Friends, with the physical and etheric move, and in this new space of existence, I invite you to read the following, and ask yourself if you are in the place that fits your current soul experiences.
I am sensing a few people in this Third Circle space are simply peering (that's cool) and sneering (nope) into the pane of the window from outside, roll their eyes at the new moon gathering space, and have not yet stepped into the experience of sharing the God, also, among friends. Or simply do not wish to have that experience, and that's okay.
This is a place to see other souls through the eyes of the divine AND be seen for who you are through the eye of the divine - because you and I as sovereign souls created it that way. To share from the experience of the heart space, where your unique humanity and divinity meet. The Center of Being.
It is not a space to compare your mental level of consciousness with another's perceived level of consciousness. There's plenty of other spaces, places for the human free will to play out, where that is entirely appropriate - ones you can pay to be in or find on Facebook.
I sense beyond a doubt the majority here - we have hit the tipping point - of those who honor and grace this space and the Banyan Tree with their God-ness/ goodness is no longer going to be able to support those who are here to simply peer and sneer. There's a handy unsubscribe button at the bottom of the email should you need it, but I respectfully request you read the whole article before doing so. Thanks for stopping by.
HUMAN LIFE IN THE GOD, ALSO EXPERIENCE
A friend of mine once met Gopi Krishna to photograph him for his book jacket in a New York City apartment.
Chuck is his name, and he asked the radiant being before him what the secret to enlightenment was.
"As often as you can," he replied. "Think about God."
Now my friend told me this story some years ago, and I did not believe in God external, so I rolled my eyes.
I still don't believe in God external but I know now - I had hit the glass ceiling on God awareness - a ceiling that is now shattered beyond repair.
My days are filled with no more distractions like gossip, group dynamics, or perceived human struggle. They are filled with the unparalleled experience of knowing I am God, also. Every breath, every step, every interaction no matter how mundane it seems to the human is an experience of the God, also state of being.
And now I understand what Gopi Krishna meant. I embody it, though I would choose different words.
So here it is - my words. As always, I invite you to write your own and post them below with an audience who will honor them without the mental comparison exercise, or better yet, why not write a whole article or make a video to share on this space.
God Individualized meets Spirit & Bursts Forth in Joyful Expression = Conscious Creation
I see without eyes, sense without emotion, and know without thought God is a living, breathing stream of pure consciousness that flows from the source of soul individualized - without energy, only pure consciousness/ all-seeing soul awareness - and meets the river of Spirit universal in an unfiltered, unwavering stream of pure creative joy. And it creates every single experience I have in every single reality I experience.
I sense my Soul as Spirit or God individualized. It is the immortal, immaterial essence of my being, holding the wisdom distilled from all human lifetimes, between lifetimes, and beyond lifetimes. I sense my soul as an invisble library of wisdom integrated from all experiences.
I lean into the experience of knowing my soul is inimitable. It cannot be imitated or copied. It has always existed and will always exist beyond the constructs of time, space, and physicality AND without governance from any outside force - without governance by this human incarnation and the mentality of this human facet. And knowing Spirit never wanted to govern anything. That lies outside it's passion.
I see without eyes, sense without emotion, and know without thought Spirit as the soul of all of creation - a creation without agenda and detached compassion - and on this planet, for the experience that is human life. I see Spirit's only passion is to know it is God, also. Spirit - the soul of the greater consciousness - with wisdom distilled beyond indivualized experiences.
I see so clearly the experience of maya on Earth is a soul creation - a giant playground in which you have the grand experience of Returning to Self, once again, and know the perceived separation between human and divine is and was an illusion. It meets in the Center of Self, the Center of Being.
True creation - conscious creation - without energy or effort - occurs, for me, in the space in which the two - Soul AND Source - meet in the MAGIC that is BEING. From that space every creation unfolds in response to expression of the JOY of BEING.
In El Morya's chosen words - he also invites you to write your own - In the mighty ocean of consciousness that is the will of God, I find I can suddenly be still and BECOME, I can BE the drop of sovereign individuality - the place of no movement and instead dynamic motion within the all that is. Being is perpetual becoming.
And for me, in this space, the dualistic lines between external and internal are no longer perceived.
WHAT MAKES THE PRISON DISAPPEAR?
For me as the individualized soul, it is only in moving beyond the veils of maya, that I can be freed from the Earth prison and still embodied on Earth.
If you are new, beyond the veils of maya is a term I use for an expanded awareness beyond duality, gravity, and linear time.
In Autobiography of a Yogi (Chapter 30), Paramhansa Yogananda explains the ancient Vedic scriptures say that the physical world operates under one fundamental law of maya, the principle of relativity and duality.
It is only through maya that we perceive a separation between God external and ourselves as God also. Further, it is only through maya that we see a separation between human and divine. Maya was created by us and for us to have the experience of the Return to Self.
And in bringing the human along into individualized ONE-ness of SELF, there is another way out of prison. An AND, if you will.
I was on a video chat with my partner D yesterday. For an extended period of time, we just looked into each other eyes. No words were said aloud, and the soul spoke volumes.
To see and be seen beyond the veils of maya is what my embodied experience is about, it is why my soul says we will be here for a while longer AND it is why I created this space. You can see how I would not want others stepping into it who were not ready or do not want to show up in this space. If you feel the potential in your soul's passion, please stay a while and see how it goes.
Tears rolled down my cheeks as I saw how truly amazing D's soul is and he saw the same in me. This experience is beyond the human construct of love. It is beyond an roles, any conditions, and is not limited to boyfriends or even friends. It is how I see the whole world (now, gosh it took a long time). It is how I see so-called strangers.
And to have that reflected back, well, it removes the bars from the prison cell created by the veils of maya.
There is no separation between human and divine. There is no separation between Soul and Source, AND there is sovereignty of individualized Spirit and Spirit at large because none want to govern, they want to passionately express and experience - something that can never be comprehended by the mind that defines perception as either or and not in 'the AND.'
"Do you know what makes the prison disappear? Every deep, genuine affection. Being friends, being brothers, loving, that is what opens the prison, with supreme power, by some magic force. Without these one stays dead. But whenever affection is revived, there life revives." - Vincent Van Gough
My heart is where my humanity and divinity meet. My heart is where Soul and Sprit collide in passionate expression of joy. That is the Magic of Being, and the Banyan Tree is where we meet for the experience of that passionate expression.
And that is where I will see you all on the March 17 new moon, or anytime you grace this space with your being-ness, your God-ness, and everyONE here at the Center of Being is deeply honored from the Center of our Being to yours. There is simply no room for anything beyond the infinity of Self here.
Good morning friends! Lauren (human) and Sar'h (divine) here with you all. The Beyond the Veils of Maya (defined below) Series continues...
My human body has just awoken. The rays of the golden sun and salty air poured through the cracked windows of my new California home signaling it was time to rise. The whistle on the kettle, letting me know it was time to pour the water into the french press, and sit down to write. Only I forgot the French Press needed to be pressed and now my coffee is full of grounds. Human fail.
On Friday, 'we' posted on Ryver, that we dove back into writing the book and would take a pause - two days which was more like two lifetimes - with the posts for a bit. The book is now - 16 hours of writing later - an entity of its own creation. It's fascinating.
I also wrote - "One thing I'd love to hear about is bringing awareness to the multiple realities we exist in naturally. I am having this especially at night before I go to bed - lately about 8 p.m. Without a movie, TV or music going I find myself in the last hours before bedtime off in the mystery school of my own soul who is showing me how to perceive Self in realities simultaneously and with human awareness."
I will get to that but first a quick note on humanizing divinity...
I had written in the past few posts that the human never becomes enlightened - instead it becomes a facet of our master self or soul in which it retains human qualities. Yet, I would say my human is assimilating to the wisdom of the soul through awareness.
Assimilation is defined for mySelf as the process of taking in and fully understanding wisdom.
In other contexts, assimilation is synonymous with "fitting in." It is often used in the context of a person or group of persons moving into a new and foreign land and learning the ways and language of the new culture they find themselves in.
For me that culture of assimilation is not to a group or culture, but assimilation to the wisdom of the soul distilled from all experiences in and out of body. That is where I fit in, where the lines of separation have dissolved between HUMAN AND DIVINE.
The only place in the universe(s) where we can and would experience the separation from our divinity - knowing we are God, also - is Earth -- in it's illusion of maya.
And everyone here on this page created Earth -- for the experience of separation only to have the joy of returning to self once again.
For those new to the site, "beyond the veils of maya” is a term I use for an expanded perception of reality outside duality, gravity, and linear time.
In Autobiography of a Yogi (Chapter 30) by Paramhansa Yogananda, he explains the Vedic scriptures say that the physical world operates under one fundamental law of maya, the principle of relativity and duality.
It is only through maya that we perceive a separation between God external and ourselves as God also. Further, it is only through maya that we see a separation between human and divine.
The Banyan Tree represents not a space to meet and leave the human behind but a place for our human expression of Self and our GodSelf to have no dividing line.
When I first began working with clients and myself being my most frequent client, Sar'h whispered to me.
"One day the conversation between human and divine will merge into ONE voice."
In sensations, she said it was the experience of separation between human voice and soul voice that we would arrive AT-ONE-MENT. The true meaning of atonement as found in biblical discussions.
Thus, the Banyan Tree gatherings are a place to experience the AT-ONE-MENT. It's not that you leave your human problems at the door. It's simply that human problems cease to exist when you are at one in your humanity and divinity.
All those human problems were illusions created by the maya, the illusions, on Earth.
The Banyan Tree exists beyond the veils of maya, beyond the illusions of separation between human and the God, also.
As my human self becomes more at one with my God nature, my divinity, I am stepping into multiple realities AND with human awareness.
Here, I let go of the expectations of grandeur. I think some of us are still expecting to walk on water, to appear in a living room of another and be seen there. Let's simplify the experience of multiplicity and bring the human facet along, if you will play with me for a bit.
For example (separate experiences we all have):
Beyond the veils of maya, there is no separation, no linear time to distinguish between two realities.
For example (simultaneous experiences):
When I asked how others were experiencing the multiple realities, I felt a little resistance and some found it too obscure, so I wanted to make it concrete for the human sake.
I understand. It seems we are not going to wake up one day and be all aware all the time - we actually could if we did not bring the human along. But because this human is hopping the divine experience train and riding it into alignment with Self, I invite you to celebrate the "smaller" more human experience of multiplicity that lie outside the veils of maya.
By starting small, my soul tells me, it opens a floodgate for human awareness of dozens realities - AT ONCE. I sense with a perception shift, my soul told my human, you will begin to view the multiple-reality experience in a new light.
I have had moments where I am in twelve realities at once and aware - yet that's only been twice in two years - and each time I was so drained, ungrounded and confused. By starting with little concrete examples for my human - the soul already knows, of course - I am creating a space for my human to ease into the experience, to be grounded, and to be able to discuss it with you beautiful, radiant people.
Another way of perceiving realities was recently brought up by Xanthe and Ruth lately - the perception of contrast.
One example would be seeing the contrast internal. The reality of how you felt in one situation drastically changes - yet the situation has not. Ruth said that she used to get upset when her husband went to see her step-daughter - a relationship she tried to make work and it simply hasn't. She said she found when he went to see her this last time, she found that she was not upset but at peace with the relationship where it was at, right then.
Compassion in action. Honoring everyone where they are at without trying to change it. Easy to understand mentally. Beyond GRAND when the sensation runs through the cells of your being.
Another example would be observing your reality versus another with compassion.
Xanthe said, "My sister is moving out, and I’m very aware of multiple layers of that as it is occurring. And what has been interesting for me is that over the six months we lived in the same physical space, for most of it and increasingly, I have felt we have been operating in different realities. The detachment, awareness of her has varied, yet arriving at a place in the last two weeks in particular where she just feels far away to me and it’s all perfect."
So I'm going to ask again. One thing I'd love to hear about is bringing awareness to the multiple realities we exist in naturally. Please comment below, on Ryver, or send me a personal note, if you are not quite ready to share with the full audience.
Also, just a funny note, I popped into the Keahak reality yesterday, just like I will pop into the concert/ mass consciousness reality on Friday (surfing across the realities and not getting stuck! woot!), and I noticed Adamus borrowed our Banyan Tree for an experience. I though it was quite funny. For the record, ours is much better:P
I hope everyone has an amazing Sunday or Monday or whatever day you are reading this. I'm taking my human body to pilates to see if I can't get the engine tuned up.
Much love and big Texan hugs.
COLORADO REALIZATIONS : WALKING DEEP IN SELF-DISCOVERY --> SURFING INTO THE GREAT BEYOND
In the last few weeks, people have asked me why I ever lived in Colorado and what I realized from the experience.
I had some mumbo jumbo answers, and my friend Alice - well, I think she is still my friend, who knows anymore - asked me to distill it, into one sentence - tough but supportive.
Colorado allowed my human self to catch up with my mastery - that was my answer.
It wasn't the workshops, everything covered in the workshops had already been covered in my one-on-one sessions with El Morya and friends AND MORE SO, my own soul, like yours, was my greatest GURU in all of this...for some examples...
Sure, the workshops were supportive of catching my human up, but more so - though painful to the human facet - the interaction I had with others going through these really difficult times was the magic sauce that created this space I AM today.
This interaction with the brave souls choosing enlightenment created the intense friction inside that lit the fire and burst forth into passionate soul expression - embodied I AM-ness - existing without attachment to anything, anyone, or any group or system.
Anyone who has not lived in a community who are all choosing realization at the same time will not fully comprehend what it is like - you never get to go home after the workshop, your whole life becomes one big CC workshop!!! Imagine that. I'd say people do pretty well for themselves in this context.
It is so hard (deep and detached compassion) and I have a huge amount of respect for the people choosing it... AND after a point - 20 years for some - it doesn't have to be so painful. The JOY is right there to step into at any time, if you choose it. Breathe JOY. Allow everyone to be where they're at. It's so simple. I wish I could have seen that myself sooner.
When I lived in Colorado and found myself isolated and persecuted like my neighbor telling me I had the virus last year and reaming me solid - I think "enlightenment trust fund baby" was the words she used, I would take what I called OWNERSHIP WALKS.
On these walks, I would take responsibility for my creations. I would mull over the energetic and spoken (often texted) feedback about my "level" of consciousness. I would go over what I could do different and sift through what was my junk and what was their junk.
I was so busy owning my own shit creations, mulling over what I could have done different, I forgot, sometimes people are just assholes, and it was important to laugh at that. :P
At the time, these ownership walks, were so supportive for self reflection, and I will add my soul says I was overly hard on myself. I have been severely hard on my human this lifetime, even when I really did not need to be.
Was I really being TOO BIG and over sharing? Was that the energy virus - being BIG? AND knowing deeply, because I was abundant in this life that was going to be offensive to someone not in that experience, or rather fighting with it.
I'd be walking by the lake saying out loud, "Hell yeah, I am an enlightenment trust fund baby." That's not my stuff. And, I'd be thinking how can I re-route myself to not offend so many people - without shrinking myself. There was no good answer - all I could do was expand anyway, so the mental exercise was a huge waste of energy in the end.
I could go on but will say the ownership walks - the sifting through the mud for gold - the exercise in discerning what was mine and what was not - was so helpful for the human facet perception of realization and how I found I could interact with those brave souls choosing enlightenment around me.
Ownership walks became a daily habit in my two years in Colorado....and the reason I bring it up is that I noticed here in California, I no longer need to walk the path of personal responsibility sifting, mental analyzation against a set of standards I did not write - the pre-existed before I even showed up.
Those standards of the conscious community - THOSE ARE NOT MINE! I have no standards anymore:P
What once served greatly, no longer serves. And it changes so quickly in expansion of SELF, and in multiplicity of SELF.
Long ago leaving the "should" and "supposed to" of mass consciousness, I have now walked on from leaving the conscious and not conscious distinctions of my behavior perceived through the eyes of another. Kim, you said it so well.
Instead, I am finding I am surfing across realities - dualistic ones, material plane ones, etheric realms like the Banyan Tree, 'future' Earths and "future" selves - AND surfing across them without getting stuck, without getting sticky shit stuck on me, and, most expansive, not giving a fuck - also known as - pure joy!
PURE JOY = Not giving a fuck in a single cell of my being!
THE INNER AND OUTER LINES BLUR BEYOND DISTINCTION...
NOW - there is no separation between my inner world and my outworld - it's all my BIG FAT offensive BEING-NESS.
And that was so reflected on the conference call we had yesterday. Everyone was able to share and no one gave an opinion or measured what was said against a pre-conceived standard. No policing at all. TRULY it felt like a physical reflection of our Banyan Tree gatherings we started in October but with our human facets in tow.
I was wowed to the core at how GRAND you all are.
Further, I walk out of my house and people really want to be around me. Every evening there is a game or dinner invite. People smile when they see me. I notice in a restaurant people want to sit by me and chat with me.
I am not analyzing every word that comes from my mouth for fear of being corrected by the word police or consciousness workshop vocabulary distinctions.
I AM NOT WALKING ON SHAUMBRA EGGSHELLS - holy shit - I am not worried will they be mad at me or correct me, how I appear to them, or if will I be able to be my expanded self without being offensive or "virus-y" - I hate that word!!! Freedom!!!!
In my very last ownership walk, I see my role in the creation. I allowed my human self to feel like it needed to walk on eggshells, to play down my massive abundance (I created it why can't I celebrate it), to make my self smaller than I am (I'm a big mamma, I can't play meek). I allowed yelling texts from a neighbor to affect how I exist in this world. I allowed other's opinions of me to steal my joy.
AND that is my own doing - I OWN IT - but do I ever need to put myself back in a situation like that - HELL NO - And, that concludes my last ownership walk of this lifetime. A bow in honor of it's death.
Of course, everything is always perfect. But when I go back over the two years I had in Colorado, I never downplay my keen business savvy facet. I use whatever language suits me in any given second and allow it to be totally and radically inconsistent.
The other last ownership walk realization is something very important to me. The only hard line I want to draw in the sand.
I must have a home that is all mine, and that is not open to other people (except D).
I will never have an open door or room for rent ever again. I did not know this about myself. There is now a circle drawn around my house. I don't care if you sleep on the street, but never in my home - ever again. I will not be drawn into feeling obligated to have someone sleep on my couch or play host.
It is simply not something that I will ever do again. There's no right or wrong about it. It is simply essential for my thriving in this life, that I have one 1,100-square-foot-space in which energies are my own and not mixed with anyone else. (My partner D is of course the exception. Our energy field meld and swirl seamlessly.)
If I went back and did the Colorado experience again, that is the only other thing I would change.
So in closing the Colorado chapter, I close the chapter on ownership walks, giving a fuck, and I'm off on my multi-reality surfboard catching waves on the 250,000 senses available to me, and the thousands of realities, waiting to be explored.
And even though I don't need it, there's dozens of people who really actually want to hang out with me and Ollie right outside my front door. I guess allowing my big bad SELF out of the closet wasn't so bad after all and that need to belong was certainly and definitely NOT MINE as it left as soon as I crossed that Colorado line.
I'll see you guys on the waves, under the Banyan, and on our next conference call. If you joined, thank you so much for sharing. A huge thank you to Joanna for breaking the sharing boundary. If you would like to share a video or article here, please email me at email@example.com.
Joanna, has taken me up on my offer to allow others to share their realization on this space. It gets so old hearing myself, and it is lovely to hear you all. Thanks for stepping out on the plank and jumping off with so much joy, Joanna:P All voices of realization and multiple selves welcome!
Written by Joanna...
More about me:
Wow. I’m still getting used to all this. I’ve spent the last little while in a very normal appearing human life, in a normal human relationship (there’s always more but this is the surface). During this time, however, I’ve deepened myself, met more of myself and was supported physically while doing it. I’ve isolated myself somewhat, but I’ve been in and out of many states of being….and I’ve had the respite here to do it. This has now flipped on it’s head as I head into Phase 3 as I call it…it’s time to move literally and figuratively again. Doing this video alone has moved something for me personally and I see a collective thing here too and it continues....something I'm sure I'll talk about in the near future.
A snippet of the linear walk-back-through:
While for the last 15 years I’ve been infusing who I really am in increments, there were two main ‘events’ that stand out in particular….what I call for explantation sake: 1. The ascension experience 2. The realization/embodiment. The latter came in one fell swoop into the body, it all came together into one…on one particular morning in May 2013. I will share my walk through in a video soon. This was some of our paths…like we talk about there are many.
I’m choosing video because it’s important for me in particular, to Voice…. this is part of my being, a big part, and pretty much why I’m still here. This is what She wants…all that I am. I’ve had an issue with this, both mine and not mine haha. While many old things really do disintegrate, not all issues go away immediately (or sometimes ever) in realization/embodiment. What changes is that it doesn’t matter as it used to…this is consciousness embodied….aware of all of it together.
I’m personally actually doing a really thorough clean out of my being - this is actually a different layer of all of this - of what is coming next for some if they so choose, and not everyone is going to want to. When the time is right, I’ll be sharing this part as well.
So there is both my issue and the realization that it’s actually NOW that is my time. I don’t have to edit here as I once did, with everyone. I know these are conversations that bloom, grow and create the new and won’t get stopped in their tracks.
Since about October last year, I started to sense it was time to step back into that original state of ‘enlightenment’ again….it’s original but changed (the meld of me is more substantial). I also started sensing a space around me… it was this space we’ve all created. There was also a ‘brown guy’ hanging around me as I felt it…I later discovered this was Yogananda (I’m not that great with names, not even my own haha). But I no longer consider this consciousness outside of me (that’s another story too! not really a past life one though). Reading his story and his book, it’s funny that his bestie was James J. Lynn.. I am Joanna Lynn (Lynn was once my middle name and I legally dropped both old last names I had).. maybe just a funny coincidence….who knows! There’s a Saint Joanna and a Saint Lynn… let’s bring it all together…you may address me as such: Saint Joanna Lynn. Ok, kidding… don’t….I’m off on a tangent…
Moving on.. I’m not much on Facebook, so Xanthe told me about this physically. I did, however, check out Lauren from afar before that, I could smell the ‘real deal’ hahha. Whoever smelt it dealt it takes on a new meaning here… but actually I read some things here and there and I just knew. I call most things I sense ‘smelling’, I’ve been a sniffer all my life, quite literally….food, people, you name it (ok no butts).
So once again, so very deeply happy to be a part of this all. This has happened so much more organically and feels so much more right than what I thought I could’ve and should’ve done on my own. Still so wow.
THANK YOU - from the multiplicity of ME!
I'm sitting here at my makeshift desk - a fold out table from Target and a patio chair from Home Depot. I don't know when my furniture will be delivered and yet, I have no opinion about that.
I noticed since arriving here and stepping into my own self-realized mastery that I don't have opinions about a lot of things, if anything. Nor do I have a desire to share my opinions only my experiences here with a sovereign, discerning audience.
What a waste of energy and time that was. Reinforcing an identity that was already set to expire.
Instead of mental opinions, based on mental concepts of right/ wrong, should/should not, conscious/ unconscious, I am in a space of realization - I'm taking it a step further than discernment - when seemingly external stimulation is brought forth in the Universe(s) of Self.
First, I am realizing in such detail how important environment is for me - being in mastery or GodSelf realization does not mean you do not seek a conducive environment for expansion. I get why Kuthumi walked off into a forest. It's simply too hard to interact int his world when you are expanded beyond it.
Just making coffee, feeding myself, and walking the beach is about all I can do in one day right now. It's so difficult to bring myself down into the density to - for example - go the grocery store....I've also been sleeping a lot and staring at the energy movements in the "air" which have matured from hazy to high definition. To an outsider, it would appear I am staring at a wall for four hours...
For example, I went back and read my Costa Rica post and realized the ease in it, and then realized the edge in the subsequent posts. I sense my I AM most intensely outside a group dynamic, the soul discernment puts me in the supportive space every time.
I am also realizing a great deal of what is not mine - what was never mine.
For example, since leaving Colorado, I have not felt the need to belong (it was palpable while I was there), to measure my "level" (mental term on purpose) of consciousness against another's, or a need to analyze other's behavior, which is the primary topic of conversation where I came from.
It seems all of that came from the group dynamic, and when I removed myself from it, I saw clearly none of that was mine. I was playing a role, and then returning to self once again. Next time, I hope to experience it with more human awareness, though, and I WILL/ AM.
Stick with me for a bit on this one....I really had to take some deep breaths to put this all in words....
I was talking to my neighbor yesterday - a high powered CEO - and my soul said (not in words but in sensation), "count...count how many times he gives his opinion."
We were simply observing. He shared opinions about everything - about lobbyists (my former profession), about dogs riding on airplanes, about what place had better coffee than the next on the 101 Coastal Highway we live on. In ten minutes, no less than 50 opinions were given.
Ain't no thing. That's just how the human mind works:
I like this and the emotion that goes with it is felt. I don't like that and the emotion that goes with that is felt.
My opinions on matters define WHO I AM and I need opinions to define my existence because I do not see my soul outside of the illusion - that's really what he is saying. And that's a uniquely human behavior that seems to disappear in self-realization.
Here's what I did not do. I did not call and friend and say, "Oh my goodness, this guy is not conscious of his mind aspect." That would have been the behavior where I came from.
Instead, I did not care because I have no expectations at all. His version of reality is simply totally different than mine, and that's not offensive, it's actually more than okay. Compassionately detached. He's having his very cool CEO lifetime, and that's amazing:)
In Shaumbraland (as a general group consciousness which took on a personality of its own not any particular individual), it was no different. Because they (previously we) mainly saw life through the lens of a group consciousness perception, very clear boundaries were drawn between conscious and not conscious behavior. Between what was energy feeding and not feeding.
You know the kids game, "I gave you cooties" or "You have cooties" where kids point at and taunt each other. I can finally say this....I always thought that labeling something the sexual energy virus (seeking external energy to fill oneself up) was a bit like this kids game.
When indeed seeking external energy is simply basic human behavior - everyone is always going to seek external energy any way they can find it until they find themselves in the Third Circle of realization. Everyone. And that's okay. We don't need to point and yell "virus!"
Just because you become aware of it, doesn't make it go away. The human on its own - without knowing and deeply experiencing the I AM GOD, ALSO - is always going to feed - that's how this entire world works. It is WHAT IS.
The course is only meant to bring awareness to it. It wasn't meant to be a measuring stick of consciousness or a bat to beat someone with for being human.
We must remember the act of being human is wildly courageous in and of itself. That space is where the compassionate detachment is born. - Sar'h
Humans feed. You get to use discernment when and with who you interact with. That how the game works until you do not desire anything external and move beyond the game.
If not, then the sexual energy virus term simply becomes another dualistic mental construct, you are either feeding or you are not. Then one forms an opinion about it and then the mind forms an emotion to go with it.
Then the mind blames someone and then uses that person's reaction to reinforce the beLIEf system of having the virus or not have the virus. It's a sick cycle and it's part of a human experience - you have to get something on a mental level before it spirals down into the core of being.
But, dude, I already got my cootie shot. :P
Please note, I am fully aware that I played this game too. I am no better and no less than anyone. Just observing my old patterns that were part of a group pattern. Systemic behavior used to reinforce a false identity.
Since coming to California, where everyone I know is still very much a human, I am able to simply observe it without opinion. For example, one of my friends here owes another money. A list of opinions have been formed about this person, and of course, still having a human facet I can see all sides. Yet, I do not feel I have an opinion about any of it. It just is. Just a part of life. I am compassionately detached.
In Colorado, we/ I had the expectation that people would be conscious after spending ten to twenty grand on workshops, and then we used that mental opinion to judge and talk about that person behind their back.
I am so "guilty" - I definitely played in this strange game, this culture of mentally analyzing who is conscious and who is not and if you are not we will throw energetic darts at you until you pop.
Here in California, I feel no need. I'm not going to talk about people when they aren't present. I am not going to use a mental construct of right/ wrong or further conscious/ unconscious to form an opinion with my mind. Not because I am holier than thou, but because I simply do not care or have the energy for that kind of thing.
I no longer need to reinforce a conscious human identity.
I am so detached, so whole in my own space that I do not need reinforcing opinions to define who I am. I AM WHO I AM.
The mind uses the constructs and opinions to reinforce identity - a false identity, which is anything other than the GodSELF - the identities are where the suffering occurs.
The mind says we are further down the line than those around us AND then it flips, we are behind others so we much catch up. That energy of competition is a human mind construct and it pervades any and all types of communities and group situations no matter the lens of perception, no matter how conscious.
It is the nature of the group to reinforce a human identity. There's nothing wrong with that, but it sure feels like crap once you release the need for any identity.
After that, it all becomes play. And I really sense, I am about to play hard in the absence of identity:) That letting go of the human need for consistency that I wrote about...
But why does the human mind do this?
The linear constructs, judgements, opinions and emotions KEEP IT ALIVE. As long as we allow the mind to create the separations of right and wrong and conscious and unconscious, we keep the mind in the ever-feeding dynamic that is an aspect rather than a facet. Basically, we are simply allowing the mind to reinforce itself and its fight to survive in current form....
which is reinforcing perceived human free will....
...and then naturally and ever so beautifully traumatic, that human free will ceases to exist.....
....it disintegrates into the ALL that is - the Soul....
...and the peace of the Soul's will, the Soul's passion, the Divine Will sets in....
....and the WE - the I AM - doesn't need or desire to reinforce anything....
....there is no identity to reinforce if you tried....
That is the MAGIC OF BEING (ENLIGHTENMENT).....
....and even enlightenment becomes too limiting a term....
...that is the Magic of BEING....
....pure passionate joy exuding from the I AM GOD, TOO....
...the realization that you are finally living:)
I've heard it to many times in my life. How do you get so clear in making decisions? I don't - the human never will.
The human doesn't ever get real clear. So often I feel like I wake up one day and can't do anything else but what my soul already decided to do.
It's not like I got a clear vision and human certainty about selling my house, moving, and leaving a consciousness group.
Instead, it all just happened. (seemingly) Suddenly, I had a place to live in California, the money to move, and the realtors who were competent enough to prepare and sell my house in a week. (seemingly) Suddenly, I could not go to a group event anymore without feeling like a caged animal.
It all comes back to divine will - and the absence of human free will. That is the crux, the cog in the wheel of everything I write here.
The human is not in charge ever - though it may think for a time it is. INSTEAD, the clarity of movement comes from the will of the soul, of the GodSelf. This is what we are doing, this is how we are being in our 'new' state of awareness.
So if there is anything you are waiting to get real clear on at the human level to make an informed and logical decision - I would say there is no thought involved in divine will - there is no logic, no logic decisions. I would argue there is never such a thing as a logical decision - only the perception of it.
All of this is going to appear like chaos to the human brain and subsequent emotions, yet to the soul it will seem like a grand plan. To the soul, decisions - which are never really a choice - will not appear "clear" to the human.
So if you are waiting for the human self to get real clear on a direction, decision, or vision, in my experience, that human type of clarity won't come - until the gift of hindsight is afforded or you become so non-linear at the human level you can see it right then.
Instead, I say fuck clarity, and go with the flow of your soul instead. Surrender to the divine will of God - that is neither external or internal - a God that ceases to be limited by the dualistic constructs of inner and outer - those are simply mental categories - and mental categories have no place in divine will.
In these shifting tides of the soul's will, the clarity for the human comes afterwards - and the lag time gets shorter and shorter - until you become so non-linear it happens instantaneously (as everything does in the infinite NOW).
Small human example - the soul's desire to be free from virtual spaces other than this (i.e. facebook)...My partner sent me a conversation that was being held on facebook group yesterday. Something my human would have loved to be a part of.
Oh, the linearity and mentality of the conversation. My soul said, "see we have no place in there, no dog in that fight, no need to convince anybody of anything or any audience to convince of our enlightenment with a mental test or any test created by another's brain aspect."
Then in the hindsight, the human catches up. The delay becomes shorter and shorter in the linear time. Even if we wanted to be involved in such a situation, we could not, for it is not the will of the soul.
The master is busy BEING - so busy it does not have time to be involved in mental discussions about an experience that has no words but can only be felt. The energetic effort - much too expensive.
So much more to write, but that's my note for today.
PERCEIVING CLARITY THROUGH THE EYES OF THE DIVINE & (THEN) THE HUMAN CATCHES UP,
UNTIL THE NON-LINEARITY SETS IN COMPLETELY
If you are new, here's some of my posts on divine will....
It's been a wild ride to die the death of all identity/ idendities and find that when you wake up you are still alive and have not left the body - but die you certainly did.
Ryver seems to have become the heart of this space - where the humanity and divinity meet. Should you wish to join us and read not just my but others experiences as well - and share your own wisdom pearls - you can email Este at firstname.lastname@example.org.
I really appreciate your personal notes - one I read this morning summed up so much of what I experienced...THANK YOU!
"Lauren, I've just realized and been considering - the ENORMITY of what’s actually happening in your 'life ‘ ….. when the caterpillar leaves the chrysalis…..it is essentially the death of the caterpillar..
I get it that you didn’t so much ‘leave’ a conscious community (CC) but you died - no ‘you' to leave and no ‘you’ to go anywhere...(exactly!!!) and yet still staying in the form of Lauren , with all her memories …i can see that it’s beyond being brave … and as you have said .. only YOU can truly understand what its like …no point me saying its gotta to be hard !!
Enlightenment can't hold ANY identity , I suppose, .. or it wouldn’t be enlightenment … the cruel paradox, or simply that moment of terror /doubt before those wings actually catch the air and fly for the first time ..
BUT … and the reason I wanted to write to you … the fact you are prepared to do this , and share this …apart from helping (understatement) the likes of me beyond words … brings humanity something it hasn’t yet been able to access ….. the WISDOM and understanding of what comes next ….
So Lauren .. no flowers for this period of ‘mourning’ .. but love , compassion and gratitude as you step out into your new day. In other words...THANK YOU."
To my friend who sent this message, thank you. Indeed, that is what 'happened' or what I experienced/ am experiencing. I truly feel like I left the planet entirely and my human self is basically shocked that I still exist in physical form.
Every morning I wake up, I am in shock, pinching myself to see if I still have a physical form.
I really understand now what my soul was showing me in the context of the lines between the embodied master and the ascended master being so thin and permeable. I am both AND. You are both AND.
For example, on my drive to California, which ended up being 20 hours because of a wreck that stalled traffic, I found I was going in and out of multiple, simultaneous experiences.
First, I was visiting my friends in Colorado and saying a proper goodbye without all the drama. I found I was standing in to living room of each of the people (I could see and share every single little detail), and I was driving my car at the same time. All very real experiences.
An old human friend also texted me on the drive while this was happening - being in multiple places - that they saw me clear as day sitting on a couch in a Dallas restaurant/bar. Oh shit, I was in more places than I even knew and I was driving...Is this safe?
My soul also showed me why I had to make a 'splash' leaving Colorado. My human was really just wanting to slink out (dash out the back door unnoticed) in the middle of the night and my soul (that divine will) said no, we have to make it a little dramatic. WHY??
We - my soul said - created a pathway and potential out of that identity - out of all identities - for others to choose if they ever feel called to - potential not directive. We - my soul said - are passionate about to signaling where the 'doorway' out of identity lies to anyone who might find themselves ready to integrate that last human identity. Limited human words, but I'm sure you catch my sensational drift.
Why does it have to hurt so bad to the human self? I asked my soul, and then I cried and cried and cried.
The tears began to stop flowing and I saw the magi - the three wisemen - and each of them was bowing before me. Kuthumi (Balthasar) finally raised his head from his bow and said, We are here in honor of your birth.
And then he laughed, welcome to mastery!
He meant to tell me the human will never thanked or even appreciated at the human level for creating these potentials that each of us - you and me - create every time we go through a realization. But other masters like him will see you and will be there to say I honor you and this expression which was so very difficult for the human.
I also understood, he was showing me, the human facet never becomes enlightened but it does come to a level of awareness and realization that will make it not so hard the next time we create a potential for consciousness.
Of course, I know this is the case already, but in that moment I really, truly, actually at the deepest level of my being-ness let go of the need to belong or be seen at the human level - this experience of the magi is a new norm.
There's no time or space for all emotion anymore. Be still and know, instead. It is simply too energetically expensive and my human self seems to have come to a deep understanding of it - finally - but we shall see....
When we saw the sign for the Richfield, Utah exit, my soul said to me in sensations not words, pull over - today is complete. And the odometer read, 888. So I slept....
The next day, wanting to distract myself on the drive through Utah I tried to turn on channel from a consciousness group. It used to help me pass time on the road. But when I turned it on it was taking the experiences of knowing the SELF as God also and mechanizing it, making it linear. It hurt my head severely. I tuned it off and drove in silence.
"I am singing a song of SELF to which there are no words," my soul said. "Tune into that."
Suddenly the eight hours of driving ahead of me, turned into eight minutes, and I drove into California as the traffic parted like the Red Sea.
I will say I feel the human facet of me (it feels like a tiny part of SELF somewhere in my body of consciousness but not in the body - the human facet is hanging out on the edges and the soul inside the physical body now) is still in mourning and is still annoyed with how dense and slow this reality is. The human facet wants to know when our furniture will be delivered and why the internet is so slow. But it is a tiny little meek voice at the bottom of a well, right now. I swat it like a fly buzzing around my door.
I will write more but suddenly, I feel that is enough for today. Going to take Ollie to the beach. THANK YOU all for your sovereign support on this last experience. I is so appreciated.
Just some notes....More for me than anything else....These are my personal experiences, not absolutes - of course...only the view from my own unique perception of BEING....
I've got about 24 hours until I drive off. It has been beautiful to the soul AND heart wrenching to the human - like learning that all of my Shaumbra neighbors went out without me on Saturday without an invite - as I make the big move.
The sting of not belonging even in the group of black sheep never goes away, yet I do sense it differently. It wasn't the physical act of not being invited but the energetic block of saying you don't belong in this group, you never have. They actually tried to hide it from me too, instead of simply telling me about it honestly. Actions and non-actions speak so loudly.
One radiant being coming by yesterday to give me perspective on this whole experience was truly the gift I needed at the human heart facet space. Thank you, Tess. To SEE and to be SEEN at the soul level is something I will never cease to appreciate.
Master Mark says the same thing. The fact that he can be seen under the Banyan Tree is still amazing for him even as a self-realized being. Juls - your note today was like medicine for the soul. I appreciate it beyond words, as was Tess' visit and letter. Thank you from the Center of my Being!
The marriage of opposites - blatant disregard for my existence (human acts) AND deep honor (soul expressions) - seems to be lining the perception of this one physical reality I am existing in. Then I expand and view the other realities and the sting dissipates in the expanse.
With that visit from a dear friend, I see so clearly, truly, it takes someone in their realization to recognize another in theirs. Those still hanging out in the teachings, linearity, effort-ing to create are not going to be able to see that you left it behind. and why you left it behind. And it's all appropriate. It is all okay.
In my awareness, I know I appear crazy and judgmental to those firmly in the teachings, the scriptures so to speak -- when really I AM simply multiple (not denying my human experience) and discerning. I too am okay with that. I have always been called crazy.
Though, my human always thought when the Triple E showed up people would honor it, yet it seems to be the opposite. I feel such a resistance - like opposing magnets - when I am BEING and others are ALLOWING - very distinct sensations for me. Even when people try to engage and be kind, I still feel the deep friction from within them. The aspect saying, how dare you insult me by leaving this group? It's not them at the soul that is communicating this friction, thus, I cannot take it personally. I can see that clearly too.
In the end not being inviting to the last Shaumbra gathering I could attend in physical - was and is absolutely perfect. Isn't everything always perfect? It was the exact representation in sum of this entire experience. Nothing external is ever going to satisfy the soul.
Here are some of my preliminary notes from the whole thing. Personal notes, not doctrine...
If you cannot hold back your enlightenment any longer, and move on from a group because you just can't fit into the confines, they feel like bars on a cage, you will not be held in high regard. DUH - I can't believe my human is just now getting this.
Just like you did not fit in in mass consciousness, you will no longer fit into a structure or a system of a consciousness group. Realization is a solo experience, my soul reminds the human.
The human never becomes enlightened. It simply streamlines into the BEING-ness, yet it still hurts the human facet when it is disregarded and strewn aside. And, I feel it does not pull me from the alignment, yet still hurts at the heart space where my human and my soul meet. Allow the hurt to flow through. Suffering is a case of mistaken identity.
I sat down yesterday and the day before and just cried. I allowed all the lifetimes of being discarded and unseen to flow right on through the expanse of BEING. Why deny it?
I do not need to try to explain myself as I leave. One person texted me more advice about how I SHOULD interact with Shaumbra, and it was so easy this time not to defend but just say - thanks so much for the advice.
I could really see they were trying to help, and there was no way in hell they could relate to the experience I am in right now. Of course, caring for me they would fall back on advice quotes and cliches.
What else could they do? Simply, I did not and could not take it personally. They were doing their best with no reference what moving does to a person. They never moved from the place they were born in. It truly did come from their heart.
This person also told me I needed to get on or off Facebook - my actions so offensive to them. That advice I did take. I have completely erased myself from that world. What a relief!!!
The need to correct or convince dissipates for me when I realize that person in simply not in the same perspective - you are in different spaces - no space better than another - simply different.
Other notes from the past months...
Things that were sensual and amazing to the human - like sex, wine, food, relationships, travel - anything external - no longer are fulfilling to me. And that is going to seem real strange to someone who still likes those things. And it may even seem insulting to them that you do not like those things anymore.
I still love (we do not use that word but for lack of a better one) my partner so much, but it is a sovereign - not needy - love. There are no cords that tie us together - there is no bonding or blending. He did not save me from anything or anyone.
It's only deep honor and respect from one soul to another. Separate beings in deep honor of each other. Seeing one another for who we are in all our multiplicity.
Our relationship is not defined by a single role such as boyfriend or girlfriend; our happiness is not dependent on the actions or consciousness of the other. No limits. And it can mold and shift and dissipate without taking either of us from our alignment of multiplicity.
Also and finally, I do not miss these external stimuli, either. When those sources of external comfort and pleasure leave, it sucked for a time for my human self, and then I got so filled up with non-linear, non-dualistic and not gravity-laden experiences I forgot all about it. The menu of 250,000 senses and millions of realities is so much more appetizing than a steak - but if I ever want a steak (doubtful) I would just eat it.
For me, and a trusted friend I can actually BE myself around, we both have experienced when you self-realize, when you enter into the space of perpetual becoming or BEING. Those who cannot see it or fathom it will not be able to see or appreciate it AND that's okay! As Yeshua said, those with eyes will see and those with ears will hear.
Being enlightenment does not make everything perfect or peachy. Things will be annoying - or more so your discernment turns on full blast. No becomes your main human word. Like a baby with a first word, I'll bet my last human word will be no thank you:P
And along with discernment, I have become even more sensitive like not wanting to be touched at the dentist office or eat at a restaurant that does not feel expansive and energetically clear - some restaurants are great just not the ones picked here in Colorado...:P Ewww.
The desire to travel has also left me for now. That too seems external. Why get make all that effort when I have 250,000 senses to explore and and tens of thousands if not millions of realities to wander and explore.
Of course, all of those experiences, especially travel, served me so well. Who knows, it might come back?
That letting go of the human need for consistency is part of the BEING experience for me. Like El Morya once said...
DON'T CALL ME A MASTER. THAT TITLE IS MUCH TOO LIMITING.
Indeed, my soul will not allow me to be boxed into any category. I am not Shaumbra, never have been. No wonder I am not invited to the gatherings, which in my discernment not judgement have become stale, uncomfortable and beyond limiting. I would have hated it even if I was invited. The not being invited was more of a representation of the human disappointment of this place.
For example, I am looking at the burn on the ceiling and the carpet stains from my last Shaumbra house guest. How is that okay? Shaking my head...
While my heart is cracked wide open from breaking, the break has made so much room for so much more. For the AND.
Why write about it? While it is helpful for me the human to write in catharsis, it may also open the doors for others to come out of hiding and express this too. For me, people like Joanna and Karen and others sharing on Ryver have been hugely supportive of me opening the door to what exists beyond Shaumbraland.
Talking to another person here who has integrated fully this old Shuambra aspect/ identity too is so supportive of my experience as a human. So if I can play that role for someone else, too, while enjoying writing it, why not?
My suol has showed me when you are in something - like a group you really beLIEve in - you think it is the center of the Universe. Then you expand and you realize it is only a tiny spec, a mere story, in the grandness of the Universe of the GodSelf or ME.
So, Oh Be Ahn - best wishes to my fellow travels of time and space. Perhaps in 3-5 years when Adamus gives permission with his prediction, they may see what lies beyond. And perhaps I won't seem so insane. But most of all - IT DOESN'T MATTER.
It's not called friend realization or external realization - it is called SELF realization - and through integrating this last identity of a group consciousness, I have found mySELF. If that's offensive, well, it's not about me.
But Adamus said....HA! totally kidding.
Hi friends, thanks for all your notes and offering to help me move energetically - Gosh I appreciate that! I think in all this realization we forget that those around us are human too and appreciate kindness. I will never be too conscious to be kind. Most of all, I appreciate all of you for BEING you in all your multiplicity.
THE CENTER OF BEING
First off, what cut off the video....The Center of Being WILL NOT have a physical space. The Center of Being exists within he GodSelf of us all. And when we gather, our GodSelves meet in recognition of the God also experience under the Banyan Tree or where ever you choose to show up in alignment.
Should I disappear from this physical world...I think I will be here some years - my divine will is serving - how I do, or BE, rather, that may shift and change with the changing tides of consciousness...but if I should disappear, this space will always continue on under the Banyan Tree and we will always meet - if you would like - on the New Moon each month for as ever long as you would like.
I talked yesterday about embracing the multiplicity and blurred lines between the ascended and embodied master. The more automation and technology advance, the more the lines will blur between the two. I feel right now I inhabit both worlds and my body is simply a facet that is really serving me well moving boxes :)
I get a strong sense, when the body integrates fully, it will not matter your health or what you did or did not do to it. Any relief is temporary and in support of the human self - something that I choose not to ignore. Like getting a new tooth - 3D printed no less - is supportive of my human experience.
In all of this I finally understand, what the saying "the human does not become enlightened means." It is a sensation rather than a thought so I cannot describe it at all except a deep peace in my heart. And if the human is annoyed or upset or crying or whatever, it is still all in alignment with the GodSelf. Those tears actually feel so freaking good.
Another thing I want to challenge my own human on is the concept of old and new earth. Two choices? Fuck that. There are millions and none of us are going to have the same reality perception - everyone is going to view it through a different lens - the own lens of divine perception. Let's move from beyond yet another dualistic concept between new and old earth? Just writing it makes me feel constricted.
When Adamus first talked about new and old earth and Theos- I really felt like he was watering down for a limited understanding audience. So I am going exploring on my own without looking at life through a group consciousness perspective. My own lens of perception is so much more expanded! I'll bet yours is too.
LETTING GO OF CONSISTENCY
As a multiple master of Self, I am never going to be just one thing or think just one thing. I don't make decisions that are set in stone. That would be too limiting. Consistency is a human value and is much in conflict with the soul's deep desire to go beyond linearity and radiate in all the tens of thousands of realities available to it.
So as we move beyond the veils of maya, I invite you to embrace multiplicity within yourself and in your peers. So what if I or they say one thing and then shift gears and go another way. Let's not box ourselves in. Blah!
SAR'H's LIFE WITH YESHUA
In my alt-reality I have been having sensational conversations with M. Babaji and Yeshua about my lifetime with them 2,000 years ago. For me, previous life information has only come forth when it would be of service to me in the human NOW moment. I am just now - at the human facet - able to really absorb what they want to share OR rather what my soul wants to make the human facet aware of.
All of them have been reminding me (much to the chagrin of my human) that I was not Egyptian in that life, but rather Indian (from the Himalayas), yet Yeshua explained my dark skin saying I was from Alexandria to those we could not trust.
When I asked if I was a blood relative/ child of Yeshua - I no longer feel that I was ever a blood child of Mary Magdalene - he simply answers - it does not matter - I held the Christ seed consciousness.
"It doesn't matter if it was my seed (sperm) or not," Yeshua said laughing his ass off. HA! Limited human question - sorry:P
Regardless, I seem to have been some child picked up when Yeshua spent seven years with Babaji before he began his role/ play of the crucifixion. And, then I was brought back to the middle East and then France.
WHY NOW, DO I SEE THIS...?
Well, it relates to integrating and moving beyond the Shaumbra identity, and I had asked my soul, "why the hell am I so upset by it all? Seriously, why???"
Sar'h showed me this is not the first time I have been disillusioned by Shaumbra - which was a group of beings who incarnated together around the time of Yeshua.
This group of people, many of whom are incarnated again at this time, they wore red scarves to indicate it was time for a secret meeting, which is why everyone was wearing red scarves last week, if you saw the Should or Facebook.
Seeing everyone in the red scarves on the internet made me physically sick, and I knew it must be something deeper than just being so done at the human facet level. More than me just being disappointed in behaviors and limits.
Sar'h explained to me that as an outsider - the weird Indian child who embodied the wisdom of the East those 2,000 years ago - I would watch these Shaumbra in red scarves basically argue amongst themselves what was the true word of God, the true words of Yeshua.
They would use Yeshua quotes and teachings to measure the level of consciousness of each other and were fiercely competitive - sound familiar?
Babaji showed me in that life, I was holding the energy of BEING God, also, and feeling just as alienated as I do now at the human level - that is expected - the human is not enlightened ever.
Bababji showed me to go deeper, to visit the soul space, to watch the plays and roles repeat themselves and do what I do best, what I have been doing for eons - to BREATHE JOY AND BE GOD TOO - and to go about my human way.
In that life, my refuge was nature and my male partner - a Druid. Indeed, as I leave Colorado as certain magical mountain space is what I will miss the most. D- is meeting me in California, so that's the best for my human too.
Babaji added that's why I have so many Far East friends. They have played the role I am now. They have felt the disillusion, the competition, the argument of scripture, the externalization of the divine in so many lives.
Master M added - talking directly to my human self - that I have been seeking empathy from those in human form -- I still allow my human to desire empathy and kindness, I will not ever discredit my humanity -- when there is a whole crew of masters not in physical form who understand deeply what I am doing, what I have done.
Yogananda reminds me that I am not alone, and I can find the human support there with him. He has been entertaining me while I move, which has been awesome.
The deep honor and understanding these beings bring is beyond words and emotions. I am so grateful.
Truly, the SOUL or GODSELF is always going to be the best company. But going directly to the masters of self - without a channel or medium or muddled go between - is really a great joy for the human Lauren. Sar'h has been there under the Banyan Tree this whole time. It's about time my human joined in more often in more awareness.
I will see you all under the Banyan Tree on the New Moon - Feb. 15 in linear time. The theme is embracing multiplicity and moving beyond the perceived human desire for consistency that is a strong side effect of linearity.
I plan to show up aligned in my multiplicity and invite you to do the same.
For those of you who are new, the Banyan is not a place to bring or solve human problems (we can all feel that crap when you do so don't...), it is a place to celebrate your mastery, your I AM God, also.
Love to you all,
Lauren, Sar'h and all the beings under the Banyan Tree
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