What lies beyond the illusion?

Don't talk about night anymore!-
In our day there is no night.
In our religion of Love
There is no religion or love.
Love is the endless ocean of God
Yet a thousand souls, drowning in that ocean, cry out- 
"There is no God!"
-Rumi ​

The following is from my journal on the flight from India to NYC in late October...

Any human who travels to far lands returns home forever changed. It’s no different for the conscious being.

Yet, the magnitude of the earthquake of change upon arrive ‘home’ – with one thud of a heavy passport stamp – the world becomes different in ways previously unimaginable for the mere human traveler.

To know this yourself, you need not step on a plane or drive across borders – you need only expand your mastery in perspective and perceptions to seeing, sensing, and knowing deeply that everything – every little last thing in this life and all others – is and was an illusion.

Not just the mass consciousness experience, but also, for me, the experience of belonging to a "spiritual and consciousness" human groups too.

“Who are you beyond these illusions, beyond the veils of maya?” Master M and Sar’h asked Lauren, my human self, as we flew sixteen hours across the world from New Delhi to New York. 

I was able to see so clearly the roles I had played on the Earth’s stages - even the roles I played in spiritual and consciousness groups.

I was able to see how I was the writer and producer of my life. Knowing that used to be a big realization – I create my own reality. And then like any realization, there comes a point when it is time to let it all go, once again. 

I create my own reality - true - and also limiting in the experience of expanse. Any sort of doctrine/ scripture - in the end - a beLIEf - to rigid and too limiting to be an absolute. Life is so multiple beyond linearity, duality and gravity - how can one sweeping statement always hold true?

Something in me clicked – this was no longer needed, no longer desired - I did not need to write anymore human free will plays. In that realization, I completely had to let go of every single thing. 

In embodied enlightenment, these concepts of creatorship are outdated, and obsolete, though they were a vital part of my journey. You no longer need to create with New Energy (energy containing consciousness). Instead, creation requires no energy at all, in the context of the sacred art of surrender to the GodSelf. There are no manual steps. Creation comes from BEING. 

Enlightenment is not a destination. It is a dynamic - never static- experience of perpetual SELF becoming.

We are marked by the grace in which we let things go.

I watched my human creations sucked into the vortex of what no longer serves. What do I do with all the work and writing from the past three years? I archive it into the library of the soul’s wisdom, and I walk on. It’s that simple.

I see so clearly in divine will I was beyond acting roles, beyond writing a script, directing, and staring in it. For those roles were the will of the human and not the will of the GodSelf. 

In other words, in the Divine Will experience there is a different script, or perhaps none at all, Sar’h and Master M suggested, allowing me the wiggle room to discern for myself, as I will allow you to do as well, of course.

So as I found myself behind the curtain of all stages, I had a backstage pass to watch as more things were sucked into the vortex of what was no longer mine. I watched the stories, the plays, and the movies that no longer served reverse with the changing tide of my soul’s wisdom.

One of those story lines was a role or identity I played as Shuambra, and it included the Atlantean implanted desire to embody as a group. Old story, sucked into the void of what no longer serves. My enlightenment is about me and me alone. 

I remember in 2014 standing at a Mayan ruin in southern Mexico. As I entered the hearth of a stone structure, I heard Sar’h and Master M telling Lauren, my human self, “Let go of the need for recognition.” 

For years, in the human will, I felt I needed to become unattached to being seen, so that people would see me. In this moment, it became very clear that I no longer wanted recognition at all.

Not wanting it did not mean letting go of it, not being tied to it, but really with every cell of my being desiring the opposite experience. I want to be left alone, to play no role at all, and simply BE in my own essence.

This trip was defined by the letting go of human free will and stepping into the will of the GodSELF - the All who I AM.

Another role/ identity that got sucked into the Divine I AM experience was the need to teach anyone anything.

Why? Because I can see, sense and know everything is perfect - absolutely perfect for them - and requires zero interference. 

Teaching is rarely - very rarely - a divine will creation. As I have seen in myself, it is so easy to turn and manipulate what is definitely human will into believing from a human perspective that it is divine will.

Sar’h ever so gently whispered, “Those who are out there teaching are doing so because they still need to learn the material themselves.” 

It makes so much sense. All of what I have been sharing – writing the Thirty Days of Self-Love was about me finding that space for myself. Each client I met with and reflected their mastery back to was a way for me to reflect mastery back to myself.

I no longer need the mirror – I can see and accept myself so clearly, so easily. 

Yet, I took a pause to honor the experience that playing the teacher, facilitator role gifted me, and let it go, as it no longer serves. I took a pause to honor the experience of being Shaumbra and belonging to a group, and I let it go to.

I witnessed it washed away with the changing tide of my 'God, also' consciousness. 

So what does exist beyond the illusions of human free will living for me?

Coming back from our journey, I cannot un-see what I saw. To know everything around you is an illusion is one thing and experiencing every single reality as a movie screen projected into the physical is quite another. 

Since returning I have not had one brief moment in which I did not see the illusion clearly. Not a single second has passed in which I did not know I was walking though a movie set. The woman who passed me on the trail yelling at me to put my dog on a leash was nothing but an actor on the stage.

So what is real? Let me begin again, please.

Any human who travels to far lands returns home forever changed. It’s no different for the conscious being. Yet, the magnitude of the earthquake of change upon arrive ‘home’ – with one thud of a heavy passport stamp – the world becomes different in ways previously unimaginable for the mere human traveler.

To know this yourself, you need not step on a plane or drive across borders – you need only expand your mastery in perspective and perceptions to seeing, sensing, and knowing deeply (from experience, not a mental construct) that everything – every little last thing in this life and all others – is and was an illusion but one thing – that thing is called LOVE.

Speak not of the human kind of love, but the kind you find in dark crevices in the space between the cells of your being. This kind of love is an experience that can only be found beyond the illusions and behind the curtains of all perceived realities.

The only thing real in this world free from illusion is this deep, dark, seemingly chaotic love – love you can only experience and know when you have given up the rest, including your human free will and any human passion beyond self-realization, through the art of complete surrender. 

I will write it again. To experience this kind of love, it seems to me you must see clearly and know deeply your perceived human passions are but mere distractions.

It’s the kind of love that exists beyond the stages, beyond the movie projected, and it can only be sensed in the absence of that movie screen – one you can step away from beyond the veils. 

This dark love - this love that exists outside illusion has another name. It is the Love of God - the God, also - YOU and ME in our raw form. 

I hate to say it, but Adamus was right. Kuthumi was right. Master M was right. In this embodied enlightenment experience, you will not want to be social. You will not want to be online. You will not feel good interacting in a group unless they too have found their sovereignty of the God, also.

Enjoy it while you can. Have the experience in the illusion. I am so glad I did. 

Perhaps one day you will wake up, and you will not want to play a role in the illusions anymore. You will see so clearly how nothing is authentic. Everything is an act. And for a time, you would rather be alone, wandering realities. The only company you will welcome is those who pass by who are also walking beyond the veil of illusion. 

Like Kuthumi, you will want to talk to trees. Like Adamus, you will trade your proverbial castle for a forest. Like Master Morya, you will leave your role as prince and become the ruler of your own kingdom, instead. 

And, just like anything else, that too will dissolve. But for a time, perhaps you too will not want to play in the video game that is Earth’s illusions.

When Adamus first said these things, such as masters are not on Facebook. Masters don’t go to organized Shaumbra events. I said, “Hey buddy, you don’t get to define my enlightenment experience.” That was the human free will talking. 

I will not speak for you all, but for me, he was entirely spot on.

I feel the need to untangle myself from all the roles I created. The master laughs and says, “Hey, just walk away.” And so I am, so I have. 

I will continue to meet you all in the space beyond the noise, beyond the veils of illusion, and in complete resonance with the dark love, that is the love of GodSelf. 

As we said before, once you stop grasping at the figurative $100 bill, there are millions waiting for you on the 'other side', and those riches are found only in the love of God. 

Creation no longer requires New Energy; it requires no energy, no effort at all. 

Thank you for your gracing this space with your essence. Oh be ahn, fellow travelers!

Please note I only share about my own experiences.
Everyone's are going to be unique for them.
WE are NOT doing this together.
I AM and YOU ARE, and we can enjoy each other from time to time in the Center of our Beings.