A few announcements to those not on our Ryver forum....
This has been an amazing space to have for myself (and perhaps you too!) to share without fear and with a private group of like-conscious souls like yourself.
Since March of 2017, I have offered private writing on Patreon, and on this this website, starting in November of last year. I have watched people come and go, and you all have made this a grand adventure.
Ryver was not something I created - thanks, Este - but something I greatly enjoyed because I got to know you. And just like many of you who have come and gone from it, it is also time for me to take a break.
It's not my job to manage that anymore. I simply want to write and have fun!
Starting now, all my writing will be featured on the ARTICLES page publicly and being back on Facebook, I will also share some of it there. (If you know a good forum for that, please let me know - right now its just on Masters Hub because I have not found anywhere else yet).
You can find me on Facebook HERE.
If you stay on the email list, I will also email out once a month. If not, you can check in when you feel like it. Or not.
I have also learned where my talents lie - writing about embodiment - and less so managing the energetics of an online forum, and I am leaving the call set up and facilitation to you all. Right now those calls are announced by others on Ryver.
It's also quite taxing on my internal energy source to listen to what works and why you don't like something, when it's not my creation and not a whole lot I can do about it.
I'm also pretty sure D and I will no longer be setting up events and putting them all on my credit card. Ha! But what fun Italy was - no regrets! And who knows after a break from all of that settles in...
With your password, you can always access the back end - the THIRD CIRCLE and the BANYAN TREE BOOK. Please mark those links in your records, if you choose.
I learned so much from all of this AND I write as I breathe, so please expect many articles to come. I encourage you to comment on the blog comments section - and if you want to connect privately - email me at firstname.lastname@example.org. I will not be answering anything on Ryver.
I look forward to this next phase of being out of my own personal cocoon and back in the "world." I hope you continue to enjoy the writing, and best to you in your creations as well.
For those of you who are new, this may seem confusing or weird. My apologies. Managing membership is not something I desire to do, so I'm not good at it. What I am good at is being a friend - and I love meeting new friends. A peer who enjoys sharing writing, never a teacher. So don't be a stranger. And if there is a topic you would like to see written about, feel free to email me the idea.
Best wishes and in honor of you in your unique experiences!
Here's some administrative updates....
Our next call will be on November 6, at 1 p.m. Pacific - that's late in Europe and early morning in Australia the next day, but it had the most votes.
I really love the calls and learning so much about you all. I also encourage everyone to chat with each other and make their own calls.
Yet, I am going to try something new in January and into 2019. To cover the costs of Zoom, and the time and energy I put into facilitation and scheduling the call, I will be asking for $3-5/ month donation, for our typically 1.5-2 hour calls.
Zoom costs $15/ per month and I usually spend about 4-5 hours making it all happen. An hour after, regrouping and napping.
I never wanted to do this but lately it feels like an affordable exchange would be more appropriate - something I learned in Tuscany - I lost some money on that trip with all the changes in sleeping arrangements, and the collective time D and I spent arranging it was about a 40-hour work week.... I do feel drained on occasion after scheduling and providing these services and it's something I really needed to learn about myself.
I am also going to limit each call I facilitate to five people or less, so that everyone has a chance to share and receive feedback (if desired). I can be much more present when there is fewer people and more present people. For some reason when someone chips in a few dollars, the commitment to show up changes. Not in all cases but some.
That means less people, getting up and down, drinking wine, eating, having side conversations, and just not being present on the call. It's so hard for me to focus when people pop in and out, turn the video off and back on, and my personal pet peeve showing up late...then sharing your experiences just before ducking out or having a side conversation and not listening to anyone else's... Not when I'm facilitating, please.
Another Option: Each of you take turns being the facilitator on the call each month. You are in charge of the time and setting up the Zoom webinar. Without a paid subscription, the call can only be 45 minutes, but it is a quality service I want to pay for.
You can make your own themes and if you want to make it a happy hour with snacks and drinks - why not??? Up to you. I'm good either way. You can use the Ryver topic section labeled calls to do so. Open to feedback....
In the meantime, everyone is welcome to join us Tuesday. Simply click the link below. November Free For All Call.
THE BANYAN TREE BOOK
Joanna (mainly) and I have finished the first ever Banyan Tree publication. You can check it out here or on the New Moon Wednesday when I will officially email it out. Joanna, you are an amazing designer and truly captured the essence of our collective creation. I cannot thank you enough!
This book sets the stage for what the Banyan Tree represents - a sovereign collective of souls (embodied and not, for lack of a better way to say it) and it includes your personal stories and art about the tree. So much goodness and gold in there.
A huge thank you to all contributors!!!
When I was driving somewhere across the desert in September, I saw myself as Sar'h along with El Morya floating under the Banyan Tree. We had been using our hands and arms to commune and then as if on cue, we both folded our hands in our laps, suspended under its branches. With the folding of our hands in our laps, we closed our eyes.
"Sleep to dream," El Morya "said" - you know he doesn't use words...
It was a symbol of completion - not in finality - but the seed has been planted, the consciousness has started to flow - what our tree of creation has to teach about creation is there for anyone to watch or sovereignly engage with at anytime, with a special invitation each new moon.
However, I sense for me (as floating Sarah facet- ha!) and El Morya, it is just time to chill (wait is not the right word because it implies linear time) for a bit.
Instead, while simultaneously floating under the Banyan, I'm going to let the Sar'h facet of myself continue to write about - realizing you're already realized - and our book that is for people moving from New Age/ spirituality mentality into the New Energy consciousness.
Enough for now and spacial cosmical desert gathering in June to be announced soon.
Thanks everyone for being here. Please enjoy Ryver (and save what you want on your personal computer) until our subscription runs out in March 2019.
Este has found another free space, which saves me from the donation begging process. The Patreon funds have been used up and I am now funding all this myself, which I am happy to do, mostly, but tempered with also honoring my energy served.
See you on Tuesday!!!
Lauren Hutton is inviting you to a scheduled Zoom meeting.
Topic: Zoom Call - Third Circle peeps
Time: Nov 6, 2018 1:00 PM Pacific Time (US and Canada)
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I was about to attempt to edit myself, I've done a lot of that these days, yet I've also taken a new view that it's not so much what you say but how you say it. And who you say it to.
I've kind of a done an excavation of Facebook forums these past two weeks or so, and it helps me remember that this whole hyper-focus, obsession with realization (oh man, me too, not a judgement-based comment) is HARD and ARDUOUS and PAINFUL. I now remember that.
AND, I'm willing to admit I had forgotten. Even in the space I'm in - the "hardest" thing as of late was pulling in this "angelic council" part of myself, which I wrote about in September.
Well, I didn't really pull a piece of myself in; I expanded my being-ness out to include it in ever-expansing embodied form. (Kai, thanks for help with the words). Still not exactly what I want to say....It's coming...
I'm no longer collecting the puzzle pieces but instead I sensing what I call ITERATIONS IN EXPANSION. Ones that do not go down a linear line in gravity but expand from all directions sans gravity. Iterations as in upgraded software of Self, embodying more and more of myself with each moment.
Iterations traditionally means repetitions but in this case, I use it as another way to describe the state of perpetual becoming - BEING.
In this expansion to bring in "angelic council self", there were many tears (it felt as if my I AM was crying and at the same time completely join NEW within itself. Also, some fears of losing myself entirely (only physically, not ceasing to exist) came up too, but they flowed in gently and flowed back out gently because they had no place to land.
Another way to say it, I expanded so much I felt like I might cease to exist in physical form and then I let go of the tie to physical form, and instead I became even more physically embodied - I love a good paradox!
YET I want to tell you there was NO SUFFERING involved in it, only SENSUALITY.
It was such an amazingly sensual process to expand myself into bringing this amazing facet of myself into this physical form. With the tears and how deeply I sensed myself, I was both crying tears of all the old wounds (firmly knowing they were not mine anymore) AND the experience was completely orgasmic in knowing myself in an even deeper way.
There wasn't some "limited human" and "master" in a dialogue about what was going on. It was an explosion of self, a grand display in the cosmos that make up the Universes of ME, and it was beyond beautiful, without time, and without the scale that gravity tends to provide us. It was completely natural, and because it was natural, it was without suffering.
Now that may piss some people off to say you no longer suffer -- and then I am tempted to remind you of my intense suffering but that's so ridiculous - in this new state of being you no longer view all that as suffering when you "look back --, OR those who still find themselves in the suffering cycle may say, hey it's nice to hear from someone that it does end.
And I promise it does. If you still have suffering coming up in your life, it won't always be there. I want to tell you that. Realization is the end of this suffering that most of us have clung so tightly too.
I think it is because we associate suffering with living - at the cellular level.
Physical life IS suffering. So deep within the depths of our being we feel (even though we know it's bullshit) that if we let go of suffering, we will cease to exist. It's primal. Or perhaps, you have another hang up that allows you to move beyond suffering as soon as you become aware of it. For that's all it takes, a tiny glimpse of awareness re-writes the whole experience in embodied form.
It now happens daily or multiple times a day. A tiny drop of awareness, and I have become new again. and again. and again....
How do I write this/ finding words....
After a certain level of consciousness flowed into me last year around this exact linear time, something switched in the world of human suffering.
First of all, I do not feel I have a little, petulant human to describe, to blame for everything.
So much of the talk "out there" on the forums is the little human and its rediculous-ness and how it is to blame for everything. Stupid human. Limited human. Master vs human. Fight within. Struggle within. If its hard, it means I am accomplishing something towards enlightenment. Bullshit!
Instead, my glorious and deeply loved human part of myself is enveloped in the fold of Self that is me. It is not a separate piece of myself that I beat up and view as a rebellious teenager or a crying child. (Thanks for the words, Joanna).
My human part is so intervoven in the fabric of myself I cannot distinguish it from the I AM, and the weirdest word of all - the master - so strange in this space to separate something out and give it a title. Ahhh...weird....
The delineation between human and master was a great tool to begin communication between the two, yet as long as you keep them separate there will always be a struggle. Suffering comes from the perception of separation. Separation is an illusion.
The two "sections" (human and divine) will merge naturally on their own, for sure, when you declare yourself ready.
However, as long as the language (language creates) focuses on master vs. limited human, suffering will always be present as you duke it out internally, instead of allow these many (infinite even) amount of threads weave themselves into a seamless tapestry of Self.
The Seamless Tapestry of Self woven into the Infinite Expression of You Embodied.
So beautiful. I cannot wait to see what you all weave into your tapestry, or what you have woven beyond any sense of time.
In honor of you,
Sar'h and Lauren as one - but more Sar'h (no clue how to talk about that yet...)
Have a wonderful weekend!