 These stories are in the format of the book, Memoirs of a Master by Adamus Saint-Germain. I love reading this book from the perspective of a new master, and the learning curve that comes with it - rather than the perspective of a student - although I can identify with that as well. I have written it in third person to make it clearer for me - Sar'h, my master Self, and Lauren, the human. Please note sometimes I use composite characters and the timeline may very slightly from linear time for story sake, and I do not view the world in linear time. You can click on 'Memoirs of a Modern Master' in the categories section to your right to read all of them. Enjoy! It was April 2016, and Lauren had signed up for a consciousness-workshop on creation in Hawaii. She could not wait to go back to the island to swim with the beloved spinner dolphins and bring some of what she knew about manifestation and creation back down to the physical Earth. One day of the workshop, the channeler of an Ascended Master was going on about what he called BON - it was a really fascinating topic. In one of his lectures, the Ascended Master asked who had flown first class to the workshop. Lauren had flown first class many times and had the money to do so. Yet, she did not for this particular workshop because the flight was a short domestic one. Her roommate at the workshop Andrea had - you can read about her story in the memoirs too. The ascended master then told all the students, that they should have flown first class. Lauren understood what he meant. He was saying abundance was there to choose, to claim as the master. Yet, Lauren did not need a first class ticket to prove this, so she kept her economy class ticket, happily. Lauren, the human, and Sar'h, the master both knew abundance was a sensation flowing like a river inside of the soul. Neither needed a ticket to prove it to anyone. Others, like Andrea, took Facebook photos of the event to show their "master" friends on Facebook how abundant she was. Add the super conscious hashtags here, but that's another story - one Lauren will need to own as well. That night at dinner, Lauren walked past a table of workshop attendees having dinner. They were all on the phone. Her friend Magi I was at the dinner table. "Why is everyone on the phone?" she asked. "They are all calling to upgrade their flights because (the ascended master) said they should," he replied. They both had a chuckle. Lauren had not been invited to this dinner. What a relief that was. "Watch this," Sar'h, Lauren's master Self, said to Lauren, the human. Lauren noticed after they got off their phones everyone was arguing over the bill from dinner. There was not enough money to cover the dinner and tip. The banter went back and forth - "You had two wines, not one..." she heard one "master" say to the other. Magi I had plenty of money - he too, like Lauren felt he did not need to upgrade his flight. Silently, Magi I left a $100 bill on the table to cover the bill and left. "It was easier than arguing with them," he said and shrugged his shoulders. The people at the table didn't even notice. Or thank him. They both chuckled at the fact that everyone was spending thousands to upgrade their flight, while they could not come up with $20 for dinner. Later, Magi I and Lauren ordered some champagne to drink and talk about the perceived limitations of these masters - not to judge but to learn the behavior of humans coming from awakening into the embodied enlightenment experience - something that was of benefit to what they were creating, what role they played. Then... Later in the workshop, the channeled Ascended Master said there was no need to workout in a gym for hours anymore. He introduced what he called the 60-second workout. Later that day, Lauren walked past the hotel gym. There was the channeler and his wife in their workout clothes. One was furiously peddling on a stationary bike and the other on a treadmill. "Look," said Sar'h. "There is something for you to see here." Lauren thought it was strange that the channeler would say one thing and then act another way, she told Sar'h. "Exactly!" Sarah replied. "When we create our own ways of sharing what we know - there will be no discord between what we share and how we live. We will not be channeling an outside entity, either. We aren't judging these people at all. We are simply discerning for the future of our own creations." Later that trip, Lauren's flight was cancelled because of a snow storm back in Denver. She treated herself to a beautiful hotel room on the other side of Hawaii's big island - still quite less than the first class ticket, but Lauren never counted pennies. Lauren and Sar'h then had their own vacation together, master and human and soul squeezed in between. Together, they talked about creation and what they would create in this lifetime. It was a beautiful creation to have these three days alone. Masterly, if you will. When Lauren got on the cheap flight home to Denver she noticed she had the whole row of seats all to herself. The flight attendant brought her a blanket and invited her to spread out and take a nap on the plane ride home. If that wasn't first class, she didn't know what was. Lauren remembered she had not worked out the whole trip, yet her body felt leaner and lighter than ever. Lauren and Sar'h, the new master, returned to Denver with a full bank account and a fuller heart, a heart full of self-love and self-discernment - knowing what served her in any given moment no matter what the channeled Ascended Master had said and knowing deeply what did not - teaching one thing and living another. These realizations would stick with her for years to come.
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 These stories are in the format of the book, Memoirs of a Master by Adamus Saint-Germain. I love reading this book from the perspective of a new master, and the learning curve that comes with it - rather than the perspective of a student - although I can identify with that as well. I have written it in third person to make it clearer for me - Sar'h, my master Self, and Lauren, the human. Please note sometimes I use composite characters and the timeline may very slightly from linear time for story sake, and I do not view the world in linear time. You can click on 'Memoirs of a Modern Master' in the categories section to your right to read all of them. Enjoy! It was 2014, and the New Master, Sar'h, still held some of her human qualities, one of which was a desire for human romance. So Lauren accepted dates as they came up, but the same story line always played out. On her first date with Joe, he had told her his mom had left the physical body recently. He said he knew there was life after death now from his experiences, and he knew there was much more to the Universe that what man saw with his two physical eyes. "That's nice," Lauren thought. "I can be myself. He is aware." As they talked and went on further dates, she noticed the roles changing. He saw her as a teacher - someone to learn from. Each date ended up being a session of sorts in which Joe asked questions about the nature of enlightenment and Lauren answered them as the Master. Lauren had told Joe about her relationship with El Morya. Instead of inquiring what it was like for Lauren and how it impacted her life, he wanted a reading from El Morya - right now. What did El Morya have to say about his life, about his journey? Lauren was not seen as a person, but as some sort of oracle or free teacher/ healer/ guide. Lauren told Joe it was not appropriate to ask her such questions, and that El Morya had nothing to share with him. "You are doing alright on your own, Joe," she said. "Everything is unfolding in divine perfection." Joe became angry. "I want to see him NOW. Make him appear." "Well, Joe, El Morya doesn't appear on demand. In fact, he never appears in the way you wish to see him." Joe had said he wanted him or any Ascended Master to appear in such a physical state "you could bounce a quarter (coin) off of them." The notion was insulting and ludicrous. The more he went into his human need to see an ascended master, the angrier he became. He begged, pleaded, and then demanded that Lauren teach him the ways of the magus - right here, right now. He was so desperate, Lauren tried to show him some ways to connect with his own wisdom. His own wisdom - fuck that - he wanted answers from a master! And he wanted them now! The angrier he became the more Lauren began to sink into her mastery. She had given him a pearl and he had cast it before the dogs and the swine. (See related post) The master, Sar'h, sat and watched this all patiently, allowing Lauren to learn, or remember, something or many things, rather. First, dating was not going to be a part of this enlightenment lifetime. Sar'h had pointed out every single boyfriend she had experienced. Each and everyone thought they were attracted to Lauren physically, yet each demonstrated that they sought her awareness, her light more than anything. Sarah asked Lauren, "Have you ever been on a date when you weren't "helping" the man out, answering his questions, and providing solutions to his spiritual crises?" "Well, no, I have not, not since I became aware of who I AM," Lauren replied. It was that neediness from others who did not know the kingdom was within - again. You could tell them a million ways they did not need healing, readings, workshops, or anything external to know they were God, also - but it never sunk in. Their eyes would become hazy when she talked about the kingdom within. These men where not even capable of understanding that - very few were - she knew this from other lifetimes. When Lauren did not give them what they needed, they would go to someone else for energy - someone to stroke their egos, so to say. In 2014, Lauren had been so blinded by the need to belong - the human desire to be desired - that she continued to accept dates until one day, she realized what was occurring inside of her. Then she stepped back into her mastery. "Lauren, dear, you are never going to have a boyfriend in the human way. I watched with compassion as you put yourself in these situations over and over again to show you something. It's time to move on," Sar'h said and continued... "The master has to give up perceived human comforts - and there will be many more to renounce with joy - and one of those is fulfilling the human desire for a boyfriend. I know it sounds harsh now, but one day you will realize that was some old aspect playing in human free will who needed that boyfriend, not you - the master. The boyfriends know enough to see your light of awareness, but they will never match you in awareness in this lifetime. Not only boyfriends will fall away, but also your need for any external energy force. I know you cannot see it now but one day you will not even need to eat to live, to be. You won't want to fill yourself up with wine and cheap talk as you do now. You will relish in being alone on a Saturday night. You have come to the fork in the road in which you can now leave this pattern of trying to find 'the one.' You are the ONE. You know that. You always have. As for the rest, continue to live your life. Continue to feed on your addictions whatever they may be. Allow them to run their course, just as you have in dating so much. One day very soon, you will wake up and not desire a single thing outside of yourself." Lauren didn't know what to believe, but she trusted Sar'h, and she knew she was right at least on the dating. It had been exhausting. Every man wanted something from her - not her body, but her inner light - and that was not something she could give. She had given her soul to another man in another lifetime, and after twelve lives had finally reclaimed it. (Another story for another time.) Lauren was lonely at first, and then she started to realize she was not alone. Instead, she was in the company of masters - ones without physical form - but ones who knew how to be a friend without needing anything from her. It was a steep learning curve, but one Lauren was happy to experience. Lauren's desire to become herself had trumped Lauren's desire to belong - once again. It was not a pattern she needed to repeat. This time she was honest with herself about the nature of her own needs and the patterns they created, keeping her from her mastery. And indeed, Lauren did not know it at a human capacity then, but in 2017, she would wake up not needing food, wine, the company of human friends or boyfriends, or anything from outside of herself. It was and is beyond Lauren's wildest human imagination as most things in mastery are. Step of the edge, and you will fly, too. What human needs are keeping you in the patterns that hold your from claiming your mastery? Can you be honest in your answers?    I once considered Sar'h the voice of my soul - as she was with me throughout my childhood and awakening as a guide for the human Lauren, born on Thanksgiving Day in 1980 in Dallas, Texas. Yet, as I have spiraled more and more into my own mastery, I feel more like Sar'h and less like Lauren each moment. However, I do prefer the name Lauren as I am the one who picked it and whispered in my mom's ears long before she became swollen with me in her womb at age thirty-three.
In this life as Lauren, I chose my father, Robin, as he came from my soul family. In a simultaneous life, my father was a great pharaoh of Egypt and I was his daughter. We hold many lives together and he is constantly with me from his mastery on the ‘other side.’ He currently holds no human attributes but appears in angelic form. He will come back to have his embodied enlightenment experience but not for sometime. He is an angelic master of communication in all forms, which is his current 'project' on the 'other side.' I chose my mother, Susan, for two reasons. My grandmother holds the bloodline of Yeshua and Mary Magdalene and my grandfather held the bloodline of my ancestors - a family I had been incarnating in for centuries - the most recent as my life as Enola (Alone spelled backwards). On a family tree, Enola would be the great aunt of the Lauren incarnation. Enola lived from November 25, 1898 (the year of El Morya's ascension) to Februrary 1936 in Chicago, Kentucky, Texas, and California. She was a wanderer and a pioneer when it was not socially acceptable for women to be so. Additionally, both my mother and her mother, my grandmother, gifted me with the ’Sight’ - or the ability to see without regard for linear time and space. I chose the name Lauren for myself, and it resonates in every cell of my being-ness. Lauren comes from the latin of Laurentum, which means from the place of the laurel leaves. Indeed, that is where I have come from. It is also a French name, and modern day France is where I experienced ascension in one of my lifetimes on Earth. This lifetime of Lauren is the designated embodied enlightenment experience lifetime, and the one I focus sensually on as all the other lifetimes run simultaneously like flowing rivers who meet in the vast ocean of my sovereign consciousness - the consciousness of BEING. However, I use to the name Sar'h now to encompass the ocean of sovereign consciousness that is my BEING, also of which I call the avatar SELF. Sar in Hebrew means prince or ruler, yet not a ruler of other people, but over SELF, also called mastery. To me, Sar’h is like a radiant diamond, with each lifetime running in simultaneous flowing rivers into the ocean of SELF representing a facet or face of the diamond of SELF. Sar'h, like many of you reading this, held lives in Atlantis and Lemuria, and worked to establish the first religions and governments on Earth. In one lifetime, the avatar Sar'h in embodied human form gave birth to one of El Morya's physical incarnations, yet their friendship regardless of the human roles, spans lifetimes. She, for lack of a better pronoun, has incarnated as both a man and a woman and had many less than so-called desirable lives. Wanting to experience everything human life had to offer, Sar’h has played every role from victim to perpetrator, wounded to warrior, and everything in between. Sar'h maintains her name in honor of a lifetime in which she experienced ascension during her short time on Earth, and in which she was a daughter of Yeshua and Mary Magdalene. In this life she was born underground in Alexandria, Egypt and then was transported to modern day France for her safety. She grew up in a mixed community of Essenes and Druids, and spent/ spends many lifetimes in those Druid communities. As you are aware, when Atlantis was destroyed, most of us washed up on the shores of modern-day Wales, and had our Druid experience in the mists of Avalon - El Morya and St. Germain included as King Arthur and his Merlin, respectively. I made the decision to reincarnate as Lauren to experience embodied enlightenment at this magical time and space on Earth, live a life of joy and freedom, and to support with my BEING-ness, not by doing, others on their self-realization journeys, with deep honor and compassion. Sar’h, my avatar self, loves visiting fellow souls in the dream state or on long walks in nature - as a dear friend rather than a teacher. She enjoys communicating in images and sensations. In this capacity, I am deeply passionate about reminding the humans I love so much the kingdom of God is within. Divinity resides inside of all of us. Sar’h cherishes above all the seed of consciousness planted on this Earth by Yeshua to realize we too are God, with each breath she takes in all her various forms. For more information, please check out the Honors & Contributors page.  El Morya once said many will ask what their soul's purpose here is on Earth and fewer will ask the purpose in the context of divine will. When he said it, the group he addressed was that of the spiritual warrior variety. It was people unknowingly feeding their spiritual egos to create roles in which they place their human beliefs disguised as spiritual laws as some sort of doctrine before others who are in the awakening process. A confusion of ego with soul. A confusion of human free will, perceived, with divine will, realized. A spiritual teacher aspect confused with the I AM THAT I AM. If we expand in the spiral of awareness, we can see that those old new age roles play out in the new energy space as well. Those who have been great spiritual teachers, or desired to be so, in other lifetimes are rebranding themselves with the new language, the hip conscious vocabulary. And there is nothing wrong or bad about it - it just is. I'm so glad the seduction to play in that world was there for me, too, so that I could witness this first hand and understand it in various levels of my existence. To see, not only the spiritual teacher aspects of perceived human free will, play out but to also hold compassion for it, is quite the experience when viewed from the eyes of the divine and of the human. I can also see that, it is a way for some - myself included in the most recent linear past - to distill what they have learned. If you teach it in the physical, it can be extremely helpful for bringing your human self along in the Triple E, embodied enlightenment experience. The difference is the discernment in understanding you are teaching to distill for Self, rather than "helping" people. Everyone here understands that no one needs to be helped. That everything is perfectly unfolding in divine timing. That is almost a 'sin' to interfere with the perfection that is unfolding in the petals of the blooming self-realization occurring within each of us, right now. It's the same for the 'teachers' out there, who like us here, wake up one morning, realize they have distilled the wisdom needed from the experience, and then realize - wait, what? - that the desire to "help" went right on our the door when they became to know deeply within that everything is and always was absolutely perfect - that all is well in all of creation. Yesterday, I wrote about not having to expend the effort on the physical creation when playing out roles. It's a lot of work to put together a NEW new energy business. Word selection. Marketing that does not look like marketing. Sexy conscious language. Appearing to have it all figured out. That's exhausting. Although I have never even attempted to look like I have "figured it out." Soon enough, those new new new super new energy teachers will tucker out - the old energy ways will seem too laborious - hold the realization that what has been distilled is distilled. However, some will find they have attached onto that identity with such a force in so many times, that it will feel like amputation of limb to leave the identity behind, and bring all of the lifetimes of it into alignment with soul/ source and all lifetimes running in simultaneous flow. I use it as an example because it's familiar and I can see it clearly, yet it could be any identity - for example I know a master who is hanging onto the healer identity for dear life. It could be anything, and there is no shame in it, as we have all clung to something human at some point in this experience for dear life, because letting it go is scary. The void we experience after human free will has gone can feel dark - can feel empty. Yet, as most of know, if you breathe through the nothing-ness, the everything-ness shows up. If you resist the human seduction to go back to playing in the physical creation space to fill the void - and it won't work for very long - then you open up to the infinite gifts of the THIRD CIRCLE existence. Going back to El Morya's comment above. Of course, we all know here our purpose, which is really passion from the depths of who we are, from our soul, to experience embodied enlightenment on Earth. Sometimes, though less and less frequently now, it seemed like an arduous task. And when we relaxed into it, we realize there was never a task. It was simply a matter of the flower of Self blooming from within - the seed of the soul, singing the song of the soul. It was always going to bloom, regardless of the workshops, classes, readings...and on...and on.... Moving beyond. Gathering in the space beyond the noise. Some say it feels like a void. But one only needs to open up their macro-vision and see through the eyes of the divine that the Magic of Being is taking place here and everywhere masters walk the shores of embodied enlightenment. When you gathered with me under the Banyan last night, for my birthday celebration, I could see something from the macro level, though the eyes of my own divinity, that each time you dance in joy in the space beyond the noise, each time you distill the wisdom of self-realization, each time you know you are God, also - you are without doubt, the true teachers of consciousness - no facebook post needed. I know we have let go of the desire for recognition, but as we are bringing the human along in this experience of humanizing divinity, I want to say that I see you and honor you. And, I am not the only one, so is every master of Self, who has walked the shores of embodied enlightenment before you. I sense into the essence of Mahavatar Babaji. He has no books, no story, no designated channeler. Yet, he has dedicated his BEING to keeping the doors of consciousness open for anyone who chooses it - for anyone who chooses consciousness over automation for eons to come. There may not be shrine in your honor - just yet - but what you are doing, or being rather, is nothing short of grand. And, it is pure joy to witness, and that is what this website is all about - honoring you in your embodied enlightenment experience - in the undiluted Magic of Being, which is described in the manifesto of this creation. So with that, I welcome you to take a look at what you are creating beyond the noise, for eons to come - your legacy of your 'last' life on Earth. I ask you to see through the eyes of your own divinity what service means in the context beyond duality, gravity, and most of all beyond physical time and space. I invite you to view the the grandness of your creation, that is simply being here - a walking, breathing master on Earth. In honor of you! Lauren/ Sar'h, Master Morya, and all the ascended and embodied masters of Earth |
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