Decided to start sharing some of my personal journal entries. Why not???
Enlightenment Notes from April 4, 2018:
I guess you cannot escape your cosmic connections in the human experience.
Since moving from Colorado and physically from Crimson Circle, the non-organization organization I have been involved with for the past three years, I felt myself totally disconnect – the chords were ripped so fast from my body of consciousness it sent me spinning. Wheee! Free!!!!
My human breathed a huge sigh of relief. Thank, God. I don’t have to play these roles anymore. No more identity. Hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahah….bawahhahahahahahah….
That cackle is the sound of my soul and my ascended master friends El Morya, Kuthumi, and Dwal Kuhl laughing at me.
Even Adamus St. Germain is there laughing at me something hysterical.
Having a keen sense of “self humor” – the beautiful ability not to take yourself seriously – at all – ever!! And when you act serious, you are completely aware of the act.
Through the laughter, human Lauren finally remembered the divine comedy we are playing in. As long as you are a human on Earth you are playing a role. The other parts, facets of self, in the cosmos are playing a role in all the various realities.
The human/ control/ agenda/ perceived human free will – another great cosmic joke! Too funny not to laugh at – thought it would somehow be able to pick and choose and decide in all of this.
Yet, when you make the expansion into the soul self AND master self – I am feeling these as one voice yet distinct simultaneously – making the “decisions” (the human has no fucking say or negotiation ability anymore and tuckered out to observe from the sidelines)… wait, what’s the right word….?
How about instead of decisions …choices of the soul….or better yet allowing divine will to flow through self and the vessel of the body….the body no longer a human body but a soul body….
My human does have a choice, I guess…fight it or laugh…end the end it’s never a choice, you cannot help but to laugh at the IRONY.
The irony is that in leaving Colorado I am spending more energy on the Crimson Council than ever…or perhaps my awareness shifted, more likely – Crimson Council is the group of angelic beings who supports the worldly creation that is the Crimson Circle and those allowing embodied enlightenment.
Every single night I am with the Crimson Council in the last ten days. I am working with individuals in my sleep. I even know the names and what exact patterns we are breaking in my sleep. I have always done this, yet not on this particular council – or rather, I am just becoming aware of this.
The ironic part – leaving the CC in physical form, I’m now more involved than ever. HA!
Then in a simultaneous dream reality, I am with the “Indian” crew, creating another portal for expansion for those choosing consciousness. This is entirely different than the Crimson Council work. It is all who I call Sar’h, but different facets of her.
Lauren, human self, is also going through multiple scenarios working out her human residual fears. No need to do these in the physical so creating a little reality for burn off. Smart. Masterly.
During the day, I am stunned to find myself not in conflict anywhere.
I search my body of consciousness almost in a panic – there has to be at least one – at least one little battle to play out and analyze. There has to be something there to fix, to process, to unravel.
“Oh my God, there is nothing!” (relief)
“Yay! There is nothing to fix.” (celebration)
“Holy sweet baby Jesus. There is nothing to fix!!!!” ( panic!!!)
Damn it. I cannot even panic!!! (surrender)
Final stage: More Laughter!!!!
The human wanted enlightenment all this time, and now it has no idea what to do with it.
And, it is hilarious!
I once asked, “Is this it? Is this all there is to enlightenment?”
Today and the past month…”This is it! This is all there is to enlightenment!”
The human wants to go back. “Hold on. I had some more things to fix, to experience, to do.”
(the feeling of leaving the stove on….but you know you really didn’t…but you just want to check anyway…just in case…)
And the funniest thing of all is that it can’t. It really is this easy AND there is no going back. Because there is no back or forward.
Beyond the simultaneous dreams, linearity is no longer here – in the now laughable term – “daily life”….
Buying a new car…I saw it in the parking lot, and I realized I already owned it.
I had owned it for some time. Now, I just had to reverse into how I got there, so I pulled out a checkbook and wrote a check for it. I reversed backwards into the experience of where it came from. I saw it all happening through the eyes of the divine.
My human held up a finger – my human is so outside of my body – the body is now a simple expression of the soul – it held up a finger and said “wait, let’s research the car.”
“Why,” my master self said. “We already own it, have for a long time, and it works out - incredibly. We love the car.”
“Oh, right,” and the human laughed hysterically. “This is fun!”
It all – all of everything - occurs in the same split second, the same moment. All of existence, experience, and expression is the same simultaneously. You get to fast forward, rewind, hit pause or whatever in any reality you inhabit. It is so freeing. And the only way there is to let go of the conflict.
I said it a hundred times. Drop the sword. I believed it. I sensed it would happen. But nothing compares to the actual experience. Beyond words, my friends.
Even the smallest of thoughts are part of the conflict. You cannot reject them. And, I’m going to say it. You can only allow it to go. It wants to go. The conflict. The mental thoughts. They want to leave. The suffering game. It wants to go too. You only have to let it. Stop blocking the door as it tries to push its way out.
“Is it really that easy?” Turns into….
“I know this really great, cosmic-level joke. It truly is that easy.”
A head nod in acknowledgment of Joanna who had this etheric conversation with me out on my surfboard last week as we laughed our fucking heads off.
Big love. Big life. Big fat laughter!
What I actually share publicly from my journal....Just to show you all how I mold and shape what I share to fit an audience and why this place is so special to me...I don't have to water it down here. Concentrated, undiluted experiences here and not there....
And my soul whispered to me, control is just another form of energy feeding.... I find it applied to perceived self-control too.
Trying to manage energy, set boundaries, rules of engagement, even the perception of using logic (just more battle internal...and energetically expensive....so many layers to this) ...and then when I wasn't using the energy to regulate and manage, it flowed seamlessly into the flow of creation.
I found all that energy no longer managed by the human flowed into soul creation. While not all creations need to be material, I am quite enjoying my new car. A representation of energy serving me in every moment. It's a ton of fun to drive too. I walked in, wrote a check, and drove off in one hour. No logic, no number crunching, no should I or shouldn't I, involved.
It's really jaw dropping to realize how scary it is for the human not to be in conflict - even an internal debate such as what car to buy. The layers of this battle called logic run so deep, but they are not who I AM.
And then beyond that fear that is almost grounding, the magic flows in the untethered experience of soul freedom. This one I can drive!
Picture of the new ride below!
Hey friends, I wanted to write down a few notes. I'm still in this holding pattern my soul showed me - that it will be June before I am sharing more about this space and self realizations. Yet, I do want to check in a share a slice of life.
Besides my soul whispering to me that we (my multiple self) were releasing identity over the next few months and showing me some sort of creative bloom in June, my soul has been whispering to me about my body.
A couple months ago I really wanted to create a series on the body of the beyond - what the body goes through and how it transfigures in the embodied enlightenment experience - both Sar'h and El Morya and other contributors have a lot to say about it, yet I can't really write about something or share a channel unless I go through it.
Some channelers can share things without having to go through them;
A storyteller must have the experience first. I am the latter.
So, as I said, my writing is in a bit of a hold pattern as a result.
I will say for two weeks or so my soul has whispered to me - "It doesn't matter what you eat."
For about six months, I was unable to eat meat or drink anything. That has let up significantly, yet I know I will not return to the animalistic method in which I did before. I know there is nothing wrong with letting your human be human. I went all out, and in the end, my human nature said to me, I'm done, it is out of my system. I'm ready for NEW.
Sar'h said yesterday to the human self who is a bit confused yet relaxed at the moment:
"Your body is no longer biology, no longer an expression of the Earth; your body is an expression of me, your soul, and needs no Earth, no biology to exist. That's what it means to be on Earth, not of it."
My soul also whispers each day:
"It does not matter what you eat or do now - this body as a physical expression of soul."
This is understood by me Lauren, the human, but am I living it??? Not really.
In one reality I am, and in another it hasn't spiraled down into wisdom as of yet. Here's why....
When I used to have realizations, there seemed to be a natural progression - a move through linear time. It's different now.
The realization occurs or exists, rather, outside linear time. So there is one Lauren incarnation who totally gets what my soul is saying and there is another who is puzzled. They exist in different realities. I can see one linear day soon that the two will overlap. Let me try to explain this again, please.
What's different is that I am not going through a Darwinian evolution this time. I see time folding on itself for this to "happen."
If you stretch out a string and make a knot on one end - that knot would represent the biology body. The knot on the other end would represent the soul expression body/ the body of beyond. If you take the two knots and place them together (beyond linearity). That is how my soul is showing me that this happens.
Should be interesting....
In all of this letting go of identity and the move to conscious acts or roles in the context of divine will, anxiety has come up. Fear around losing my dog, mainly. I have been dreaming with Shakespearean levels of tragedy and comedy -- and realizing there is not much difference between the two.
Admittedly, I am much more in a state of allowing the change than being right now - yet I can see clearly the peice of me sitting under the Banyan Tree. This fracture of self is uncomfortable to the human, yet the human is in so much trust at the same time. I am watching the fear like a play.
Funny enough, yesterday I stepped on a sting ray after catching a beautiful wave with D. The pain from the venom is incredible. I was living the tragedy and the comedy - simultaneously screaming at the indescribable pain AND laughing at myself as I hobbled home with a trail of blood pouring out behind me.
We cannot take anything too seriously in this life of maya illusions!
Further, I have been wanting to write about friction. So many of us, myself included, want to avoid at all cost and drama or uncomfortable exchanges with other people and that is understandable. I can really see a difference in drama and natural friction.
You can avoid human drama unless you choose to play the act (I do sometimes).
Yet, friction as perceived by the human is simply the sensation of motion to the soul.
You cannot avoid friction (human) and motion (soul sense) in life. Even if you lived in a cave in the Himalayas, you are still going to get sick of snow (probably yell at it because you are alone and have nothing else to get pissed at). You will feel friction or motion from the changing tides of your consciousness or awareness.
Just because you stop interacting with people, does not mean you will never have friction. Further, I sense friction as expansive and healthy for the human.
What I am generally trying to say is friction is a natural part of life and each time it happens you don't have to get out of all interactions with people. You don't have to create new boundaries. You don't have to blame yourself or others for the friction. It just is.
Surfing is a great example. You have to paddle over breaking waves that hit you in the face before you get beyond the break. You have to miss a few waves before you catch the best ride of your life.
Sometimes you accidentally step on a poor stingray and it kicks your ass. But if I just stood on the "safe" shore, I would miss all the soul experiences - the experiences that create the wisdom.
Further, there is no safety on the shore. It's an illusion. I could be standing on the shore "safe" and my dog or my mom could get hurt. The only safety is in the I Exist. In the wisdom that this world is an illusion. That death and pain are illusions. That is the only safety - WISDOM of the SOUL.
For me, I am realizing the friction does not matter. The energy I spent on trying to avoid friction actually had the opposite effect, creating more of it. The old saying what you resist persists.
As we move into more about conscious creation (this summer, my soul says), one of the imperatives besides the self-observation beyond identity is the ability to allow human friction/ sense of motion to flow without knocking us back into a place of hiding. I am not talking about hiding from the people around us, but hiding from SELF. The inner world reflected in the outer world and vice versa.
As I write I realize, anything and everything until June will just be preparation for the the human manifestation knot on the string (resenting malleable linear time) to fold over and meet with the soul creation knot on the string.
Your questions and experiences are alway welcome here. Welcome new member, Elisheva. Honored to have you here. I'm glad Momo told you about this space.
I've been talking with our contributors about what the next New Moon gathering on January 16th will look like.
First, the ascended masters who have the joy of existing beyond the Veils of Maya (our current series) would like to communicate with us all about how they "got past" the linear nature of human life. They said they will be open for discussion about that experience. If you would like, they offer to provide some insight about moving beyond the Earth time constructs. What "worked" for them without it being in a teaching format. This is not a mystery school, they add, but an opportunity to share.
Next, the ascended masters would like to hear from those embodied. They recognize that our experience in this different time and space of embodied enlightenment is much different for us than it was them. They would love to know - in distilled soul wisdom form, not human complaining - what truly makes it unique for you.
El Morya says, "We get that your experience is unique and different from most of ours. You never fail to tell us this."
"Over and over again," he says laughing. "Yet, it would be beneficial if you could tell us how it is different, so that we may hold an understanding beyond surface level."
I am doing some research for a book and came across El Morya's initiative for entering his etheric retreat in Darjeeling.
I add it below and translate it into the common language with the help of El Morya, who is now shouting out word replacements. This is my life:P
"There may be some who come to the retreat (now the Banyan Tree)...but their motives are not pure. They are self-seeking. They want power not Glory in God (the experience of the God Self), but for the vainglory of the synthetic self (human identity) which they refuse to surrender (integrate). They are told politely by the gatekeeper that those who enter must leave the slippers of the lesser self at the door. Those who are unwilling to take off the shoes of the shadowed self may not walk upon this hallowed ground."
That being said, we have no gatekeeper. It's not needed.
Yet, if you don't take your shoes off, there is no way in.
Some "tips" -
Create a quiet place without interfering energies if you would like to join us while awake.
It is also great and possibly even better to visit the Banyan Tree in the dream state on the night of December 16th.
Better yet, try both.
If you will, please share your experiences.
I will create a post for this purpose, so maybe write down your experience notes.
I really sense this is such a nice expanded experience to gather in the etheric.
As soon as a gathering happens in the physical, it is almost impossible that the limited human does not appear.
I know this will change, and I also sense gatherings like these pave the way for that to happen.
COME FLOAT WITH US - BAREFOOT!
IN HONOR OF YOU!
I will be typing up my Prognost notes and sharing them on the Ryver community forum.
Depending on the material - if relevant - it will appear in posts.
With it being my last in-person event for the foreseeable future,
I see this space moving away from the Crimson Circle cloud.
The Center landed next to them for a bit to share,
and now its time to go back out into its own space.
Surely, we will return at some point to check in again.
And it is all appropriate.
A SIGNIFICANT CENTER FOR BEING UPDATE WRITTEN BY SAR'H AND EL MORYA TOGETHER
Remember when you were a kid or perhaps even as an adult, and you would have a grand idea for creation - a magic one without regard to linear space, time, and limits.
And then - inevitably - you would share with with a parent or friend and they would tell you all the ways it was not possible.
For example, maybe as a child you said you were going to create an experiences theme park. In this theme park, there would be no gravity so anything not nailed down would float. You didn't think about money because it was not needed to create. Each child in the the amusement park would be given a wand to perform magic tricks - optical illusions - with the flick of their magic wand.
Then your parents or friends would say stuff like:
"You are just a child. You don't get it. This would costs millions, and you have no money."
"Magic doesn't exist."
"This theme park of yours would be begging for a lawsuit."
The lists goes on.
A truly masterful idea of creation was then reduced to ruins as one person after another piled their old belief systems on top of your expression and experience - over and over again.
In other words, they beleaguered your creation with their be-LIE-fs.
Beliefs like you need money to create. Magic is a lie. Fun is dangerous.
"Go home. Get out of my creation!"
Whatever the lie the person believes to be true about their reality - called by the human: beliefs - they place it on the creation and burn it to the ground, but not before taking a hammer to it. They take your idea and beat it to death with a stick made of their own limitations - called by the human: beliefs.
Beliefs are just that: LIES AND LIMITATIONS.
If you were a child when this happened repeatedly, it is likely after a while you decided to keep your visions and creations to yourself or only share with a friend who knew magic was just as real as this physical world.
In our mastery, when we have creations and manifestations coming forth, we often keep them to ourselves after being beaten down by others beliefs again and again. We know the drill.
Yes, there is a reason, masters don't talk very much. Because they know what happens when people place their doubts, fears, limits, and lies upon something - they can reduce them to shit. A watered down version of creation.
The soul is no longer expressing and experiencing. The human is trying to build a house of wood made of limitations and belief systems. Systems were something we discussed at length this summer, remember? Beliefs come in the form of systems; they do not stand alone.
In master level creation, the master is the vessel for spirit/ soul / the God (also) part of our nature - whose passions are two things: expression and experience. No emotion. No thoughts. No limits. No bank accounts or Earth-bound laws.
The master knows anything and everything is possible.
The master knows limits are lies.
The master knows there is always a blank canvas on which to paint the expression.
Perhaps the amusement park is created in the non-physical world, and the master goes each night to play with their master friends. Those who still hold the be-LIE-fs and limiting thoughts, of course, do not go visit and play because they cannot see what their human mind-level beliefs will not let them.
You don't think you have limiting beliefs? Try this one with me, and watch what comes up inside of you sphere of consciousness.
For the last two months, El Morya has talked with me about coming into a physical body. Reincarnating.
Watch the beliefs as they pop up for you one by one:
"An ascended master would never reincarnate. That would be stupid."
Ok - Saint Germain came in as Mark Twain, well after his ascension on a linear time line.
One of the lies and limitations in this thought would be that time is linear and a belief that there is such as things as past and future lives. They are all happening now, simultaneously.
"An ascended master would never come into a baby's body."
Yogananda sure did, and he even wrote about it in his book, Autobiography of Yogi.
More lies and more limits will come up as you ponder this. I am not saying this to judge. I am providing an opportunity to watch and observe where limiting beliefs are still playing a role in your creation experiences.
*** I will not say if this is a true story or not right now because I don't want to be whipped by other's limitations. It's simply an exercise in observing, or becoming self-aware in what beliefs are still whipping you around, especially around creation. What lies are you still telling yourself and calling them beliefs?
If you want to discuss it with El Morya directly, feel free.
I am not immune. Yet, through the eyes of the master I simply see the lies and limitations floating around, and they rarely have a place to land in my thoughts and in my words.
If they do land in my thoughts and/or words, I notice immediately and make a note of observation. Not correction, observation.
"How did that trash get in there?" I ask myself without beating myself up. I move on and the muscle memory of the sensation allows me to not have the experience again unless I consciously choose it - after a little practice.
It is not that the beliefs will not still be buzzing around you ever again. It's just that they will not have any place to land. ***
With that, let's play in creative expression without limits:
First, I like to create in the non-physical where there is no should or supposed to. There is no duality or linearity. There is no money. That's how I wrote my book - out in the ethers and then I brought "down" to the physical.
Try this, if you please.
Breathe and turn internal. Connect to the master creator within you.
Individually we are going on a journey.
First, cross the road that is humanity.
Then walk a path deep into the forest. Hear the birds chirp and the leaves crunch beneath your feet.
Notice the smells and sensations.
Next, you come to a gate that is locked. Open the gate without effort.
Inside is a garden. A blank canvas for you to add any plants, tress, or animals to your liking.
Does the garden have gravity?
You decide what is going on in your garden.
Does it have animals that are extinct or ones who have never been on physical earth?
What about water? Perhaps there is an entire ocean within your personal master garden.
As you walk or float through creating whatever it is - see what beliefs come up, what limits - as you notice them add something to your garden which destroys the myth.
For example, plants must grow in the ground.
Ok, now it is time to create a plant that grows in the air suspended.
Continue to express and experience your garden creation.
As we move forward here in creating our etheric space for the Center of Being, I am holding a space - a waste basket of sorts - outside the Banyan Tree. It is a place for you to deposit those old limiting belief systems.
Don't worry, we will recycle them - dumping the container back down on old Earth, where the lies we tell ourselves called beliefs are welcome. Yet, there is no place for them under the golden branches of the Majestic Banyan Tree.
If this is too much, that's okay. There are so many playgrounds to play in beliefs and local linear limitations. We will honor you in that experience.
Yet, as El Morya and I continue to create the Center of Being (as well as you - in your master version of Self) why not try placing the beleaguering beliefs at the door - I know at the soul level you would never want that to hinder the experience that is the Magic of Being.
Currently, we have been creating with broad stokes (as Karen would say) the gardens surrounding the Banyan Tree.
El Morya and I have been creating limitless pathways for others to discover the Banyan, from all walks of life and all types of mastery.
We are setting up pathways that beget the soul's passion to let go - sovereignly, of course - of all limits - pathways leading to the Banyan Tree.
We are creating a conducive environment for those choosing the embodied enlightenment experience to go beyond the mind and emotions.
Those who sense they are drawn to the Banyan Tree will then be able to choose, in the sovereign will, whether they would like to have this limitless experience or not.
As we create the pathways - none are straight forward, they spiral and dance through the cosmos.
One is the divine will experience.
Another the end of the karmic cycle of human reincarnation without awareness of pattern.
The next is simply a passion for being - a complete self-awareness. And on...
They are not just garden paths, but experience vortexes and roller coasters of epic proportions - but they all lead to the Center of Being - Your Being.
Who decides to enter? Well, we leave that completely open.
Good morning, dearest friends! I am writing to your from the Third Circle of my sovereign-est of domains - the radiant diamond of my being-ness - and putting forth the facet of the diamond that is wisdom to reflect your own mastery of knowingness back to you.
As we re-define what it means to be in our sovereign domain and how we interact - not aspect to aspect - but facet to facet, I wanted to share something that has been occurring within the depths of the I AM.
In the old New Age days, everyone was sharing symbols of the spiral - of the fibonacci sequence. That spiral has come back into my awareness recently as my human catches up with the flowing river of the souls wisdom.
When we are first introduced to a concept such as energy dynamics, or Divine Will, or the absence of linear time, we begin to understand them on different points of experience in the spiral of self-awareness, which originates and ends, in the I AM THAT I AM.
For example, we remember - or are reminded - time is not linear - it does not have a beginning and an end, yet flows like the infinity symbol, all lifetimes occurring simultaneously, and radiating out from the Center of our Being.
We can grasp that on a mental and emotional level. We can correct our language - it is not a past life, but a concurrent or simultaneous one. We can sense within our body of consciousness the other lifetimes occurring.
Perhaps we have dreams to show us. Perhaps a person from one of those lives re-appears, and we feel instantly the seduction of having that person in our lives.
Our soul begins to create experiences in this human life, in physical form to provide concrete examples of a concept, so that we may distill the wisdom of it, once again, for the human to come with us on this grand enlightenment experience.
Sometimes we get stuck in the experience for a bit - like in the karmic relationship - or once I spent a great deal of time looking into past lives and trying to align them neatly on a history-book-like timeline.
We become stuck in the crystal of our own creations, until we are freed from the illusion of the prison, through the distillation of soul wisdom - knowing deeply everything serves us as it is occurring. Then we can further expand into the spiral of awareness.
First, we understand a conscious concept in the mental and emotional bodies, then we go into experiencing concept in our physical world - to provide the human with an example - and sometimes get stuck there for a bit.
Now I am discovering a new layer - not even a layer but a different point on the spiral of awareness. Not only understanding with my head and heart a concept of mastery, but knowing it in the core of my BEING - without having to dive deep into a human, physical experience to represent the concept.
If I do have something come up in my Universe of Self - an experience that needs to be had to distill more wisdom for the human to catch up with my mastery - it can occur in seconds or minutes, rather than linear years - like perhaps a karmic relationship running its course might take.
Here's what I mean, stay with me, please...
In the last month, I've had a few opportunities arise - that were quite seductive - a temptation of sorts to get caught up in human experiences.
I like to think of them as invitations for karmic play, in which I decide if I want to participate or not. It's all part of the embodied enlightenment experience, and choosing to play in duality is a choice in experience - and without right or wrong labels. In Divine Will, it seems the choice disappears, but that is another post.
In knowing the embodied enlightenment experience occurs within and not in human life events, I have found I can let those seductive situations play out in the absence of linear time and space. In other words, I do not have to create these massive distractions by allowing them to play out in physical form.
For example, an old karmic lover inviting me to meet in the physical world. I don't have to drag myself into that physical experience but can unravel it without the use of energy or effort.
Stay with me...
Instead, I have found these type of scenarios can play out in the body of consciousness much quicker if they do not occur in linear time, if they do not occur in the physical world.
In other words, the creations of soul wisdom distilled - for me now - are much easier to create and experience - without having to manifest them in the physical.
I can create the wisdom distilling experience in the space beyond gravity, beyond linear time, and outside the focus of this human life, which allows me to have the experience I need to have in a few minutes - on a walk in nature or while taking a nap - without having the massive distraction in my physical world, which often left me energetically drained or very sick on some occasions.
When we create the experience - which supports our expansion - outside, or beyond the physical realm, it is a lot easier on the physical body and the mental and emotional bodies, for no effort or energy is required.
Additionally, in the same vein of no energy experiences, I am also finding I can observe others in their effort-laden experiences (with honor and compassion) and distill the wisdom without actually having to go through it.
For example, another master once told me their greatest fear was being homeless. Knowing whatever we fear- whatever is keeping us from the Triple E, whatever perceived limitations we have that keep us from the Magic of Being - our soul will create an experience in which we move beyond the fear.
As I said, as we expand into the spiral of awareness, I am finding that we do not have to create that wisdom-filled experience in the physical, which requires ridiculous amounts of energy. It is "energetically expensive", in other terms.
For this person who feared homelessness, I said why not let that play out in the body of consciousness - in the Universe of SELF, rather than in real life. Allow yourself to have the full experience of homelessness to move through the fear of it, without actually having to do it in physical life. It is no less real, no matter in what realm of consciousness you create the experience.
Then you can move beyond the perceived limitation, which is like a rope that ties you to the limited human and to the limited linear and mental perspectives.
In diving deeply into the fear or whatever perceived limitation, you can then cut the rope that holds you down into the density of gravity and duality and fly into your mastery - or float beneath the grand and majestic Banyan Tree, if you wish.
As I expand into the spiral of awareness, I notice I can witness certain things in others. Even in everyday life situations that would appear seemingly mundane.
For example, a friend was trying to give me a king size quilt because she said she had a queen mattress. It didn't match in her head. Only a king quilt goes on a king bed.
Then she was trying to hang pictures on either side of a window, but the nails on which they hung were not exactly even on either side of the window, so she just gave up. Placed the framed picture on the ground because it was not in her perception that pictures could hang staggered. The trap of local linear thoughts permeating every experience in her physical life in an energetically expensive way.
It made no sense that one picture would be staggered to the other - that they did not need to line up - that is was not in linear order on purpose. It made no sense that the king quilt would certainly work on a queen bed, and in fact, might look even better.
It's an extremely concrete example to demonstrate that enlightenment is not going to fit in a nice, neat box. The boxes are creations of the limited human. They are a result of the confines of linear time.
My homework for myself - and yours if you choose it - is to fathom with ocean of your consciousness, of your awareness, where the illusion of local, linear time is holding you back in your embodied enlightenment experience - sensually, that is.
If a fear or karmically seductive situation comes up, can you receive the distilled wisdom through allowing the scenario to play out within your body of consciousness rather than to create a perceived prison in your physical world that will end up being a huge distraction and massively energetically expensive.
Most importantly, the distinct difference in creating the physical experience to gain soul wisdom - to move through the human muck - and creating the wisdom-filled experience in the absence of gravity, duality and linearity is one thing - energy and effort.
In NO ENERGY CREATION, we do not need anymore to use effort/ energy to create the situations, which allow us to spiral deeply into our expanded mastery of SELF. We no longer need to create in the physical to have the master experience. Though, like this website, we can if we choose.
Instead, we can prop our feet up and allow the creation to move through the Universe of Self, while completely relaxed and without any energy expenditure at all - beyond grand. We can take a stroll beneath the glowing sun of awareness, breathing easy, knowing our creations without effort can serve us in ways our human never imagined.
My birthday wish:
With that, I will remind you that tomorrow I am celebrating me and, more so us, under the Banyan Tree. The greatest birthday gift you could give me would be to come play with me in the no energy sandbox.
Lets create with consciousness, which needs no energy and physical representation. Let's explore tomorrow life beyond linearity - beyond gravity - beyond duality - and into the infinite abyss of our awareness. Let's open up to the senses, which only lie beyond linearity, beyond gravity, and beyond duality.
Part of the reason I shared my story yesterday was to begin to move this space beyond linear time and space, which is the natural state of being in Divine Will.
As we move through post traumatic soul injuries, or PTSI, I found instead of writing about it in a mental way, I might instead create a space for us to do so - for yourself and by yourself - outside the confines of human, physical life.
The soul trauma was not created on the physical Earth but beyond it. Thus, perhaps the space to unravel the trauma is in the space in which it was created. The space beyond the noise.
Happy no energy creation, friends!
Don't talk about night anymore! -
In our day there is no night.
In our religion of Love
There is no religion or love.
Love is the endless ocean of God
Yet a thousand souls, drowning in that ocean, cry out -
"There is no God!"
-Rumi, In the Arms of the Beloved
Any human who travels to far lands returns home forever changed. It’s no different for the conscious being. Yet, the magnitude of the earthquake of change upon arrive ‘home’ – with one thud of a heavy passport stamp – the world becomes different in ways previously unimaginable for the mere human traveler.
To know this yourself, you need not step on a plane or drive across borders – you need only expand your mastery in perspective and perceptions to seeing, sensing, and knowing deeply that everything – every little last thing in this life and all others – is and was an illusion.
“Who are you beyond these illusions?” Master M and Sar’h asked Lauren, the human who is finally catching up to her own mastery, as we flew sixteen hours across the world from New Delhi to New York.
It wasn’t just a question for me but for everyone who joined in the New Moon gathering of embodied and ascended masters.
I was able to see so clearly the roles I had played on the Earth’s stages. I was able to see how I was the writer and producer of my life. Knowing that used to be a big realization – I create my own reality. And then like any realization, there comes a point when it is time to let it all go, once again.
Something in me clicked – this was no longer needed, no longer desired - I did not need to write anymore human free will plays. In that realization, I completely had to let go of every single thing I have shared and wrote about on the New Energy Creator website.
In embodied enlightenment, these concepts of creatorship are outdated, and obsolete, though they were a vital part of my journey. You no longer need to create with New Energy (energy containing consciousness). Instead, creation requires no energy at all.
We are marked by the grace in which we let things go. I watched that body of work be sucked into the vortex of what no longer serves. What do I do with all the New Energy Creator work? I archive it into the library of the soul’s wisdom, and I walk on. It’s that simple.
In the New Moon gathering, I saw in divine will I was beyond acting roles, beyond writing a script, directing, and staring in it. For those roles were the will of the human and not the will of God.
In other words, in the will of God there is a different script, or perhaps none at all, Sar’h and Master M suggested, allowing me the wiggle room to discern for myself, as I will allow you to do as well.
So as I found myself behind the curtain of all stages, I had a backstage pass to watch as more things were sucked into the vortex of what was no longer mine. I watched the stories, the plays, and the movies that no longer served reverse with the changing tide of my soul’s wisdom.
I remember in 2014 standing at a Mayan ruin in southern Mexico. As I entered the hearth of a stone structure, I heard Sar’h and Master M telling Lauren, my human self, “Let go of the need for recognition.”
For years, in the human will, I felt I needed to become unattached to being seen, so that people would see me. In this New Moon moment, it became very clear that I no longer wanted recognition at all. Not wanting it did not mean letting go of it, not being tied to it, but really with every cell of my being desiring the opposite experience. I want to be left alone, to play no role at all, and simply BE in my own essence.
This trip was defined by the letting go of human free will and stepping into the will of God. There are several things that got twisted around by the human. I feel like it is hugely supportive to talk about what I got “wrong.” The feeling of embarrassment left me some years ago, anyway.
First, Master M said he was going to meet me in India. He certainly did but, of course, it was not on the old physical Earth. It was beneath a Banyan tree, of which only those with eyes can see it.
Going back to the beginning of the trip, I realized deeply that I would no longer be sharing with the audience that is Masters Hub and other groups spiraled off from the Crimson Circle. Not because it was wrong or bad – it serves many right now – but I had quickly outgrown it.
My human free will reasoned it was because we (multiple me) were “supposed to” “work with” a larger audience. In that human thought form, I created the ‘Return to Self’ series for a larger audience, advertised it as a way to explore this theory.
I could not have been more off. That is not what I am “supposed to do.” Too funny!
What I really did was set up my own energy portal for ME – not the readers – to Return to SELF, and what I found is I no longer want to teach anything, and I certainly do not want to work with anyone in awakening stages of realization.
Why? Because I can see, sense and know everything is perfect - absolutely perfect for them - and requires zero interference. Also, I do not enjoy it at all. More importantly, it is not the will of God.
Teaching is rarely, very rarely a divine will action. As I have seen in myself, it is so easy to turn and manipulate what is definitely human will into believing from a human perspective that it is divine will.
Sar’h ever so gently whispered, “Those who are out there teaching are doing so because they still need to learn the material themselves.”
It makes so much sense. All of what I have been sharing – writing the Thirty Days of Self-Love was about me finding that space for myself. Each client I met with and reflected their mastery back to was a way for me to reflect mastery back to myself. I no longer need the mirror – I can see myself so clearly in the darkness of the New Moon.
Yet, I took a pause to honor the experience that playing the teacher, facilitator role gifted me, and let it go, as it no longer serves.
So what does exist beyond the illusions of human free will living – for me?
There is one thing I kind of got right, or was at least on the right track. I said I would be “working with” those who are committed to the embodied enlightenment experience – beyond the circus, beyond the social media videos, beyond the cool kids club (none of which are wrong or bad but simply do not flow with the state of divine will).
I am not here to “work” with anyone, yet in this New Moon gathering, which created such an expansive space beyond the noise, I can see what I can offer you all and what you offer as well – a space for embodied masters and ascended masters to BE beyond all the human constructs and systems. That cannot be done on a Facebook platform. It cannot be done right now in a physical old Earth space. It can only be held beyond the illusions.
Myself and others like you are holding a space in the physical and Master M and his friends are holding a space in the ethereal for those who have the passion to stay here in body and BE. Not teach, not draw a crowd, but to simply be.
For that reason, I do not want this space to continue on Facebook or Patreon. By 2018, I’m going to move all this content onto a password protected website, which will include a forum for those who make the shift over. More updates on that will be forthcoming, but I did want to share my personal realizations before going into the bigger picture.
Note: The site was moved over here in November 2017.
Coming back from our journey, I cannot un-see what I saw. To know everything around you is an illusion is one thing and experiencing every single reality as a movie screen projected into the physical is quite another.
Since returning I have not had one brief moment in which I did not see the illusion clearly. Not a single second has passed in which I did not know I was walking though a movie set. The woman who passed me on the trail yelling at me to put my dog on a leash was nothing but an actor on the stage.
So what is real? Let me begin again, please.
Any human who travels to far lands returns home forever changed. It’s no different for the conscious being. Yet, the magnitude of the earthquake of change upon arrive ‘home’ – with one thud of a heavy passport stamp – the world becomes different in ways previously unimaginable for the mere human traveler.
To know this yourself, you need not step on a plane or drive across borders – you need only expand your mastery in perspective and perceptions to seeing, sensing, and knowing deeply (from experience, not a mental construct) that everything – every little last thing in this life and all others – is and was an illusion but one thing – that thing is called love.
Speak not of the human kind of love, but the kind you find in dark crevices in the space between the cells of your being. This kind of love is an experience that can only be found beyond the illusions and behind the curtains of all perceived realities.
The only thing real in this world free from illusion is this dark love – love you can only experience and know when you have given up the rest, including your human free will and any human passion beyond self-realization, through the art of complete surrender.
I will write it again. To experience this kind of love, you must see clearly and know deeply your perceived passions are but mere distractions.
It’s the kind of love that exists beyond the stages, beyond the movie projected, and it can only be sensed in the absence of that movie screen – one you can step away from for a time and space, like we did in the New Moon gathering, if you joined us.
This dark love - this love that exists outside illusion has another name. It is the Love of God, and that, my friends, is what we brought forth in the New Moon gathering and what I will continue to do each month should you feel compelled to join, checking your human free will at the door, please.
I hate to say it, but Adamus was right. Kuthumi was right. Master M was right. In this embodied enlightenment experience, you will not want to be social. You will not want to be online. Enjoy it while you can. Have the experience in the illusion.
One day you will wake up, and you will not want to play a role in the illusions anymore. You will see so clearly how nothing is authentic. Everything is an act. And for a time, you would rather be alone, wandering realities. The only company you will welcome is those who pass by who are also walking beyond the veil of illusion.
Like Kuthumi, you will want to talk to trees. Like Adamus, you will trade your proverbial castle for a forest. Like Master Morya, you will leave your role as prince and become the ruler of your own kingdom, instead.
And, just like anything else, that too will dissolve. But for a time, you will not want to play in the video game that is Earth’s illusions.
When Adamus first said these things, such as masters are not on Facebook. Masters don’t go to organized Shaumbra events. I said, “Hey buddy, you don’t get to define my enlightenment experience.” That was the human free will talking.
I will not speak for you all, but for me, he was entirely spot on.
I feel the need to untangle myself from all the roles I created. The master laughs and says, “Hey, just walk away.” And so I am.
I will continue to meet you all in the space beyond the noise, beyond the veils of illusion, and in complete resonance with the dark love, that is the love of God (SELF).
As we said before, once you stop grasping at the figurative $100 bill, there are millions waiting for you on the 'other side', and those riches are found only in the love of God.
Creation no longer requires New Energy; it requires no energy, no effort at all. In fact, it is essential that you do not use effort or energy in your creations in this space.
This is something we’ve been discussing at length and will some more.
I will also be sharing about PTSD (post-traumatic stress disorder) as related to stepping into divine will.
On Wednesday, I am headed to the desert of New Mexico before going to visit my mom. I will surely be bringing anyone with me who wants to come visit and have a cup of tea, go for a long walk among the desert sands, and of course, play with Professor Ollie.
Thank you for your gracing this space with your essence. Oh be ahn, fellow travelers!