Joanna, sent this to me today and I was going to wait to get it out but I'm about to be real busy. AND, the time is now. Tomorrow we are also recording a video for you all. Thus far, Joanna, Xanthe, Jeane, and my friend Maurice Kok who is not on here have said they will join us for the summer event. Many more will also sign up but perhaps last minute. Last call to get your Banyan Tree stories to us, too. The website is a typo in the graphic. I will add that to my list. - Lauren
BOOK, WEBSITE AND JOANNA UPDATE
It's been quite a summer...or year really. There's both views of 'where did it go' and then reviewing all that's occurred and come together. Much has come together personally and also with what we are creating here.
On the production side
The Banyan Tree Book:
This is about 1/2 done....I got much of it done in July, took a little break and it just needs some additions and rearrangements, so to speak... it's highly likely it will be done mid-later September.
This is a collective voice that came through regarding what we are creating here:
While we have this awesome place and we have laid groundwork for what is next, now this will be put into a new form/space that reflects the shift, including of course the essence of what it is we have created here already. In other words, what we are doing is changing the baseline from which we operate. For the transitionary stage, we see this as not only a new website space, but the accessible information and translation porthole so to speak. The physical space of the Banyan consciousness that we have created to be able to expand upon itself in the human/earth realm also. So it creates its own ‘sister’ dimension/universe connection here.
So we have a multi layered space that is what we already have, sharing creations, stepping into realization/creation, but we will be bringing it to a whole new level to include the new element a little more prominently. The new element being the layers of consciousness that have never been on Earth before.
We are setting up these new bones and setting up the energies to support these bones and allowing it to percolate in such a way that it can be a type of self-generating entity. We are open to it changing, morphing as we do.
So it’s something that you can tap into whichever place or space you choose or are ready for. There is no judgement or hierarchy or linear steps or requirements to share. However, sharing with people who hear and see you is extremely important to many, even if it’s just on calls. It not only helps embody whatever it is, but as has been said, it helps to stay on the planet if that’s your desire. Bouncing off each other in sovereignty is also a very powerful way to create as we are finding out!
So the outline for starters, and that includes what is already present:
Just to give a general flavour for the time being.
Joanna Update - ‘something’ different
Firstly, I’m adjusting to things actually moving and shaking within the physical…things occurring that I have dreamt about—the gathering that I saw many years ago. I got a little too used to my cocoon!
And then there’s the internal something different. The following are kind of initial notes.. something I can’t concretely write about just yet…but hopefully will give a snippet.
There’s an incredible so-called upgrade occurring within me. I consider all that’s occurred internally since I’ve embodied (realized) and I look at what has embodied recently within me as something different. I have different definitions of what I call enlightenment and realization than others, because for me, there’s a difference between ‘access to’ (or enlightenment/master) and ‘embodiment of’ (realization) of either a being/soul or a consciousness. What I speak about now is rarely about human adjusting to such and such, although of course that’s part of it; it’s about the changes occurring in the I AM realm. My interest, has always been how we move from these ‘states of being’ into embodiment of it. It’s different.
But what I’m embodying now, is almost like a being, but a being that has the wiring to be able to translate and connect to this planet in a new way. I cannot say this is a light/freedom body in the way it’s been described. I know in essence that it is not the same internal feeling, so all I know for now is that it’s different. I created this and I remember creating it.
I was on my couch last winter and felt myself as a being in the future. I was imagining what it would feel like to have this within me, pre-made, that could pop in when it/I was ready. It was related to how to translate what I see, how to operate in a way that’s beyond an enlightened human enjoying life, because sometimes in these pristine states of being it’s difficult to operate in this realm (read: get shit done). Karen so aptly dubbed this a ‘plug-in’ when I spoke about it with her last week! Perfect! And it’s a plug-in that enables me a focus in a way I couldn’t before (and create with abandon in the physical). Sounds very A.I., and yet, of course, there’s nothing artificial about it. Like Lauren said, it’s what we are becoming, and it’s here. God-in-focus if you will. :winking face: haha. Or perhaps Creator Body™… that’s mine St.G! And, that’s a joke.
It’s funny though, that when it ‘arrived’ in the now, I perceived it almost as something foreign. I didn’t recognize it right away. It appeared to me as a giant essence kind of hovering over me and I felt a pressure from it in a way. I carried this over me for probably almost a month and it was heavily present while we visited in Vancouver-sort of wrapping itself around me. I was saying to Xanthe, when I didn’t know what it was: it’s not ominous but it’s not entirely pleasant either lol. Then I was speaking with Xanthe and Lauren, and Lauren could see me kind of pushing it away and it finally popped out of my mouth that it felt similar in essence to this thing I had created the winter before… it took Lauren to say: well that’s it! I recognized it and then I allowed it to pop in! So funny….and soooo the reason to gather and share from a place of sovereignty and newness, not related to anything in the past, or a course we took once upon a time. Someone else in awareness to recognize a truth in something, even when we don’t know what ‘it’ is.
This is all something I hope to have much more clarity on in the near future to be able to share in a more concrete way. So I’ll stop here.
AND I’m so beyond moved, excited and everything else about what we all will be doing here and at the gathering. Hope everyone is as honoured to be a part of history as I am. Much honour for all of you.
Good morning, friends! This is a post I wrote for a Keahak form and thus in their language not necessarily where we are here...
The following image was purchased and licensed - it is a painting of the creation of Adam or God's touch with finger, which is on the ceiling of a church in Thailand (February 28, 2015).
I chose it because you all know deeply the God, also. Looking at the image, for example, I see myself as both the God and the carbonized Adam. The God before it passed through the Wall of Fire to have the experience of a solid existence within the veils of maya.
As defined by Tobias via Crimson Circle, the wall of fire is the expansion of consciousness or knowingness beyond itself; a metaphor for the doorway leading from home into the void. The zone we crossed through going from the first circle of oneness to the second circle - place for human free will to play out among many other experiences. Again, more limited metaphors because it is so hard to grasp the sensation in words.
And then in realization, in embodied enlightenment, to experience the understanding, with a less than one-degree shift of perspective, that I actually never left the wall of fire, and as God, also, I am simply viewing my creation that is realization in this human form, too. More on that another time...
In my awakening and in my human life, I would continually - as a pattern deeply rooted in my gravity and duality laden sphere of awareness - choose experiences over and over again, and then subsequently look for creative solutions to make my way out of them. The cause and effect -- karma -- way of living. And my human self quite enjoyed it, experience junkie that it is.
I remember my twenty-eight year old human self standing at the altar of marriage. I could hear my soul - master self to some - say, "We do not need to go through this - again. You don't have to choose this."
The separation of voices has left but it was quite strong then...
My human stood there, stomping her foot and said, "I will have this experience. I know it will likely end in a divorce, but this is what I am choosing for myself right now."
I was that self aware and yet I chose this path of most resistance - again. But why? Why would I put myself into the proverbial crystal again? Oh yeah, to have the high of getting myself out of it -- once again.
Four years into the marriage, I knew I had to get out of this bind. I was in a horrifically limiting experience. The master self never said I told you so, but I certainly felt it's wisdom.
I called upon my gnost - the creative solution - to pull me from this experience. Oh, and what an experience it was! I created bigger and better this time. Look at me go:P
My ever patient soul, or master self, said, okay - once again. It created a path for me to find a really nice place to live, a high income that did not require a job or effort. And with some tears and grit, I created a doorway to walk through into my freedom.
It seemed so masterly at the time (and it was a path to freedom that served), yet looking back, it was just another loop in the experience and subsequent creative solution pattern to get myself out of it the experience I no longer wanted - again. Sigh.
Yet, once I was in the freedom space, instead of taking a deep breath and simply being in joy, I created more and more experiences to create my way out of.
I'm sure you can relate. Being broke, time and again, to see how, when, and if you pull yourself out of it. Getting into sticky living situations, karmic relationships, health issues...anything to feed the addiction to the experience - creative solution cycle.
In Keahak and the last Shoud, Adamus talked a lot about testing yourself - stop testing yourself and your worthiness. Well, I already had just in the last six months, linear time. But what I didn't understand, what I had not yet embodied, was WHY, WHY now do I stop diving into the pattern of experience and creative solution to free myself from the experience.
That answer, for me, is self-worth, a subtle yet with so much depth caress of self-love in the deepest parts of who I am, an exhaustion from the patterned cycle, and most of all, the ineffable experience knowing I am God, also - an experience that pales in comparison to anything my human could have dreamed up in its highly limited imagination.
Now I know why I stopped the cycle - the addiction to the local linear "Problem - creative solution format" that has been going on for eons and thousands of lifetimes.
The stop to the pattern happened naturally and without analyzation by my human self - it is only in hindsight that I can write about it - I stopped the pattern to experience creation embodied and my deepest desire for what I might describe as a sovereign peace - complete peace in the human form without needing energy from anyone or anything. Sounds so simple, and it is, but the depths of it are infinite.
Pondering it some more, living in human form beyond any suffering is the most radical creation I can fathom. To suffer is human, but if I am creating any last human experience it would be this one. This is the JOY....
As I pondered this in the tomb of awareness - the shower! - I asked my soul, my master self, my human and my I AM (what I am calling the Infinite I with one voice) what it truly desired.
There were no words, but if I had to pick them, they would be peace - not a human type of peace, but the peace that comes from pure joy - the joy of being - without being beholden to anyone or anything or any energy or any tie - also called the ahmyo life. PEACE - freedom from patterns, freedom from experience addiction. PEACE:)
And the magic in all of this is not a tool or trick and definitely not a complicated formula. The magic of being, of creation from being, is that creation flows like a cool coastal breeze on a hot summer's day across the "Infinite I" - the Infinite I being me as one without the multiplicity of parts - human, divine, I exist and so on and so on...
The creation comes in glorious waves to surf in the absolute pure pleasure of knowing I never left the wall of fire. In the divine perspective, I never became fragmented though the repeating experiences of thinking I was not one - yet they had served me so well.
The creation comes from seeing through the eyes of the divine and the eyes of the human simultaneously - the vision of the Infinite I. And, the waves are simply created from the joy of being, radiating from the Infinite I that is free of patterns, that has "recovered" from the experience addiction (another way to grasp at outside energy) and to create from the no thing.
I think about the physical action of swimming. One usually pushes off the wall of the pool or floor of the ocean to get the momentum to start swimming. In human existence, we would create experiences to get the energy flowing, to catapult us into the next experience. In creation, we no longer need the momentum, so we no longer need to collect human experiences. We simply swim in our own sovereign pool of creation.
I wouldn't be me if I did not add a human anecdote, yet I do so with a big ***** the human condition does not matter, when you have moved beyond the human condition. Not in just theory, yet in the space between the cells and radiating to the edges of your infinite consciousness.
In your terms, I have been "benching" a lot. Complete relaxation in the infinite Now, in the infinite Self.
I recently stayed at the Four Seasons - a very posh hotel - for the weekend. I had such a nice experience in self-love there, I simply felt a notion in the depths of me and in total nonchalance softer than a whisper that I should like to do more of that - in between camping expeditions, of course. My monthly income doubled the next week. There you go.
How did I do that, I wondered in hindsight. My wisdom said, "You swiped left."
Swiping left is a urban slang term for saying I am not interested. It took me some days to realize what that meant.
I swiped left on collecting yet another human experience. I swiped right for soul creation. No energy momentum or force needed. Energy serves me with out the need for movement, momentum, or force.
Now, some who might still be in the pattern of experience and creative solution, might lose that money as quickly as it came. In the space of cavernous self love, it simply multiplies. I do not need it. I did not ask my master self for it. I was not in the space of needing or wanting a creative solution to save me from an experience I no longer desired. I was completely in love with my current experience without needing the creative solution out of it.
Nor did I ask my master self for the partner in my life - a sovereign breath of fresh air. Not ever romantic or euphoric like the old karmic (cause and effect) kind, it has always been good. It has always been easy. There has never been a fight or a grab at energy. A steadily sublime experience.
I did not need him just like I did not need a massive bank account. I could have walked this planet with a backpack and few dollars and felt the same - for my depth is now found in the seemingly subtle - delicately complexly simple - rather than the harshness of the addiction to experience and digging your way out of the experience.
No highs (euphoric) and lows (devastated) -- IT IS SIMPLY JOY -- and there is no converse, or flip side of the coin, on that spectrum of awareness and in the state of BEING. Is it time to swipe left? Or continue swiping right to hook up with that next experience fix? Ah, it doesn't matter anyway. In honor of you!
Post script: After writing this post, I started to realize how this ties into the biological body for me. Am I continuing to choose another body experience of needing outside energy, of being not sick but not well either. How can I swipe left on yet another biological body experience and instead, choose creation of the body of beyond? Breathing...
This morning I was pleasantly gifted with an article by Joanna to share with you all. It's probably no secret that I feel a - I would say strong connection, but more its just an open channel of non-verbal communication. I have wondered since she and Xanthe joined us here and changed the dynamic in such a grand way how I knew her. Today I got the answer reading this. I know her from the future now. Two lifelines, or two beings, rather, going in seemingly opposite linear time and meeting in a point of consciousness. Enjoy! - Lauren
I drew this image with oil pastels last year. It was completely intuitive and it just appeared from random strokes. I had almost forgotten about it until I wrote this article. - Joanna
The Consciousness Engineer and New Being
It’s an overcast day, but warm… just warm enough to be comfortable and it’s decently windy. The birds are noisy today, so are the bird bombs (noise makers to keep birds from the cherries) from the field next to us. I overlook mountains, an alfalfa field, my garden and can hear the traffic in the background from the Okanagan Highway. I sit under an old, messy elm tree. One that dropped a substantial branch of itself on our deck last night.
A ladybug has landed on my sandal. I noticed last year and this, that they have changed colour around here. I used to only see the dark red associated with ladybugs. Now they are a beautiful yellow orange and I haven’t seen a red one in a long time.
I’m viewing my human situation on one level. It’s wacky and certainly not ‘masterly’ from…. ahem…certain points of view. I’m viewing my partner leaving his totally entangled family, after the death of his Father, and all the ugliness that entails. Here I sit smack dab in the middle of it, and have engaged in it, living on co-owned land with them, and wonder how I ended up being here! There’s an interesting view in all of it.. but that’s another story.
On another level I explore the vastness of who I AM once again. “Who” doesn’t seem to encompass it. It doesn’t compute. All I’m left to do here is feel. I have gone in and out of my multi-dimensional self, and I have had the names of some facets and have somewhat felt a story or two. And yet now it’s changed again, and it’s settling, and it’s completely different than what I have experience before as the ‘and’, as the human having the supremely joyful, honeymoon, embodied realization experience, and as what I have felt myself to be in multi-dimensional totality from this human plane.
Because, what I’m most engaged in, in the middle of all this, is the creation of the new. I explore what it is to be a new being. Not only a new human… but a new being, and speaking of beyond Earth, well, this is a little harder to translate. Without past, story, anything as we’ve touched on here in this space. We’ve created stories far far beyond and before earth. This was our creation from a different awareness. These stories are being and have been, erased as they existed on their own. Either distilled or erased. It’s like the “I brought you into this world, I can take you out!” Many would argue with me here, and this is for specific situations, but it’s worked for me. Then there is a thunk now….exactly as I wrote that, a bird dropped a cherry pit right beside me. Amusing. Seems we planted a seed.
And there is the NEW element, that we have spoken about. It has been here with me for some time but I couldn’t quite settle it…or rather two new elements on Earth and the first sounds like this:
I have never been here before.
It was funny because before, from a human time standpoint, I knew I was here many times, but I remembered nothing in particular. I knew there was a story there, but I ‘remembered’ nothing. Then a few years ago, it occurred to me I wasn’t here that often and heard something like ‘three times’. Slowly that idea dwindled away. And then again:
I have never been here before.
It’s like I’m viewing people and thinking, what is this about?! I’m viewing and thinking ‘why isn’t this familiar’ and also, at the same time, not surprised. An interesting place to be. Yes, I spoke from this space in my video, that feels like yesterday, but apparently was a while ago! But that aside….
The creation of consciousness and the creation of my own being is what I consider to be the epitome of creation in my world. I spend much time here. I explore here. I create here. (Many years ago, my friend called me ‘A consciousness engineer’.) I feel what it means to be in this absolutely pristine and untouched space of self with the second new element…clean consciousness. I do not feel a triad of beingness as master, I AM and human. Not even remotely…although I once felt different layers somewhat like that. And now, that feeling of WE within the I AM feels different. WE no longer computes as it once did.
A while back, there was a short period of, hm, an interest a couple of years ago, deep deep in the arms of creator, feminine, me, whatever you want to call it. Within that, I wondered, why don’t I remember anything? I hadn’t actually questioned it before, so then it just became common place that I didn’t. And then, from others, I heard particular names of who I am ‘also’ and I played in those ideas for some time, and on some levels it’s all true, in terms of getting to know and integrating the different realms of self from the human perspective. Of course much also came from myself and my explorations. Yet quite annoyingly, in the expansiveness of feeling that at first, I eventually felt the limitations in those names I was given. I felt the expectations in those names….from all over creation.
But the truth NOW, is that NONE of those names are fitting.
And as I feel now, my original has been re-born and I am experiencing this birth. I’ve known this for a while, but really feeling it now. The meld is occurring on the human level to a greater degree. While I am still multi-dimensional, the multiplicity has (somewhat) disappeared for me. As I adjust to this, it can almost feel as if ‘it’ went away. But there is a different depth here now, sitting in this human space, in this (a bird I’ve never seen before just landed in my garden) melded space. The word expansive doesn’t work here as it once did. Will I create new ‘ands’? I dunno. Is this just a phase? I dunno. ha! ‘It is and it isn’t’ I hear.
There’s not much more than clean consciousness and me. Having no name seems to be much more true. Can what I AM NOW be encompassed in a name? I’m exploring what’s possible now. How the clean consciousness affects things. How the implant integration has changed things in the physical and how I feel. (This story is 1/3 done, honest!) I’m exploring the ‘multiplicity’ vs the ‘meld’ now and what that means.
It’s a bit of a sleepy, hazy place today, but it’s warm and kinda cushiony for now.
And in re-reading and tweaking this, the image occurs to me.. that I fell backwards into the multiplicity, it came in on itself and it seems to have melded into one and from that came the birthing again of I AM. I wrote a couple years ago when I started to feel this ‘and you will know yourself again as original’. And I move now, as with many things, from the knowing and sitting in different dimensional spaces, into the embodiment of.
I wrote this yesterday and let it rest for the night. Came back to re-read once again, and then came across the comment from Xavi under Lauren’s I Am Creation article, that I hadn’t heard before he wrote it. From Adamus: "Once Ascended you will find yourself back in the Wall of Fire, only it will not burn you anymore, and you will discover that you have never moved from there.” (From the Altar Book Four preview)
And here we go again!
A note from Lauren: Joanna, this picture is striking for many reasons but going back to the future now it looks like my visit to the Sequoia National Forest, which has occurred but not in linear time. While in Poland, on a very hot day (Raphaelle, it is hot as balls in Europe!) on June First, El Morya appeared to me in physical form. The last time was in September when he introduced the Banyan Tree to me and well, you know what happens next.
So when I got home I went to look for a camping spot in the national forest which only opens on June 20th. It is usually booked out six months in advance but there it was - the single camping spot I reserved so easily. So I'm going to go find out what already happened....stay tuned...
Thank you, Joanna, and Xanthe for always taking my writing to the next level. I write something or just "think" it and there you are pushing it ever so gently into a deeper consciousness. Others might be annoyed. I am overjoyed to be pushed to go further and I thank you both.
Also, I have felt the WE dissolve into the I. No longer feeling any attachment to a Sar'h voice or past lives, I seem to be swimming in the future now. What a party!