One of the most beautiful side effects of a realized state of being is the fact that I have become completely and acutely aware of myself in other realities beyond this physical one.
Once I thought realization would mean all part of myself would home “home” and yet it is more so that I am aware of all facets of myself and “home” simply expands beyond this singular point of physical existence – one without edges in its infinite-ness.
Those parts and pieces of self do not return to a singular self yet the singularity of self expands in the infinite beyond.
For example, despite the letting go of the physical world of the Crimson Circle organization in my move from Colorado last February, I became increasingly aware in the last six months of my involvement on the Crimson Council – the angelic counterpart to the human organization.
I found myself in meetings, discussing whether and why people were retaining or not the wisdom contained in the message. I was involved in conversations of how to repeat the same message – this time in a way people would get it, this time it would be different.
Let’s get more radical, one person suggested. A mass release of mass consciousness, they decided. To be done this fall.
The conversation on the council drifted back to mass ascension and mass release – as a group. El Morya and I stood at the front and argued to work with more individuals, allowing the space for individuals to release this independent of a group might create a tipping point or more so add wait to the already existing motion into the third circle.
In physics, the tipping point is the point at which an object, or entity, is no longer balanced, and adding a small amount of weight can cause it to topple, or to change form. It is how seemingly little things can make a big difference.
In this case, how two or three people choosing their sovereignty or release from mass consciousness and/or the molasses loop we talked about can create a slip stream for others to follow if they choose.
Others on the council wanted to go for the big release, but back in Atlantis we tried the group way and well, let’s just say it didn’t work.
In this etheric state, I gave a presentation on how the brain was developed in Atlantis. Back then I warned the creators of the new physical human body that the brain was too permeable – to susceptible to outside programming.
Of course, those on the council were aware of this fact. They said we must work with it. That’s why information is repeated. The information transmutes into the peripheral of the person attending the workshop or listening to the channels, but it simply did not stick.
For example, I person reads the words or hears the messages, feels the expansion and then as easily as it comes the words float out and the person in this example returns to the limited state once again.
So instead of going for the mass, we advocated for the demonstration of the two to three or better yet five physically embodied beings to make this shift.
I’m too far into the details, but to know what you are doing with precision in other realities is one of the facets of this beautiful realization experience.
The other night I walked into a council meeting with El Morya and handed in my resignation. He did as well.
Was I giving up on the work of the council? No. Was I severing an old contract to create a new one? Yes. I will work on a case by case basis and must be honored for my work.
Back in February Adamus St. G said those who still wanted to caudle people in their realization process were asked to leave the council. They were too soft, too patient, and the council needed to move forward. He called them the pink council.
Yet the part of the story he left out, were those that were too tired and weary to deal with further people still playing the games, after twenty long years of the repeating messages, twenty years of conflicts that had raged since the fall of Atlantis and after the crucifixion of the Christ.
Adamus St. G implied anyone leaving the CC was simply not ready for enlightenment but what he left out of the story that some of those of us firmly in it also left, perusing more so the tipping point view of the expanded picture.
Instead of focusing on the mass, as El Morya so eloquently state along with myself, let’s focus on those who are really ready. The small numbers of you, who are truly and deeply committed to letting go of the game – finally.
What’s at stake is far too important. These people are not only committed to themselves but also at weaving the consciousness of the Christ, the consciousness of being into the fabric of this world.
It remains to be seen who will be “right” in this matter, and it also doesn’t matter what “works” – what truly matters here is people in whatever way they can begin to see beyond the limited human state. Letting go of old karmic ties, human conflicts and hurt that is based in deep and real wounds from all of the many councils and structures we have all been a part of for eons.
Yesterday, I did just that. I demonstrating for those who have forgotten the physical nature of the body.
With the few members of councils remaining that I “work” with, I showed them what hurt looked like. I showed them how sticky it was to let an old grudge go. To forgive and forgive and forgive.
To forgive the people who turned Yeshua into a circus. To let go of the politics of the two-thousand-year-old history and strife within the scarf wearing crimson council from the days when we lived in hiding.
I showed or reminded, rather, those no longer in a physical body how hard that truly is when you are still human – still in this Atlantean programmed biological body.
I felt every chord being ripped from my gut as it severed. I cried a thousand and one tears. I felt my heart hollow out in deep sadness for all the failures of eons past. The persecution from outside AND much, much worse the persecution from inside.
I had already done this for myself, yet I allowed myself to go through it again to show them, what it takes to do so.
Instead of dodging the rocks thrown at my head, I let then hit me hard, just like Yeshua did. I forgave from the same heart, from the same flow of consciousness flowing through me.
Then when I got back to my cabin last night, I looked up at the stars. I could see the milky way so very clearly. I could see each star in the sky. Every planet shown through the fabric of the heavens.
Maybe others were still in the game. They did not know what I have been releasing for myself and others on a day to day basis. I was simply some crazy woman in the woods who can longer feel completely 'right' to attend any kind of CC gathering be it on Earth or the angelic realms.
It’s not that I left out of hate or frustration. I did not hand in my resignation to make a point or piss people off. I left out of love. Something that I do not know if but a few people can fathom.
You see my life, my physical vessel, my tears, my laughter, my heart – all of me is dedicated to holding the space the emergence of realization beings – no matter how hard it hurts. There is no part of me in any reality that will allow me to turn my back on those choosing realization. It simply is not an option.
Yet, it is something that can only be done out here, and not within the confines of that council or human organization. (The Banyan Tree as I see it defies the angelic council/ human organization counterpart pattern of yore, more later...).
It’s the masterpiece of all my lifetimes to hold this space. I cannot turn my back on it ever.
Others will say they don’t care about others. They are only focused on themselves, their own realization. But this is the will of me. Anything else would be denying who I am. It's not to help, or coach, or teach but to BE, and all that comes with that.
Who I am is a vessel for this consciousness of Christ, of being to roll completely through me, and in being totally true to who I am, I cannot turn my back on others. Not to help them, but to hold the space of emergence, even it its hurts so damn bad.
I saw SAM yesterday. About nineteen, he was barefoot walking into a store in this mountain town. He has but one tattoo – that of the third circle. I looked him in the eyes and said, “Are you ready to come back into this space?”
“No,” he said, “not now. Like you, it’s still more appropriate to be out here, in the third circle of creation. To walk into the second circle now. Well, you know. It’s just a little while longer.”
“I nodded. It certainly is. Do you feel lonely out here?”
“Sure,” he said.
“But what more can we do but wait and continue to love?” he added with a shoulder shrug.
I nodded and an endless stream of tears rolled down my face.
“just a little while longer” I told myself for the millionth time. I will never leave. All I can do is wait, and stare up into the fabric of the heavens, knowing they will align once again.
Perhaps this time, someone will take the time to look up.
I crawled into bed with my dog who cuddle me closely and we drifted off to a space of nothingness, just for a break from it all.
It's been a while since I have written something of substance here. This morning Xavi asked me some questions on Ryver. I love that so much because without the question, the answer would not form. So here are my answers and an invitation to join me on something I sense will be amazing, especially if you add your wisdom to it as well.
First, I want to start off with a little except from the Thirty Days of Self-Love, Chapter 3...
March 15, 2017
Bend, Oregon to Waldport, Oregon
Yesterday Ollie and I made our way from Bend to Waldport, Oregon, where the Alsea River meets the Pacific Ocean. We took the road less traveled, which took us through piney, mountainous woods and dropped us softly into the lush, temperate Willamette National Forest.
As we weaved through the winding roads, I sensed into what I was creating for myself on this journey. I sensed with each curve I took on the road, with each turn of the steering wheel, that I was weaving the cobwebs of creation for the experiences that lay ahead of me.
Weaving the cobwebs of creation is a concept I have been experiencing and sensually examining for some months now. For me, it is about experiencing creative senses in addition to perceiving senses. Of course, the two go hand and hand.
We use our perceiving senses to get a sensual lay of the land, and at the same time, we can access our creative senses, which we can consciously use to build and experience our reality, minute by minute, second by second.
As masters of Self, we are spiders spinning our own creative webs, weaving the energy designs which will attract and manifest anything we dream or desire in our creative cobwebs. The energetic design of the web determines what we will ‘catch’ and ‘dine on’ in our lives, if you will.
For spiders, weaving a web is instinctual. As masters of our lives, creative senses also come from a place within our body of consciousness, within the universe of Self, that is beyond the human mind and emotions - beyond even intuition and imagination, as creative senses are far more sophisticated. Creative senses come from the soul, or master Self – from the core of who we truly are beyond singular human existence.
Spiders do not use rush or force when spinning their webs. Their movements are gentle, delicate, and precise. Consciousness gives rise to precision. If we choose, we can be completely aware of the energetic designs of the cobwebs we are weaving. We can be as energetically precise – beyond human details – as we would like in our creative abilities.
I share this because while my human was not aware then, the web I was spinning on this day more than a year ago was the creation of the Center of Being.
Center is not a word for an organization or a physical space. It is the center of being that is the individualized source spirit that lives in us all. It was a place for sovereign beings to share their sovereign center with another - in a place that exits beyond physicality, duality, linearity and gravity.
This is not only my creation but yours as well.
For me, this whole experience has unfolded and continues to unfold in some sort of divine (beyond human agenda) format or blue print because we are 'making it up'/ creating it together- each from the point of sovereignty within each of our being - as we go along. Each person who connects to the creation adds their wisdom to it, and it changes shape and form continuously. Transfiguration. Alchemy of Spirit. BEING - a perpetual state of becoming - never static, always dynamic.
Today Xavi asked me some questions and shared some of his views, and I wanted to share the response with you - why I have not shared El Morya's channels, why I am taking a break from big shares until June, and finally, an invitation to ask you to grace this space - this creation- with your wisdom. Of course, you are always doing so by BEING here, but maybe we can share a bit more about this with human awareness, if it something you would like to do.
Xavi first referenced an article by Geoffrey Hoppe in the Crimson Circle magazine in reference to recent events when Adamus St. Germain asked people to leave who were still in lack among other things. I bring this up because it is related to how each of us interact with groups (CC or other) from a different space of ONE-ness, Being-ness, soul sovereignty, and/or divine will. Total disconnection - to reconnect from a space of sovereignty (covered more below).
"Regarding Geoff, I'm surprised that so few people have reacted to it (Adams's imperatives for leaving and staying in the CC). According to Geoff or nobody saw the last shoud or 99.9% of Shaumbra is ok. Well I have another theory, many have not taken for granted and have decided to deny their reality. --- Important question --- This makes me ask myself, in short, what are we doing here at the Center of Being?
Are we going back to the CC because Adamus is finally cleaning? Because it does not seem that the reasons why we gather here are giving.
Let me explain: for me the Center of Being @The_Center_of_Being , or the Banyan Tree, is a non-place where everyone can experience their own EEE process at their own pace, without groups marking the tempo; and share it with others if you decide.
That's great, and that's what I want to do now. On the other hand I realize that we are not going to work or travel in the EEE as a group here, and that is why I imagine that the two channels of El Morya per month have never been given or will not be given. I'm afraid we're going to have to keep going to the CC from time to time to catch up."
It's a great question - and please note I love this kind of exchange - it is not upsetting to me at all. The opposite - so helpful.
Here is my response (also on Ryver where this sort of exchange occurs and shapes these posts and shares immensely):
"Xavi, I'm always glad you bring things up. I am kind of going with the flow. I do not really consider this a group but a gathering of sovereign beings who come together from time to time to share. We don't have rules, regulations. El Morya did ask me to do some channels -- and then he and I both felt a shift. I don't have a real clear direction - I'm honest about that.
Nothing is so black and white for me and schedules and control/ organization makes me cringe because it takes away from the free flow. Also, unlike other channelers, I really feel I must understand something and live it before I share it with other people. I'm not there yet. At all. But I will BE.
Currently, I am experiencing all parts and pieces of myself coming together as one. I sense disconnection and yet I am still able to connect from a different space. For example, I used to go to CC and other conscious/ spiritual groups to get wisdom - to fill myself up - to get my fix.
Now, I feel like I can add my wisdom and observe without needing to fill myself up - I am full - soul full. So for me, CC is still there, Adamus is still sharing wisdom I like to hear. As far as the human game over there. I'm so done. Control is just another form of energy feeding.
I guess what I'm trying to say is two things. It's not an either/ or situation (the mind tends to want that but the mind is dead) - it's an AND. The more you disconnect to become THE ONE SELF the more relationships expand into the AND.
Finally, most importantly for this space, both El Morya and my soul/ higher voice called Sar'h or whatever - I hate the definition and names right now (cringe) - we will probably create a new name for this collective voice (El Morya just told me that) - is planning or creating, rather, something for June.
"Please be patient," - Lauren
"Be ready to be wowed" - El Morya & Sar'h
(One example of my fragments coming together right now....)
However, what we share will NOT be wisdom to absorb and learn from. People will not come to the Banyan Tree to ask for answers or it will back fire and shoot them straight out.
It will be an exploration of I AM and creation from being in which your own soul's wisdom will guide you!
So, moving forward, if you come here looking for guidance from outside of the soul's passionate wisdom - not only will you be disappointed you will probably get sick.
Right now I am attuning my physical body to be able to handle what El Morya and Sar'h as a 'collective consciousness of BEING' will share.
Until that feels complete to human Lauren, I will not share or be beholden to any timeline. I am not going to blast myself into a sick bed or out of the body. We still have too much legacy to leave behind -- as do you all!
I sense this will be a complete radical shift in what is shared here. I ask for human patience AND MORE SO for you all to contribute your wisdom to this collective being consciousness and the CREATION FROM BEING experience - if you choose.
Xavi - thank you for playing your divine/ soul will role to perfection. I am so serious when I say it is appreciated!!!"
So today, as my soul asks me to hang on a couple more months for what will be shared this summer, I invite you to contribute your wisdom under, in, and throughout the branches of the majestic, golden Banyan Tree, if it is your will. If you choose, maybe share below as well. So helpful for human me right now...
In total honor of you and your unique experience and what wisdom you bring here!!!
By the way, how can anyone charge for something that is a mutual expression of creation - in which everyone is bringing their wisdom to the table/ banyan tree??? It is beyond comprehension these days. An old game.
THANK YOU from the Center of my Being to the Center of Yours!!!
Got Wisdom? :)
Hello friends and welcome our newest Third Circle readers/ participants Yuri and Deb! Don't for get to introduce yourselves here. Joanna, it was wonderful to read yours yesterday.
For so long, I have denied this "channel" and still don't want to call it that so here is a video letter...
What is the Third Circle REALLY about....
Why have the embodied enlightenment experience (Triple E) now....
More about our contributors....
Allowing humans to be human around us (not expecting them to be anything else) and switching the sense of focus on our embodied consciousness experience...
Discernment is beyond human thoughts and emotions....
"Discernment contains no emotion."
Most important, or expanded rather: the experience of knowing we are God also!
On a personal level, it was quite hard to make this video and even harder to upload it. Not only did I have to clear my own internal junk, I had to clear it off my computer - for hours.
Let's just say yesterday was hard. El Morya kept me up all night long and then I made a video having had no real sleep....
The human facet that wants to be perfect rose from its dormancy of my normal state of being and never needing to be perfect and so on...
Thank you for the morale support I received willingly from the Ryver community yesterday as I struggled to get this out technologically but also courage wise. Deep breath. Hit send. Repeat.
The videos will get better, words will become more clear, as I make the space for it. And with sleep and rest.
Oh, if you decide to watch Prognost, which fits in perfectly with our Magic manifesto ....
To be in JOY. In the physical expression of SELF.
In creation of energetic pathways - potentials not directives -
For those who will choose consciousness over automation.
For eons to come.
...You can find the prognost video here...https://store.crimsoncircle.com/prognosttm-2018-into-the-new.html
I don't usually recommend materials, yet it is said in such a way here that can not be replicated. Or as El Morya said in the video, tap into the consciousness of it, if you WILL.
Crimson Circle materials seem to be right in line with what we are doing here - for this short moment. Inevitably, that space has to slow down because there needs to be time for the tens of thousands to catch up, or at least a bulk of them. When that happens, we will continue on....TINY BUT MIGHTY, as El Morya said.
In honor of you!
For those of you who don't know, I have a tiny 'spade' tattooed on my wrist. Some of thought it was a a symbol of my membership to a Shaumbra group. Truth is I never had one single Shaumbra friend when I got it.
Instead, it was a reminder for when I was still tumbling around in human life, that I was here for one thing - embodied enlightenment. Jack - my then flame would send me into despair - and just when I was about to throw in the towel on life, I'd look down as the tiny spade on my wrist, smaller than an inch but mightier than any comforting words.
"The 'spade' is a symbol of ascension...ascension is the acceptance and integration of our human nature with out divine origins. When this occurs, karma is released from our life path and we complete our series of lifetimes on Earth, we go to what he (Adamus St. G) calls the Third Circle where we become full, conscious creators.
The creator does not need energy to exist; they do not need to be connected with anyone or anything in order to define themselves (identity). It is the realization of the compassionate "I AM" state of BEING. The spade, according to Adamus, represents outward expansion of consciousness, beyond limitations of the human dimensions.
The inverted spade, pointing downward, represents descending of our angelic nature to the denser vibrational energies of Earth. The inverted 'spade' also represents the heart or love that we, as angels, have shared by agreeing (yep, you did) to embody in physical reality for the good of All That Is." - Masters of the New Energy (book), by Adamus St. G, 2007.
Today the 'spade', as it is called in the human world, is also a symbol for my third circle along with the beautiful Banyan Tree, gifted to us by El Morya. It seems what used to be a comfort in reminding me of why I was here is now a symbol of FREEDOM, and is that which needs no human reminder, but at the time, it served.
On my right wrist, I have a tiny star. It is the north star. The one that guided the wise men, the magi, to the birth of Yeshua. It too was a symbol of why I am here and reminder that there were others to meet along the path, who were following the same star - one that was outside, way up in the sky and one that is now within us, the Christ seed consciousness.
It's true that while this is a solo experience most of the time, I likely would not have made it to the Magic of Being space I inhabit today, without my yoga mat.
In my human world, the only place I found peace most of the time was in the ninety minutes I spent on my yoga mat, a habit that rooted and took shape, in my very first class in 2006.
It wasn't any yoga teacher, in fact most did not talk about anything but how to do the poses. It was the fact that an ancient practice opened up the channels inside of my physical body to allow the wisdom of the soul to seep into the cracks.
It re-wired my biology to allow my soul to inhabit this meat suit - this physical body. Without it, all those classes with Adamus and Tobias would likely be floating on the outer edges of my body of consciousness. Instead, in three short years, everything I learned is housed within this physical vessel. And, it has done so without short-circuiting the system. It is also how I finally allowed El Morya to come into my human life and not just my dreams....
In the year that I was first married to my previous husband (2010), wine was my medicine, and working was my perceived passion, yoga class was the only time I caught a break and was with me and me alone. No teacher was trying to convince me of any dogma in the studio I went to then. They just made sure I did the poses in a way that I would not pull a muscle.
"Peace is an inside job," the teacher said, and we were left to our devices, though there were books in the lobby if we wanted to look at them. I didn't. I had my book, "The 21 Lessons of Merlyn." The story of King Arthur before he became king. His self-realization story.
I had the book since 1992 when it was published. In the times when my husband was away I would pull it out for comfort. One of those times, I heard a voice. A deep masculine voice, "Are you ready yet?"
I was so startled I slammed the book shut, dropped it, and went and poured more wine. I was terrified. I had no idea what was going on.
It was not until 2012, when I gifted myself the month in India for the yoga teacher training that I was able to start to allow his presence. It was not until 2013 in a medium reading, that I could mentally confirm his presence. (In my book for free on the site here)
Again without my yoga mat and without having listened to that deep undeniable whisper of the I AM that said leave your marriage and live alone (let me assure this was extremely radical in my community - something women did not do), I would not be in the Magic of Being space.
Sure, I would have gotten there, probably after my potential kids with my previous husband went off the college, or worse, I would have had to leave my children with him because I simply could not do it.
Indeed, I see that the most important factor in all of this was listening to the inner voice, I have called Sar'h, and who is now my I AM. Yet, the little helpers along the way to reflect that north star (Sar'h) back to me from above - well, I am so grateful.
THE PAUSE BUTTON
As I move forward in life I feel my three years with the Crimson Circle were like hitting the pause button, a break I gifted myself. In these three years, I was given a community to know I was not alone. I was gifted language to describe what was naturally occurring.
Even though the materials, especially Divine Will and the Threshold guarded by the Dragon of forgiveness, were taught to me by El Morya, long before the courses, books and channels, it was a sanity check. No, I did not make this up. Yes, there were others like me. I created a space for the last three years without a human world. No work. No human friends anymore. A space to really go within.
THE PLAY BUTTON
Lately, in this non-linear path, I feel I am back at the point with El Morya before we ever embarked on the Crimson Circle pit stop on the journey that is mine but is also ours. My guide went away, sure, but my best friend (besides me) has always been here.
When I was in the Crimson Circle teachings experience it seemed like it was the end. And now I know it was simply the beginning. It was the pause button and now we are hitting play.
El Morya just showed me a desk with a red button on it. He's smiling, laughing, and teasing that he's about to hit the button. "3-2-1....Blast off!" he yells in play. "I'm packing my bags," I respond.
Then these radiant beings appeared because I am ready to remember the creation.
I have written some of the story of how I know them on the HONORS page.
Lately, my "visions" are increasing and expanding. What the Center of Being already is and how I went/ am going backward and down the spiral into that creation of my future Self.
Gosh, this non-linear time stuff is hard to write about. D has a soul experience last night with non-linear time, and we are still trying to put words to it.
Everyday, I am back at the map with Babaji. It is a dark map of the world. Geographical pockets and people close to their self-realization are depicted with a light - bright stars that appear across the map and move like waves in the ocean. Dynamic not static.
When I look down at my feet, we are on a snowy mountain top. The Himalayas. The thing is when I check in with this. I am brown skinned. I see the ends of my dark curly hair flowing in the breeze. It is NOW that exists beyond linear time. It is not the past or the future. The map is 'outside' of linear time. It is at the "begging", the now, and the future - all together in an expanded point in space.
I begin more and more to remember our creation. To remember our conversations with words and sensations. I see that Yogananda is there, but it is not Yogananda. His soul is in another body. And, we are all standing in the snow bare foot. Yet, we are not cold. I wish I could show with words this does not occur within linear time.
I am watching it all unfold. The role I will play. I also hold a deep sensation and knowing most "important" - not the right word - is the role of the souls who will retain the embodied form in self-realization or enlightenment. Holding onto it a little bit more - in legacy, sure, but more so in the creation of an experience so GRAND, it do not yet have the words for it. Let me try again...
Simply BEING embodied enlightenment is the creation juice for world and universes not yet realized. Beyond any and all human imagination.
"This is what you signed up for in choosing the Triple E," El Morya adds. He has a shit eating grin because he cannot wait for you to see what's behind the curtain, what we are creating by simply BEING enlightenment. He wants to shout it from the rooftops, but he cannot.
I wil come back and try again to capture this in words, but it will have to suffice for now.
My role in this conversation and creation is to sovereignly support this embodied enlightenment experience with my Being, with my writing if needed, and with my story. Those words are so limiting (UGH!) but in the conversation - in sensations not words - with these souls, I remember in divine unfoldment. It is nothing the human thought it would be.
I also will officially kick off the Beyond the Veils of Maya series after the New Moon gathering on January 16th.
In honor of YOU!
On this POST, Raphealle wrote the following comment. It's so much what I sense going on and reflects so perfectly the conversations I've been having with others and mySelf I wanted to share her wisdom and add a few notes...Perhaps you will add your wisdom in the comments section too....
She wrote, "Dear Lauren, as always thank you for this space! I deeply can feel and love the discernment between building and true creation. Between allowing creation to happen from soul passion, without agenda, vs. planing, working and forcing things into reality. I see that those principles Adamus named as Ahmyo life are identical with the basics of creativity and art (those artists commited to express divne will, mostly without naming it so).
And there comes the point where I stumble again and again : connecting with my soul passion I hear loud and clear that it is time to step out of hiding, to start to share! It is so I started creating a blog, without knowing what I will share and with who, to find my many ways of sharing.
So what happens? The agenada comes back though the backdoor, as building the ground for soul passion became the agenda. And of course this goes beyond comfort and the human fears and limitations, so sometimes it feels like effort, as work, as you surely experienced also with your physical creations in the last years. Or not?
And if I don't go into physical, if I stop when it comes to the point when physical action beyond human fear and laziness is required, labeling it building and effort/ what sense does it make to even stay in physical?"
I see this a lot especially with my friends whom I hold in high regard, like you. They have so very much to share but when it comes time to put things on paper or a website, that voice inside says something is off. When it comes to charging money, again the voice comes.
In fact, sometimes I feel those like you have so much to say, more than me, it is hard to focus on one thing. For example, your wisdom, your beautiful singing voice, your understanding of healing, and your amazing connection to worlds beyond this physical one. That's a hell of a lot of stuff to bring into the physical.
How do you choose what to focus on? How do you bring all that magnificence into a website? It's near impossible. (However, you do capture it so well in a song. You make my heart expand infinitely when you sing...) Yet, there is the distillation of soul wisdom which can create the matter, consciously, if you choose (or better yet, don't)....
Old Lauren would tell you to have a deep, sensual conversation with your soul about passionate physical expression and see what comes up. That's old Lauren.
However, I have found there was no conversation with my soul about what my passionate creation was or is. It simply unfolds each day. I do not think about anything. I move from bed to laptop and everything unfolds.
I say and I mean it, I do not want to do anything or participate in any conscious community anymore. Yet, more and more and more money shows up AND I know psychically and intuitively EXACTLY what is going on in the conscious community on physical Earth and non-physical Earth, without actually wanting to know it.
In this space, for me, choice is completely irrelevant and soul and human are ONE voice, although the human has become a facet, which can still have an opinion but nobody in my body of consciousness listens to it anymore. So basically, it talks like three times a week.
I call my friend Tess the master of non-physical creation (I will not share the details because it is not mine to share but I hope she shares her story at some point). She doesn't have a website. She doesn't work at a job either. She has everything she needs and more. If and when she does decide to create in the physical, well...I cannot wait to see it.
Yet, I do NOT see her struggling to create in the physical. The divine unfoldment is in a beautiful ease in her body of consciousness. It is a pleasure to watch and to spend time in her radiating presence. One of my favorite things. She doesn't need a website. It might even diminish her grandness.
I offer this story to share that one does not have to be going big on a giant project or crowd funding campaign to be a Master of Self and in bliss. In fact, it seems to go the opposite way....
Indeed, as you know, not everything has to be created in the physical. Creations are no less real if you cannot touch them with your human hands or see them with human eyes.
Raphaelle, I would say you have many creations already. It's like a buffet. What item from the buffet would you like to bring into the physical, if any? Could you view it as an experiment? Watch agenda pop up and circumnavigate it? When the agenda pops up, I have found it is a great opportunity for distillation of wisdom. Where did the agenda come from? Is it mine? If so, let's integrate the bitch...
Actually, none of my creations in the past years since closing my Public Relations firm have felt like work. It felt entirely appropriate for a while to charge people for sessions (to have the experience so I could write about it not because I loved it but I did and do love the people so much), and I had to charge for the workshop in the Netherlands to pay Sandra and Jonathan. To bring my creation forth at that time, I had to play by their rules and/ or the rules of the conscious community - that collective consciousness thats says unless you pay money, it is not worth anything. Blah...
I desired the experience so I was willing to pay the fees laid out in the contract, something I knew was important to Sandra, so I respected it as I was in her domain. I did not make so much money, I was paid in the experience of the community sharing. That's okay, and I am grateful for the experience with many of you all, and the other piece was only a slight irritation. Worth it, but not something I am going to repeat.
Also, I have found, for me, if I express a passion and I stay in that passion (not by choice or effort but because I have no other choice but to bloom in expression, like an orgasm you cannot hold back) - money shows up to support it. Yet, the money doesn't have to come from quid pro quo sources.
A soul expression may be funded with an investment that has been stagnant and then all of sudden blooms in correlation with my passion, for example. This money has no strings attached. I don't owe anyone a good, service, or my time. I am not beholden to anyone or anything.
I have written about it HERE.
"I watch this line moving also with Sandra and Jonathan, I see both of them truely commited to their soul passion and then it gets kind of twisted by human will force."
My comment: I love them both and see their soul's passion expressed and then squashed with hardness and effort like shooting darts, and that is why I took the time to write them. I do not take the time to write other people. I can relate so much and hold so much compassion. I think the masters hub and the movie hold many potentials. I wouldn't even bother if I did not think the pure passion was there - even if it is a tiny spark, that's all you need to start a fire.
I am not against charging for things or even asking for monetary support. It is not something I want to do, but others can certainly make it a conscious endeavor if they choose. Yet, when you take money for such things, you are beholden to it and often affected by the consciousness of the person who gave the money. There's a reason patrons are patrons, often because it gives or buys them a voice. I know this from my non-profit work days. We were always beholden to our donors. Always.
My alternative: Begin to make the movie, paint the picture, create the album with pure passion and watch all the support you need show up. Take the mechanical structure out of creation as to not limit its grandness. Easier said than done, I know. And allowing. More allowing. Don't punch me:P
"The years before I stopped everything from my professional life, that was always connected to healing, therapy and art, because I felt it gets poisoned when the need for money comes in. That was a good thing to distill, to get to the roots, to make my way through all those layers of fear, basicly to die and to die to find the simple soul passion within. Surprise, it goes perfectly together with what I learned in this lifetime. And all the physical basics are gone, except a old car I use a lot and a flat payed from social welfare. If it comes out that I am constantly travelling I go to jail, sound and feels like a joke. Haha. Really.
Maybe even this wish or dream to have a professional life that is completely independent from Income, or income that is independent from work/expression also is just human will- wanting to escape the density of this reality? Really, I would love to hear some outside insights on that."
My comment: Gosh, doesn't escaping the density of this reality sound good? Sometimes when I venture out of the house, I want to stop having to be around people. Yet, people will be human. They will smile and laugh and hiss and hit. This world will be dense and unfair. The government will be corrupt and the money system stifling.
And then I take a deep breath. I cannot change people or the physical earth. I can change my perspective. I can change how I interact with both people and the world. And I love to play in the space beyond the veils of Maya.
That's why we use the word BEYOND. It is not one or the other. We don't exist either in gravity or not in gravity. We do not exist in linear time or not in it. We exist in both gravity and no gravity. We exist in linear and non-linear time. We create and we build and we evolve. What experience do we choose consciously? Do we have any choice left at all? For better and worse, I do not have choice left in me.
Going BEYOND is all inclusive. It simply means our awareness has gone beyond the limits of maya, and we still play in all fields. We can hate it and curse it, or we can see it as a playground to experiment on. We can sense how amazingly grand it is to be incarnated as self-aware beings right here, right now. Or we can curse it and dream every day of escaping it.
It will always be both for me, yet I choose to focus on the fun. My soul's passion is to play in no energy creation for conscious creations and new energy creations and new energy businesses are a chapter I already closed. There is no more passion for it.
And the honor for those who do love to build runs deep in me. Enjoy it before it exhausts you beyond all fun and pleasure and begins to feel like work with a conscious twist. Or even worse, the "have to complete" the project because I took donor money weight becomes too heavy to carry around. A master never wants to "have to do" anything. The I AM is not beholden to anyone or anything, and their soul expressions reflect that.
In honor of you all and Raphaelle who has the voice of an angel. (Deep gratitude)
What if your ultimate physical creation is the embodied enlightenment experience and everything else - the movies, the websites, the books, and everything besides that experience - are mere distractions in the GRAND radiance of your Being (essence) embodied? Is that not the Magic of Being? Is it not that simple?"
Beyond the Veils of Maya Series
Do not fret, we will talk about the Threshold of Enlightenment and the dragon which guards it.
We will continue to talk about Divine Will and No Energy Creation, deeply.
However, in the last week of 2017, thanks to your supremely conscious communications,
I realized it might prove fruitful, lending words and images to an experience unfolding for all of us at this time.
As we move further into our own being-ness, as the voice expression of our I AM become sharper and more defined,
so too does the veil lift that held us in the gravity, linearity of time (how funny the human believed there was a past, present, and future!), the limits of beliefs, and blind to seeing our own grandness.
The human is ready to join Self in the realization process - seeing through the eyes of the divine within us.
The fire breathing dragon who guards the gates of of the Threshold only does so for one thing - CLARITY.
The fires burns up anything that is keeping us from the totality of our embodied enlightenment experience.
Clarity of the ever present now moment in all its multiplicity.
AND the multiplicity of who we are in totality - beyond the veils of maya!
Maya: The Great Cosmic Illusion
You have the gift of consciousness. Consciousness centered in the flame of life anchored in the heart (which) knows itself as God - as limitless potential, as being infinite though tethered to a matrix which is finite. The flame that you are is the flowing stream of consciousness that ever was, that ever shall be, that even now as the fulfillment of the law of your Being (the natural self-realization experience).
Tomorrow, I will share a dream I had which inspired this next series along with the painting I have to go with it. Like you all many things are unfolding for me, us, this space. New spaces to share and connect on Ryver being one I will share in the next week.
Please know that I understand in the embodied enlightenment experience that most people will not have daily visits from the people I list as contributors on the Honors page.
I never share my visits from these masters as a way to make you feel less than, but to add words to the wisdom flowing within all of us, uniquely.
Your embodied enlightenment experience will likely be all about YOU and not about these beings. In fact, I can see how talking to masters all day can be a distraction from knowing the Self. I will also add ascended masters make amazing friends (rather than teachers) because there is never any feeding. We are all going to be unique in this regard, and there's always a million ways to look at anything. Truth is an illusion in the Maya, too.
To share a bit about where I am coming from. I have experienced self-realization that was just for me - all me. It was so special and truly an experience alone with Self.
As we do not like the word service here, and I understand that completely. This is a legacy (thanks Kiara for the word you provided so many moths ago) lifetime for me. My expression of the I AM in this life includes embodied enlightenment and it also includes - from a deep passion within - the creation of an etheric library of sorts for those who will choose embodied enlightenment in the linear years to come. Not to convince but simply create another door to choose from, for lack of a better analogy.
My future self comes to visit and shows me how others will interact with this space WE are creating - each of us adding our sovereign touch to this pathway of consciousness, which will be open for those choosing consciousness over automation for years to come as stated in the manifesto of the space.
My "advisors" in this regard - chiefly, M. Bababji, P. Yogananda, and Master Morya - are providing me with the support of this legacy. After my personal enlightenment lifetime, my I AM presented me with a few options. Nothingness for a bit. A visit to other universes and experiences. OR - sharing my passion for the embodied enlightenment experience with the humans who I love so very much. In the end, like anything, it was never a choice. Here I am back on precious Earth, with precious humans, sharing as I am able, in the grandest experience available - SELF-REALIZATION.
One of you had a word for my talks with these masters who are sharing their creative wisdom with my human who is catching up just like yours. It was "(w)hoopla" - I guarantee that none of these three masters of the Far East contain any hoopla. You can get irritated with me - I'm not always a rose, sometimes my human thorns stick out, and I hope you call me out on it. But don't call the masters who grace this space with their presence - hoopla. It's so disrespectful. And all is forgiven AND there's nothing to forgive....I know these things come from a frustration - and it is frustrating - but just be aware, please, who you are actually frustrated with.
I will leave you with my working definition of BEING, which I quite love at the moment.
BEING IS PERPETUAL BECOMING.