Oh! to put words to what has been created in my life by my Infinite I (the master, human, and I Exist as one) these past weeks, seems such a daunting task.
First I want to say how important and fulfilling my friendships are in this realized lifetime - not even realized or enlightened captures this state of Being - far too limiting let's try this - life of FREEDOM. Being. Freedom. A resonance without words.
It wasn't until I stepped out of my Vancouver hotel to the bench across the street that I realized or saw with fresh eyes how truly beautiful it is to have friends like you all.
There sat Karen, Joanna, Momo, Maureen, and Ruth. I saw the beings before me in all their soul expanded glory. Momo and Ruth - friends that never came through the CC materials - just as sparkling and aware, and equally unique sovereign souls. Karen, Maureen, and Joanna, who once resonated with CC materials and then made their own unique paths. It's as if super nova occurred in each of the souls, and I was privileged enough to witness it beyond linear time.
A supernova is a transient astronomical event that occurs during the last stellar evolutionary stages of a star's life (the proverbial last human life), whose destruction is marked by one final, titanic explosion. It's not so much a destruction but a massive explosion back into the true nature of self, and into the Third Circle of Creation.
I could see the timeless evolution. The first circle in the oneness, the second circle as we places a piece of ourselves into this Earth reality, only to have the experience of knowing we are God also through that perception of duality - human and divine - that we were never separate. The two parts of self merge into human and divine AS ONE, and we return to wholeness while in physical form - not oneness with others but with the self in a beautiful show of brilliant fireworks that celebrates the remembering we have always been one with self.
All I could 'think' of was the word honored. I was in complete awe and honor of these beings who showed up physically to hang out with me and each other. Perhaps honor is the soul side of the human recognition. No matter how realized you are, no matter your level of awareness, as long as you are still in a human body that desire to be seen and to see others does not go away. You are still complete without it, but my creation is this space where we honor one another instead of making comparisons and having to help or heal or teach one another.
These words played through me. This is my creation for myself; these people who showed up chose it for themselves, too, and it brought us together.
The meeting is everything I wanted the other organizations (CC and Masters Hub) but weren't. And I realized until someone is honoring themselves, there is no way they can honor another. As long as someone is judging or comparing themselves, they will do the same to others. If they have not allowed the emergence of human and divine as one within them, they will continue to place others on a pedestal and then seem to enjoy tearing them down. How do I know? I've done it!
There's something about this. Leading up to realization, we bring situations into our lives to reflect our inner states, so things can come up for integration. For example, if we are still battling internally, for example concepts of right and wrong and the emotional states that go with us, we will bring mirroring situations into our lives that allow us to move beyond dualistic concepts. And then, one day, the mirror stops. More on this below.
What I want to say in one sentence is: what each of you bring to this space, what I bring to this space, is that honor that can only come when the duality of human and divine has merged or emerged into one, that can only occur in a consciousness that is beyond separation of self and the dualistic, linear perceptions that come with it.
In my personal life, I have been in the effortless creation state, and allowing my human perceptions to catch up. It coming in quick too. I'll borrow some words from Keahak...I've been spent to a level of experience that has no basis on the past. Before experiences were predicated on the past, or shaped by past experience. That's all karma ever is and was: The law of cause and effect. This happened in the past, and now I have this experience based on that.
Creation is beyond linear time and has no basis on past experience. For example, I have been persecuted and shut down in groups in the past, so I sit back and share rarely even when I have something to express. In the integration of the human and divine (Infinite I), you go beyond linear time. All those past experiences that told you what was safe and what was not, no longer apply.
Creation from nothing, seems to cover this. Creation from no prior experiences. It's the swimming metaphor I have used before. When you swim you push off the side of the pool or the bottom of the ocean to get momentum to start swimming. This no energy creation, or true creation, you don't need to push off the wall or the ocean floor. In other words, you don't need to use a battle situation to move enough energy to catapult you into the next experience, for example. The no energy creation is creation without momentum, without effort. Motion requires no movement.
It started about three weeks ago. My energy aware neighbor moved, and an energy unaware couple moved in. A heat wave hit. The electricity went out. The internet went out. Suddenly, I have ants and a moldy smell taking over the bedroom. My dog is ill.
So annoying and how did I create this, or better yet why? Well, a week ago I realized I am feeling so trapped and anchored by this condo. The day to day grind of living somewhere is not me. Some people are house people and some are nomads... I'm the latter. That is where I thrive. Freedom to move about the cabin, no safety belts.
All of these little annoyances piled up, in a moment of frustration (I feel frustration on the edges of my being, not inside of self anymore, that is a calm ocean no matter the external) I called the owner of the house and said I'd like to move and break the lease without penalty. He agreed immediately. I called my mom and was direct with what I needed and wanted from her. She agreed to fly out, hang out, and we'll drive my cars and Ollie back to her house while I travel for a bit. I called the airline to change my ticket for the Europe trip. They waved all the fees because it took them an hour to change the flight. I ended up being cheaper and I got a refund. This all happened in three hours.
There is no mirror. There is creation.
Based on my past experiences, I remembered that I would have needed to examine why I was creating shitty neighbors and a shitty living situation. A year ago I would have wondered what I needed to integrate within me. This time is was totally clear that this creation was mine and it was actually a really beautiful and smooth creation to move from this space into one that better suited me. It was a steady laid out 'plan' to allow me to float out of my lease and into the next phase of my life. Creation unfolding in a simultaneous moment.
I am surfing into the beyond. I have been surfing here the whole time. And while I used to write about moving into realization and share from others support for that experience, what I will be writing and sharing now is simply how I live in this space of freedom and effortless creation, and I hope you will as well. In deep honor and appreciation of Self, that can be felt by others also in honor of themselves.
Something new is brewing and I'm going to paddle directly into that wave. Oh wait, I've been riding this wave all along. It's instant, this knowing.
That's the theme of realization these days. You have an undeniable moment of clarity in realization (so limiting a word but for reference), and that moment returns and returns again and you go back into your life and all its defining moments and you become aware that you were only pretending to be un-enlightened the whole time.
It's like a gentle Earthquake that creates a a rolling effect across the planet of self. The roll causes the streets to lift from the core and land in new places and new patterns.
The pathways to the core of your being that branch or expand from your center in all directions. They open up and become clear. These conscious pathways rewrite themselves. Sometimes there is no center, no core, and no edges because you go into the no separation even more. Expanding in and out at will of the passion.
The past is re-written and then it doesn't exist as all because there was never a timeline. In the infinity of simultaneous living, you create from no thing because you are already everything. You don't need to grab at an experience to make a mental decision, you don't even think about the next six months because its already contained within you.
My things will go into a storage unit, and then I will walk, surf, and fly into my creation, knowing I am already in it. And I will write about it.
I took a pause to come back and read this to see if I captured the moment. A yellow breasted bird flew up. No it was not a master friend visiting me. It was me visiting me. I do not need the ascended master to reflect anything back to me. The bird perched on the chair beside me. Me staring back at me. Empty eyes, ready for the mirror-free creation.
The bird had empty eyes just like mine, free from expectations or past experience. Free from seeing myself through the eyes of others, but as exactly as I am. That I am.