words to fit your passions and desires to capture a snapshot of this beautiful embodied enlightenment experience. My human would not choose this role, but my soul has. Trust me, before I hit publish, my human heart skips a beat, and my I AM shines like a diamond - simultaneously.
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A SIGNIFICANT CENTER FOR BEING UPDATE WRITTEN BY SAR'H AND EL MORYA TOGETHER
Remember when you were a kid or perhaps even as an adult, and you would have a grand idea for creation - a magic one without regard to linear space, time, and limits.
And then - inevitably - you would share with with a parent or friend and they would tell you all the ways it was not possible.
For example, maybe as a child you said you were going to create an experiences theme park. In this theme park, there would be no gravity so anything not nailed down would float. You didn't think about money because it was not needed to create. Each child in the the amusement park would be given a wand to perform magic tricks - optical illusions - with the flick of their magic wand.
Then your parents or friends would say stuff like:
"You are just a child. You don't get it. This would costs millions, and you have no money."
"Magic doesn't exist."
"This theme park of yours would be begging for a lawsuit."
The lists goes on.
A truly masterful idea of creation was then reduced to ruins as one person after another piled their old belief systems on top of your expression and experience - over and over again.
In other words, they beleaguered your creation with their be-LIE-fs.
Beliefs like you need money to create. Magic is a lie. Fun is dangerous.
"Go home. Get out of my creation!"
Whatever the lie the person believes to be true about their reality - called by the human: beliefs - they place it on the creation and burn it to the ground, but not before taking a hammer to it. They take your idea and beat it to death with a stick made of their own limitations - called by the human: beliefs.
Beliefs are just that: LIES AND LIMITATIONS.
If you were a child when this happened repeatedly, it is likely after a while you decided to keep your visions and creations to yourself or only share with a friend who knew magic was just as real as this physical world.
In our mastery, when we have creations and manifestations coming forth, we often keep them to ourselves after being beaten down by others beliefs again and again. We know the drill.
Yes, there is a reason, masters don't talk very much. Because they know what happens when people place their doubts, fears, limits, and lies upon something - they can reduce them to shit. A watered down version of creation.
The soul is no longer expressing and experiencing. The human is trying to build a house of wood made of limitations and belief systems. Systems were something we discussed at length this summer, remember? Beliefs come in the form of systems; they do not stand alone.
In master level creation, the master is the vessel for spirit/ soul / the God (also) part of our nature - whose passions are two things: expression and experience. No emotion. No thoughts. No limits. No bank accounts or Earth-bound laws.
The master knows anything and everything is possible.
The master knows limits are lies.
The master knows there is always a blank canvas on which to paint the expression.
Perhaps the amusement park is created in the non-physical world, and the master goes each night to play with their master friends. Those who still hold the be-LIE-fs and limiting thoughts, of course, do not go visit and play because they cannot see what their human mind-level beliefs will not let them.
You don't think you have limiting beliefs? Try this one with me, and watch what comes up inside of you sphere of consciousness.
For the last two months, El Morya has talked with me about coming into a physical body. Reincarnating.
Watch the beliefs as they pop up for you one by one:
"An ascended master would never reincarnate. That would be stupid."
Ok - Saint Germain came in as Mark Twain, well after his ascension on a linear time line.
One of the lies and limitations in this thought would be that time is linear and a belief that there is such as things as past and future lives. They are all happening now, simultaneously.
"An ascended master would never come into a baby's body."
Yogananda sure did, and he even wrote about it in his book, Autobiography of Yogi.
More lies and more limits will come up as you ponder this. I am not saying this to judge. I am providing an opportunity to watch and observe where limiting beliefs are still playing a role in your creation experiences.
*** I will not say if this is a true story or not right now because I don't want to be whipped by other's limitations. It's simply an exercise in observing, or becoming self-aware in what beliefs are still whipping you around, especially around creation. What lies are you still telling yourself and calling them beliefs?
If you want to discuss it with El Morya directly, feel free.
I am not immune. Yet, through the eyes of the master I simply see the lies and limitations floating around, and they rarely have a place to land in my thoughts and in my words.
If they do land in my thoughts and/or words, I notice immediately and make a note of observation. Not correction, observation.
"How did that trash get in there?" I ask myself without beating myself up. I move on and the muscle memory of the sensation allows me to not have the experience again unless I consciously choose it - after a little practice.
It is not that the beliefs will not still be buzzing around you ever again. It's just that they will not have any place to land. ***
With that, let's play in creative expression without limits:
First, I like to create in the non-physical where there is no should or supposed to. There is no duality or linearity. There is no money. That's how I wrote my book - out in the ethers and then I brought "down" to the physical.
Try this, if you please.
Breathe and turn internal. Connect to the master creator within you.
Individually we are going on a journey.
First, cross the road that is humanity.
Then walk a path deep into the forest. Hear the birds chirp and the leaves crunch beneath your feet.
Notice the smells and sensations.
Next, you come to a gate that is locked. Open the gate without effort.
Inside is a garden. A blank canvas for you to add any plants, tress, or animals to your liking.
Does the garden have gravity?
You decide what is going on in your garden.
Does it have animals that are extinct or ones who have never been on physical earth?
What about water? Perhaps there is an entire ocean within your personal master garden.
As you walk or float through creating whatever it is - see what beliefs come up, what limits - as you notice them add something to your garden which destroys the myth.
For example, plants must grow in the ground.
Ok, now it is time to create a plant that grows in the air suspended.
Continue to express and experience your garden creation.
As we move forward here in creating our etheric space for the Center of Being, I am holding a space - a waste basket of sorts - outside the Banyan Tree. It is a place for you to deposit those old limiting belief systems.
Don't worry, we will recycle them - dumping the container back down on old Earth, where the lies we tell ourselves called beliefs are welcome. Yet, there is no place for them under the golden branches of the Majestic Banyan Tree.
If this is too much, that's okay. There are so many playgrounds to play in beliefs and local linear limitations. We will honor you in that experience.
Yet, as El Morya and I continue to create the Center of Being (as well as you - in your master version of Self) why not try placing the beleaguering beliefs at the door - I know at the soul level you would never want that to hinder the experience that is the Magic of Being.
Currently, we have been creating with broad stokes (as Karen would say) the gardens surrounding the Banyan Tree.
El Morya and I have been creating limitless pathways for others to discover the Banyan, from all walks of life and all types of mastery.
We are setting up pathways that beget the soul's passion to let go - sovereignly, of course - of all limits - pathways leading to the Banyan Tree.
We are creating a conducive environment for those choosing the embodied enlightenment experience to go beyond the mind and emotions.
Those who sense they are drawn to the Banyan Tree will then be able to choose, in the sovereign will, whether they would like to have this limitless experience or not.
As we create the pathways - none are straight forward, they spiral and dance through the cosmos.
One is the divine will experience.
Another the end of the karmic cycle of human reincarnation without awareness of pattern.
The next is simply a passion for being - a complete self-awareness. And on...
They are not just garden paths, but experience vortexes and roller coasters of epic proportions - but they all lead to the Center of Being - Your Being.
Who decides to enter? Well, we leave that completely open.
These stories are in the format of the book, Memoirs of a Master by Adamus Saint-Germain. I love reading this book from the perspective of a new master, and the learning curve that comes with it - rather than the perspective of a student - although I can identify with that as well. I have written it in third person to make it clearer for me.
It was 2014, and the New Master, Sar'h, still held some of her human qualities, one of which was a desire for human romance. So Lauren accepted dates as they came up, but the same story line always played out.
On her first date with Joe, he had told her his mom had left the physical body recently. He said he knew there was life after death now from his experiences, and he knew there was much more to the Universe that what man saw with his two physical eyes.
"That's nice," Lauren thought. "I can be myself. He is aware."
As they talked and went on further dates, she noticed the roles changing. He saw her as a teacher - someone to learn from. Each date ended up being a session of sorts in which Joe asked questions about the nature of enlightenment and Lauren answered them as the Master.
Lauren had told Joe about her relationship with El Morya. Instead of inquiring what it was like for Lauren and how it impacted her life, he wanted a reading from El Morya - right now. What did El Morya have to say about his life, about his journey? Lauren was not seen as a person, but as some sort of oracle or free teacher/ healer/ guide.
Lauren told Joe it was not appropriate to ask her such questions, and that El Morya had nothing to share with him.
"You are doing alright on your own, Joe," she said. "Everything is unfolding in divine perfection."
Joe became angry. "I want to see him NOW. Make him appear."
"Well, Joe, El Morya doesn't appear on demand. In fact, he never appears in the way you wish to see him."
Joe had said he wanted him or any Ascended Master to appear in such a physical state "you could bounce a quarter (coin) off of them."
The notion was insulting and ludicrous.
The more he went into his human need to see an ascended master, the angrier he became.
He begged, pleaded, and then demanded that Lauren teach him the ways of the magus - right here, right now.
He was so desperate, Lauren tried to show him some ways to connect with his own wisdom.
His own wisdom - fuck that - he wanted answers from a master! And he wanted them now!
The angrier he became the more Lauren began to sink into her mastery. She had given him a pearl and he had cast it before the dogs and the swine. (See related post)
The master, Sar'h, sat and watched this all patiently, allowing Lauren to learn, or remember, something or many things, rather.
First, dating was not going to be a part of this enlightenment lifetime. Sar'h had pointed out every single boyfriend she had experienced. Each and everyone thought they were attracted to Lauren physically, yet each demonstrated that they sought her awareness, her light more than anything.
Sarah asked Lauren, "Have you ever been on a date when you weren't "helping" the man out, answering his questions, and providing solutions to his spiritual crises?"
"Well, no, I have not, not since I became aware of who I AM," Lauren replied.
It was that neediness from others who did not know the kingdom was within - again.
You could tell them a million ways they did not need healing, readings, workshops, or anything external to know they were God, also - but it never sunk in. Their eyes would become hazy when she talked about the kingdom within. These men where not even capable of understanding that - very few were - she knew this from other lifetimes.
When Lauren did not give them what they needed, they would go to someone else for energy - someone to stroke their egos, so to say.
In 2014, Lauren had been so blinded by the need to belong - the human desire to be desired - that she continued to accept dates until one day, she realized what was occurring inside of her. Then she stepped back into her mastery.
"Lauren, dear, you are never going to have a boyfriend in the human way. I watched with compassion as you put yourself in these situations over and over again to show you something. It's time to move on," Sar'h said and continued...
"The master has to give up perceived human comforts - and there will be many more to renounce with joy - and one of those is fulfilling the human desire for a boyfriend. I know it sounds harsh now, but one day you will realize that was some old aspect playing in human free will who needed that boyfriend, not you - the master.
The boyfriends know enough to see your light of awareness, but they will never match you in awareness in this lifetime. Not only boyfriends will fall away, but also your need for any external energy force. I know you cannot see it now but one day you will not even need to eat to live, to be. You won't want to fill yourself up with wine and cheap talk as you do now. You will relish in being alone on a Saturday night.
You have come to the fork in the road in which you can now leave this pattern of trying to find 'the one.' You are the ONE. You know that. You always have.
As for the rest, continue to live your life. Continue to feed on your addictions whatever they may be. Allow them to run their course, just as you have in dating so much. One day very soon, you will wake up and not desire a single thing outside of yourself."
Lauren didn't know what to believe, but she trusted Sar'h, and she knew she was right at least on the dating.
It had been exhausting. Every man wanted something from her - not her body, but her inner light - and that was not something she could give. She had given her soul to another man in another lifetime, and after twelve lives had finally reclaimed it. (Another story for another time.)
Lauren was lonely at first, and then she started to realize she was not alone. Instead, she was in the company of masters - ones without physical form - but ones who knew how to be a friend without needing anything from her. It was a steep learning curve, but one Lauren was happy to experience.
Lauren's desire to become herself had trumped Lauren's desire to belong - once again.
It was not a pattern she needed to repeat. This time she was honest with herself about the nature of her own needs and the patterns they created, keeping her from her mastery.
And indeed, Lauren did not know it at a human capacity then, but in 2017, she would wake up not needing food, wine, the company of human friends or boyfriends, or anything from outside of herself.
It was and is beyond Lauren's wildest human imagination as most things in mastery are.
Step of the edge, and you will fly, too.
What human needs are keeping you in the patterns that hold your from claiming your mastery? Can you be honest in your answers?
These stories are in the format of the book, Memoirs of a Master by Adamus Saint-Germain. I love reading this book from the perspective of a new master, and the learning curve that comes with it - rather than the perspective of a student - although I can identify with that as well. I have written it in third person to make it clearer for me. Please note this is a composite character and the timeline may very slightly from linear time for story sake.
The master, Sar'h, had a friend who proclaimed she desperately wanted to achieve enlightenment in this life. Let’s call her Andrea. Andrea took all the courses - she had for two decades, maybe more. She spoke the conscious language like a pro, yet she always seemed to be in some sort of external battle - clearly a distraction from having to face what was going on inside of her.
Andrea came to the master one day asking for money. $5,000 to be exact. To be paid back in two months with interest, of course. The money was for her new business. She had taken a course on conscious creation, and she was going to get it right this time, applying what she learned.
The master looked into her purview. The master did not see her as a student but also a dear friend. When she looked into the body of consciousness of the friend, she knew that there was no way the business was going to succeed, yet the master knew that Andrea needed to have this experience - to fall on her face - to see what was really occurring within her. In fact, Andrea's soul even begged to have the experience - to create an opportunity for the human Andrea to step out of the prison she created over and over and over again.
The master had plenty of money - she never had to work since she stepped into her mastery. But her human self wanted to warn the friend that she would fail and lose money. The master in her said that was not appropriate and this friend needed to learn the lesson on her own - to integrate it - so she lent her the money. And then she waited and watched.
Catastrophe after catastrophe occurred in Andrea’s life. The new master watched with compassion. She never judged her friend, but watched with compassion Andrea fall and fall again. Andrea finally came to her. I am so sorry I cannot pay the money back.
Then the master noticed Andrea was constantly spending money on things the master never spent money on. She was always paying for sessions with spiritual teachers, going out and buying expensive meals and fancy alcoholic drinks, chiropractors, body treatments, new clothes, new shoes. The list went on.
After a year passed, the master said relaxed and calm, "Hey, it is time to pay me back, friend."
By this time Andrea admitted the she had spent the money on the business she had now abandoned. After some conversations, Andrea finally admitted she had a retirement account that she could use to pay the master back. The money was coming any day now, Andrea told the master over and over again.
The master felt steady in that she would pay her back, and she was not worried about it. Yet, watching Andrea she knew she had not learned her lesson. She watched Andrea continue to spend money with reckless abandon. Andrea kept saying she would pay the money back. That she was back on track. That she had a new business plan. That she wasn't shopping anymore. Well, Andrea, said a lot of things. In fact, she rarely stopped talking; she rarely listened.
The thing is Andrea was being as honest as she knew how to be. In her mind, she had it all figured out. She twisted around the language of the spiritual teachers she followed to fit her situation. She said this situation had been about self-love - something all the teachers were talking about these days. The master knew that Andrea could not love herself because she did not know herself.
Yet, the master knew as much as Andrea thought she was telling the truth, she was not only lying to the master - worse - she was lying to herself. She had lied to herself for so long, she didn’t even know the truth anymore.
Lauren, the human, was heartbroken, watching the destruction occur helpless, yet her inner master said this was an important experience to have, to bring Lauren through. The master said there was a learning curve in owning her mastery in this life, and this friend was showing her something worth more than $5,000 - worth more than money could buy.
The master and Lauren both gently hinted about being paid back and what was going on in Andrea’s life. Andrea asked for advice almost daily now, but never actually listened to what the master had to say - showing her where to look not what to see.
Andrea continued in her ways. When she drank too much at an event she would cling her glass to give a toast in which she proclaimed her mastery and extreme abundance. Her speeches were Oscar-worthy, the master noted.
Lauren counted at the master's advising. Seven times over the course of one year, she gave Andrea the advice she asked for. She was patient in being paid back. Then she watched Andrea spend more than the money owed on frivolous gifts for herself and others.
On the eighth time Andrea came to the Master for advice and to apologize and to give excuses again for not paying her back, the master flipped her demeanor.
“Not only have you disrespected me, Andrea,” she said. “Worse, you have disrespected yourself.”
Andrea protested in alarm. “I have not. I have been totally honest with you.”
“You have the money to pay me back in your retirement account, Andrea,” the master said. “I expect by the end of the week.”
“That’s going to put me in a bind, “ Andrea told the master. “I have to pay taxes on the money to give it to you. Couldn’t I just pay you back over time, in small installments?”
The master had allowed the installments once before with another student, a student who also did the same things as Andrea. She knew that old trick. It was something she did not need to learn again.
"Thank goodness," Lauren thought, relieved. Lauren, the human, had found this whole situation stressful. The master, Sar'h, was calm and that calmed her too, but this was a friend - one she could lose. The master said she had to be prepared for that - at anytime. Becoming was not in alignment with belonging. Compassionate detachment, the master called it.
“NO!” the master said firmly to Andrea.
Lauren could not believe this person was feeling inconvenienced when it was her, the master who was inconvenienced by the whole ridiculous situation. The master, Sar'h, reminded Lauren to breathe - we were learning how not to be affected by those around us, especially not by our students.
Students - Lauren hated the word and what it meant - but she agreed this experience could be categorized as nothing else in human words. Yet there was no pay. There was no classroom. "Interesting," Lauren thought.
Andrea was alarmed and shocked at the master's change of demeanor. Andrea lacked the self-awareness to know the master had given her seven chances over more than a year to make good on her promise. Andrea was so unaware she could not remember all the excuses, the apologies.
Andrea could not see that her spending habits were a huge disrespect to the master who had shown up for her - that is until the master was forced to point it out, no matter how painful it would be to Andrea.
At this point, the master seemed like the most unkind person in the world. Lauren hated being disliked, but the master in her said that was part of her own lesson in all this. Becoming and belonging do not go hand and hand, Sar'h reminded her again. Sometimes the kindest act of mastery is to draw a line of intolerance.
Andrea had studied enough to understand on some level. She cashed out her retirement account and paid the master back.
“I really learned the lesson this time,” Andrea told the master and herself another lie. She apologized yet again. And again.
Two months later, homeless, Andrea was asking to sleep on people’s couches. Yet, instead of changing her habits, Andrea continued to buy expensive meals, pay for beauty treatments, and she drank alcohol at every chance she got, often running up very large bar tabs.
The master in total love and compassion watched, knowing - one day, perhaps not in this lifetime - Andrea would look back and appreciate the lesson, but not until it sunk in - when she finally stopped lying to herself, many, many moons from now.
The master had planted a seed that could only bloom when awareness was chosen by Andrea, and Lauren let all the stress and any human ill will go, fly away, knowing that she had stepped further into her mastery and the learning curve that comes with stepping into her new role.
Andrea despised the Master, who lived in Lauren's human body. When she drank wine with her friends she talked about how mean Lauren was. Yet, Andrea's soul sighed and knew what the Master showed her.
Lauren, the new Master, never cared for she knew what was really going on. The lies we tell ourselves are so seductive. It wasn't so long ago that Lauren had lied to herself, too.
Lauren as the master, Sar'h, knew there was no need anymore to defend her behavior to those who could not see it the gifts given, for they had not yet been received.
Lauren, in her new state, realized that being a friend, in the human sense of the word, in this situation was not possible.
A "friend" in the human sense would continue to play the game - she would continue to advise, to support these lies that hurt no one more than they hurt Andrea. A "friend" would continue to build up Andrea, to be her cheerleader in the games Andrea was playing with herself.
Lauren had to stay steady in her mastery, steady in her firm boundaries, or she too would be just like Andrea - blinded not by the need to have more money --- but by her own need to belong.
To be continued….
Author's Note: I think the story begets two things: asking us to be honest about our current state of being with ourselves and for ourselves only, AND recognizing the learning curve that is stepping into mastery, such as realizing the definition of friendship expands and shifts in the new 'role.'
Just like when we abandoned our human lives upon awakening, it is often that we must shed our 'conscious workshop' friends for a time too after we have stepped like a babe into our mastery. Ascended Masters like El Morya are always there to 'lend a hand'. Not with advice or energy but by holding the consciousness of BEING as a sort of welcome mat for those who have entered the embodied enlightenment experience. When you get there, if you are not there already, Sar'h too will stand next to the welcome mat in your honor.
El Morya once said many will ask what their soul's purpose here is on Earth and fewer will ask the purpose in the context of divine will. When he said it, the group he addressed was that of the spiritual warrior variety.
It was people unknowingly feeding their spiritual egos to create roles in which they place their human beliefs disguised as spiritual laws as some sort of doctrine before others who are in the awakening process. A confusion of ego with soul. A confusion of human free will, perceived, with divine will, realized. A spiritual teacher aspect confused with the I AM THAT I AM.
If we expand in the spiral of awareness, we can see that those old new age roles play out in the new energy space as well. Those who have been great spiritual teachers, or desired to be so, in other lifetimes are rebranding themselves with the new language, the hip conscious vocabulary. And there is nothing wrong or bad about it - it just is.
I'm so glad the seduction to play in that world was there for me, too, so that I could witness this first hand and understand it in various levels of my existence. To see, not only the spiritual teacher aspects of perceived human free will, play out but to also hold compassion for it, is quite the experience when viewed from the eyes of the divine and of the human.
I can also see that, it is a way for some - myself included in the most recent linear past - to distill what they have learned. If you teach it in the physical, it can be extremely helpful for bringing your human self along in the Triple E, embodied enlightenment experience.
The difference is the discernment in understanding you are teaching to distill for Self, rather than "helping" people.
Everyone here understands that no one needs to be helped. That everything is perfectly unfolding in divine timing. That is almost a 'sin' to interfere with the perfection that is unfolding in the petals of the blooming self-realization occurring within each of us, right now.
It's the same for the 'teachers' out there, who like us here, wake up one morning, realize they have distilled the wisdom needed from the experience, and then realize - wait, what? - that the desire to "help" went right on our the door when they became to know deeply within that everything is and always was absolutely perfect - that all is well in all of creation.
Yesterday, I wrote about not having to expend the effort on the physical creation when playing out roles. It's a lot of work to put together a NEW new energy business. Word selection. Marketing that does not look like marketing. Sexy conscious language. Appearing to have it all figured out. That's exhausting. Although I have never even attempted to look like I have "figured it out."
Soon enough, those new new new super new energy teachers will tucker out - the old energy ways will seem too laborious - hold the realization that what has been distilled is distilled. However, some will find they have attached onto that identity with such a force in so many times, that it will feel like amputation of limb to leave the identity behind, and bring all of the lifetimes of it into alignment with soul/ source and all lifetimes running in simultaneous flow.
I use it as an example because it's familiar and I can see it clearly, yet it could be any identity - for example I know a master who is hanging onto the healer identity for dear life. It could be anything, and there is no shame in it, as we have all clung to something human at some point in this experience for dear life, because letting it go is scary.
The void we experience after human free will has gone can feel dark - can feel empty. Yet, as most of know, if you breathe through the nothing-ness, the everything-ness shows up. If you resist the human seduction to go back to playing in the physical creation space to fill the void - and it won't work for very long - then you open up to the infinite gifts of the THIRD CIRCLE existence.
Going back to El Morya's comment above. Of course, we all know here our purpose, which is really passion from the depths of who we are, from our soul, to experience embodied enlightenment on Earth.
Sometimes, though less and less frequently now, it seemed like an arduous task. And when we relaxed into it, we realize there was never a task. It was simply a matter of the flower of Self blooming from within - the seed of the soul, singing the song of the soul. It was always going to bloom, regardless of the workshops, classes, readings...and on...and on....
Moving beyond. Gathering in the space beyond the noise. Some say it feels like a void. But one only needs to open up their macro-vision and see through the eyes of the divine that the Magic of Being is taking place here and everywhere masters walk the shores of embodied enlightenment.
When you gathered with me under the Banyan last night, for my birthday celebration, I could see something from the macro level, though the eyes of my own divinity, that each time you dance in joy in the space beyond the noise, each time you distill the wisdom of self-realization, each time you know you are God, also - you are without doubt, the true teachers of consciousness - no facebook post needed.
I know we have let go of the desire for recognition, but as we are bringing the human along in this experience of humanizing divinity, I want to say that I see you and honor you.
And, I am not the only one, so is every master of Self, who has walked the shores of embodied enlightenment before you.
I sense into the essence of Mahavatar Babaji. He has no books, no story, no designated channeler. Yet, he has dedicated his BEING to keeping the doors of consciousness open for anyone who chooses it - for anyone who chooses consciousness over automation for eons to come.
There may not be shrine in your honor - just yet - but what you are doing, or being rather, is nothing short of grand. And, it is pure joy to witness, and that is what this website is all about - honoring you in your embodied enlightenment experience - in the undiluted Magic of Being, which is described in the manifesto of this creation.
So with that, I welcome you to take a look at what you are creating beyond the noise, for eons to come - your legacy of your 'last' life on Earth. I ask you to see through the eyes of your own divinity what service means in the context beyond duality, gravity, and most of all beyond physical time and space.
I invite you to view the the grandness of your creation, that is simply being here - a walking, breathing master on Earth.
In honor of you!
Lauren/ Sar'h, Master Morya, and all the ascended and embodied masters of Earth
Don't talk about night anymore! -
In our day there is no night.
In our religion of Love
There is no religion or love.
Love is the endless ocean of God
Yet a thousand souls, drowning in that ocean, cry out -
"There is no God!"
-Rumi, In the Arms of the Beloved
Any human who travels to far lands returns home forever changed. It’s no different for the conscious being. Yet, the magnitude of the earthquake of change upon arrive ‘home’ – with one thud of a heavy passport stamp – the world becomes different in ways previously unimaginable for the mere human traveler.
To know this yourself, you need not step on a plane or drive across borders – you need only expand your mastery in perspective and perceptions to seeing, sensing, and knowing deeply that everything – every little last thing in this life and all others – is and was an illusion.
“Who are you beyond these illusions?” Master M and Sar’h asked Lauren, the human who is finally catching up to her own mastery, as we flew sixteen hours across the world from New Delhi to New York.
It wasn’t just a question for me but for everyone who joined in the New Moon gathering of embodied and ascended masters.
I was able to see so clearly the roles I had played on the Earth’s stages. I was able to see how I was the writer and producer of my life. Knowing that used to be a big realization – I create my own reality. And then like any realization, there comes a point when it is time to let it all go, once again.
Something in me clicked – this was no longer needed, no longer desired - I did not need to write anymore human free will plays. In that realization, I completely had to let go of every single thing I have shared and wrote about on the New Energy Creator website.
In embodied enlightenment, these concepts of creatorship are outdated, and obsolete, though they were a vital part of my journey. You no longer need to create with New Energy (energy containing consciousness). Instead, creation requires no energy at all.
We are marked by the grace in which we let things go. I watched that body of work be sucked into the vortex of what no longer serves. What do I do with all the New Energy Creator work? I archive it into the library of the soul’s wisdom, and I walk on. It’s that simple.
In the New Moon gathering, I saw in divine will I was beyond acting roles, beyond writing a script, directing, and staring in it. For those roles were the will of the human and not the will of God.
In other words, in the will of God there is a different script, or perhaps none at all, Sar’h and Master M suggested, allowing me the wiggle room to discern for myself, as I will allow you to do as well.
So as I found myself behind the curtain of all stages, I had a backstage pass to watch as more things were sucked into the vortex of what was no longer mine. I watched the stories, the plays, and the movies that no longer served reverse with the changing tide of my soul’s wisdom.
I remember in 2014 standing at a Mayan ruin in southern Mexico. As I entered the hearth of a stone structure, I heard Sar’h and Master M telling Lauren, my human self, “Let go of the need for recognition.”
For years, in the human will, I felt I needed to become unattached to being seen, so that people would see me. In this New Moon moment, it became very clear that I no longer wanted recognition at all. Not wanting it did not mean letting go of it, not being tied to it, but really with every cell of my being desiring the opposite experience. I want to be left alone, to play no role at all, and simply BE in my own essence.
This trip was defined by the letting go of human free will and stepping into the will of God. There are several things that got twisted around by the human. I feel like it is hugely supportive to talk about what I got “wrong.” The feeling of embarrassment left me some years ago, anyway.
First, Master M said he was going to meet me in India. He certainly did but, of course, it was not on the old physical Earth. It was beneath a Banyan tree, of which only those with eyes can see it.
Going back to the beginning of the trip, I realized deeply that I would no longer be sharing with the audience that is Masters Hub and other groups spiraled off from the Crimson Circle. Not because it was wrong or bad – it serves many right now – but I had quickly outgrown it.
My human free will reasoned it was because we (multiple me) were “supposed to” “work with” a larger audience. In that human thought form, I created the ‘Return to Self’ series for a larger audience, advertised it as a way to explore this theory.
I could not have been more off. That is not what I am “supposed to do.” Too funny!
What I really did was set up my own energy portal for ME – not the readers – to Return to SELF, and what I found is I no longer want to teach anything, and I certainly do not want to work with anyone in awakening stages of realization.
Why? Because I can see, sense and know everything is perfect - absolutely perfect for them - and requires zero interference. Also, I do not enjoy it at all. More importantly, it is not the will of God.
Teaching is rarely, very rarely a divine will action. As I have seen in myself, it is so easy to turn and manipulate what is definitely human will into believing from a human perspective that it is divine will.
Sar’h ever so gently whispered, “Those who are out there teaching are doing so because they still need to learn the material themselves.”
It makes so much sense. All of what I have been sharing – writing the Thirty Days of Self-Love was about me finding that space for myself. Each client I met with and reflected their mastery back to was a way for me to reflect mastery back to myself. I no longer need the mirror – I can see myself so clearly in the darkness of the New Moon.
Yet, I took a pause to honor the experience that playing the teacher, facilitator role gifted me, and let it go, as it no longer serves.
So what does exist beyond the illusions of human free will living – for me?
There is one thing I kind of got right, or was at least on the right track. I said I would be “working with” those who are committed to the embodied enlightenment experience – beyond the circus, beyond the social media videos, beyond the cool kids club (none of which are wrong or bad but simply do not flow with the state of divine will).
I am not here to “work” with anyone, yet in this New Moon gathering, which created such an expansive space beyond the noise, I can see what I can offer you all and what you offer as well – a space for embodied masters and ascended masters to BE beyond all the human constructs and systems. That cannot be done on a Facebook platform. It cannot be done right now in a physical old Earth space. It can only be held beyond the illusions.
Myself and others like you are holding a space in the physical and Master M and his friends are holding a space in the ethereal for those who have the passion to stay here in body and BE. Not teach, not draw a crowd, but to simply be.
For that reason, I do not want this space to continue on Facebook or Patreon. By 2018, I’m going to move all this content onto a password protected website, which will include a forum for those who make the shift over. More updates on that will be forthcoming, but I did want to share my personal realizations before going into the bigger picture.
Note: The site was moved over here in November 2017.
Coming back from our journey, I cannot un-see what I saw. To know everything around you is an illusion is one thing and experiencing every single reality as a movie screen projected into the physical is quite another.
Since returning I have not had one brief moment in which I did not see the illusion clearly. Not a single second has passed in which I did not know I was walking though a movie set. The woman who passed me on the trail yelling at me to put my dog on a leash was nothing but an actor on the stage.
So what is real? Let me begin again, please.
Any human who travels to far lands returns home forever changed. It’s no different for the conscious being. Yet, the magnitude of the earthquake of change upon arrive ‘home’ – with one thud of a heavy passport stamp – the world becomes different in ways previously unimaginable for the mere human traveler.
To know this yourself, you need not step on a plane or drive across borders – you need only expand your mastery in perspective and perceptions to seeing, sensing, and knowing deeply (from experience, not a mental construct) that everything – every little last thing in this life and all others – is and was an illusion but one thing – that thing is called love.
Speak not of the human kind of love, but the kind you find in dark crevices in the space between the cells of your being. This kind of love is an experience that can only be found beyond the illusions and behind the curtains of all perceived realities.
The only thing real in this world free from illusion is this dark love – love you can only experience and know when you have given up the rest, including your human free will and any human passion beyond self-realization, through the art of complete surrender.
I will write it again. To experience this kind of love, you must see clearly and know deeply your perceived passions are but mere distractions.
It’s the kind of love that exists beyond the stages, beyond the movie projected, and it can only be sensed in the absence of that movie screen – one you can step away from for a time and space, like we did in the New Moon gathering, if you joined us.
This dark love - this love that exists outside illusion has another name. It is the Love of God, and that, my friends, is what we brought forth in the New Moon gathering and what I will continue to do each month should you feel compelled to join, checking your human free will at the door, please.
I hate to say it, but Adamus was right. Kuthumi was right. Master M was right. In this embodied enlightenment experience, you will not want to be social. You will not want to be online. Enjoy it while you can. Have the experience in the illusion.
One day you will wake up, and you will not want to play a role in the illusions anymore. You will see so clearly how nothing is authentic. Everything is an act. And for a time, you would rather be alone, wandering realities. The only company you will welcome is those who pass by who are also walking beyond the veil of illusion.
Like Kuthumi, you will want to talk to trees. Like Adamus, you will trade your proverbial castle for a forest. Like Master Morya, you will leave your role as prince and become the ruler of your own kingdom, instead.
And, just like anything else, that too will dissolve. But for a time, you will not want to play in the video game that is Earth’s illusions.
When Adamus first said these things, such as masters are not on Facebook. Masters don’t go to organized Shaumbra events. I said, “Hey buddy, you don’t get to define my enlightenment experience.” That was the human free will talking.
I will not speak for you all, but for me, he was entirely spot on.
I feel the need to untangle myself from all the roles I created. The master laughs and says, “Hey, just walk away.” And so I am.
I will continue to meet you all in the space beyond the noise, beyond the veils of illusion, and in complete resonance with the dark love, that is the love of God (SELF).
As we said before, once you stop grasping at the figurative $100 bill, there are millions waiting for you on the 'other side', and those riches are found only in the love of God.
Creation no longer requires New Energy; it requires no energy, no effort at all. In fact, it is essential that you do not use effort or energy in your creations in this space.
This is something we’ve been discussing at length and will some more.
I will also be sharing about PTSD (post-traumatic stress disorder) as related to stepping into divine will.
On Wednesday, I am headed to the desert of New Mexico before going to visit my mom. I will surely be bringing anyone with me who wants to come visit and have a cup of tea, go for a long walk among the desert sands, and of course, play with Professor Ollie.
Thank you for your gracing this space with your essence. Oh be ahn, fellow travelers!