Oh! to put words to what has been created in my life by my Infinite I (the master, human, and I Exist as one) these past weeks, seems such a daunting task.
First I want to say how important and fulfilling my friendships are in this realized lifetime - not even realized or enlightened captures this state of Being - far too limiting let's try this - life of FREEDOM. Being. Freedom. A resonance without words.
It wasn't until I stepped out of my Vancouver hotel to the bench across the street that I realized or saw with fresh eyes how truly beautiful it is to have friends like you all.
There sat Karen, Joanna, Momo, Maureen, and Ruth. I saw the beings before me in all their soul expanded glory. Momo and Ruth - friends that never came through the CC materials - just as sparkling and aware, and equally unique sovereign souls. Karen, Maureen, and Joanna, who once resonated with CC materials and then made their own unique paths. It's as if super nova occurred in each of the souls, and I was privileged enough to witness it beyond linear time.
A supernova is a transient astronomical event that occurs during the last stellar evolutionary stages of a star's life (the proverbial last human life), whose destruction is marked by one final, titanic explosion. It's not so much a destruction but a massive explosion back into the true nature of self, and into the Third Circle of Creation.
I could see the timeless evolution. The first circle in the oneness, the second circle as we places a piece of ourselves into this Earth reality, only to have the experience of knowing we are God also through that perception of duality - human and divine - that we were never separate. The two parts of self merge into human and divine AS ONE, and we return to wholeness while in physical form - not oneness with others but with the self in a beautiful show of brilliant fireworks that celebrates the remembering we have always been one with self.
All I could 'think' of was the word honored. I was in complete awe and honor of these beings who showed up physically to hang out with me and each other. Perhaps honor is the soul side of the human recognition. No matter how realized you are, no matter your level of awareness, as long as you are still in a human body that desire to be seen and to see others does not go away. You are still complete without it, but my creation is this space where we honor one another instead of making comparisons and having to help or heal or teach one another.
These words played through me. This is my creation for myself; these people who showed up chose it for themselves, too, and it brought us together.
The meeting is everything I wanted the other organizations (CC and Masters Hub) but weren't. And I realized until someone is honoring themselves, there is no way they can honor another. As long as someone is judging or comparing themselves, they will do the same to others. If they have not allowed the emergence of human and divine as one within them, they will continue to place others on a pedestal and then seem to enjoy tearing them down. How do I know? I've done it!
There's something about this. Leading up to realization, we bring situations into our lives to reflect our inner states, so things can come up for integration. For example, if we are still battling internally, for example concepts of right and wrong and the emotional states that go with us, we will bring mirroring situations into our lives that allow us to move beyond dualistic concepts. And then, one day, the mirror stops. More on this below.
What I want to say in one sentence is: what each of you bring to this space, what I bring to this space, is that honor that can only come when the duality of human and divine has merged or emerged into one, that can only occur in a consciousness that is beyond separation of self and the dualistic, linear perceptions that come with it.
In my personal life, I have been in the effortless creation state, and allowing my human perceptions to catch up. It coming in quick too. I'll borrow some words from Keahak...I've been spent to a level of experience that has no basis on the past. Before experiences were predicated on the past, or shaped by past experience. That's all karma ever is and was: The law of cause and effect. This happened in the past, and now I have this experience based on that.
Creation is beyond linear time and has no basis on past experience. For example, I have been persecuted and shut down in groups in the past, so I sit back and share rarely even when I have something to express. In the integration of the human and divine (Infinite I), you go beyond linear time. All those past experiences that told you what was safe and what was not, no longer apply.
Creation from nothing, seems to cover this. Creation from no prior experiences. It's the swimming metaphor I have used before. When you swim you push off the side of the pool or the bottom of the ocean to get momentum to start swimming. This no energy creation, or true creation, you don't need to push off the wall or the ocean floor. In other words, you don't need to use a battle situation to move enough energy to catapult you into the next experience, for example. The no energy creation is creation without momentum, without effort. Motion requires no movement.
It started about three weeks ago. My energy aware neighbor moved, and an energy unaware couple moved in. A heat wave hit. The electricity went out. The internet went out. Suddenly, I have ants and a moldy smell taking over the bedroom. My dog is ill.
So annoying and how did I create this, or better yet why? Well, a week ago I realized I am feeling so trapped and anchored by this condo. The day to day grind of living somewhere is not me. Some people are house people and some are nomads... I'm the latter. That is where I thrive. Freedom to move about the cabin, no safety belts.
All of these little annoyances piled up, in a moment of frustration (I feel frustration on the edges of my being, not inside of self anymore, that is a calm ocean no matter the external) I called the owner of the house and said I'd like to move and break the lease without penalty. He agreed immediately. I called my mom and was direct with what I needed and wanted from her. She agreed to fly out, hang out, and we'll drive my cars and Ollie back to her house while I travel for a bit. I called the airline to change my ticket for the Europe trip. They waved all the fees because it took them an hour to change the flight. I ended up being cheaper and I got a refund. This all happened in three hours.
There is no mirror. There is creation.
Based on my past experiences, I remembered that I would have needed to examine why I was creating shitty neighbors and a shitty living situation. A year ago I would have wondered what I needed to integrate within me. This time is was totally clear that this creation was mine and it was actually a really beautiful and smooth creation to move from this space into one that better suited me. It was a steady laid out 'plan' to allow me to float out of my lease and into the next phase of my life. Creation unfolding in a simultaneous moment.
I am surfing into the beyond. I have been surfing here the whole time. And while I used to write about moving into realization and share from others support for that experience, what I will be writing and sharing now is simply how I live in this space of freedom and effortless creation, and I hope you will as well. In deep honor and appreciation of Self, that can be felt by others also in honor of themselves.
Something new is brewing and I'm going to paddle directly into that wave. Oh wait, I've been riding this wave all along. It's instant, this knowing.
That's the theme of realization these days. You have an undeniable moment of clarity in realization (so limiting a word but for reference), and that moment returns and returns again and you go back into your life and all its defining moments and you become aware that you were only pretending to be un-enlightened the whole time.
It's like a gentle Earthquake that creates a a rolling effect across the planet of self. The roll causes the streets to lift from the core and land in new places and new patterns.
The pathways to the core of your being that branch or expand from your center in all directions. They open up and become clear. These conscious pathways rewrite themselves. Sometimes there is no center, no core, and no edges because you go into the no separation even more. Expanding in and out at will of the passion.
The past is re-written and then it doesn't exist as all because there was never a timeline. In the infinity of simultaneous living, you create from no thing because you are already everything. You don't need to grab at an experience to make a mental decision, you don't even think about the next six months because its already contained within you.
My things will go into a storage unit, and then I will walk, surf, and fly into my creation, knowing I am already in it. And I will write about it.
I took a pause to come back and read this to see if I captured the moment. A yellow breasted bird flew up. No it was not a master friend visiting me. It was me visiting me. I do not need the ascended master to reflect anything back to me. The bird perched on the chair beside me. Me staring back at me. Empty eyes, ready for the mirror-free creation.
The bird had empty eyes just like mine, free from expectations or past experience. Free from seeing myself through the eyes of others, but as exactly as I am. That I am.
Saturday, Adamus announced the beginning of the Emergence series of channels at the monthly webcast. I totally forgot about it, yet had the sense that I was needing to tune into something. That I was missing something. Then a friend texted that he was watching the monthly webcast, so I tuned in.
I was so deeply and profoundly touched by Adamus’ words in the opening statements at the core of my being and deep within my chest, a space behind my heart, I decided to transcribe them here. ADAM-US is after all a collective consciousness and to hear the words reflected back to you of something you experienced is near indescribable.
Last month or so I had a chat with Adamus about this topic. I know I am not the only one. There are some I know in physical and some I do not know yet. And, I have found when I take something up with this consciousness, if it comes from the deepest space inside me, it will make it into the materials. Not the screaming, unbalanced human being I was in the past, but the living breathing being who is saying hey, this might be helpful and I know because I am living it. Things might have changed since your last Earthly visit.
Looking back – so much easier in hindsight – the realization experience, which really feels almost like a reversal into what already existed - through the eyes of the human and divine combined, started sometime around the fall of last year.
In October of last year, I had the ineffable experience in vivid color and without words the direct experience of knowing, being, experiencing the I AM GOD, also. I don’t even think I can write any more than the one article I wrote. That’s likely all I will ever write about it. It was too personal and too – well, too sacred for lack of a better word – to share.
Another wave of realization rolled through my being in January, a release of guilt, shame, fear, remorse, clinging of the Atlantean dream, disaster, programming, etc. I know we are all unique but FOR ME it was the needle in the haystack – buried so deep and so hidden – the last thread that kept me from the realized state. It was the one thread of crap I held onto all this time that kept me from my realization. It was right there in front of my face the whole time.
Shortly thereafter, my home sold in Colorado and the series of unfortunate or very fortunate events – depending on perception – began to unfold as a left Colorado, which more felt like being kicked out – by an angry mob of Shaumbra with pitchforks and fire torches. That was the energy. What was that? I have asked so many times only to shelve it for later. I simply could not put my finger one what that experience really was. Why I was so sad, why I still am sometimes.
Since leaving, I’ve had a few doubts that only reminded me to trust myself. Was I delusional? Did I make this realization experience up? Are these people who have cast me out right about me? Yes, in realization you are still a human being with human attributes.
The answers undeniable and completely personal. (I’ll tell you why I am choosing to right this below). I knew who I was and what I was and was not, and it didn’t matter what anyone or anybody else thought, said or did. It was my realization.
ADAMUS (paraphrased as I am not a good typist):
“Is everyone going to go through (realization in the CC)?....Yes, sooner or later…. Some of you are going to take your time. You’ll go through in the slipstream. Some are going to go fast because you’re just so damn ready. Others will go in their slip stream. It’s not a race and there is no award for those who get there first.
(On those realized) You’re not going to be beating your chest about it….It’s such a personal beautiful quiet thing. It’s so personal…. You are not going to be bragging. You are not going to need acknowledgment. You are not going to get acknowledgment - from me or from others. Nor do you want it. You know – and that’s all. That’s all.
For those of you who have come along through this early, you already know this. There is no preaching at the others and not saying this how you have to do it. You’ll realize that. You don’t say this is how I did it and you have to do it. (talks about preaching on social media).
There’s no rushing anybody and there’s no pandering to anybody (poor dear etc.). You just allow them, and they’ll come through and maybe in your slip stream.
For those taking their time – and there’s something to be said about that – let the others go through and have the rockier path.
(The profound part for me…)
For those taking their time, don’t throw rocks at the ones you think that might have made it. Why would you throw rocks? To test them. Have they really made it or are they making it up?
You know rocks hurt, even to a master because they are still in a human body. (My body seized up here, I too felt so sick, Joanna, I felt the trauma of my move from Colorado – I’m at the six-month mark and just now able to function completely.)
Don’t throw rocks. Don’t assault them. Don’t criticize them. You are really just trying to test them.
Don’t to do that because when you first come through in the emergence there is an incredible sensitivity and sensuality.
If you are hanging back and waiting, don’t throw rocks. If any of this happens on social media, delete those posts. This is too sensitive. It hurts too much. It goes too deep - even for a human master.”
I just need to hear someone say it. I needed to hear that and in hearing it, I healed a deep wound within myself.
If you know me, you know I am not bringing this up to pat myself on the back. I bring this up to say that for me, this was and STILL is an extremely sensitive and sensual time. Go easy on yourself, go easy on those around you (reminder for ME!).
Everything I thought a master is has been thrown out the door. Everything is not perfect,yetlike Xanthe said it IS at an arm’s length yet you still feel deeply.
The other thing is the more my realization sinks in, the more normal I feel. I feel more like a normal human being each day – after a lifetime of feeling so weird. I believe this comes with extreme self-acceptance and balance.
To think you won’t cry. That you won’t feel when energetic daggers are thrown at you. That you are some sort of stone being who is not moved by their surroundings is a total fallacy.
In the end, this message personally gave me some deep sensual acknowledgment not from outside myself but from within myself.
I also want to note that I am greatly enjoying the materials from CC in this relationship – having removed the human quality of it – for now. It still does not feel safe for me to go into that human system space but the direct relationship with the materials and placing my wisdom int the vault feels really good.
Instead, of using the materials as tool to get further along some strangely perceived realization timeline or platform. I am simply loving the words that help me remember how I did ‘such and such’ in hindsight.
How did I stop allowing my mind to consistently feed off me? How did my body make the jump? How did I have this profoundly personal experience and at the same time have so many people throwing rocks at me?
Realization was simply a perception shift of worthiness, a freedom from being beholden to anyone (especially my own aspects and guilt – for blowing up Atlantis in this case – this continues to roll in deeply). It had nothing to do with what my human life looked like. It doesn’t mean I don’t feel. I don’t cry. If anything, I feel more deeply than I ever have in my whole life.
The opposite of guilt is innocence. The dichotomies that arise in being beyond duality is something the mind would never be able to fathom. For example, to be completely in a child-like innocence (guilt free) AND finding the spiritual maturity I so lacked when I first started writing with you all.
The spiritual maturity comes with the balance, of learning to walk like baby through this realization embodied and holding wisdom beyond years.
It is so tender, and self-care and self-nurturing is still needed in the fragility of this state, which is equally unbendable and unbreakable and unmoved by the rocks thrown.
I could go on, but at least wanted to capture this tender moment, knowing I am not the only one in the sovereign collective who will or has gone through this. Thank you.
Karen, I keep thinking of you texting me as a drove out of Colorado. It is imprinted in my soul. The text popped on my phone when I was in the depths of the rock’s impact. THANK YOU.
I'm so glad I tuned into the five minutes; what that message did for me, what it moved within me, cannot be captured in words. Deep exhale. Holy crap it feels good to shuffle that around.
Massive gratitude for you all and this space - NO ROCKS. NO RACES.
Hello, friends. Working on my book and defined New Energy as such...
New Energy is what comes after the New Age. This evolution of energetic dynamics allows for the integration of duality, including the human and divine parts of Self becoming one, a singular I AM. While the New Age is based on vibrational energy and dimensional delineation, New Energy is expanses in all directions simultaneously, branching from the single point of the I Exist.
(keep in mind my audience)
If you have anything to add, by all means. Corrections, does it make sense?
MORE IMPORTANTLY, as I was writing this I began to think of our Will conversations we had in the summer/ fall last year. We talked about the difference between human (perceived free) will and divine will, or soul will. We talked about seeing through the eyes of the human and the eyes of the divine.
Later we talked about the human and divine merging into one - Infinite I - with one voice.
Made the leap today in hindsight, that as this shift occurs, the debate and conversations between voices dissipates. There's no internal debate left. And I see so clear so does the will.
Perhaps it is time to reclaim the concept of FREE will, the will and passion of the Infinite I - with no duality in distinction from the human and divine. I will distinguish it in the book as free will (human) and FREE will of the Infinite I.