A Shaumbra-related post...
One morning in mid-August, I woke up, and just like that called my landlord and said I don't want to live here anymore. He said no problem to break the lease. "I just want you to be happy." Okay, wow.
So I rented a storage unit and scheduled movers without a destination in place. I'll simply wander. No planning or what ifs.
Then, as I often do, I got in my car and drove off with no plans. My dog and I drove up the Pacific coast through Oregon.
You see something else has been occurring in my awareness that has no edges, no center, no human needs to be met, no conversation between what you all here call master and human. (Adamus addressed this in the last channel - beautiful!)
I am one with me - a vast ocean of consciousness that flows through with no boundaries. No distinction between physical world needs and experience of the Infinite I (human/ soul/ I exist/ master/ whatever all as one cohesive, constantly in motion being).
What's really at stake here - and for all of us allowing all of who we are to come in - is that we are here embodied on the planet in the Age of the Machines as Adamus St. G calls it.
Our role and our experience here in allowing all of ourselves in is that when we do it for ourselves - our self alone, it also restructures and re-wires all the various consciousness containing multiple potentials and possibilities.
As I drove through Northern California, I felt the post apocalyptic world scenarios beyond linear time move through me. I do not push these streams away even it it felt a bit off or ugly; these realities flow freely through me, without the pull of a dualistic view, yet I remain sovereignly in tact. I moved through artificial intelligence scenarios with the same freedom. And many more...
I am but ONE sovereign part of a huge network that I never lose myself in.
Yet, even though I have no agenda, even though I never attempted to mold and shape these realities and potentials -- when these streams run through us in our embodiment, they do not leave unchanged. The potentials and probabilities renew and hit a tipping point of no return.
Buying a beautiful house is more than the perception of an ahmyo life. For me, it is a tiny creation. It feels more like moving doll furniture around in the limited perception of the physical world. "You go here" I say as I lift the house and put it on the Oregon coast in my tiny model of the 3D world.
What's really at stake... is you and me, all of us here, embodying ourselves fully at a time when the world is full forward - to the point of no return - in its evolution into a fully technocratic state of existence.
We will not be carrying signs on a picket line. We will not be scared. We will not say the sky is falling. We will hold our own space - silent and firm in our embodiment.
I don't know about you all, yet as the Age of Machines - which is already here simply not as visible yet - I'll be on my porch overlooking the ocean, allowing all streams of consciousness flow through me.
A state of no agenda, no inner boundaries, where nothing leaves unchanged as it moves through me. I don't move through it/ them/ they, it/them/ they moves through me.
Perhaps after twenty years (and about 15 or 1,500 lifetimes) of throwing the kitchen sink at enlightenment and still finding ourselves worrying about what color to paint the kitchen, what car to buy, firing someone or not, whether we have $5 or $50,000 in our bank accounts, we'll turn our awareness, our consciousness and our keen sense of focus to what's really at stake here - the big picture of planet Earth and it's various relaities.
Perhaps in doing so, all those limits and questions of should I or shouldn't I will take care of themselves, in knowing and remembering why it is that we all came here to experience for ourselves and in return, how it molds and shapes reality without lifting a finger. Energy serves us AND the planet will never be the same.
I never realized how truly limited I was when previously I worried about where to live, was I realized or not, did I get the channel or not, what other people were doing in their lives - these questions cease to exist. Also obsolete was questioning all the limited human crap, not just the stuff above - and I truly did not know how long that list was. Holy hell.
It seems these days each consciousness layer/ reality/ dimension that rolls through me, also allows those limits to come up and dissolve in the grandness of my being. A constant state of limits flowing through me, and coming out the other end completely re-written.
All that time wondering about should I buy that plane ticket or not, seemingly sticky relationship situations - do I have a partner or not, should I attend this workshop or not, can my biological body handle realization or not, why can't I lose this last five pounds - is in the end the most ridiculous garbage to spend any energy on. It is unfathomable how rediculous all this is in a limited human state or constant worry and anxiety that is only focused on the tiny human self and survival.
The paradox is until you allow all yourself in and let go - finally, you cannot fathom what's at stake. What's at stake is only a few words written on a page or so eloquently and amzingly explained in a ProGnost update.
And when you cross that threshold, there is no going back into the separation of human and divine. There's no unseeing what you came here to do, or to BE, rather. What's at stake is far too important to even ponder worrying about moving the doll house furniture around in this tiny human world. You have become much too big for it. Suddenly, you no longer fit through the door. You ate the mushroom in Wonderland.
After twenty years, can we not make a decision to move forward into that grand creation? Are we not ready as a "the most advanced" group of humans on this planet? What's at stake is far to important for all of us to ignore anymore.
Isn't it happening already? SURE, yes it is. But to bring your embodied awareness into it is one of the greatest gifts in the world you can give yourself (the richness can not be captured in words), and in turn the greatest gift you can offer humanity without being tied to the outcome.
In honor of you,
To put words to what I have created in my life, the letters must become musical notes. The 'Infinite I Am' must be stated and sensed deeply.
In the experience of the 'Infinite I' - being - in this language - the master, soul, human, and I Exist and all facets of Self become one without delineation.
Sure, I can dive into a layer, a dimension of self, a singular plane of reality or existence, yet it is only a brief pause before the interconnectedness of the other realities of Self begin to show themselves, twisting and turning back into the interconnectedness of my being.
The wave rises up in the ocean, I ride it and with the wave dive back into the ocean of consciousness. The state almost feels soul-less yet more sovereign than any experience around. I am that I am, no form and no name.
No separation of Self, no delineation between human and divine, for that is what New Energy truly is - integration of all duality, including the human and divine parts of Self becoming one, a singular I AM. An Infinite I.
To experience life beyond duality is not simply inside, but begins to pervade the experience of all realities that move through you.
I no longer traverse other realities, they traverse through me, and without any intent, they leave forever changed, for that is the realized state of being.
In this state of BEING, nothing can brush past your toes or your fingers without leaving changed or re-written - at the molecular structure level.
Many people I come across, you all included, I see like a super nova, as I see your existance beyond linear time. A supernova is a transient astronomical event that occurs during the last stellar evolutionary stages of a star's life (the proverbial last human life), whose destruction is marked by one final, titanic explosion.
It's not so much a destruction but a massive and yet completely gentle explosion back into the true nature of self, and into the Third Circle of Creation.
I can see the timeless, or time-free, evolution. The first circle in the oneness, the second circle as we places a piece of ourselves into this Earth reality, only to have the experience of knowing we are God also through that perception of duality - human and divine - knowing, realizing that we were never separate.
The two parts of self merge into human and divine AS ONE, and we return to wholeness while in physical form - not oneness with others but with the self in a beautiful show of brilliant fireworks that celebrates the remembering we have always been one with self.
The perceived separation between human and divine was yet another way to experience the 'God also' nature of being - another way to experience Self, that served so well until there's nothing that can stop from returning to wholeness.
I folded over myself before I could stop it. The fog lifts that kept me in the dark of my own divinity, beyond duality, and into the nameless, formless state that is BEING. One without edges, with no internal or external.
There's something about this perceived separation between human and divine. The perceived separation brings forth the question: Who am I?
In awakening, in the dark night of the soul, leading up to realization, I brought situations into my lives in attempt to reflect inner states. What I was really trying to do is find out who I was by looking in the mirrors and checking to see if they reflect back who I was.
I looked into the eyes of a lover, but I did not see myself. I looked into the eyes of groups and systems. How I was perceived through their eyes? I did not see myself. As a child, I looked into the eyes of my family, yet I still could not see myself. I looked into the eyes of a student, nope, I was not there.
The mirrors did "work" for a short period - for they brought forth those last parts playing separate roles, and in the perception of separation they came back to self.
For example, when I was still battling internally, sifting through concepts of right and wrong and the emotional states that go with them, I brought forth mirroring situations into my lives, allowing me to move beyond dualistic concepts. And then, one day, the mirror stops.
Where did it go? I felt through the darkness to find something to grab onto. There was nothing solid to grasp. Only a slight hum, a silent song of my soul, that I followed in the dark until I came back into myself. Embodied.
The no mirror existence is something I wrote about and pondered and discussed with others experiencing this before the last Keahak channels, so to hear it is like listening to a grand symphony to which I lent my voice, a symphony of many voices, many songs of the soul combined. Amazing someone can bring that forth in such a cohesive way. Thanks, CC.
Here I will borrow some words from Keahak, I found myself in a new reality of experience that has no basis on the past. Before experiences were predicated on the past, or shaped by past experience. That's all karma ever is and was -- the law of cause and effect. This happened in the past, and now I have this experience based on that.
A literal no-brainer: Creation is beyond linear time and thus, has no basis on past experience.
Embodied Creation from the space of: New Energy Integration of duality, of the human and divine, a singular I AM.
In the integration of the human and divine, I am beyond linear time. All those past experiences that told me what was safe and what was not, no longer apply. I am beyond duality. Gosh, I just don't have the words for that yet. Here is the sensation _________.
Or the local linear....I tried to create something X way and it didn't work, so now I am going to try Y. The linear lists and mental analyzation and processing can play no role. In fact, it is not even an option anymore. I'll try this...It's not a temptation to turn down, luring me into yet another experience to wisdomize.
I feel myself trying to touch down on that mental plane sometimes, to visit that layer of reality, but my feet can't hit the ground there. The plane is still there, I can explore it, but my ship has nothing to land on in that mental plane - a metaphor for the ineffible.
Creation from nothing, seems to cover this. Creation from no prior experiences.
It's the swimming metaphor I have used before. When you swim you push off the side of the pool or the bottom of the ocean to get momentum to start swimming. This no energy creation, or true creation, you don't need to push off the wall or the ocean floor.
In other words, I don't need to use a battle situation to create my reality. This battle duality is not limited to human conflicts, instead it is more of an inner resistence used as a place to spring forth from, to move enough energy to catapult you into the next experience, for example. A bottomless pool.
The no energy creation is creation without momentum, without effort. It's a state of no resistence as realities and layers move through you seamlessly. No resistance in the multi-layer reality experience. In other words, your feet don't have to be on the ground to jump anymore. Motion requires no movement - another Keahak term.
There is creation. There is creation without mirrors. Creation unfolding in a simultaneous moment. The infinite I removes time, gravity, and resistant duality (not referring to right and wrong but beyond that, no separation in, say, your sensory experience).
I want to write that I am surfing into the beyond. Yet, that's not accurate in experience. Instead, I have been surfing here the whole time, I simply lost the awareness of it in the fog of humanity.
I'll try it again. Something new is brewing and I'm going to paddle directly into that wave. Oh wait, I've been riding this wave all along. It's instant, this knowing. I use it as an example...
This space that seems to reverse into the future in a split second and back to linear now and then two time lines or more, two realities are more, they overlap in a single point of awareness, until you are in about a dozen or more realities simultaneously with infinite awareness of all of them, and how they intersect and interact.
Observing, breathing self. Knowing you will not lose yourself in the beyond. It is only something to experience and explore in steady joy of being - no highs and lows that defined the human experience.
The going beyond time, beyond reality, I find I am observing it, watching it - without trying to change it, no desire for that - twist and turn and re-write the so-called future and the past.
That's the over-arching experience of my state of being these days. You have an undeniable moment of clarity in realization (so limiting a word but for reference), and that moment returns and returns again in a PERPETUAL STATE OF BEING and you go back into your life and all its defining moments and you become aware that you were only pretending to be separate the whole time. An act of consciousness.
Sounds a bit trite that way - all words do, so I could say realization rolls through my human memories and they are re-wired and re-written. It's like a gentle Earthquake that creates a a rolling effect across the planet of self. The roll causes the paved streets to lift into the air from the soil, suspend in mid-air, and then land in new places and new patterns.
The pathways to the core of my being that branch or expand from your center in all directions. They open up and become clear. These conscious pathways re-adjust themselves as I observe and never manipulate. No clogs in the pathways. A state of no resistence. States of allowing and being ebbs and flows.
Some days, like today, there is NO CENTER, no core, and no edges because I expand like the breath into the no separation, integrated being. Expanding in and out at will of the hunger-less, time-less passion. I become an infinite landscape - it does not end, it does not begin. There is no way to find the middle of something that stretches into infinity.
Further, the past is re-written and then it doesn't exist at all (literally the past dissolves completely) because there was never a timeline. I can reach back for a memory or two, but they are no longer stored within me.
In the infinity of simultaneous living, I create from no thing because I am already everything. I don't need to grab at an past experience to make a mental decision; I don't even think about the next six months because its already contained within me.
I took a pause to come back and read this to see if I captured the moment. A yellow breasted bird flew up. No, it was not a master friend visiting me. It was me visiting me. I do not need the ascended master to reflect anything back to me. The bird perched on the chair beside me. Me staring back at me. Empty eyes, no past, in mirror-free creation.
The bird had empty eyes just like mine, free from expectations or past experience. Free from seeing myself through the eyes of others, but as exactly as I am that I am.
Good morning, friends! This is a post I wrote for a Keahak forum and thus in their language not necessarily where we are here...
The following image was purchased and licensed - it is a painting of the creation of Adam or God's touch with finger, which is on the ceiling of a church in Thailand (February 28, 2015).
I chose it because you all know deeply the God, also. Looking at the image, for example, I see myself as both the God and the carbonized Adam. The God before it passed through the Wall of Fire to have the experience of a solid existence within the veils of maya.
As defined by Tobias via Crimson Circle, the wall of fire is the expansion of consciousness or knowingness beyond itself; a metaphor for the doorway leading from home into the void. The zone we crossed through going from the first circle of oneness to the second circle - place for human free will to play out among many other experiences. Again, more limited metaphors because it is so hard to grasp the sensation in words.
And then in realization, in embodied enlightenment, to experience the understanding, with a less than one-degree shift of perspective, that I actually never left the wall of fire, and as God, also, I am simply viewing my creation that is realization in this human form, too. More on that another time...
In my awakening and in my human life, I would continually - as a pattern deeply rooted in my gravity and duality laden sphere of awareness - choose experiences over and over again, and then subsequently look for creative solutions to make my way out of them. The cause and effect -- karma -- way of living. And my human self quite enjoyed it, experience junkie that it is.
I remember my twenty-eight year old human self standing at the altar of marriage. I could hear my soul - master self to some - say, "We do not need to go through this - again. You don't have to choose this."
The separation of voices has left but it was quite strong then...
My human stood there, stomping her foot and said, "I will have this experience. I know it will likely end in a divorce, but this is what I am choosing for myself right now."
I was that self aware and yet I chose this path of most resistance - again. But why? Why would I put myself into the proverbial crystal again? Oh yeah, to have the high of getting myself out of it -- once again.
Four years into the marriage, I knew I had to get out of this bind. I was in a horrifically limiting experience. The master self never said I told you so, but I certainly felt it's wisdom.
I called upon my gnost - the creative solution - to pull me from this experience. Oh, and what an experience it was! I created bigger and better this time. Look at me go:P
My ever patient soul, or master self, said, okay - once again. It created a path for me to find a really nice place to live, a high income that did not require a job or effort. And with some tears and grit, I created a doorway to walk through into my freedom.
It seemed so masterly at the time (and it was a path to freedom that served), yet looking back, it was just another loop in the experience and subsequent creative solution pattern to get myself out of it the experience I no longer wanted - again. Sigh.
Yet, once I was in the freedom space, instead of taking a deep breath and simply being in joy, I created more and more experiences to create my way out of.
I'm sure you can relate. Being broke, time and again, to see how, when, and if you pull yourself out of it. Getting into sticky living situations, karmic relationships, health issues...anything to feed the addiction to the experience - creative solution cycle.
In Keahak and the last Shoud, Adamus talked a lot about testing yourself - stop testing yourself and your worthiness. Well, I already had just in the last six months, linear time. But what I didn't understand, what I had not yet embodied, was WHY, WHY now do I stop diving into the pattern of experience and creative solution to free myself from the experience.
That answer, for me, is self-worth, a subtle yet with so much depth caress of self-love in the deepest parts of who I am, an exhaustion from the patterned cycle, and most of all, the ineffable experience knowing I am God, also - an experience that pales in comparison to anything my human could have dreamed up in its highly limited imagination.
Now I know why I stopped the cycle - the addiction to the local linear "Problem - creative solution format" that has been going on for eons and thousands of lifetimes.
The stop to the pattern happened naturally and without analyzation by my human self - it is only in hindsight that I can write about it - I stopped the pattern to experience creation embodied and my deepest desire for what I might describe as a sovereign peace - complete peace in the human form without needing energy from anyone or anything. Sounds so simple, and it is, but the depths of it are infinite.
Pondering it some more, living in human form beyond any suffering is the most radical creation I can fathom. To suffer is human, but if I am creating any last human experience it would be this one. This is the JOY....
As I pondered this in the tomb of awareness - the shower! - I asked my soul, my master self, my human and my I AM (what I am calling the Infinite I with one voice) what it truly desired.
There were no words, but if I had to pick them, they would be peace - not a human type of peace, but the peace that comes from pure joy - the joy of being - without being beholden to anyone or anything or any energy or any tie - also called the ahmyo life. PEACE - freedom from patterns, freedom from experience addiction. PEACE:)
And the magic in all of this is not a tool or trick and definitely not a complicated formula. The magic of being, of creation from being, is that creation flows like a cool coastal breeze on a hot summer's day across the "Infinite I" - the Infinite I being me as one without the multiplicity of parts - human, divine, I exist and so on and so on...
The creation comes in glorious waves to surf in the absolute pure pleasure of knowing I never left the wall of fire. In the divine perspective, I never became fragmented though the repeating experiences of thinking I was not one - yet they had served me so well.
The creation comes from seeing through the eyes of the divine and the eyes of the human simultaneously - the vision of the Infinite I. And, the waves are simply created from the joy of being, radiating from the Infinite I that is free of patterns, that has "recovered" from the experience addiction (another way to grasp at outside energy) and to create from the no thing.
I think about the physical action of swimming. One usually pushes off the wall of the pool or floor of the ocean to get the momentum to start swimming. In human existence, we would create experiences to get the energy flowing, to catapult us into the next experience. In creation, we no longer need the momentum, so we no longer need to collect human experiences. We simply swim in our own sovereign pool of creation.
I wouldn't be me if I did not add a human anecdote, yet I do so with a big ***** the human condition does not matter, when you have moved beyond the human condition. Not in just theory, yet in the space between the cells and radiating to the edges of your infinite consciousness.
In your terms, I have been "benching" a lot. Complete relaxation in the infinite Now, in the infinite Self.
I recently stayed at the Four Seasons - a very posh hotel - for the weekend. I had such a nice experience in self-love there, I simply felt a notion in the depths of me and in total nonchalance softer than a whisper that I should like to do more of that - in between camping expeditions, of course. My monthly income doubled the next week. There you go.
How did I do that, I wondered in hindsight. My wisdom said, "You swiped left."
Swiping left is a urban slang term for saying I am not interested. It took me some days to realize what that meant.
I swiped left on collecting yet another human experience. I swiped right for soul creation. No energy momentum or force needed. Energy serves me with out the need for movement, momentum, or force.
Now, some who might still be in the pattern of experience and creative solution, might lose that money as quickly as it came. In the space of cavernous self love, it simply multiplies. I do not need it. I did not ask my master self for it. I was not in the space of needing or wanting a creative solution to save me from an experience I no longer desired. I was completely in love with my current experience without needing the creative solution out of it.
Nor did I ask my master self for the partner in my life - a sovereign breath of fresh air. Not ever romantic or euphoric like the old karmic (cause and effect) kind, it has always been good. It has always been easy. There has never been a fight or a grab at energy. A steadily sublime experience.
I did not need him just like I did not need a massive bank account. I could have walked this planet with a backpack and few dollars and felt the same - for my depth is now found in the seemingly subtle - delicately complexly simple - rather than the harshness of the addiction to experience and digging your way out of the experience.
No highs (euphoric) and lows (devastated) -- IT IS SIMPLY JOY -- and there is no converse, or flip side of the coin, on that spectrum of awareness and in the state of BEING. Is it time to swipe left? Or continue swiping right to hook up with that next experience fix? Ah, it doesn't matter anyway. In honor of you!
Post script: After writing this post, I started to realize how this ties into the biological body for me. Am I continuing to choose another body experience of needing outside energy, of being not sick but not well either. How can I swipe left on yet another biological body experience and instead, choose creation of the body of beyond? Breathing...
Lauren! Why are you harping so much on sovereignty and excusing yourself from group dynamics?!
Well, I didn't just incarnate here for embodied enlightenment. I came here to experience creation. Without total sovereignty, true creation does not exist. And that's a good thing.
As I wrote in the article, THE COLLECTIVE CONSCIOUSNESS OF SELF, there comes a time when it is more that appropriate to tap into your own wisdom, rather than the wisdom of a collective group consciousness. No more archangel families, no more Shaumbra family, no more star families - the age of the sovereign being - the Universe of You - is upon us.
Like I shared in this VIDEO of moving beyond the Atlantean implant - thinking you need to do anything as a group or be concerned about a group - and finding yourself with your fellow sovereign beings hanging out under the BANYAN TREE, or wherever feels good to you - then and only then can you become the true CREATOR embodied.
Why? Because you do not want to create from the group wisdom. Damn, did we try, especially in Atlantis...To be a true creator, one must stand on their own sovereign ground. One must know exactly what is their wisdom, discerning with a supreme precision what is theirs and what is not theirs. Without that sovereignty, without that discernment, your creations will not be your own, and it is likely that they will not be pleasant.
You can create on your own, of course, and there is the free space under the Banyan Tree where your creation abilities will be honored as sovereign and supported by the ascended and embodied masters who gather there - not to teach anything - but to sovereignly support you in complete honor of this amazing lifetime you created for yourself.
You can also read my CONSCIOUS CREATION MANIFESTO - from the Thirty Days of Self-Love. Maybe you want to write your own and share it here as well.
Lauren (Sar'h) writes adventure novels and short stories about the embodied enlightenment experience. She fancies herself a humanizing divinity journalist and DJ, and shares that work joyously on this page.