Becoming Sar'h: Book One, Introduction

Introductions: Then & Later

Then.

Becoming Sar’h is the story of the grandest love affair you can have—the one with SELF. From the time I was four years old, a voice calling herself Sar’h (pronounced sa-RA) played a major role in my life. She held wisdom far beyond my childhood years and served as a pillar of truth in a world driven by the whims of mass consciousness. Sar’h is the voice of my soul and has held many incarnations on Earth—lives of great wisdom and magic and lives filled with darkness and destruction. Later I learned that my human self, Lauren, was an expression of Sar’h—but not before I got completely lost in the singular human existence.

The Becoming Sar’h series is the story of me, Lauren, the extremely imperfect human, reluctantly reconciling with my master voice within—that of Sar’h. Throughout the book, I do just about everything to get rid of Sar’h in order to fit into the modern world—antidepressants, drugs, and, worst of all, developing an addiction to success. It took the death of my father to shake me out of the illusion that the physical world in front of me was all there was to know and a dear friend named El Morya to light the way when I got too lost in the dark to carry on alone.

Once I remembered who I was at the soul level, Sar’h and I traveled the world on one of the grandest adventures imaginable, as my human self, Lauren, faced her biggest fears and healed immense heartbreak. While this is a personal story rather than a teaching-and-preaching book, both Sar’h and Lauren know that a wise master lives within all of us, and if we, the humans, can open up to our souls’ voices, we can know God.

Additionally, as a fellow former skeptic and someone who denied her soul’s voice for years, I ask you to read this book with the openness and imagination of a child and to be patient with me, the often-ridiculous human. I felt it important to share all aspects of myself, not just the attractive ones, including past feelings of exclusivity, no matter how absurd they seem to me now. It was all part of my journey, after all. As Sar’h says in the book, we must remember the act of being human is wildly courageous in and of itself. She means no matter what we do in our human lives, no matter our thoughts and our actions, our sheer existence on Earth is magic enough.

This book is a work of narrative nonfiction—actual stories that I experienced. Yet it is only from my perspective. Reality is not an absolute; it changes with every pair of glasses through which it is viewed. Some names have been changed at people’s requests. Others insisted on keeping their real names. I hope you enjoy reading this book as much as I enjoyed writing it. No matter your feelings on the book, it is my dream for everyone to experience the grandest magic life has to offer: the journey back to SELF. 

Now. 

In January of 2017, I published my first book, Becoming Sar’h: Book One. The book holds within its pages the story of my awakening experience from childhood until age thirty-two. It details my relationship with my soul and friendship with an Ascended Master named El Morya, who many are familiar with in his relation to the Theosophical movement. Never a guide, like any master worth his weight, he showed me where to look, not what to see.

The week before the book hit the virtual bookshelf that is Amazon.com, nightmares plagued my sleep. I was sharing too much. People wouldn’t get it. Worse, people might think I’m crazy. Breathing through the fear, I allowed my creation - my baby - to flow - to birth - into the world. Your reactions to my creation stunned me in the best way possible.

In six months following the book publication, I received nearly one hundred personal letters from readers who also felt alone and a smidge crazy in their awakening experiences. Turns out many readers held similar experiences as described in the book and took comfort in knowing they were not alone in the wild ride that is the self-realization experience.

For example, one reviewer wrote, “Do you have the feeling that life is kind of strange and you are not sure if you really belong here? Or you feel you are not normal and getting kind of crazy? Please read this book before you go down any other road and you will see that the crazy is the new normal. I am sure after reading the book you will feel that you are not alone and it will encourage you to trust even more your inner wisdom and guidance.”

Many others reported the words in the book created energetic pathways for them to connect deeper within themselves and allowed them to move further into the self-realization process – an entirely personal and unique experience for us all.  I hold there is no one size fits all approach to the embodied enlightenment experience, which is why I prefer to share stories rather than give lectures. Plus, stories are so much more stimulating than any webinar or PowerPoint presentation I might share on the matter at hand.

Further, when I wrote the book, my aim was to capture to the multi-faceted, multi-reality essence of the embodied enlightenment experience, which Master M calls the Triple E. So when I read the next review, I wept tears of joy because I knew my intentions made it into the pages of the book.

“If you are curious about the bridge between spiritual mysteries and real life, read the book and you’ll find yourself walking that bridge. I particularly enjoyed the multidimensional nature of the book, and the self-love that could be heard in the narrator's voice. A book that opens the mind and the heart alike, it is a gem for anybody choosing the path of enlightenment.”

I wrote Becoming Sar’h: Book One first and foremost for me. It was a way to express my own soul experience through my craft, my creative medium – I’ve written professionally for nearly two decades. The added bonus of receiving your reviews - from readers not critics - and personal letters, let me know what I share held a value in this world. Your comments, questions, and general faith in me, encouraged me to publish this next book.  Otherwise, the self-love journal would be gathering dust on my bookshelf.

I have kept a journal - a diary - since I learned to write. It is what Book One was based on, yet I chose to write it in a narrative format. I will admit it has become quite the experience to write Book Two in hindsight and to keep my journals going. As Anaïs Nin wrote in 1933:

“My book and my journal step on each other’s feet constantly. I can neither divorce nor reconcile them. I play traitor to both. I am more loyal to my journal, however. I will put the pages of my journal into my book but never pages of the book into my journal, showing a human faithfulness to the human authenticity of the journal.” (1)

I could not agree more with Nin’s experience, which is why I am summoning to the courage – once again – to share the good, bad, and ugly with the free world. Like Sar’h, the voice of my soul, said in Book One, “We must remember the act of being human is wildly courageous in and of itself.”

What Sar’h meant is no matter what we do in our human lives, no matter our thoughts and our actions, our sheer existence on Earth in human form is nothing short of pure, undiluted magic.

In honor of your unique soul experiences,

Lauren, Sar’h & Master M

(1) - Nin, Anaïs. Henry and June: From a Journal of Love. New York: Harcourt, Inc., 1986.