A few personal notes, using my own space to meander....In the same sentiment of Este's dynamic of postponement post on Facebook, lately I've been mulling to experiences I've had.
It was 2014, I was in deep meditation because at the time it felt good to sit on a cushion in my home yoga studio. I was doing my normal shtick breathing and clearing the mind when a figure appearing as Yeshua showed up and we went in an "astral" journey to a cave in India.
There a man shirtless, levitating in the lotus foot position, appearing to be no more than 25 or 26 greeted me and held my hand. He had long brown hair and sparkling eyes.
Yeshua said without words this was our friend Babaji- never heard of him, I thought. He held my hand for a long time. No words. A blessing maybe?
When I came to, I googled Babaji (I spelled it baba-gi - ha) and it's when I picked up the biography of Yogananda's. Couldn't make sense of any of it. So I did nothing.
The next time I heard from Mahavatar Babaji, it was February ??? 2017. (What day is it??) I was walking with Ollie in deep, snowy woods way up in the mountains. No one around. He showed up glowing and showed me an interactive map of people moving from the awakening to enlightenment experience. There was so much activity in California. Also in Europe. Must be a sign that I should move and teach there. We know how that attempt went. The answer was: do nothing.
Seems in the act of postponement we save a very precious resource- human effort. Energetic discharge to move physical things becomes very expensive. For example, I was trying to open a jammed door the other day and exclaimed, "It's too expensive!" Not money wise, but energy wise.
As I sit in the after effects of my dream this week, especially at the renewed potential for my California space, I sense deeply again- DO NOTHING. Anything else is just too expensive.
In nothing there is everything.
On this trip, we live simple. Sleep. Small breakfast at 10 am. Nap. Surf or walk. Possibly lunch or dinner - not both. Nap. Play cards and sleep sometime between 7 pm and 9 pm. We have no movies or TV and only two books.
I had a moment where I felt like a sloth. My soul then showed me how much had transpired in 2.5 short weeks. Holy hell. No wonder I am doing "nothing" - I AM doing everything.
It's why I can't do big group things, definitely not a seminar or organized event, drink a lot of alcohol, or stay up past 9 pm at the very, very latest. It's too energeticly expensive and a massive distraction from the "everything" going on inside of me. Blessed my partner is in the same space.