Any human who travels to far lands returns home forever changed. It’s no different for the conscious being. Yet, the magnitude of the earthquake of change upon arrive ‘home’ – with one thud of a heavy passport stamp – the world becomes different in ways previously unimaginable for the mere human traveler.

To know this yourself, you need not step on a plane or drive across borders – you need only expand your mastery in perspective and perceptions to seeing, sensing, and knowing deeply that everything – every little last thing in this life and all others – is and was an illusion.

“Who are you beyond these illusions?” Master M and Sar’h asked Lauren, the human who is finally catching up to her own mastery, as we flew sixteen hours across the world from New Delhi to New York. 

It wasn’t just a question for me but for everyone who joined in the New Moon gathering of embodied and ascended masters.

I was able to see so clearly the roles I had played on the Earth’s stages. I was able to see how I was the writer and producer of my life. Knowing that used to be a big realization – I create my own reality. And then like any realization, there comes a point when it is time to let it all go, once again. 

Something in me clicked – this was no longer needed, no longer desired - I did not need to write anymore human free will plays. In that realization, I completely had to let go of every single thing I have shared and wrote about on the New Energy Creator website. 

In embodied enlightenment, these concepts of creatorship are outdated, and obsolete, though they were a vital part of my journey. You no longer need to create with New Energy (energy containing consciousness). Instead, creation requires no energy at all.

We are marked by the grace in which we let things go. I watched that body of work be sucked into the vortex of what no longer serves. What do I do with all the New Energy Creator work? I archive it into the library of the soul’s wisdom, and I walk on. It’s that simple.

In the New Moon gathering, I saw in divine will I was beyond acting roles, beyond writing a script, directing, and staring in it. For those roles were the will of the human and not the will of God. 

In other words, in the will of God there is a different script, or perhaps none at all, Sar’h and Master M suggested, allowing me the wiggle room to discern for myself, as I will allow you to do as well.

So as I found myself behind the curtain of all stages, I had a backstage pass to watch as more things were sucked into the vortex of what was no longer mine. I watched the stories, the plays, and the movies that no longer served reverse with the changing tide of my soul’s wisdom. 

I remember in 2014 standing at a Mayan ruin in southern Mexico. As I entered the hearth of a stone structure, I heard Sar’h and Master M telling Lauren, my human self, “Let go of the need for recognition.” 

For years, in the human will, I felt I needed to become unattached to being seen, so that people would see me. In this New Moon moment, it became very clear that I no longer wanted recognition at all. Not wanting it did not mean letting go of it, not being tied to it, but really with every cell of my being desiring the opposite experience. I want to be left alone, to play no role at all, and simply BE in my own essence.

This trip was defined by the letting go of human free will and stepping into the will of God. There are several things that got twisted around by the human. I feel like it is hugely supportive to talk about what I got “wrong.” The feeling of embarrassment left me some years ago, anyway. 

First, Master M said he was going to meet me in India. He certainly did but, of course, it was not on the old physical Earth. It was beneath a Banyan tree, of which only those with eyes can see it.

Going back to the beginning of the trip, I realized deeply that I would no longer be sharing with the audience that is Masters Hub and other groups spiraled off from the Crimson Circle. Not because it was wrong or bad – it serves many right now – but I had quickly outgrown it. 

My human free will reasoned it was because we (multiple me) were “supposed to” “work with” a larger audience. In that human thought form, I created the ‘Return to Self’ series for a larger audience, advertised it as a way to explore this theory. 

I could not have been more off. That is not what I am “supposed to do.” Too funny! 

What I really did was set up my own energy portal for ME – not the readers – to Return to SELF, and what I found is I no longer want to teach anything, and I certainly do not want to work with anyone in awakening stages of realization. 

Why? Because I can see, sense and know everything is perfect - absolutely perfect for them - and requires zero interference. Also, I do not enjoy it at all. More importantly, it is not the will of God. 

Teaching is rarely, very rarely a divine will action. As I have seen in myself, it is so easy to turn and manipulate what is definitely human will into believing from a human perspective that it is divine will.

Sar’h ever so gently whispered, “Those who are out there teaching are doing so because they still need to learn the material themselves.” 

It makes so much sense. All of what I have been sharing – writing the Thirty Days of Self-Love was about me finding that space for myself. Each client I met with and reflected their mastery back to was a way for me to reflect mastery back to myself. I no longer need the mirror – I can see myself so clearly in the darkness of the New Moon. 

Yet, I took a pause to honor the experience that playing the teacher, facilitator role gifted me, and let it go, as it no longer serves.

So what does exist beyond the illusions of human free will living – for me?

There is one thing I kind of got right, or was at least on the right track. I said I would be “working with” those who are committed to the embodied enlightenment experience – beyond the circus, beyond the social media videos, beyond the cool kids club (none of which are wrong or bad but simply do not flow with the state of divine will). 

I am not here to “work” with anyone, yet in this New Moon gathering, which created such an expansive space beyond the noise, I can see what I can offer you all and what you offer as well – a space for embodied masters and ascended masters to BE beyond all the human constructs and systems. That cannot be done on a Facebook platform. It cannot be done right now in a physical old Earth space. It can only be held beyond the illusions.

Myself and others like you are holding a space in the physical and Master M and his friends are holding a space in the ethereal for those who have the passion to stay here in body and BE. Not teach, not draw a crowd, but to simply be. 

For that reason, I do not want this space to continue on Facebook or Patreon. By 2018, I’m going to move all this content onto a password protected website, which will include a forum for those who make the shift over. More updates on that will be forthcoming, but I did want to share my personal realizations before going into the bigger picture. 

Note: The site was moved over here in November 2017.

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Coming back from our journey, I cannot un-see what I saw. To know everything around you is an illusion is one thing and experiencing every single reality as a movie screen projected into the physical is quite another. 

Since returning I have not had one brief moment in which I did not see the illusion clearly. Not a single second has passed in which I did not know I was walking though a movie set. The woman who passed me on the trail yelling at me to put my dog on a leash was nothing but an actor on the stage.

So what is real? Let me begin again, please.

Any human who travels to far lands returns home forever changed. It’s no different for the conscious being. Yet, the magnitude of the earthquake of change upon arrive ‘home’ – with one thud of a heavy passport stamp – the world becomes different in ways previously unimaginable for the mere human traveler.

To know this yourself, you need not step on a plane or drive across borders – you need only expand your mastery in perspective and perceptions to seeing, sensing, and knowing deeply (from experience, not a mental construct) that everything – every little last thing in this life and all others – is and was an illusion but one thing – that thing is called love.

Speak not of the human kind of love, but the kind you find in dark crevices in the space between the cells of your being. This kind of love is an experience that can only be found beyond the illusions and behind the curtains of all perceived realities.

The only thing real in this world free from illusion is this dark love – love you can only experience and know when you have given up the rest, including your human free will and any human passion beyond self-realization, through the art of complete surrender. 

I will write it again. To experience this kind of love, you must see clearly and know deeply your perceived passions are but mere distractions.

It’s the kind of love that exists beyond the stages, beyond the movie projected, and it can only be sensed in the absence of that movie screen – one you can step away from for a time and space, like we did in the New Moon gathering, if you joined us.

This dark love - this love that exists outside illusion has another name. It is the Love of God, and that, my friends, is what we brought forth in the New Moon gathering and what I will continue to do each month should you feel compelled to join, checking your human free will at the door, please.

I hate to say it, but Adamus was right. Kuthumi was right. Master M was right. In this embodied enlightenment experience, you will not want to be social. You will not want to be online. Enjoy it while you can. Have the experience in the illusion. 

One day you will wake up, and you will not want to play a role in the illusions anymore. You will see so clearly how nothing is authentic. Everything is an act. And for a time, you would rather be alone, wandering realities. The only company you will welcome is those who pass by who are also walking beyond the veil of illusion. 

Like Kuthumi, you will want to talk to trees. Like Adamus, you will trade your proverbial castle for a forest. Like Master Morya, you will leave your role as prince and become the ruler of your own kingdom, instead. 
And, just like anything else, that too will dissolve. But for a time, you will not want to play in the video game that is Earth’s illusions.

When Adamus first said these things, such as masters are not on Facebook. Masters don’t go to organized Shaumbra events. I said, “Hey buddy, you don’t get to define my enlightenment experience.” That was the human free will talking. 

I will not speak for you all, but for me, he was entirely spot on.

I feel the need to untangle myself from all the roles I created. The master laughs and says, “Hey, just walk away.” And so I am. 

I will continue to meet you all in the space beyond the noise, beyond the veils of illusion, and in complete resonance with the dark love, that is the love of God (SELF). 

As we said before, once you stop grasping at the figurative $100 bill, there are millions waiting for you on the 'other side', and those riches are found only in the love of God. 

Creation no longer requires New Energy; it requires no energy, no effort at all. In fact, it is essential that you do not use effort or energy in your creations in this space. 

This is something we’ve been discussing at length and will some more. 

I will also be sharing about PTSD (post-traumatic stress disorder) as related to stepping into divine will.

On Wednesday, I am headed to the desert of New Mexico before going to visit my mom. I will surely be bringing anyone with me who wants to come visit and have a cup of tea, go for a long walk among the desert sands, and of course, play with Professor Ollie.

Thank you for your gracing this space with your essence. Oh be ahn, fellow travelers!