Please join me in welcoming Guillem's guest post to our community.
It was lovely to talk with a dozen of you on our conference call Tuesday.
I am continuing to write but feel more so energy building as to what will come this summer. El Morya also is ready to add his wisdom, yet I'm not quite ready yet to hold that consciousness in my physical body right now.
Thanks for your patience, and happy Easter weekend and full moon experience.
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The Conscious Breath
Today was a beautiful sunny day. After some windy, rainy days, the spring is finally displaying its splendor, and I went out for a walk in the forest.
I was depressed and miserable. Very tired of doing… nothing! I was walking up the path only to hear my mind mumbling and groaning and I couldn’t help but thinking I would reach my favorite spot in the middle of nowhere and lie down to rest for a while.
So I did. My favorite spot is a place under a huge pine tree hidden between bushes where the ground is sloping and has the form of my back. Once there I just gave up and slowly fell asleep beginning to drift away in that space between here and there. It felt good.
All of a sudden, a sound of footsteps woke me up and there was a dog a couple of meters from me. He started to bark and I stood up a bit scared. Then another dog appeared, and another, until there were four of them. I saw they were greyhounds and thought these ones are not dangerous. I stepped outside of my favorite spot and half scared half in trust walked away while one of the dogs chased me barking.
I walked and walked feeling a bit upset like when you’re in a sweet sleep and the alarm clock sounds furiously waking you up in a non-natural way. I still felt tired and a bit sad.
You know, those of us who have chosen embodied enlightenment always have moments of feeling tired in the body and the mind without an apparent reason. It’s the “tiredness” of the process. Yesterday I was in a Zoom conference call with a group of near and dear friends who are – just like me – into this “business” of embodied enlightenment. One of the topics we talked about was just the inability of the physical body to accommodate more light in the cells as more of the soul is embodied in biology. It’s ok, you have chosen this path but then who says the physical body is ready for it? But once chosen you have to cope with it and allow the body its time, and it’s not always an easy thing.
I kept walking though the main path feeling out of sorts and I decided to stop and get myself back in the forest. I found a good place and sat in the lotus position. With my human barely doing nothing I started to breathe very consciously and soon enough I was feeling energies seeping in though one of my fingers – then another finger, an arm and finally my hands. I was breathing fresh and deep and started to feel re-charged and alive.
I heard footsteps on the foliage and holy shit I saw another dog nearby – they seem to be loving me! There was a man too and they walked away. This time though the visitors didn’t upset me as I was feeling nothing in the world would take me out of my sweet re-charging breathing…
I remember the first time I breathed like this – and allow me to digress a bit here… It was 3 years ago or so and the situation was practically the same: one day I was with anxiety and a very uncomfortable boredom and I went for a walk just like today. I sat in the first place I found in the forest – not very far from today by the way – and started to breathe like my breath was penetrating and re-charging my body. I think that day was very important because I experienced for the first time I guess what these breatharian people talk about when they say they re-charge themselves with prana from nature or the universe or whatever. Have you seen their perpetual smile? Some of them have even replaced food and even water for this form of pranic nurturing.
Anyways, back to today’s experience. This type of breathing for me is like I am breathing with my senses or my energy body. It’s not just breathing with my lungs for relaxation but putting my awareness a half a dimension away and breathing from the infinite pool of energy available there. The soul resides in that “a half a dimension away” spot! You don’t go there with the mind but with the senses. I think I also talked about this in my latest posts. And by the way this is the state of consciousness that Aliyah can facilitate too.
Wow, I felt different from that point on. No more exhaustion and existential boredom. I got up from my “forest temple” and started to walk back home feeling like I wanted to write about this experience, and when this happens – that I feel excited to write about it – it means that it is a breakthrough in my process and I’m alive and in the “right track”! That’s the very reason I started this blog!
To sum it all up, no matter how bored you feel with your human in this embodied enlightenment process, there is always a way out, and this is the conscious breath, but real conscious breath!… How do you know you’re doing it right? Well, because you feel the air you’re breathing in is no longer air but life itself! You feel like you’re eating, like your physical body is literally feeding from the breath. But this life force energy is a half a dimension away, at least the way I sense it. You go there and grab it, and it really feels unlimited. If you breathe in your soul, if you’re nurturing from your soul, the fucking sky is the limit! So these are my questions to me and to you: are you able to move your awareness a half a dimension away to access the real Self that you have already chosen to become? Are you breathing with your mind or are you breathing for real?
And now, I just allow myself to forget about all this until the next time I remember to allow myself to nurture from my consciousness. I’m totally ok with that.