Many have written about the 'steps and stage' leading up to realization, but few have dared to write about what happens 'after.' Really there is no before and after once you step into the totality of being you, for that is just another duality. But for the sake of conversation and a growing need to toss out old dogmas of the realized state, I share with you Joanna's article - ALONE.
Not exactly matching my unique experience or yours, she touches on something - a broad experience - that seems to come into play in this embodied experience. It's also a call - if you choose - to move beyond those limited definition of what it means to be human and divine and allow the totality of the consciousness of you to come into embodiment. There's no better time than now.
Thank you, Joanna, for capturing in words what I have not been able to - yet - Lauren
There is a totality in the depths of what ALONE feels like initially, to the degree that if not experienced, very few can understand….although I’m sure many here know. It’s not an alone from being an orphan or being single. It’s not the alone we feel so at home in when no one is bugging us in our floating bliss. It’s a feeling so profound, that the human, the spirit and any part that has felt a strong camaraderie with others or a strong purpose of being (on any level) feels like they are being ripped apart.
I will preface this by saying that there is ‘the other side’ of this (there always is) … it walks through us and we come to such a supreme feeling of freedom that nothing else compares. Sometimes different layers of this occur after we let in the supreme freedom that is us. But going through it can be rough. When it trickles down to all parts and pieces that are unaccepting or unaware it can feel like it wreaks havoc. I find, and have found personally, that our spiritual quests of the so-called past are some of the trickiest and stickiest to navigate.
I was once absolutely terrified of losing my husband… it’s not actually that I even liked him that much (ha!) and it’s not that I cared about being single or not. It’s that I thought that if I didn’t have another beside me in my space, I would float away and would cease to exist. This was before I knew much of anything on the human experiential level, but enough was coming in that I felt it. So I kept him around; I pretended nothing was wrong; I pushed it to the very edge to allow it to decide for me if I should stay on the planet or not. That would be a great excuse to leave, no? I wouldn’t have to make the decision. When we finally separated, it brought me to my knees… literally I would collapse mid step in a puddle of tears on to the floor. I couldn’t move, sometimes quite paralyzed. Seeing almost anyone was painful, a restriction I couldn’t take. I could not explain the depths of what it was to people who thought it was about divorce. I spent the better part of the next three years completely alone with my cats.
This supremeness of sovereignty, these levels of consciousness that we are bringing in, and where we are going next, leaves no room for old attachments or limitation of any kind. It has a difficult time even being in the body, let alone the stories that go along with it. Of Earth or otherwise.
What we release here, isn’t just a ya, I’ll see you next life, in the next game. What it is, is a COMPLETE removing of oneself from everything and anyone we’ve ever known in an old way. It’s a severing that is harsh when felt at it’s depths, that can happen anytime; before, during or after realization, whether we are aware of what it actually is or not. Yes, it’s true that we can make it smoother if we choose; I always chose to rip off the bandaid - it’s a personal choice.
When we add in the components of who we really are, the grandest and most famous roles we’ve ever played and the comrades we played them with, the result can be devastating on so many levels. We are letting go of the very deepest essences of our being to move into the new. A complete dissolution of everything. The very reason we thought we existed, on almost all levels don’t forget, feels like it’s being ripped from our being. And really, it is.
Now being in the human body might bring just another level to it…the depth of FEELING. What we wanted from this place, the slowed down physical feeling of being. Something most have never allowed themselves to even get near. It brings a depth to passion that can only be felt here, something again many on this journey won’t even dip a toe in after twenty, even thirty years.
We are ready for this, we asked for this and we are stepping into this regardless…but it still needs to move through us. So what we are saying here is that this isn’t just about realization. That is just the flip of perception and awareness that opens the door to the rest of us. It’s part of it, but we are moving into the new also.
And believe me, many days I would rather stay in the complete and overarching, supreme, untouchable, truth of freedom that I actually am and live out my days in bliss at all times. But I agreed to feel (as have others) and partake and experience this right here, right now in this physical body. And so comes along with it, some not so nice parts. Some pain and some shitting of pants (ha!). And while it’s simultaneous - these two points can exist together - sometimes we dive right in to the nasty bits, because we know we can’t get lost. Not everyone has to do this or wants to do this - and that doesn’t matter.
The truth of what is happening is this: we are bringing in these levels of ourselves that have never been near any of their creations in such a way before. It has never been a part of some of these beings that are part of our multiplicity. So this human point of convergence that is us, feels all these layers being touched by consciousness that have never felt this level of compassion, neutrality and purity of acceptance before. And we all kinda know this, but once in a while we need to be reminded of the magnitude of what we are doing.
This is seeing something for what it really is at the highest levels of consciousness and in turn this creates an alchemy that transmutes the ‘thing’ or the ‘aspect’ into the neutrality or wisdom that it truly is. These parts don’t have a clue what that is and so, will sometimes put up a fight. (We know this well also!) But then the human layer will sometimes interfere with what it thinks is happening. For example, well when I was five years old, such and such happened, or my husband/wife left me. And we go down this tunnel searching and looking and fixing and drag it all out… and it has nothing to do with the current ‘thing’.
We can bring this down to you, here, reading this, in your chair or at your desk. We can say to ourselves: wow, I thought that was ‘gone’ why is this coming up again. Some call it the spiral as we re-meet certain aspects of ourselves with new awareness… that’s one way of putting it. But, we can also say it’s not really you sitting there that it’s coming up for, it’s coming up for perhaps a part of your being you are not aware of, it may be coming up for a level that is part of your collective.
The encouragement here is open beyond the ‘my human’. The human is not a stupid rambunctious puppy; it’s a very important part of what is occurring right now. It’s feeling what all the other levels are feeling, and doing ok considering. It’s really, really important at this point in the game to start to expand the notions and ideas of who we are. Beyond human vs master or human vs soul. You feel everything because you ARE everything.
It’s hard to conceive with the mind. That these wide open spaces that we are contain so much within them. And add to THAT, what it's often so hard to convey: the BIG picture view that certain structures are crumbling. Because of the layers of consciousness we are bringing down, things that previously existed simultaneously within our enlightenment, are either going out of existence or no longer exist at all. For realz. Can be tough. It truly is different now.
When I embodied, I became aware that my essence was EVERYWHERE... it's not as simple as, oh on this human level I'll just leave the club or the family. We become aware of who we are on ALL levels and of everything we are taking part in, everywhere. We become aware of the eons and eons of 'time' we have been involved in everything and with whom and we are cleaning up in a way, again, that has never been done before.
How that translates here sometimes is an inability to participate in or even talk about anything that hinders true freedom in any way. It quite literally hurts on levels we didn't know we had--we aren’t just human. The 'other realms' IS where we exist and we are aware of it. It's not an either/or, it's not a right/wrong and certainly nothing as juvenile as a rebellion.
What we are also doing is changing the very structure of everything we have ever done on all layers of creation… when you are aware of that and EXIST IN THAT, you see all layers of what is occurring and how you are involved. Details aren’t really needed at certain points, but feeling it is enough.
So when one layer removes itself, so do ALL LAYERS. It's not a judgment or a hierarchy when others don't see what we see, we have just opened up to these layers that exist in each one of us. But to convey that to others who think it's just about leaving a club, a partner or friends, it’s almost impossible. It's not drama... it's a release and a dissolving of much of what we have always known to be. It’s a big fucking deal. But the hurt does have an ending point.
The other day I was clearing out a collection of things to give away to a thrift store. At the bottom of a box of CDs (ya I still have some), I found a forgotten letter from the aforementioned husband that on the surface seemed like a love letter, but was actually a manipulation. When I figured that out the first time I was devastated and humiliated; when I look at it now — Nada. Nothing. Even a slight smile. Who the hell was that person, I thought. The depth of what I had felt at the time, that brought me to my knees, was a vast history of being manipulated, disaster ensued and along with that came a big dose of guilt. A big long story that may have involved being a very angry guard-cat-person— don’t ask! I didn’t know the story at the time or understand the depths of release.
I had a spiritual quest, a reason for being at what I thought was at the core of me, to protect and to stop the baddies, to put it in its simplest terms. I had a posse of beings at my side that I loved, honored and were with me no matter what. We thought we could not exist without one another. The ex was part of that. But as we all know, the battle never ended that way…
And then I found another way — I met my Maker. I tried to share that freedom with others. Tried to show, convince, scream, push you name it. It fell on deaf ears and it was heartbreaking.
Everyone was searching desperately for answers but no one actually wanted them. It hurt….deep.
And then I realized I could just STOP. Be on my own. ALONE. It ripped down to - almost - the core of me, but for my sake and creation’s, I had to. And so I let the baddies free. And so I let my comrades free. And they continue to play….some of them. It’s not pretty; it’s heart-wrenching; it’s beyond frustrating to watch.
And yet, I set myself free.
And I sat there invisible.
No agenda. No purpose. No reason to be. FREE.
Slowly but surely some saw me…returning and joining me in freedom. To the beingness where nothing can touch us. Nothing hurts. There’s no hierarchy, no past, no convincing.
In the meantime we walk through it, whatever it may be, whenever it comes up. Some of us choose to truly dive in just so we know. Sometimes orgasm, sometimes just ugly orgasm face without the fun.
And look now, a space to be, share, and create the new. By true choice, true friendship, not old ties. Alone doesn’t mean without others. Alone is a necessity so we can reconnect and support from freedom. ALONE but FREE to support in truth. It’s a whole new ballgame and it’s worth every minute when you’re on the other side.
Thank you, Joanna!
Joanna, sent this to me today and I was going to wait to get it out but I'm about to be real busy. AND, the time is now. Tomorrow we are also recording a video for you all. Thus far, Joanna, Xanthe, Jeane, and my friend Maurice Kok who is not on here have said they will join us for the summer event. Many more will also sign up but perhaps last minute. Last call to get your Banyan Tree stories to us, too. The website is a typo in the graphic. I will add that to my list. - Lauren
BOOK, WEBSITE AND JOANNA UPDATE
It's been quite a summer...or year really. There's both views of 'where did it go' and then reviewing all that's occurred and come together. Much has come together personally and also with what we are creating here.
On the production side
The Banyan Tree Book:
This is about 1/2 done....I got much of it done in July, took a little break and it just needs some additions and rearrangements, so to speak... it's highly likely it will be done mid-later September.
This is a collective voice that came through regarding what we are creating here:
While we have this awesome place and we have laid groundwork for what is next, now this will be put into a new form/space that reflects the shift, including of course the essence of what it is we have created here already. In other words, what we are doing is changing the baseline from which we operate. For the transitionary stage, we see this as not only a new website space, but the accessible information and translation porthole so to speak. The physical space of the Banyan consciousness that we have created to be able to expand upon itself in the human/earth realm also. So it creates its own ‘sister’ dimension/universe connection here.
So we have a multi layered space that is what we already have, sharing creations, stepping into realization/creation, but we will be bringing it to a whole new level to include the new element a little more prominently. The new element being the layers of consciousness that have never been on Earth before.
We are setting up these new bones and setting up the energies to support these bones and allowing it to percolate in such a way that it can be a type of self-generating entity. We are open to it changing, morphing as we do.
So it’s something that you can tap into whichever place or space you choose or are ready for. There is no judgement or hierarchy or linear steps or requirements to share. However, sharing with people who hear and see you is extremely important to many, even if it’s just on calls. It not only helps embody whatever it is, but as has been said, it helps to stay on the planet if that’s your desire. Bouncing off each other in sovereignty is also a very powerful way to create as we are finding out!
So the outline for starters, and that includes what is already present:
Just to give a general flavour for the time being.
Joanna Update - ‘something’ different
Firstly, I’m adjusting to things actually moving and shaking within the physical…things occurring that I have dreamt about—the gathering that I saw many years ago. I got a little too used to my cocoon!
And then there’s the internal something different. The following are kind of initial notes.. something I can’t concretely write about just yet…but hopefully will give a snippet.
There’s an incredible so-called upgrade occurring within me. I consider all that’s occurred internally since I’ve embodied (realized) and I look at what has embodied recently within me as something different. I have different definitions of what I call enlightenment and realization than others, because for me, there’s a difference between ‘access to’ (or enlightenment/master) and ‘embodiment of’ (realization) of either a being/soul or a consciousness. What I speak about now is rarely about human adjusting to such and such, although of course that’s part of it; it’s about the changes occurring in the I AM realm. My interest, has always been how we move from these ‘states of being’ into embodiment of it. It’s different.
But what I’m embodying now, is almost like a being, but a being that has the wiring to be able to translate and connect to this planet in a new way. I cannot say this is a light/freedom body in the way it’s been described. I know in essence that it is not the same internal feeling, so all I know for now is that it’s different. I created this and I remember creating it.
I was on my couch last winter and felt myself as a being in the future. I was imagining what it would feel like to have this within me, pre-made, that could pop in when it/I was ready. It was related to how to translate what I see, how to operate in a way that’s beyond an enlightened human enjoying life, because sometimes in these pristine states of being it’s difficult to operate in this realm (read: get shit done). Karen so aptly dubbed this a ‘plug-in’ when I spoke about it with her last week! Perfect! And it’s a plug-in that enables me a focus in a way I couldn’t before (and create with abandon in the physical). Sounds very A.I., and yet, of course, there’s nothing artificial about it. Like Lauren said, it’s what we are becoming, and it’s here. God-in-focus if you will. :winking face: haha. Or perhaps Creator Body™… that’s mine St.G! And, that’s a joke.
It’s funny though, that when it ‘arrived’ in the now, I perceived it almost as something foreign. I didn’t recognize it right away. It appeared to me as a giant essence kind of hovering over me and I felt a pressure from it in a way. I carried this over me for probably almost a month and it was heavily present while we visited in Vancouver-sort of wrapping itself around me. I was saying to Xanthe, when I didn’t know what it was: it’s not ominous but it’s not entirely pleasant either lol. Then I was speaking with Xanthe and Lauren, and Lauren could see me kind of pushing it away and it finally popped out of my mouth that it felt similar in essence to this thing I had created the winter before… it took Lauren to say: well that’s it! I recognized it and then I allowed it to pop in! So funny….and soooo the reason to gather and share from a place of sovereignty and newness, not related to anything in the past, or a course we took once upon a time. Someone else in awareness to recognize a truth in something, even when we don’t know what ‘it’ is.
This is all something I hope to have much more clarity on in the near future to be able to share in a more concrete way. So I’ll stop here.
AND I’m so beyond moved, excited and everything else about what we all will be doing here and at the gathering. Hope everyone is as honoured to be a part of history as I am. Much honour for all of you.
This morning I was pleasantly gifted with an article by Joanna to share with you all. It's probably no secret that I feel a - I would say strong connection, but more its just an open channel of non-verbal communication. I have wondered since she and Xanthe joined us here and changed the dynamic in such a grand way how I knew her. Today I got the answer reading this. I know her from the future now. Two lifelines, or two beings, rather, going in seemingly opposite linear time and meeting in a point of consciousness. Enjoy! - Lauren
I drew this image with oil pastels last year. It was completely intuitive and it just appeared from random strokes. I had almost forgotten about it until I wrote this article. - Joanna
The Consciousness Engineer and New Being
It’s an overcast day, but warm… just warm enough to be comfortable and it’s decently windy. The birds are noisy today, so are the bird bombs (noise makers to keep birds from the cherries) from the field next to us. I overlook mountains, an alfalfa field, my garden and can hear the traffic in the background from the Okanagan Highway. I sit under an old, messy elm tree. One that dropped a substantial branch of itself on our deck last night.
A ladybug has landed on my sandal. I noticed last year and this, that they have changed colour around here. I used to only see the dark red associated with ladybugs. Now they are a beautiful yellow orange and I haven’t seen a red one in a long time.
I’m viewing my human situation on one level. It’s wacky and certainly not ‘masterly’ from…. ahem…certain points of view. I’m viewing my partner leaving his totally entangled family, after the death of his Father, and all the ugliness that entails. Here I sit smack dab in the middle of it, and have engaged in it, living on co-owned land with them, and wonder how I ended up being here! There’s an interesting view in all of it.. but that’s another story.
On another level I explore the vastness of who I AM once again. “Who” doesn’t seem to encompass it. It doesn’t compute. All I’m left to do here is feel. I have gone in and out of my multi-dimensional self, and I have had the names of some facets and have somewhat felt a story or two. And yet now it’s changed again, and it’s settling, and it’s completely different than what I have experience before as the ‘and’, as the human having the supremely joyful, honeymoon, embodied realization experience, and as what I have felt myself to be in multi-dimensional totality from this human plane.
Because, what I’m most engaged in, in the middle of all this, is the creation of the new. I explore what it is to be a new being. Not only a new human… but a new being, and speaking of beyond Earth, well, this is a little harder to translate. Without past, story, anything as we’ve touched on here in this space. We’ve created stories far far beyond and before earth. This was our creation from a different awareness. These stories are being and have been, erased as they existed on their own. Either distilled or erased. It’s like the “I brought you into this world, I can take you out!” Many would argue with me here, and this is for specific situations, but it’s worked for me. Then there is a thunk now….exactly as I wrote that, a bird dropped a cherry pit right beside me. Amusing. Seems we planted a seed.
And there is the NEW element, that we have spoken about. It has been here with me for some time but I couldn’t quite settle it…or rather two new elements on Earth and the first sounds like this:
I have never been here before.
It was funny because before, from a human time standpoint, I knew I was here many times, but I remembered nothing in particular. I knew there was a story there, but I ‘remembered’ nothing. Then a few years ago, it occurred to me I wasn’t here that often and heard something like ‘three times’. Slowly that idea dwindled away. And then again:
I have never been here before.
It’s like I’m viewing people and thinking, what is this about?! I’m viewing and thinking ‘why isn’t this familiar’ and also, at the same time, not surprised. An interesting place to be. Yes, I spoke from this space in my video, that feels like yesterday, but apparently was a while ago! But that aside….
The creation of consciousness and the creation of my own being is what I consider to be the epitome of creation in my world. I spend much time here. I explore here. I create here. (Many years ago, my friend called me ‘A consciousness engineer’.) I feel what it means to be in this absolutely pristine and untouched space of self with the second new element…clean consciousness. I do not feel a triad of beingness as master, I AM and human. Not even remotely…although I once felt different layers somewhat like that. And now, that feeling of WE within the I AM feels different. WE no longer computes as it once did.
A while back, there was a short period of, hm, an interest a couple of years ago, deep deep in the arms of creator, feminine, me, whatever you want to call it. Within that, I wondered, why don’t I remember anything? I hadn’t actually questioned it before, so then it just became common place that I didn’t. And then, from others, I heard particular names of who I am ‘also’ and I played in those ideas for some time, and on some levels it’s all true, in terms of getting to know and integrating the different realms of self from the human perspective. Of course much also came from myself and my explorations. Yet quite annoyingly, in the expansiveness of feeling that at first, I eventually felt the limitations in those names I was given. I felt the expectations in those names….from all over creation.
But the truth NOW, is that NONE of those names are fitting.
And as I feel now, my original has been re-born and I am experiencing this birth. I’ve known this for a while, but really feeling it now. The meld is occurring on the human level to a greater degree. While I am still multi-dimensional, the multiplicity has (somewhat) disappeared for me. As I adjust to this, it can almost feel as if ‘it’ went away. But there is a different depth here now, sitting in this human space, in this (a bird I’ve never seen before just landed in my garden) melded space. The word expansive doesn’t work here as it once did. Will I create new ‘ands’? I dunno. Is this just a phase? I dunno. ha! ‘It is and it isn’t’ I hear.
There’s not much more than clean consciousness and me. Having no name seems to be much more true. Can what I AM NOW be encompassed in a name? I’m exploring what’s possible now. How the clean consciousness affects things. How the implant integration has changed things in the physical and how I feel. (This story is 1/3 done, honest!) I’m exploring the ‘multiplicity’ vs the ‘meld’ now and what that means.
It’s a bit of a sleepy, hazy place today, but it’s warm and kinda cushiony for now.
And in re-reading and tweaking this, the image occurs to me.. that I fell backwards into the multiplicity, it came in on itself and it seems to have melded into one and from that came the birthing again of I AM. I wrote a couple years ago when I started to feel this ‘and you will know yourself again as original’. And I move now, as with many things, from the knowing and sitting in different dimensional spaces, into the embodiment of.
I wrote this yesterday and let it rest for the night. Came back to re-read once again, and then came across the comment from Xavi under Lauren’s I Am Creation article, that I hadn’t heard before he wrote it. From Adamus: "Once Ascended you will find yourself back in the Wall of Fire, only it will not burn you anymore, and you will discover that you have never moved from there.” (From the Altar Book Four preview)
And here we go again!
A note from Lauren: Joanna, this picture is striking for many reasons but going back to the future now it looks like my visit to the Sequoia National Forest, which has occurred but not in linear time. While in Poland, on a very hot day (Raphaelle, it is hot as balls in Europe!) on June First, El Morya appeared to me in physical form. The last time was in September when he introduced the Banyan Tree to me and well, you know what happens next.
So when I got home I went to look for a camping spot in the national forest which only opens on June 20th. It is usually booked out six months in advance but there it was - the single camping spot I reserved so easily. So I'm going to go find out what already happened....stay tuned...
Thank you, Joanna, and Xanthe for always taking my writing to the next level. I write something or just "think" it and there you are pushing it ever so gently into a deeper consciousness. Others might be annoyed. I am overjoyed to be pushed to go further and I thank you both.
Also, I have felt the WE dissolve into the I. No longer feeling any attachment to a Sar'h voice or past lives, I seem to be swimming in the future now. What a party!
In the last week or so I have been lending a lot of conscious breath (Thanks, Guillem!) to what we are creating here at the Banyan Tree. I sense your wisdom, and I read it everyday in the comments here and on Ryver. Este and Karen have written poems. Momo has danced away identity. Raphaelle recently wrote a song about it she is recording, which I will share here. So good!!
Right now all that wisdom has been put into the creation of our beloved Banyan Tree, yet I want to capture it beyond the fragments in comments, shares, etc. So I posted this on the Ryver forum:
Recently, I read a book, Balthasar: The Magus, and the story of the three wisemen (and more) written by Marisa Calvi (a friend) and told by Ascended Master Kuthumi. At the end of the book something really struck me. Kuthumi's soul in Balthasar's body realized at the end of the book that the three wisemen (3 sovereign souls) had come together to create an experience that would usher in the new conscious brought forth by Yeshua's birth and his role on Earth.
He said each of these three souls came together in creation and that creation had it's own soul. They were three unique flames in a fire of creation and that fire had a soul and each of the flames as spirit individualized. I bring it up because I have been sensing so keenly that the Banyan Tree has started to have it's own soul, it's own consciousness.
The soul is filled with the wisdom of each of our souls, AND we do not lose ourselves in the experience but enjoy from a place of individualized spirit or sovereign souls. It is our creation to enjoy! And it creates a pathway for lack of a better word for those choosing consciousness over automation for eons to come as well as those who are moving beyond firm group identities into their sovereign states. Simply GRAND!
And like El Morya always reminds me, it's time to allow creations the same sovereignty we allow ourselves. It is only then that the tree will thrive. It is only in allowing the sovereignty of the creation, such as the Banyan Tree, that we move beyond agenda, control and more so, we are not building something anymore with plans and constructed blue prints, we are allowing a creation to bloom from our unique states of being. I'd love to hear from you all on this one before forming a full post. A call for wisdom contributions, if you would like.
Joanna, answered and she captured what I have been sensing in words, and we have decided to gather the wisdom up and put it into a book - PDF I will send out and publish on this website - in the summer.
Here was her response/ wisdom contribution/ so much more:
I had a dream a month or so back, and St. G said to me “You each have a clean drop of this consciousness now; it’s up to you what you do with it.”
Back in 2010 he also told me (through Geoff) that I should write the books I was planning (that I never did), BUT that I would be involved in something that would bring me much more fulfillment. Imagine that. (Lauren here: Indeed, Joanna - my books now feel like a tiny little side gig and not my full creation.)
When I read Lauren’s post about the Himalayas, with the similarity of the St. G message for her, her experience of not quite knowing until now what was being created, and now with the Banyan Soul, it has brought together all I’ve been seeing and hearing over the last few years also. I also began to write with a group of sovereign beings, but at the time I didn’t know there were other humans involved! I’m loving this unfoldment.
Coming together in sovereignty and the birthing of the new. My ultimate passion, both in creating outwardly and within myself. Yep, myself. (Lauren again: such a better definition and words than old divine will - thank you! - I AM CREATION.)
What I see, so far, is this: What we are creating here is entirely new. I don’t fully know what that ‘new’ is yet, just know that it is. While there is nothing new in enlightenment, so to speak, there IS something new afterwards. (YES!)
There IS something brand new that is created when sovereign beings gather. The difference between how this was done before to birth something on Earth, is that this comes from a space within that is entirely free from the past and identity….even before Earth. Now that we are in a new energy from the ones before, gathering like this actually creates another “clean” consciousness…..for any being to access eventually. (OUR LEGACY - El Morya adds)
It is a clean slate - no past, no identity, no story, no old idea of ‘family’. It’s like we go back to ‘original’ but with consciousness and awareness. Because even within enlightenment, and awareness and pulling one’s self together, we tend to have definitions of ourselves that are limiting, until we don’t anymore.
It is no mistake that there is so much coming up for many regarding identity and regarding how we relate to each other in sovereignty, and that sovereignty isn’t what we thought it was.
We are creating this entire space of existence where none of what we have created before exists anymore, except the wisdom. Quite literally, timelines are being disintegrated. This may take some time to trickle down to awareness in full. And of course, it is as we are, always always morphing, changing and becoming.
The beauty is, we don’t know what it will look like. We are making it up as we go along. So there is more here, that I just don’t see yet and that hasn’t been created yet. And I am totally excited to see what it becomes and hear what it has to say.
Yes there is the living in mastery and joy and realizing all these things about being here in freedom… and many many are here just to enjoy that and experience the unfolding of who they are in human form…but many of us are going to the next space of existence…and we can also experience that from HERE.
And we will begin to understand the new we are creating within ourselves as BEINGS also.
For a few years now, I’ve been going to this place of what I (as an integrated being) am going to create myself to be. I am combining my core essence with any other I choose…to create something new within myself and to be whatever/whoever I want to be…and from that come the new creations. And there’s always a good chance I’ll be surprised.
So like we are all combining our wisdom to create this new soul, I do the same within myself.
THANK YOU, JOANNA! When I read this yesterday, I wanted to allow it to sink in a few days before sharing, and then I ws too excited this morning not to put it out.
I am crying knowing that someone else sees the creation, touches and tastes it in a similar way - and is a hell of a lot better at explaining it. Sometimes when we get so close to something, when we are so in the creation, it's hard to see the grand design of it all. Joanna can and did.
And I know you all SEE it too, so we are asking for your contributions for a book that we will put together. You can add art. poems, links to music, and anything that can go into a PDF or weblink. Please send those in by May 21. In the meantime, we have two New Moon Gatherings that you can inJOY and share about - April 16 and May 15.
If you are new, check out the Banyan Tree, New Moon and click on the Banyan Tree Category for all article related - or wait until it comes out in e-book form.
With our human journalism backgrounds (too funny!), Joanna and I are going to compile the creation publication. I will include the full story of the history of the Banyan Tree - El Morya came to me in September 2017 to bring forth the idea.
I will go through your shares and comments dating back to September, yet if you could email me your comments and experiences (dreams, senses, etc) at email@example.com, I would be so appreciative (takes some of the digging work out...). This will also be sent out to new members as they come in as there has been a bit of confusion as to what the Banyan Tree is and how we are creating it with each conscious breath.
More to come!
If you have not read Balthasar The Magus, you can do so here if it calls to you: www.amazon.com/Balthasar-Magus-Lets-Walk-Three/dp/0980350654
I just noticed the publishing date on the book - September 30, 2013. It's quite funny because El Morya showed up on my doorstep for the first time in my adult human life on October 3, 2013. What we are birthing is so much grander than our human self can know.
Love and gratitude from us all.